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Last thingy, I really have to hit the nail in the morning & then execute and build momentum. I was coasting extremely well. Also the stretching is important I'll might do the only routine that worked for me, yet I was legit waking up to world news consistently etc. As nothing else woke me up, as fear can be an illusions it's sometimes better to look it straight into the face as long as it's not a phobia, yet tbh. When I can exercise more all things fall in place. Just sports make all things for me fall in place.... Depth, strength, curiosity etc. Last coffee then I am running & reporting on the strength gains of 7 months of training. Reduced it to 3 to get more flexy & strong.

Then he's also memed as a kindergarden education president. It's sorta amazing.

For me the most important issue is this, to start and then don't stop. I might have done a couple of mistakes, and I notice the value of this shadow work session, also connecting deeply to passions even if it's just video gaming etc. It's certainly better I might flunk a seminar, yet tbh. It has been such a huge issue getting work started etc. Also these dating apps severly level and limit my development, if I could go out weekly and even monthly consistenly it would not matter as much, yet to realize where I put in my energy & to honor this. It's enjoyable when I notice. Maybe this is also in a sense more honest & better I don't find that much joy in any sort of tech & science. I do it for survival and deep passion of just the art that computer science is to me etc. & the digital culture. Anyway, I might flunk the seminar... it's not that huge... yet I am slacking of when it comes to developing deep friendships. It's certainly not easy for me & the healthcare system how great it is is not good enough. I would need to wait 1 year to get to a psychotherapist that "might" help me, yet could be an issue. They smile look at me hey! It's fine I would do better with a life performance coach. I am a bit disappointed how tech sort of happens it's so dry & reminds me of like cut-throat saving professionals it's so edgy it's not very manly....

Alright still... let's do this! I think I found a deep enough and cringe vision, I don't need that much in life & honestly cannabis has been such a great fking tool, especially combining it with psychdelics. I'll put this into my vision. I also don't know what was up during that meditation retreat where I had a kriya thingy. I was certainly a bit more stupid, yet I outline this perfection as much as I can otherwise I would not honor my life, I had such deep awakenings where I noticed how great it felt to sacrifice my life for universal intelligence, I am not that great at it physically, when I get in touch with this this energy wants something completely different I would love to get more in touch with the creativity & depth of feminine intelligence so to speark energetically where this is the direction and I am not creating and instancing it as well as the vice-versa feeling etc. Also this energy & feeling keeps me so young, yet one thing I noticed is psychdelics and sports don't fking mix to well lol, my heart is hurting maybe cannabis is the only thing that's sorta okay. Certainly to create this theme is very important & even a schedule etc. Just enforcing the idea of beign a conscious creator is extremely important. To build that momentum again, took me a while to be thrown out of deep consistency is deep shit. The point is writting all of these intentions down and pursuing it step by step, also to wish for a patient and loving partner is simply better and please no more vegans ever!

The issue is, I'd like to combine psychdelics, consciouness & A.I etc. For me this is also a FOMO thing and not connecting to a friend deep enough etc. I also often experience only depth in groups, I don't enjoy the coding that much as I don't regard these humans as conscious really, the only thing that makes them more "conscious" is their work, like every other guy&girl. Let go of any self-hatred because things are not working out as they are supposed to be practice even more acceptance and also stand up for yourself if things are becoming to intenese This was also part of the desire list, deep down I wish to simply have a beautiful girl, a house and a pool in a place that has beautiful nature and I can go into the depth of psychdelics & meditation Have a beautiful girlfriend you resonate with and together build a life of profound depth & love, have a large house at a big city & enjoy deep social connections & love, adventure Is a desire I added. Turn on the Camera more often when you study & truely make this year a theme of beauty, mastery, consciouness, love & romance& intimacy as well as health!! There is a strong fear of failure that is also holding me back, I've had a strong fear of beign succesful and better than others as I sort of saw my friends piss their life away with friends... and this hurted me a lot, due to not having a fully functioning family.

I also find it tricky to be this mature adult who just lives to work, I know why I enjoy sports so much, as it really keeps me mind of all the b.s & it's generally very good for my relationships. Also the subtle beauty racism of other cultures and the subtle effort you'd have to expend is simply tricky if things to happen truely organically. I find it frankly hard to say I don't enjoy my existence, as I don't enjoy human existence, it also pains me to notice meditation is not enough, and also I find it tricky to quit all of this, to pursue my life even deeper. The point is the claims Leo is making are an issue an. It's also the same claims over and over. It's so boring to witness & Leo even dispelled that notion & still there is the issue with attainments, if you seriously would ask Leo if he has attainments you will not get an answer. This is the fundamental issue I have with him & his psychdelics as it's one of the most hypocritical stances of actualized.org, yet he can weasel his way out with guru bias. They are still massively effective, yet there are so many other issues with this. & The solution is mostly meditation it's been bothering me and I have issue quitting this etc. I also find more answers at integral. Also the issue of arrgoance, is immense. This causes me to much trouble in real life. I also would do better I feel if I would be more of a public persona etc. Also beign very intellecutal I don't know if this is my strong suit, or if I am kidding myself, yet it is what it is. My phone is still charging so yeah. Also all the new research is pointing to the power of psychdelics, yet I have an issue with pursuing depth intellectually and not beign an on the edge arrogant shit c*nt, so to speak. Yet beign edgy is fine... hm.... Leo also matured a lot, in this area. I find it so difficult to find & be a role model. I am also super self-critical, yet still there are paralells. What bothers me is simply the issue of sexual connection & depth of sexual connection based on authentic desire & not digitally polluted edgy pixel perfect A.I 64 bit edgelord graphics like.... I dunno at times. All I can say is this, when I visualize the depth I feel better ahh also from my notes.... My intentions lol! The motivation and just be a cool dangerous guy and eventual get around DMT, when you have a working students thingy How beautiful that taste of NN-DMT was, like how much you're shamed subtely on a daily basis just to look at a plant for a few minutes man.... this is also why I enjoyed the elderly they experience nature also so differently.

To some extend, I see daily what happend to this, yet I am not sharing. He helped me when things got very serious. It's still interesting, as this connects to me this PUA attitude I've met from a guy in Miami in a group. He still helped me personally though, although his personality at times is questionable. I still do like him. No use in DMing me, I won't share this. Yet, he seems to be very happy and succesful in contrast to what you find here ironically more often.

Taking the 3k run will post afterwards, definitely need the refresher in that sense to think about my life. Let's see if 7 months of strength training did something I skipped the gym maximally twice for a full week... This week and sometime I bet also. I have a serious issue with the scientism and mechanism to gain the approval of the "higher ups". Also to deconstruct this, and then still Leo's claims without any full proof imo, of having any state still the research and area of this is all to interesting, the biggest flaw I'd say these people have is they have a very weak body. & I know how to crank up sensitivity due to beign hsp. Also one other thing, I also have to charge my phone, also having more mature fun is not that easy. When a lot of it is moved, and at times I don't enjoy the low social and moral development of software-engineers it makes a true difference & often the founding fathers sort of have simply the higher development then some agents. What I don't enjoy is also the white asian bias, it pains me and I develop hatred. I also don't have that level of kink at these stages and I hoped psychdelics truely would be the game changer in that area, yet skill development with psychdelics is a huge challenge. To be honest I don't enjoy these services. I don't enjoy what humans are building, I would have been better of beign an architect for buildings and interior design and stuff like this, yet I was so bad at arts classes, coding is sort of the only thing I ever found that resonated with me. I don't enjoy the "truth" or bitter "truth" about my company even if it's one of the top companies in the world, and it craves me to sort of become more of an entertainer. I don't like these socializing asshole meritocracy squeezers, and I see also why some ppl moved from baveria to my old state etc. As this must be pretty prevalent when you abuse the idea of strenght etc. I might also be to biased, due to not beign as well acomplished & skilled & the subtle level of social b.s & stigms etc.

I hope this way I find back to proper depth some of the new episodes of Leo are freaking excellent, it's just extremely difficult if you don't have a lifestyle that enables you to meet stimulating people to appreciate stuff. I give my best to be stimulating to others, I also immensely hold back on stuff, yet I notice if I do this. I'll be happier & healthier. I could take more pride in beign consistent. Generally to write down synchronicities also like. Seeing and interacting with more women dog owners, who'd prefer it that the man takes control, I get slightly triggered when I see this due to family implants of control etc. Also getting more in touch with my 6w5 pure german nature due to the deconstructing of personality I become more human and like other ennea types stuff like this, I've been becoming more 6'ish of the good side since I did the shadow work. I'll make the briefst shadow work session now also: 3-2-1 It's bothering me that I am so inconsistent in pursing awesome themes and goals even if there is an inherent enthusiasm I am immensely triggered by meritocracy girls as the male drive feels like my own drive and back in the day this connected me to more powerful girls I am triggered by the ignorance of having it and doing it and beign it I am triggered by young people and their energy I am triggered by the felt betryal of others So shadow alright here we go again, why these journals most likely rose to their fame as nobody puts out their lunacy this honestly, yet this is the level of green cringe got you into, but propelled you towards a better integration of holism and healing, till you meet the dry yellow feelings. Bro are you making references? You know I am triggered that you don't label and classify here anything, oh and I found you another trigger be thankful you little gaslighter, wait okay chill. I am triggered because I've been interacting with a guy who seems a bit stupid and he identified with you, yet also highly intelligent people identify with you, so what do you make out of this? It's the innocence and beauty that triggers you as this shows no boundaries? Yes, that is correct this is clearly what triggers me also the anti-personal growth stance and generally speaking the issue of the breathing thingy it's to exhaustive for me, I get into weird kriya type phenomenone due to the heavy lusting, power & desire cravings that are there. Well, what do we do about this? This is not a trigger more a golden shadow of energy? You notice this, how much energy you have to work on problems like 3-4h without any interruption and breaks, besides if you're truely making progress to reward yourself so you keep going? Well.... brief shadow work session when I did not do it for 3-4 months this way, sigh... I notice the effects already. Last paragraph, what are you showing me? What are you revealing to me about my personality? You love to show up and to be seen, not even to show up you fking hate showing up, yet you love to be seen, I know you've never enjoyed the criticism, as you've most likely since birth had to face immense physical pain that others did not have to that you thought your live is literally hell, yet it's fine. There is a subtle panic in feedback and failure and the fear of failure that is a bit of deeper shadow and the pride of self-thearpy and control. You love to control things and feel in control and confidence, this is also a healthy part of self-determination in a sense, I can't recally that quickly the other things. You are also afraid of the existential depth of A.I & what happens to your surroundings when people are old & fragile they are not ready anymore of this depth they turn a bit crazy and luny. Why does this happen can you explain shadow???? They are seeking salvation bro, you now how heavy it is installed into their brain that salvation is truth due to christian culture? & How atheism and agnosticism is just another form of barbarism at times? Yet, what am I not integrating? I am doing something for them on a consciouness spectrum & they for me, it's like a very painful exchange of consistency, yet then I start hating myself with this rigidity of order & truth. Well, you certainly get triggered by this and it might be a sign you're going to fast if you still have material desires. Enjoy them! This is the sign that you're missing enjoy your materalistic live, objects exist have fun with them humans exist have fun with them etc. Beign with these things is vital! I am the one who is not enjoying his materalistic live enough I am the one who denies that my consciouness practice has an impact on others and on me again I am the one who is triggered by to much innocence and beauty, as this evokes a lot of feelings of sex and connection I am the one who acts like some salvation luncatic at times I am the one who realizes how dangerous spirituality is due to fakeness etc. & why materalistis enjoy materalism I am the one who is materalistic This is it for now. There are other ends, yet this gives me enough depth to tailor my life more like an author etc. I am also sorry what I wrote about black girls generally speaking, yet the romantic domain with materalism and domination of black physical prowess is a constant issue at times even at work. To put on the enneagram lense and do shadow work is more efficient. I also don't really have family like this, so yeah... it's mega different & reminds me a lot of sort of pain&abundance cycles. I don't enjoy the energy at times, I am way to mellow in contrast & subtle.

I again briefly listend to this & it's true, the issue of raw pleasure is immense to me. Due to injury my little jog for my pb and stuff like this, I can still do it. The point is I notice the injury directly and running on asphalte is just bad. It's such a risky endeavour as no doctor can give you any clarity, the best things that help is nutrition and the right walking technique and shoes, yet tbh today is such a good weather. I'll go for a little run. To see how my knee is. This is the best thing I can do, I also don't tolerate some jokes, as most "healthy people" are literally loosers in my eyes. As they never physicalled pushed themselves in strength & endurance. https://versusarthritis.org/news/2022/july/running-with-arthritis-tips-on-getting-started-and-ways-to-avoid-injury/ Yet, what I've been doing is apparently again... excellent, I just miss the follow through often & even with my current routine I crave going for runs etc. I miss all of this extremely healthy exellence drives. I also never hate on the skinny kid who runs and climbs moutains, yet has 0 strength. There is so much strength in endurance etc. It's immense. Also to go running 2-3 times a week will keep me more healthy and functional. Also turning my camera on while studying and stuff like this. How good and productive I feel after a run is also immense. Also this is a time where I meditate as much as possible or think about problems also. This also helps me immensely with the meritocracy drive and exellence drive. I feel also so fking confident after this & I can spot trends better within my meditation practice where depth is leading me. Hopefully, hopefully I find the level of depth where people start distracting me again, yet for now. Also cleaning my room for beauty & not clarity is so fking important some of these subtle value implants have not been the best etc.

It's interesting to contemplate passion & enthusiasm & status. Especially, not making that much money and loving tech, I at times wonder, why I loved meditation all of this stuff, as it's free. Yet, I personally faced such hard problems. It's not easy to enjoy this meditation & stuff definitely could work better. It's really good to reflect others work ethic, I've always dreamed to be sort of a multi-skilled "hans-dampf" sort of... and there are people like this, yet it's so rare.

It's best to let the intentions be manifested by universal intelligence & to get in touch with the field of universal intelligence, also only practicing currently for 30 minutes is still better I still feel burnt from doing so much "work" when I see others having so many joys & playtools. Also the point about integrity and such and human dignity & worth sort of, has been an issue sort of in more advanced areas. The point is some of Leo's comments and remarks seriously hurt and left their emotional mark, where I found more joy, I am still sure due to the heavy posting of this political stuff. A lot of high level analysis is missing, for me this is important as I become distrustful when a guy has the need to consume so much conservative media, all my alarm bells are rining also for such long periods. It's almost like some sort of warfare. There is a certain level of bitterness & hate in this type of watching and a yearning for stability that has nothing to do with right or left wing, this is very evident for me Arnold Schwarzenegger was the only true conservative I've seen where I'd say I can respect that with integrity, as he was working within gray zones still some of the man horseshit and imagery is just what it is. Gratitude Journal: I am grateful I keep listening to deepak chopra audibooks I am grateful for the more conscious and loving match instead of modern superficiality fake tits, fake ass, fake dopamine chasing, lust turned to love instead of love to lust, which is fine, yet it's a bit to much as it just shows you even in the political field social darwinism is just winning, if there would not be the left modern rationalists. I am grateful for not beign enticed to pursue political viewpoints and analysises & giving my best to integrate higher and lower dimensions I am grateful that my relationships all improved and that people seriously like me, even when I don't know at times what I am doing I am grateful for every meditation session and everyone who stops his bitching and moaning about meditative processes, because of impatience and ignorance and co-opts others process I am grateful to not interact with autistic people who seriously have a screw loose & with modern nihilists and edge boys, yet real humans with real problems searching for real solutions I am grateful my neighbour is more quiet around me This is mostly it, in the audibook deepak also talked about letting go of grievances & to let go of them, I don't fully know how expressing them certainly helps to fully let go I'd have to set the intention daily & just let it all unravel all in all, I've been not nuturing my feminine side to much, it's also an issue sort of with the decadence culture currently & seeing true holism & doing this is really really difficult. This is mostly it, I'll write down an intention list & get to meditation relatively quickly. Also why I don't like so called "sane conservatives" is when I interacted with my father and he apparently liked some republicans as a black men, I see the sort of hideous process of survival & why I don't trust them & would prefer a leftist social darwinists who just dominates politics, conservatives even the FDP and moderates can be a potential issue here are times as more modern issue. All in all it's better to stop caring much about politics it ruined a lot of relationships, evokes jealousy, anger etc. & beign informed and voting is the best you can do, I lost all of my interest to it, due to the heavy power games and I recently talked to a politican. It's fine with certain parties, yet in America I would just live my life & watch the crayzness at times. etc. I'll certainly let go of some of the grievances I have in regards to Leo & Actualized.org, as a daily intention the guy at times behaves like my father with an extreme level of inconsistency I don't respect and that left it's marks very subtle lies and sneaky promises and such, without any amends etc. My mother really was good to me, yet ChatGPT could have been there earlier. Theme-setting & reflective practices did the most, I don't find Leo for example is a very reflective person, in terms of his character & personality it's a steady chasing currently of lust&depth, when the guy was more in nature there was a more mellow maturism & subtle joy. Now it's odd, I notice this also with older men, if they forget nature a bit to much they become delusional and krank. Yes, this is krank. Listening to birds at the coffee table is already good, I certainly have to inch my way back, I could also make a list of positive qualities of Leo & treat him like I treat all people & usually overfocus on the positive qualities. As the negative can be quiet prevalent to me, due to genetics & culturally. I could make even a list of 100 qualities so fast it's crazy, I make a list of 15 to imprint it a little. Positive Qualities about Leo Unfound depth in quality of analysis Deep compassionate character Creative spirit and inspirational drive Guy who pushes himself to the limit & is not weak Does not deny his feminine-side and also shows his darker qualities Guy who works on himself & is not complacent Certainy level of fariness on how he treats and seems to treat others Gives his best to be a loyal and integrous friend, lover etc. Setups up boundaries Generally is ambitious and brings in a certain level of enthusiasm and conscious drive Spiritually inclined Not demonizing psychdelics Good music taste generally speaking that is rare of me to say! Gives his best to inspire the youth Generally very patient character and forgiving Yeah 15 qualities 100 would be a bit to much, yet this would definitely be things I see as positive in him. To list 5 negatives to have the positive 3:1 ratio. Lacks empathy at times Seems not capeable to adjust to others needs at times and seems oblivious to this Not the best listener and moans about this from others (I presume this) Arrogant at times and confused about what to do with this Sometimes tolerating trolls and negativity to much, a lot of the good qualities would be there more if he'd get rid of such negative & I mean seriously negative people like the one he recently banned with dark haired curls dude This is it. To get to this pitch-perfect thingy, a few things are missing, I know them so I will not write them down it just takes some time etc. Also to write down my intentions without ego helps me to manifest this faster even if they seem egoic etc. I completely forgot this.

What I've noticed is that theme-based living & setting is smith. I've been yearning to do instead of goals as this fits a lot with the subtle orange&blue, also being consistently at yellow and working with yellow type systems is quiet exhausting. The theme based skill development stuff & also practicing mindfulness was very important, also to adhere to mindfulness with equality can be tricky. Also the expert crunch and emotions like this I do better with process & theme types as I get very very toxic in this energy due to just knowing and following my intuition even if it is very monotone. I notice deep at a heart/gut lvl, yeah that was it this is where I belonged to. In Meditation I dissolve this crunch also and get to deeper roots & fears. Especially being black and the black community I don't enjoy it as much, I only like rap music & the pop culture stuff is imo a huge sellout & it's sometimes overharmonizef it's so bad. I also find it tricky ever since I've ever touched a consciousness state similar to ? how close the difference from & ? arrogance is, which is basically oranges class thinking and victimhood mentality. I really struggle with comparison mindset & I might not celebrate my own achievements as much, due to social media culture & the immense social pressure. I lost also the biggest hobby that took me of stress which was Ballsports... The alternatives are at times so feminine that is being offered I become very existential & nihilistic & adaptive planning etc. Might be a better solution, I just find it very difficult to embrace that I'll never can test & be at my peak. What I'll also have to dial back is masturbation society is so oversexed I can barely get my mind of sex at times. I thought how well I did goal wise when I cut back on this & huberman on porn other stuff etc. Passion is also something I've only had for video games & coding eventually. I was also mostly passionate as this gave me a closer bond to my family and life. The time when I'd say I am feeling passion again the most is either during meditation randomly, a psychedelic trip, a deep inspirational video, & when I am running & doing a variety of exercises. Especially the notion of variety creates passion& enthusiasm. Enthusiasm is often also shared success. I also have to sort of double down on excellence & process orientation I had a lot of fun with tracking etc. I am just disappointed that as an engineer I am not capable on working on the newer technology and the arrogance & subtle classim etc. That is involved in doing this and sort of the barbaric other technologies. The developmental damage sort of growing up without a father is still one of the most difficult things. I often feel I am somewhere else in terms of energy a way deeper & darker masculine place. As well as a more deeper and brighter masculine place. I keep listening to Deepak Chopra I can't find anything better that calms me down & gets me more into consciousness even when I am feeling like utter shit. The idea of being bitter bothers me also & the projections etc. Also just being introverted currently bothers me & a bunch of other stuff. I really thought back in the day I had an advantage with this , yet there are so many introverted people it shows me for me personally the issue of being black etc. As black rarely is seen as introverted etc. It's okay for now. I'll forget this & practice mindfulness & process orientation. I don't enjoy how many ppl seriously are workaholics

Was finally able to do some work, all in all what I am seeing is still not very enjoyable to me, and I sort of am not that happy anymore to enjoy the happy chasing of stuff. I saw a young guy with the new tesla model I did not even know, yet it's sort of the same thing over and over again. I am a bit confused as ther again is not clarity and I am responsible which is not good for agendas generally speaking & I am so confused with this online-dating and more and more restriction and limits that are created with A.I & automation etc. I could also be overreacting, yet it's not fun when I see how enormously all of this trash is amplified I also have an issue with failure & some mindsets etc. I don't really know what I enjoy anymore and the opportunities & stuff and marketing of some girls and women all of this americanization is so fking bad, it's stage orange status drive fully implemented. About have's & have not's. Also to be subtely glorified as this emotionless beast is also not enjoyable. I am a bit tired of average culture, I am so glad there is techno also it just get's my mind of all of the social b.s about stauts & money that is so fking heavily glorified in every other fking music genre, the same goes for family & connection. I also don't know what to do with this expert boring drive etc. I ranted for like 1h to my mother about various things and saw this mertiocraty social cricle upgrade thing now, which is much about high status, I feel so weird & I don't have a developmental psychologist who can help me properly with stuff from my childhood etc. & some also this valorant viewership is insane with going up to 600k I wonder I never meet s1, yet this is certainly one shooter I can resonate more with. It feels like a better sport not as toxic as cs:go. Anyway, I definitely almost need my meditation and 3-2-1 shadow process to much can hurt me so much, I empower myself also so much that way. etc. I am also so glad for fking trance, edm etc. music so I can forget culture etc. It also reminds me more of the computer culture back in the day where all of the possibilties today seemed fantasy. This mix is also incredibly good. Generally this music is getting better and better. This was imo missing in the lp course: How to deal with the stress of skill development ChatGPT Dealing with the stress of skill development requires a combination of effective strategies and a positive mindset. Here are some steps to help you manage stress while developing new skills: Set Realistic Goals: Start with clear and achievable goals. Break down your skill development into smaller, manageable milestones. This prevents feeling overwhelmed and helps you track your progress effectively. Manage Your Time: Create a structured schedule that allocates time for skill development without neglecting other responsibilities. Prioritize your tasks and avoid overloading yourself with too many activities at once. Practice Patience: Skill development takes time. Understand that progress might not be linear, and setbacks are a natural part of the learning process. Be patient with yourself and avoid comparing your progress to others'. Focus on the Process: Shift your focus from the end result to the process of learning itself. Enjoy the journey of acquiring new knowledge and skills rather than fixating solely on the outcome. Practice Mindfulness: Engage in mindfulness techniques, such as meditation and deep breathing exercises, to manage stress and stay present. Mindfulness can help you remain focused on your skill development and reduce anxiety. Break Tasks into Smaller Steps: Break down your skill development into smaller, manageable tasks. Completing these smaller steps will give you a sense of accomplishment and motivate you to keep going. Celebrate Progress: Acknowledge and celebrate your achievements along the way. Rewarding yourself for reaching milestones can boost your motivation and reduce stress. Seek Support: Don't hesitate to seek guidance from mentors, coaches, or experienced individuals in the field you're learning about. They can provide valuable insights, advice, and encouragement. Stay Healthy: Maintain a balanced lifestyle by getting enough sleep, eating a nutritious diet, and engaging in regular physical activity. Physical well-being significantly impacts your ability to cope with stress. Manage Perfectionism: Accept that you may not achieve perfection immediately. Striving for perfection can be counterproductive and increase stress. Focus on gradual improvement instead. Embrace Failure as Learning: Mistakes and failures are inevitable when learning new skills. Instead of being discouraged, view them as opportunities to learn and grow. Analyze what went wrong and use it to refine your approach. Take Breaks: Don't overwork yourself. Regular breaks help prevent burnout and improve your overall focus and productivity. Stay Positive: Cultivate a positive mindset by focusing on the progress you've made rather than fixating on what you haven't accomplished yet. Positive self-talk can go a long way in managing stress. Learn Stress Management Techniques: Practice stress management techniques like visualization, journaling, or engaging in hobbies you enjoy. These techniques can help you relax and refocus your mind. Remember that skill development is a journey, not a destination. By applying these strategies and maintaining a positive attitude, you can effectively manage the stress that often accompanies the learning process. What alternatives are there to goal setting to achieve your goals & results? ChatGPT While goal setting is a widely recognized approach to achieving results, there are alternative strategies that can also be effective, depending on your personal preferences and the nature of your goals. Here are some alternatives to traditional goal setting: Systems-Based Approach: Instead of focusing solely on achieving specific goals, you can develop systems or processes that guide your actions consistently. The idea is to create daily habits and routines that align with your desired outcomes. This approach shifts the focus from the end result to the actions you take each day. Habit Stacking: This involves attaching a new habit you want to develop to an existing habit. For example, if you want to read more, you could decide to read a chapter of a book after brushing your teeth every night. Habit stacking can help make the desired behavior more automatic. Mindset Shifts: Rather than setting explicit goals, you can work on changing your mindset and perspective. This might involve focusing on personal growth, resilience, or adaptability. While not focused on specific outcomes, these shifts can lead to positive changes over time. Experimentation and Exploration: Instead of setting rigid goals, you can approach your endeavors with a spirit of experimentation. Try different approaches, explore various paths, and learn from your experiences. This approach can lead to unexpected outcomes and personal growth. Theme Setting: Instead of setting specific goals, you can choose a theme or overarching intention for a certain period of time. This theme guides your actions and decisions, without the pressure of achieving specific milestones. Value-Based Living: Align your actions with your core values. This involves making choices that reflect what truly matters to you, rather than pursuing specific goals. Living according to your values can bring a sense of fulfillment and purpose. Process Orientation: Focus on the process of engaging in an activity rather than the end result. This aligns with the concept of "flow," where you immerse yourself in an activity for its own sake, leading to intrinsic rewards. Daily Intentions: Instead of setting long-term goals, you can set daily intentions. These are specific actions you want to prioritize each day, which collectively lead you toward your desired outcomes. Adaptive Planning: Embrace flexibility by continuously adjusting your approach based on feedback and changing circumstances. This approach is particularly useful in dynamic and unpredictable environments. Reflective Practice: Regularly reflect on your experiences, actions, and progress. This reflective process helps you learn from your successes and setbacks, leading to ongoing personal growth. Remember, the effectiveness of these alternatives can vary depending on your personality, the type of goal you're pursuing, and the context in which you're operating. Some individuals may find a combination of these approaches works best. It's important to choose a strategy that resonates with you and supports your personal growth and development. Even though the last part get's so much into the depth of it, I feel so fking bad for preaching his also subtely at work, yet many younger people love this more than fking goal results adolf fking 3w4 b.s man no fking love I don't know what to think and see anymore.

Pitch-Perfect Day-3: When I notice these systems I notice why I don't like it and why many young men, especially are more drawn even to video games. I wrote down this challenge physically and added some stuff, this has to get started in one-swoop otherwise this will not fully work & pan-out. The subtle scientism & stuff etc. & Human survival it's not that enjoyable & it's better to mingle with them. I am a bit confused, yet it is what it is. His leadership style it's so old school it's whack and just fosters social darwinism and power & skill notions in red&blue fashion it has nothing to do with empathy & creative work. It is all in all still fine, I simply should be wary and do my stuff & contemplate & reflect their and my behaviour. Due to the subtle types of micro-aggressions they tend to do & evoke for power reasons as well as energy moving in that direction, it's not good at all. I thought so many things qutting actualized.org etc. Even Leo would be a better leader, the issue is often peoples private life as this tells you more about their leadership than anything else. What is truely missing is a culture of empathy. Otherwise beign silent and playing to others perception of themselves & disambiguating power etc. Is the best move you can do. The issue is I am to truthful & direct etc. The point also about the 6'ish bias of Germans they will overfocus on strength, every white man in power will look at the strength of a black men no matter the color the hue of your skin besides besides if he is truely evolved. My boss imo is better, yet has less power & skill most likely. Overall I am to confrontational at times, when it comes to power & his can be good & or not. The point is proper socialization and meditation is very important. It's like I need a character overhaul every week, shadow work was so important the 3-2-1 process it got rid of so many problems. Let's hope for the best this is clearly also the better option for now. I sort of have to come to the paradoxical grip, even when I am the "slave" as they can't seem to be thinking very differently, I am the one controlling them, as they are depending on me, even when I am the pawn. I am the most valueable piece, as finding good pawns is extremely difficult etc. All in all it's better to be more political & playful with them, yet I will not tolerate abuse and subtely use power to turn things more into my favour & culture of empathy etc. Gratitude Journal: I am grateful I am not a leader who dismisses empathy, yet is willing to learn and grow from empathy more I am grateful that I say the things that nobody wants to say even if they are uncomfortable I am grateful that I don't blindly follow the rules to be & become unhappy and a slave to someones else agenda I am grateful I consume less internet self-help media & turst my gut and intuition more I am grateful that I am finding more clarity, and how difficult it is to generate that. Celebratin complacency could be a shadow work topic. As well as intrinsic motivation with skill development has become and immense issue due to dating apps, I deleted all of them, besides 1. It was tired of it etc. That is fundamentally it, what I can reflect about is how positive our teamwork is & how much positivity & depth is so often related to knowing & not experiential depth. That is the tricky things with old geezers & I can also see why, they are also enacted thought patterns, notions etc. That are almost clearly autistic & cause more damage than good. Every metaphysical notion etc. Does not really apply in the real world, if it's not experienced consistently, even with bursts and nano-bursts etc. of it. It's extremely important the biggest pain I have is that I used & surrended myself with ppl even Leo does this immensely at times, like understanding others etc. Is victim language & victimization language, I am so glad Deepak Chopra got me out of this rut. & even saying I am guilty etc is better. I will replace this term also with empathy. It's such a power hungry laden wording I also have power cravings of especially dominating others to leave them speechless for eons forever basically, yet at times without this where is the fun? Current pain is consistency, glory & doing, positive power outlets & skill development the two are so closely related. etc. Feeling unheared!! Like is also a victim mindset, I did not know & feeling misunderstood. There are a lot of subtle mistakes. Developing empathy & directness like my psychologist a lot of girls have stronger leadership skills then men, yet they are not in power. It's so odd to say this and realize this etc. Anyway, I made a couple of things that could work in the long-run. Generally the idea is still to distance myself from Actualized.org more the level of subtle damage that went with here is close to 50/50 with the benefit, I had the most benefit still from the booklist alone. Not Leo's video some of it is very obvious & I get in such odd experiencial bouts, nobody often gives me a good answer and ppl think I am lazy, overcoming some of these negative notions is very important. What I was missing in my life was somebody that shows up etc. Meditating and setting intentions is good, yet my body at times definitely would benefit more from cardio, I get more life energy.

I am also so happy about what the girl wrote to me, this reminds me all of more conscious communication and deep empathy that I did not get from my family. Deep empathy is so different than the casual I am sorry shit. Compassion & Empathy are generally very different deep empathy makes me laugh everytime. The level of depth & profundity I get from 1h of meditation in skill development etc. Is also unmatched to all other procceses. I certainly miss beign conscious & skilled and not doing it like some self-immolation. This is way better & to have a gf and a family who supports it is the crown so to speak. I simply love direct & conscious girls it's so rare to meet this. Also higher development. I am a bit tired also to subtely speaking to this orange optimization frenzy, hey make a little more shoulders, hey optmize and squeeze a little more efficiency out of this & that, yeah good work! Instead of going out and speaking to girls without alcohol, no we black pill each other into the gym mines & spend eons building muscles to get girls. Without considering health, yes maxmize fitness yeah! Orange or we coerce each other into stage purple elitism and exclusivity look how noble, posh & rich I am. Then you have the few global adventures who don't give a shit & the reason I go to events. Yet, still I am happy the girl wrote to me like this even if I did not respond it's more meaningful to me than the current b.s. There is also a huge inner child ressonance by her interests. Yeah so I am going to meditate for 1h & not care I am so glad when I can be conscious without all of the bad mouthing shitty humour, and gaslighting type notions & I can consciously be me etc. This was not tolerated well in my family this kid of notion & humour besides some level of glee. I don't enjoy it the identity jokes can be more fun & deeper etc. But, w/e I lost my type of humour that I practiced with the 30 day challenge, it involved so much identity some can't handle it. Wrote to her I'll hope for the best.

Pitch-Perfect Day2: Intention: Do a 10-15 minute meditation Desire: Abonden and completely leave this website for the rest of my life internally & utterly free there are several things I don't respect here, keep it for your own pure entertainment Pain: The fakeness and hostility I've witnessed here and there is no real way to make amends for this. Gratitude: I am grateful the girl fully matched and messaged me, I am grateful for chill co-workers, I am grateful that I am not some stage orange & blue money hungry twat who grinds & grinds and has 0 fullfilment & craves more external stimulation, I am grateful to see & hear some truely peaceful sounds around me animals and not fat fking neighour moving chairs, I am grateful I am not Leo Gura, I am grateful that I am not a right-winged mind invested moderat oriented PUA, I am grateful I am not a racsit and social darwinist, I am grateful I find more depth through gratitude. Current Archetype: Zeuss That is fundamentally it, I am still not emotionally over what some members of the website did and how racist & yes these people are in denial about their worldviews many are and also the social darwinistic character of the forum & how it's all just perfect as it is. There is nothing to change about it, yet I opt to choose for dreamers who go after their goals, not racist realists who create lies and are deceitful. I am also happy for everyone who ddoes not grind off my energy, when I am very happy & enthusiastic. I am also grateful for anyone who does not evoke gaslighitng patterns and degeneracy in terms of beign unable to initiate & be in a relationship that fosters consciouness & beign extremely wise in that. I am also grateful for seeing the sun outside and smelling sort of the chill rural energy & getting my mind of the steady subtle competition and networking machine of humans There is simply less & less an incentive to be here. There are maybe 3-5 people who I resonate with & generally speaking I prefer to build my social life, I might post this structure in my digital journal & completely leave the level of disappointment is unreal. I can'T also really see my life purpose sheet anymore. I feel better doing these thing in private I find this website to be fake and Leo Gura often enough also. I don't find I could trust this guy as a leader as well as teaching me about relationships & spirituality. There is to much missing even if he is a good guy, there is a lot of fakeness tbh. Which is missing & it's messing up my spiritual progress. It's an immense lack of integrity & I don't enjoy it to be around unhealthy people to much currently, & Idk how much his health issues play a role her, yet I wish him the best. I am out of this, I am often to much forced to be in a social darwinistic position etc. I am gone from this website & will use it for my entertainment, untill I see the clarity & not the artistry and possible con-artistry. Some stuff was revealed way to late & I see why, and it's obvious to me after tripping how much your mind can become invested, if there are just 3-5 people like this. I hope he had some good wings etc. I am gone from here. I just post for entertainment & self-entertainment, yet this will not be anything slightly serious anymore. There is so much beauty & art around me and to focus on this is way better. I could've called this journal simply beauty & art. Yet, I am so convinced when I see all threads here psychdelics don't do that much they just amplify 1000x a deeper consistent practice etc. Without this you're relying on pure luck. There are several things I absolutely hate, yet it is what it is. Currently I will stay clear of coaches who gaslight etc. & people who use gaslighting type language and imagery to motivate their righ-wing type of social darwinism & not seek out talks etc. I know at times why I don'T like introverts etc. I have to look for also better and proper feedback channels it's odd. Yet I am out I post mainly for beauty & playfulness & humour and keep the procceses to myself mostly etc. Would like to go to a place like this for a while to rejuvinate creative juices & to legit work etc..... Going to say this once... having ugly co-workers keeps me from going to work as they fking turn ugly also ..... fking asshoels these types of ppl at times, and in denial about it.

I can't believe she matched I drank 60% approx of a bottle of wine and emptied it. ? I am going to give the guy I subtley lied to some sweets, as I don't have the best relationship to German guys, yet he's better than your average video game trash ?. Maybe someone is praying for me again. Had to listen to some hood rap music (German) to remind myself, yep people are lying 99.9% of the time keep it real. Anyway, had some inclinations to be more "real", I could get fired etc. But ppl told me to chill etc. Anyway, I hope with this one I finally land. Way way way more my type from all the dates & matches I had & I know I would be super sexually affected by her as well as not toxic as this face does not remind me of any toxicity. It's odd to say, but true. I reply after some sleep....I hope I can get into skill dev. again I just am so tired of ppl subtley lying and having advantages etc. I just sort of subtley rags oh with pitch-perfect I forgot the category pain and reliving it by talking about it and getting it out. Like getting subtley lyed to & then subtley lying. Maybe this is the effect, also from being longtime friend with a guy who was socially good at lying & inventing excuses for his survival. I am not friends with him for 3-4 years "really!" anymore. My main issue is commitments & when I play games & watch stream all of this ranking & shit Talk about higher & lower and the we-feeling people derive from that & the subtle lvl of exclusivity & arrogance. From online-dating I had this a bit amplified. I dunno might reply now etc. It really depends stage orange would have deleted me by now this is so good! & Also I don't know anymore what to do with skill development & there is no shadow and therapy for guys in this area who received broken skill development & are gifted and underachieving etc. I dunno at times it's really not so easy anymore to have this purity type of lifestyle & I did this out of love mostly which I had & the love for purity & cleansing also. Well..... I can say this. I'll only listen to Deepak Chopra audiobooks from now on. Till I die, all of these Ralston audiobooks etc. I feel like a good schoolboy, that is not truly me. For me this mastery stuff is great, yet I burn when I grind like this. I still have to get to a more intuitive mastery and implement some principles like the one of state creation, I did this very often & journaled about this due to having vgp etc. Yeah still I'll sleep now I text her when I am up..

Going to be a little bit stupid, again yet I am a bit tired of the subtle lies & how to deal with it & the general honesty and boredom I meet then... The issue is then I am doing it & it stems from the b.s that I witness, especially in relationships of any sort.

Pitch-Perfect Day1: Intention: Live a perfect live an routine Synchronicity: Match has same dog as last date Gratitude: I am grateful for feeling more depth in me when I focus on true spirituality & not psychdelically enhanced spirituality, I am grateful for seeing psychdelic is bullshit as none and close to none of the users have any attainments, I am grateful that I worked a lot and had a lot of synchronicities when I meditated, I am grateful & thankful for deepak chopra and the sort of depth that I can develop through this, I am Desire: Find deeper quality girls via apps and through networking who fit my love map and also evoke a level of sexual attractions that fits, I especially enjoy petite girls with a friend personality and teasing personality so you can't really distinguish if it's your girlfriend or a normal guy friend and still have sexual and character type of attraction I had this with multiple girls. Generally write down the desire keep them focused not overfocused. I missed my meeting which is really bad I confused the times...happens I hope....again simply perfect..... That is it. This is how this will go, with meditation then.

Then I am trolling & I get the hottest possible match that would meet my level of depth & superficiality in contrast to these gamer anti-social, semi social type of power hungry ghosts. I dunno anymore & I can't believe it I screen shot all of it to document it & see where & how I attract girls that simply fit. Would not believe it at times, in Leo's episode where he talked about principles the principle of the fool always doing the opposite. Instead of beign the "black guy" who goes to the gym, I should scream free anime feet pics & I get girls??? Like wtf. I don't believe this. Maybe my counter-intutiveness is that I need to troll people at times. To show them they are normal and I am leveraging them. I forgot that turqouise clowns on purpose to show them the mirror of society, I would get into fights if I do this in real life. Do this one second with the turkish & arabic people who live here and I I would certainly need to run ?? This is me, I watched so much of this b.s Some of these are so funny, where they comeback and see the camera and get worked up about nothing.

Why do I have to be an atheltic video game nerd, that is fking useless. People legit became envyious & hateful because I seem perfect, I am going to be so pitch-perfect now you'd not believe it, I will fail at the perfect moment and see the higher intelligence of the universe at work, I will win at the perfect time and see the higher intelligence of humanity at work. ' I hated this so much people asking me for my IQ & consistently expecting results etc. & blaimg and bitching when I make a mistake etc. I dunno, I am happy I don't have this anymore. I will hang-out with the nerdiest professors who have the most weirdest female assistent & let this OnlyFans girl I found who is realer than my online-dates send me feet pics in a cosplay costume, I dunno I am joking a bit, yet I will buy her OnlyFans legitametly, I am tired of supporting also porn & I don't enjoy the quality and intimacy of it, when I consider that I can find every freaking studio for free almost and high quality "conscious porn". Whatever that maybe. Anyway, I dunno anymore I fking hate cs majors most of them, some of these stereotypes are so real. The girl I had sex with made fun of me a little bit in a teasing and good way, but fuck it's incredible to see 1w9 and get perfection in that sense, but yeah who comprehends this? It's incredible to see the same types of people and biases over and over, I dunno what to date anymore, maybe I legit have more luck with. It's incredibly difficult to find a girl that likes this nerdy stuff & has character & if she even has OnlyFans at this point I am going to buy it. It's better than the rest and the so called "depth" that I am seeing as it's just mind. Anyway. This was my tiny rant.

Imagine my friends are so cheap and lame at times, yes I am hating. I would hate them for fun also, you could watch the gameawards life now NOW!!! imagine.... asking anime girls for feet pics and not getting reported to the police. It legit would be an opener. I dunno why people are such survival oriented lame asses at times I fking hate it. How much energy it takes to find friends for events etc. Play every game without a line etc. I dunno why they do this. I might create Bumble friends groups for techno etc. I don't fking know anymore. Talking to developers making connections but no we have to go to consumer electronic ?, I hate it frankly at times. Moderation & Skepticism I fking hate it at times.

Going to stay up the night and work on projects the whole time, I slept yesterday or so for more than 10-15h or so, I don't like the subtle type of racism & sexism in games I spot this in an instance, like peasent from a villages who don't like black girls & women and such, and it seriously affects others and I see this in PUA circles so fking heavily especially from eastern people the type of judgement and realness of reality how such a strong reality can even get you laid etc. is in my eyes insane. I notice this and I feel this I had to learn with such people and ironically these shits are the most attracted to black girls & women and even men. Those who deny it so hard and say they are not attracted etc. You feel it. Huge shadow in these people etc. It's insane. Allright, let's also make some money in that sense by working all night, currently I can't stomach the level of hypocracy, the girls who like & match me 90% of them are great fits. Yet, somehow it's not working out as we don't get to chat. That is fundamentally it for now.

Feeling a little bit better about myself.