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@Visitor But if the ideal self is what motivates us to change, how do we change once we abandon the ideal self? Do we accept ourselves fully, and then change comes naturally? For example, I have been struggling with bad habits for a long time, and I have been trying to accept them as they are, and accept myself as I am, yet I am still doing the same old things over and over. What gives?

It seems to me that people are afraid to be as they are so they create these attitudes. Just be, man. That's all you need.

I am a go sleep on it. Peace mothefucka, I am out.

I am just exhausted from this backfiring shit. I feel defeated, and angry that I am so reluctant to change. I don’t know why in particular I feel this way today. It must be because of the exam I just had. Not only did I not study for it, but there was one incident that really pisses me off to my core. On the exam, I had a question about blood types. I have seen this question a million times, just never cared to find out the answer. I am at a point where I quarter-ass things (I am way beyond half-assing at this point). Pretty soon, I’ll be 1/8th-assing things. Why am I so pathetic? With every successive period comes a period of defeatism and anger at myself. I always thought that if I accept my string of bad habits and negative behavior, that some miraculous force will make it go away eventually. Well, you know what, I am fucking tired of waiting for God to help me on my path. Here is something for y’all to remember: fuck this acceptance shit. If you want to change your bullshit behavior, you have to force it upon yourself by exercising your willpower to greater and greater heights. Quitting cold turkey is the only way to make that change happen sooner rather than later, otherwise waiting for me to accept it will take decades, or may never even happen.

@Arkandeus So you're saying that I am not wasting my time on TV, porn, internet, food, sleep, video games....etc......This is all part of the path?

@Arkandeus But I've been accepting myself for so long, it just seems to go up and then down then up then down........it never ends.......I want to break the cycle for good.......why is it so long and hard?

If you have, please share your experience, as well as how it impacted your spirituality and daily life. Thank you.

In my experience, a conscious person is much more at ease when dating and socializing than everyone else because for him/her life is play, not work.

2 songs worlds apart. One is a modern country song. The other is a theme song to a popular Soviet film. Yet both convey sadness and frailty well.

I am sure many of you're aware that: 71 percent of the population own 3 percent of global wealth (3 billion people) 21 percent of the population own 12.5 percent of global wealth (1 billion people) 7.4 percent of the population own 39.4 percent of global wealth (349 million people) 0.7 percent of the population own 45.2 percent of global wealth (34 million people) *The reason the numbers don't add up to 7 billion (our current global population) is because this, of course, doesn't include children. According to the source below, the wealth inequality is at an all time high. Maybe someone can give me a good explanation as to where this is going? http://www.globalresearch.ca/top-1-percent-own-more-than-half-of-worlds-wealth/5482126

Leo had a great definition of evil. He said it was a lack of self-reflection. And in my own understanding, it is the unwillingness of stepping out of your beliefs, intentions, actions, etc... That was a great definition because it was simple, it held a lot of meaning, it was powerful. I would like you to place your definition of self-consiousness. Here is mine: ego's awareness.

It can be something silly like a walk in the street, and I hear a group of people go by and laugh. Or a large crowd, and I am hearing a multitude of whispers, conversations, and murmurs, and I start to think that they are talking about me. Why do I feel this way? Thank you.

Well, my doctors always tell me I am as healthy as they get. And it happens sometimes, not all the time. I think I am just self-consious. I have had this problem for a long time, but in the last 2 years, it has improved.

Open-Mindedness - 47 You typically don't seek out new experiences. Conscientiousness - 80 You are very well-organized, and can be relied upon. Extraversion - 53 You are neither particularly social or reserved. Agreeableness - 55 You are neither extremely forgiving nor irritable. Negative Emotionality - 25 You are generally relaxed.

Ok, here it goes, my 90 days no sugar diet!!! I am specifically talking about no simple sugars such as the ones found in a lot of processed foods, chocolates, ice cream, baked goods, waffles, etc... I am relatively healthy person all though I have noticed I am gaining weight (probably because my metabolism is slower now that I am getting older, hence, it can't keep up with my sugar addiction). I weight 90 kg, but I am slim. Most of it is muscle. I exercise regularly. However, my problem areas are my belly and my ass. And I just want to feel better in general. Since starting meditation, I have been able to get a handle on (in order of addiction strength): 5. Coffee 4. Alcohol 3. Cigarettes 2. Video Games 1. Porn Now come the hardest things to rodeo. My addiction to sweets. And my addiction to entertainment (anime and movies). I am going to start with sweets. I still have my fructose dose in the morning (fruit shake), so what I am really interested in is beating out refined sugars out of my system. Will keep you updated if you're interested to follow. Thanks guys <3

Speaking of U2, this song gets me every time.........it's sad yet beautiful

Yes I was craving one so bad yesterday but I was able to control myself and go to sleep instead Today I want poutine

Man I would die for a gyro right now. It's sooooooooo good. With some special Greek sauce that I can only describe tastes like ketchup and mayo and chili sauce together

@egoeimai If you're into savoury, you should try sweet potato fries with ranch dipping, honey and garlic chicken wings, and crispy Chow Mein noodles. Best to have it all in one session and down it with a cold of Canadian finest. Probably will have this for my last meal..........ooooooo with some red velvet cake

@egoeimai Hi Ego, Things are going okay. I think I have been off sugar for about a week and a half. I lost 2 kg. I do more outside things. I find watching TV is not fun anymore, thus I spend more time on other things. My belly doesn't feel bloated nor do I feel like I need to stuff myself with food in order to feel happy. Yesterday, I felt such an urge to have a sweet, so I ate a Mars bar. Right away, I didn't enjoy it as much as I had thought I would in my head. I felt pretty nauseous almost immediately, and funnily enough, I had diarrhea. Another thing I noticed I am very angry all the time right now. I am very sassy and sarcastic. It reminds me when I quit cigarettes and alcohol. Sugar really is an epidemic on its own. I urge you to read the article below to get inspired. It's all worth it!!! http://www.dailymail.co.uk/femail/article-2658488/The-hell-giving-sugar-worth-agony-end-Were-endlessly-told-sugar-new-nicotine-Now-witty-revealing-new-memoir-describes-hard-quit.html

Thank you for inquiring. I didn't do it. I had a phase where I wanted to try weed and dmt because I thought I needed them to get some higher state, but that's a lie. I just kept meditating and what I found out was that I was clinging to experiencing higher states. But in reality, they come and go. Some meditations are the most liberating, others are stagnant (or so they seem). It's all the same.

Do the things I remember from my life tell something about who I am? And if they do, why, then, I don't remember other things that were just as significant? Thanks

This is very interesting, I would like to check it out. I'll update you when I have more insight. Thank you

Lol but it's true! I hate diarrhea the most. What are you eating? DON'T BINGE!!!! FOR THE LOVE OF GOD, DON'T BINGE!!!

It's not too bad. I've been having bloating, diarrhea, and nausea, but overall, I think I can handle the no sugar thing. How's it going with you?