Darrick

Hello World! My name is Darrick, i'm 27 of Northern California! I've been creating music for 8+ years now! (Rock, hip hop, underground rap, heavy metal) My first name in the hip hop world was "D-Man". TERRIBLE name Hehe. After being made fun of and not taken seriously at all i decided to amp up the aggression, make better beats, write better lyrics and change my name to Demise! Why Demise? I want a name that is POWERFUL and goes well with my music which is dark, sometimes ominous, aggressive and the lyrical content is very REAL. (I don't make songs about money, girls, cars, etc...) The songs i write are about life, hard times, lost loved ones, struggle, addiction & much more. So after talking to my cousin who makes hip hop too, he said "When i go up on stage i put on a character. You know?" BUT, in my mind i think it's more of an ego instead. When I go up to perform I become MORE humble and let everyone know life is too short, and let's do what we love NOW!! Sort of like an inspirational speaker SO... could this be my "ego" or just the artist in me?!?! Plus, at my previous job almost ALL of my co workers just called me Demise instead of my real name. I've been addressed as "Demise" way more than Darrick in the last few years!! Thanks for reading!!!

@Elena "LSD was an incredible experience. Not that I'm recommending it for anybody else; but for me it kind of – it hammered home to me that reality was not a fixed thing. That the reality that we saw about us every day was one reality, and a valid one – but that there were others, different perspectives where different things have meaning that were just as valid. That had a profound effect on me." - Alan Moore Wow, thank you for sharing Moore's story with me. I will read some more about him tonight!

@Loreena Thank you! You are definitely right about getting enough sleep when i can! My baby is going to keep me up a lot! I will become wiser, set better goals and work on them fast (when i find/make the time) Thanks again for the kind and very helpful words, means so much to me!! Baby pictures coming soon!

@aurum Hahaha! Well, it's all a part of this learning experience!! I'm ready!!!

@aurum WOW!!! That's was brilliant! I want to thank you sooo much for the wise words. You have a great & positive way of looking at this particular situation. I am definitely aiming for and will continue to be a role model for my son! Though it is not east, i know i have what it takes. You said "But in the self-actualization journey, we tend to get the challenges we NEED rather than the ones the ego wants" .. i totally agree!! Never would've thought about it like that if you didn't mention it! Thank you again, this lil' Chicken Nugget will FUEL ME and motivate me to take action on all of my ambitions!

@clytaemnestra Thank you so much for the kind words!! I will continue to work on myself (not neglecting my baby or gf)!!

"Just when i found out what i TRULY want to do with my life, i am expecting my baby boy!! I am a song composer (rock, hip hop, epic motivational soundtracks) and cook/chef (LOVE cooking and creating recipes). I do NOT want to give these up.. is there some way i can do all of this while raising my baby boy?!?!" Hello world, my name is Darrick, 27 of Northern California! I've been cooking, creating, composing music, staying active in my local music scene, selling albums, working a few restaurant jobs all while investing in myself to benefit my future! Recently purchased a nice $700 camera to better my YouTube videos. A microphone for better audio! Been watching @Leo Gura's videos routinely!! His videos are amazing and definitely help on the journey to self actualization!! (I think that's why we are all here) Being single for almost 5 years i really had time to "find myself". I made music whenever i wanted to. Had the chance to go out and meet sooo many different people. Had various sexual partners. Tried a bunch of different jobs. Moved to a few different cities in California. Put out my 1st official album! Then it happened! About a year ago working at my restaurant (which i recently left) i met a beautiful young gal! Took some time & talking but we dated and made it official! We've been together 8 months. The real kicker of this story/forum is.. she is now 7months pregnant. As happy as i am to know we're both fertile and i am 27 years of age, it still makes me pretty fuckin' anxious, nervous, excited, worried, etc.. So many emotions for the both of us. It happened so quick but I AM READY... Just when i found out what i TRULY want to do with my life, i am expecting my baby boy!! I am a song composer (rock, hip hop, epic motivational soundtracks) and cook/chef (LOVE cooking and creating recipes). I do NOT want to give these up.. is there some way i can do all of this while raising my baby boy?!?! Thank you all sooo much for reading! Stay focused while on this journey to Self Actualization!!

@Nahm Haha! Cliff hanger Still working on my brilliant idea, don't wanna explain it just yet!!

@Steph1988 Thank you!! I have so much more time for music & cooking for fun (plus creating my own unique recipes !!!) Been cracking down on the hip-hop and self improvement stuff at the moment, rock music coming VERY soon!! My email is dthescrooge@gmail.com if you want me to send some demos your way!!

WOW! This really opened up my mind and i want to say thank you I never thought about it like that but it does make sense. Cooking (at home for family & friends) relaxes me! So does music! So that's another avenue in which i can/and have pursued to make an impact on people! It is a never ending learning experience with new thoughts & ideas to come! Bold and risky is good, as long as it's organized with a definite goal in the end! What is crazy is that before i read your response i came up with a BRILLIANT and huge idea that combines 2 passions of mine. I've written down a few blue prints and will continue to craft this new idea and set a few goals! (It does NOT involve food at all) Hehehehe

@BabyBat Yes that is very true, when a song creates an emotional response in a person it MAY very well have a deeper spiritual element!! I sure hope so! Thank you for reading btw! I DO have some music for you to hear, some of the songs i was mentioning here! My email address is dthescrooge@gmail.com Send me an email & i can give you some links to my music!!

My name is Darrick, 27, from the Silicon Valley. I play multiple instruments and can construct a complete song in an hour! (Lyrics, drums, guitar, bass, piano, etc.) I don't just create any ordinary generic song. Basically, i start from scratch, usually playing in "minor" (sad sounding) notes. Starting with guitar i make a BRAND NEW riff and continue on till i have that complete. Then on to the drums, then piano & so on. Almost effortlessly and without "thinking" and just going with the flow i create a very nice (and somber sounding) song!! (Ambient dark rock stuff) It is as if my body and mind go on auto pilot and the song kind of creates itself. (if that makes any sense ) Now after completing and recording a few of these songs i showed my auntie. She's had her fair share of psychedelic experiences in the past!! While we were listening to my new songs in her car she gazed up the toward the ceiling and was almost in tears. She explained how the music i create is an energy or outer source that is channeling itself (possibly from another dimension or wherever) through MY body and through the instrument to the recording/song itself. And that it's a positive or negative energy that CAN move people & touch their emotions. I was fucking amazed!! Now i thought she was just trippin' and over thinking. But now, 4 to 5 years later it seems to make a little more sense, what she was explaining!! Wow, some deep stuff!! Or maybe not. Perhaps i'm just a musician who has the talent and drive to create brand new songs from nothing in an hour!! Thanks for reading

@Neo Nice!! Very good response! But this brings me to one of Leo's recent videos which he explains that WE DO NOT have free will. And every decision or choice is NOT ours, but is part of a bigger picture and that thoughts & ideas come from "no where". Tricky stuff. It sounds sooo confusing and really got me thinking.. which is good!! When Leo said that we DO NOT have free will, it turned my whole perception up-side fucking down

@Old Soul Hahaha! That's a cool way to look at it! Thanks for the feedback

About a year ago i was watching one Joe Rogan's podcasts/videos and came across a very interesting conversation between him & a friend. His friend brought up an idea that he had heard from another source stating something along the lines of... "What if our lives are already predetermined? Either by a higher entity or some other unknown force(or no force at all). And no matter how hard we try, how hard we work at developing the self & keep pushing towards being what we truly want to be, things will go the way they are pre-determined. Like someone who wants to be a famous actor. In their mind they keep trying and trying, working at it & giving it their all everyday BUT are already predetermined NOT to become famous and will forever be stuck trying. And those who have made it to fame and or whatever were predestined to be. " Although i came across this conversation a year or so ago, it has always stuck with me. And if it IS true, that is a scary and very sad truth. Either WE as humans and conscious being HAVE THE ABILITY to CREATE our own reality... or the UNIVERSE or WHOEVER the F@$! has it all mapped out for us already. Thanks for reading!!!