Nexeternity

Hey family! Brothers and sisters Hehe I am fresh out of the ceremony. This was the most beautiful and powerful ceremony I have ever done. It was incredibly practical… going to the core of lack of self love and love for others. Lack of appreciation for life and our disconnection to love in general. The medicine opens you up incredibly. You hear people tell their stories and cry their pain and you just can't help sobbing along with them. At the same time without denying our sadness and anger that we have we try to remember to try and learn that we can grow ourselves by enjoying and laughing and being loving instead of suffering. It was all so concrete. Are you treating yourself lovingly? Are you treating others lovingly? Are you valuing yourself and others and life? There was lots of inner child work done, you would look into the fire and talk to your inner kid, tell him that he is okay, that he has a great wisdom in being loving and playful and that it's going to be okay, that he is safe now and he has done a great job for you in your life. We even talked about how not everything should be done “in the name of love” because that can lead to toxic relationships with your kids for example when you just sacrifice yourself constantly in the name of being loving but are really treating yourself badly. One thing that got me thinking was about masculine compassion. I can see the value in putting limits and setting clear boundaries… but the harsh language from this place serves no purpose. We can send a clear, strong message without being harsh and mean… and I think it would be more healing. Anyways… I love you guys. And you guys are a great people trying to make the world a more loving place. We really need to treat ourselves and each other better. Have an amazing week.

Watching the video of Radical Implications of Oneness reminded me of this... I had two experiences of totally unity with another before. I was so in love once that one time I went swimming and it felt like I was literally using her body. It was still my body I was using but there was no separation between mine and hers. It wasn't just a love feeling, or some abstract thought, it was something else, a literal perception of unity. The other one happened to me also with my first conversation after a 10 day vipassana retreat. I was talking to someone and I felt it was me talking to me. It's not just that I identified with my visual image, it was that the “beingness” of both of us seemed to merge into one. It was trippy. Sometimes if there's a group of people doing contact improvisation and its silent, and the ambience is meditative, I can kind of “push” myself out into my surrounding and feel like I am everyone moving.

I have been able to get a feel for following the Truth lately. Its weird but just little decisions of movement, of thoughts, of stuff I do and say and what other people do or say. I can kind of trace the connection of the things to the Truth, how it deepens or weakens depending on how true it is. cant really express this well but i had to try.

@Barna Hey... that means alot! Thank you for sharing that.

So I saw Leos blog post about skepticism and... well I started doing it. It got me going after even the words being and consciousness... Like,,, if I am nothing... am I even Being? Like if I dont say I am being, if i dont label or categorize anything as Being, is it Being, is there Being? And with consciousness... if there is no one conscious, and I really cant find the one being consciouss... and the objects of conscioussness are no things... just labels, and illusory boundaries I make up, and well you guys know... And then even the words Nothing, No-thing, Absolute, Infinity... all those things I doubt and deconstruct... I enter this deep silence that has been hard to attain without this practice. Like a Void that destroys everything but creates more anew continously. Anyways I felt like sharing... Happy weekend everyone

I ran into an amazing Temazcal ceremony run by some really great people. You had to stay in a pitch black hut as water and different medicines were poured on hot rocks. It got extremely hot, you could feel your face burning and the hot air that was breathed in burned too. You would have to watch as your mind put up resistance and then work to let it go and keep grounding yourself in your body and in the singing. It felt really purifying and healing. They have a 4 day vision quest where you dont eat or drink water for 4 days, they do it Easter long weekend so I am definately going to do it! It was really nice meeting people like me, one guy even knew about Leos videos! Everyone either had done ayahuasca, bufo, vipassana etc... With all the talk of spirits I was a bit wondering where the non duality was but to my great surprise at the end we all said to each other "I am you" and "You are me" And we also said "I am you" to the sun, the earth, and to The Great Mystery. It was awesome!!!!! Have a great week everyone

@Mondsee Yes, thats exactly how my ceremony was like, the authentic version, and yes thats pretty much the info I got about the Vision Quest as well. Glad to hear info about this to confirm what they told me. Glad I found this group!! Chance luck I guess, or syncronicity depending on how you look at it

@Leo Gura Yep its north american! They brought it down here. Shamanism has gone cosmopolitan

Buenos Aires I know... I am far away

Love, love, love. Once you connect enough with love you will do all those things you think you need discipline for automatically. To me discipline is a dirty word since it implies I am forcing myself to do something I dont naturally want to do and that creates resistance and friction. Right now I am in a place where I want to read, I want to meditate, I want to work on my life purpose. After a while you start seeing how the stuff thats not good for you hurts you and you will naturally drop it or reduce it. Trust your lack of inspiration. Maybe you need to spend some time taking it easy and reading or exploring more things in life until you finally hit up on the project which you wont need ANY outside motivation to get you working on it. Here are some links to videos that can help. https://www.youtube.com/user/JulieMuse

I am getting amazing results from practicing tecnique an pieces imagining like i am playing for my little niece. The love I feel makes the music more expressive and relaxes my body and mind for the playing

Hey guys! Well its sort of a ritual for me to write one of these up after I trip, so here I go I have been feeling good lately... didnt really feel a need to do the ceremony, but I wanted to because I love the tripping and the healing/growth that comes with it. Everything went really smooth... I kind of felt like I sort of remembered what it was like and I didnt get too scared. I cried alot! Sobbed my ass off. Not really sure why, but it felt really good. Felt so much love. I could really tap into the infinity of my perceptions... could really connect with the no thing ground that I am. Its been really helping me lately to feel my feet and legs and center and the force of gravity. Its like from that place I can trace back my consciousness into the no thingness much easier than if I try to do it from my upper body since I usually think I am located in my chest or behind the eyes somewhere. Really inspired to keep singing, playing, and enjoying life. Love this forum and everyone who contributes to it, thank you all!

Focus on life purpose. If you are doing what you love, being creative, enjoying your job then that should be the reward that you are looking for, not the money. Sometimes the solution to your problem is actually having the failure, feeling really bad about it, and then realizing that its okay, that you can still be happy without all the external success.

Inspired by zen poetry I like life. A cold beer washed down by water. The breath of musky air. Hard lessons learned. Old threats resolved Peace, yes. Paid I its price. I thought it hard to write. But simple words give birth too. Easy was seen to hold my scenes. With only a smile to love. Its enough. Plenty enough.

Does anyone know? I heard about it from Leo and read about it from Peter Ralston. Supposedly you can somehow realize how you are creating the pain and choose to stop doing it. Like turning off the mechanism that creates it. Does anyone have any insights about this? I had this blister on my foot for a week and the most I could do is try to sink my awareness into the pain to see what would happen. Im not sure it did anything though. The one thing Ive noticed as I grow older is that I actually enjoy pain somewhat. Like the sharp feeling of getting burned, or stubbing my toe... The strong sensations feel so alive. Sounds kind of masochistic but its not that. Would be nice to turn it off on command though

@Feel Good I think the same!!

Puking is one of my favorite parts of ayahuasca hehe

@Sick Boy That sounds awesome!

Contact improvisation, a dance where there is no right or wrong, and nothing particular to achieve.

Unhealthy Green

@aurum Hey! Yea definately! But its more like, how good it feels to be authentic and congruent regardless of if it will "get" me girls. Like even though it sucked not getting laid, I told myself I was not going to lie or manipulate my behavior to "have a better chance" or whatever. But its really nice to know you can still meet girls once you give that up heh, I was doubting it for a bit! When I broke the dry spell it was with a girl that I even flat out told, "I havent had sex in a year. I feel like such a loser when it comes to girls" lol and we both laughed. When you meet the right people they wont judge you for being honest and vulnerable with them. @brovakhiin lol no way, these hippies are not orange or blue!!! They dont care about "results" or "achievements" or "efficiency" or "status" or stuff like that. At least not in any very pronounced way. And they are not very moralistic, you can tell they try not to judge or moralize you, its really clear in the way they act... so yea cant really be blue. These people dont care about alpha/beta distinctions. I dont think they are looking at the world in terms of power and stuff like that. Really, its hard to believe... I wouldnt have believed it myself a few years ago. I guess you can call me alpha in the sense that I do care about others opinions and feelings and I dont care that others might think I am beta because of it. But yea, ofcourse it can suck when people treat you badly or think badly of you and you are too sensitive but hey, its part of the growth process I feel.

@SFRL Hey there! lol the kicking a kitty was just a ridiculous example I used to point out how things can turn you off about someone even if they are attractive. Sorry if it sounded like I have a chip on my shoulder for the green stuff... its just that when you come from unhealthy orange doing pickup and finally can forget about it and "be yourself" and it works its just very exciting. You are right about the great people in all stages .@Timothy Yea I did a lot of work on that the past few years. Um... I dont know if I would call myself particularly confident, but just not unconfident. I am pretty open and honest, loving and friendly... not perfect ofcourse lol, but its growing for sure as time goes by. The list you made sounds like it can be helped just working on yourself. Taking care of your body, life purpose, enlightenement, making friends... stuff like that heh. @Truth Nice analysis! Reinforcement is huge.

@Icarus Hey! Yes from experience! I am getting laid again finally being myself lol. YES the fundamentals of sexual attraction do change!!!!! First of all sexual attraction is heavily conceptually based... not sure if you read the Genius of Being by Peter Ralston, he talks about that. Before like in the 1700, chubby girls were hot because they were rich and could afford to gain weight, it was fashionable and hot to be chubby. In Japan girls get their teeth changed to being crooked because its in style, its what is hot right now. http://www.dailymail.co.uk/femail/article-2271585/Japanese-women-paying-hundreds-pounds-crooked-fang-like-teeth-latest-cosmetic-craze.html If you hang out with green people, you will see that an attractive model looking orange guy with "status" has no chance with those girls. And yes, green guys will turn down and be turned off by superficial orange girls no matter how hot they are. Ofcourse at first glance I would pick the second girl. But if I catch the second girl kicking a puppy and I see that the first girl is really cool, loving person I would rather get to know that first girl, and who knows, maybe we could have chemistry and I could look past her not being the prettiest girl by my indoctrinated standards of beauty I have been imprinted with since childhood. Transitioning to green is more "real" than being in orange. You are more in your heart, in your body, outside of the standard worldviews and judgements that are so commonplace. Again, its not bad to be orange. Its just... well ... superficial and lacking in deep fulfilment.

@SFRL Yes exactly! You have to let go of pickup altogether. Yes without pickup you can still meet people that will like you for you and you will like them for them and yes, sex will happen. But its not the point anymore. If orange uses green as a strategy it will be seen through anyways, its impossible to fake things that well, the egoism will shine through

@SFRL Hey! Yes I was talking here about moving from unhealthy orange to healthy green is all. But healthy blue and orange people would also benefit from moving to green, like for example for the better sex. Sure blue or orange can have healthy, loving sex, but green can introduce elements like the sacredness of sex, or tantric practices. Makes for another avenue to bond further with your partner. Not saying tantra is the end all be all or anything, just saying that blue and orange might not be open to trying it out. @Icarus When you become green and start hanging out with green people you will see that looks and genetics dont play much of a role. Whats important is what you bring to the table beyond that. You will see some "ugly" musicians with beautiful girls or a wheelchair bound spiritual guy with a hottie. At that level though, nobody is ugly, you see that everyone is innocent and beautiful on the inside and you just happen to be sexually attracted to some people and not to others.