Nexeternity

Did another one! 14 points Love it, truly cleaning, purifying and life aligning medicine. Ive been doing rape daily too, its an amazing medicine to aide in meditation, to clean you, open you, and free you of thoughts. @Aldo It depends on the person. For me its one of my paths and I see the positive effects build up over time.

Oh one more thing I wanted to share. Ive been reowning alot of my positive shadow. I usually tended to overly admire and adulate others and now I realize its my own positive qualities I was projecting onto them... really crazy mecanism. It feels way more authentic and chill to not put people on pedestals like I did before.

Hey there! Heh havent posted in forever. Life has been really good. I ended up leaving my regular pointless job and now I teach english for a living which is really nice. Only a few hours a day and its been very fun. The new books on the booklist have been amazing. Thanks Leo. I am still doing Ayahuasca and Kambo which have been really helping me learn and purge fears and be more loving. Dancing contact improv has been amazing to develop body awareness. Zen Body Being by Ralston has been of great help too. Still writing poetry which is nice. Still wonder what else I can really do to make a bigger impact...

That is an amazing book! I also highly reccomend it.

@outlandish Nope, Sananga is made out of a root. Thanks @phoenix666 Thanks!!

@now is forever Tecnically no one is a vegan though, we all end up killing animals even if our diet is plant based. Also the frogs arent killed when the poison is extracted. The little marks you get from Kambo arent bad and they heal well. Very small superficial scars.

@noselfnofun This is in Buenos Aires Argentina, but they do it all over the world. Just got to search for it on Google. The cool thing is that its not ilegal. @Recursoinominado Less overall fear/anxiety in general. I feel my body is cleaner and it naturally wants to eat healthier without having to force it to. Easier to meditate, more energy, less tiredness, more clarity, just a powerhouse all around purification this medicine is!

Hey guys, wanted to bump this one with an update. I did my fifth Kambo. 10 points. It went really smooth. I was able to meditate through it. I didnt drink water desperately nor try to throw up desperately. I stayed calm, listening to my body. I made an intention to purify my body, emotions, mind and spirit. I thanked the frog and the facilitator. I cycled between doing these two things and staying in silence. It was a kind compassionate session. They say sometmes the frog can be rough but other times it is softer and kinder. This was the latter. Fasting for 24 hours before the ceremony helps. I feel like I have been living more in truth lately and being less of a devil and I really think when you do shamanic ceremonies you get a reflection of how you have been doing lately. ( Hope this motivates someone to investigate and maybe even try this. Its really worth it, your bodies (physical, emotional, mental) get a thorough cleanse.

Locking this thread. Please guys don't make controversy for the sake of controversy. Making a click baity title with no content is not cool.

I have been really connecting with the ways I am a devil, and its so beautiful to be able to see that, let go of it, and be more loving, happy and authentic!

@ExodiaGearCEO Start doing stuff you find interesting on your time off! Do things that make you have lots of fun and that you can meet people doing them. Any activity that your into will do, or just try things out until you find stuff you like doing!

I love this guy. His instagram has some great wisdom on it. https://www.instagram.com/bentinhomassaro/

Would you be open to working on this more indirectly? Like how about getting into a hobby that gets you meeting people like taking dance classes or getting into drama and learning acting or theatre. Maybe learning an instrument or singing and getting together with others to make music. Start doing social activities you are actually into that get you running into other people and you practice chatting about that activity. Anything social really gets you practicing. Start getting a life purpose down and serving others with it, youll be happy about doing something your passionate about, you will be helping others, and you will meet people! For me its been a journey of working on everything else in my life so I feel good and confident about myself and then just trying to be honest and direct with people you are attracted to without being over bearing or needy. Just being fun, friendly, and happy about life will get you laid eventually if you are running into new people on a regular basis.

@Lynnel A comforting perspective is that maybe your soul has already gone through those lifetimes, has already learned the hard lessons of suffering and now it gets to choose to live a happier life.

@Seed I agree. I just saw her last video and she is super authentic and cute in her communication with her student. I bought a few of her books and they were really cool. I say let her make products and sell stuff in peace heh. She is pretty funny sometimes too... yea good vibes overall. More cool perspectives to take in and learn from.

@Salvijus I really liked your reply, I feel the same way, there is something about the truth that can almost be smelled, you can tell when something is a bit off.

I quit my job! I started giving conversational clases of english and spanish to people here in Buenos Aires and its been great... getting paid to have a chat I am also making good money playing the violin on the street, subways, trains... really fun! Life is accelerating! Excited about making a poetry book, and two other side projects, learning the harp and learning popping (hip hop). Its crazy when you realize you can do everything you want!

@hikmatshiraliyev No need to let it go. Definately contact her and ask to meet up. That is what you want. Be direct. If she doesnt want to then you let it go, not really because you let it go, but because it has let go of you hehe. It forces your hand.

@hikmatshiraliyev If you want to meet up, tell her you want to meet up. If she doesnt want to then you have to move on. Really you have to get to a point where you are so happy with life that you dont care too much about getting with any particular girl, and you are just meeting people and sharing time and positive energy with each other until you feel something clicks with some girl in particular and both of you decide to take it further together. Be direct and be honest, be vulnerable. No games. Remember that you are essentially an abundant being and you will get what you want eventually in its own good time. Have fun on your journey, let go of those worries

@Jack Walter Leon I think it depends on who and what you are referring to. Like if you can identify yourself with the formless intelligence that is running everything, including your heart beats and all that then yes, there is 100% free will, you are just not conscious of it at this normal level of consciousness. Now if you refer to your limited human self, then you have free will to interpret situations as you wish, to choose thoughts... maybe not all the time, tons of automatic interpretations and thoughts happen, but you can stop yourself whenever you remember and choose to silence your mind, to pick a new thought, to interpret things in a new way.

Did my 6th bufo ceremony. Really cool group of people... lots of psychonauts and tons of experience in medicine. I could really see how I create all the tension in my body. How I hold my breath constricted... stuff like that. I got a blast of sadness from the people I know that are unwilling to try it. I know its perfect anyway but you get this blast of consciousness and you just want to share it. Man I wish I could master my body/mind! Wish I could live fully relaxed and surrendered each and every moment... would be epic.

This movie trailer always inspires me! hehehe

Theres actually places you can go to dance and party that will actually improve your spirituality! I found them doing contact improvisation, its this not so well known dancing style/community. They throw the best parties, amazing people, they drink small amounts of good wine and beer, set intentions before smoking weed, everyone pretty much loves spirituality, meditating, yoga, healthy dieting, art, shamanic ceremonies etc. Lots of really nice people that inspire you and you actually feel like you are nourishing, refreshing and growing yourself from going out dancing and partying! They are always travelling also. So yea, you can do these things just its better not to go to traditional bars and clubs where there is massive smoking and drinking and random drug use heh.

Hey!! I needed to make this post because I finally made the journey from orange to green in relationships and its really really good. I was very insecure growing up and got super into pickup. It worked but I was never able to build a truly authentic relationship without manipulations from both sides. When I decided to go green, to always tell the truth, to be nice, to not hide my fears, neediness, and insecurities from people. Well my "results" went to hell. I didnt get laid for more than a year and it was terrible! haha But in all that time I kept on doing inner work, accepting myself, working on my passions, being as authentic as I could be and really just surrendering all forms of manipulations or attachment to getting a result. Then I naturally got into this cool dance called contact improvisation, something I really liked and that exposes me to meeting alot of new people... and yea, lots of amazing girls. And I just kept treating everyone nicely, making friends and then I started just getting into situations where I met girls that liked me how I was! I didnt have to be macho or perfect, or rich, or "cool" or whatever. Just being a relaxed, loving, friendly, honest guy was enough for these girls. I think the problem when you try and do this when you are in orange is that your "truth" sucks. You are always out to get something, to achieve something, to be better, trying to make yourself look cool and stuff and needing to hide a bunch of things from people in the process. So yea... this was kinda my journey so far. I think what happen is when you change values from orange to green your environment takes a while to change so lets say if I was meeting "orange" girls, they wont resonate with you, basically they wont like you, and you will still have plenty of unconscious or automatic orange in you so the green value girls wont like you either. You hit this transition perior where its hard to be attractive to any girl. Anyways... the point is that changing your values to something more green and exposing yourself to lots of green people is really amazing in the long run but you might suffer a long dry spell in the process. Thanks for reading! I really wanted to share this

Hi guys! I am a guy who has suffered from depression since adolescence. I remember it would come from lack of acceptance from the opposite sex mostly. Then as I got older from lack of meaning in my work. I would beat myself up for not being better and even for getting depressed and not being grateful. I would manipulate myself alot to be the kind of guy girls wanted to be with. I have and still struggle at times with self acceptance. After 3 ayahuasca trips and a 5 meo trip I can honestly say I don't see myself ever getting into a long period of depression ever again. I wanted to share some things that might help. The obvious stuff you already know: diet, exercise, meditation, reading, sunlight, any and all personal development, social activities, trying to make decent friends, etc. Also: Ayahuasca is really healing. Medicine for the soul. Now a few things I think are key: 1. Be honest. Try and find someone that will listen and accept you in your state. One of the things that I would do is not try to be depressed with people, or to stay alone to not “bring them down” That is not really healthy. Yes lots of people can't deal with your depression and will invalidate you or reject you, or try and distract you. But certain people can be amazing. They will listen to you, hug you, let you cry. Basically accept you as you are and not need you to change. That is what you need. Just one person like that can make all the difference. 2. Let yourself be depressed! Soak yourself in it and don't try to fight it and make an enemy out of it. Give your depression its freedom. You are lacking in love, both external and internal. Let yourself be depressed while you do things that are loving towards yourself, whatever they may be. Once I developed enough consciousness over my depression in my last heartbreak (there have been many) I would even hear a commentary from my mind that would say “Man, poor dude. I hope this guy feels better soon” Be that accepting compassionate person for yourself. 3. Touch. Get a massage, or any body work, ask for a hug. Physical loving contact is incredible at bringing out the trauma, the hurt, and healing it. 4. Try not blame and take things personally. It's the hardest thing to do. We blame ourselves and others. We make things really personal and feel a huge weight of the world on our shoulders. There's a larger process going on, and for some reason your depression is playing a part in it. There are many, many mechanisms at work, nobody really knows what's ultimately going on with life. You did what you had to do, suffered what you had to suffer. Now it's time to let go of the suffering little by little. Good luck! Hope this helps someone.