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Hey man! Hope you feel better soon. Life can suck sometimes. Thanks for sharing your story with us.

Amazing

There is this book on kundalini on the book list, it talks in detail about all the kundalini stuff.

@YaNanNallari yes meditaiton is amazing @Wasem hey thanks! @Shir thank you

@BobbyLowell i mean tecnically everything is an enlightenment experience cause the ego is an illusion. But there are degrees. You got closer to experience of no-self than usual definately.

@BobbyLowell when there is so much focus on something you merge with it. It was like there was no "you" just running happening. Heh

When you are not authentic your energy gets blocked all over your body and it feels bad, tense, contracted. It sucks.

You hit samadhi running

All the psychedelic vídeos are really good. Especially the one explaining how to use it for personal growth. I would just set a light intention. Anything you rigidly forcé creates resistance and backlash. The psychedelic will humble you.

Maybe that stuff was getting purified, the ego playing itself out. I used to have stuff like that happen when i did do nothing but it eventually stopped. I think its all shadow that has to be loved and accepted, integrated. Maybe make some art where you get to express al that stuff. I once had a breakup and felt a lot of repressed anger, i wrote a poem about it and felt lots of energy release.

@AleksM i felt justo energy coursing through everything, i felt i was being puryfied. I felt heat, bliss, love. It was like everything was súper vibrant. I felt sensitive towards the unhealthy food i ate two days ago. Towards other peoples and my own mind and emotions. Not sure how to describe it. Felt even more layers of repressed shit being purged.

This was amazing. I didnt fall to the ground this time, I stayed conscious. I went to infinity and when I came back I went into this amazing samadhi state. Just perfect. The shaman wanted me to take more, to go deeper and I resisted but after a bit he convinced me. I took another hit and I was able to throw up what I felt was a bit more of the fear and toxicity that I had inside me. Really really amazing trip. The energy you feel, the sensitivity. I am straight up going vegan now. Looking foward to a third trip in a few weeks. I used the higher consciousness healing method taught by the lady from Enlightenement through the path of kundalini, her name is Tara Springett. You basically connect to a higher power, god, your higher self, whatever you want to call it, and ask for a healing symbol to protect you, heal you, help you, whatever. It really helped... I felt alot of faith in the medicine, the shaman, the universe... God, everything. I kept bringing in love when bits of fear would creep in. I feel really happy. I feel this path has been really right for me.

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You dont skip over stages, you integrate them. A yellow thinker has green in them fully, as well as all the other stages. Try enjoying green. Its actually a cool stage to get stuck in. In blue your mind is closed down. In orange you are always striving for more. In green... well... you see the love all around you. In my opinion the reason we want to pass green into yellow is because we want to grow further to help others, not because we dont enjoy that level.

Try and find a weekend to do 3 hours saturday and 3 hours sunday in 1 hour sessions. If you break through you should see some results and that will motivate you to meditate more on a regular basis without having to force yourself as much. Once you realize in your gut how good it is for you its much easier to do more of it.

To me the human condition is this: We are infinite and limitless potential (what) manifesting as perfectly divine apparently seperate beings (who). We are moved to create through desire, gross desires are material, violent, and generate suffering. Elevated or purified desires are more spiritual and generate bliss with no negative consequences. Not knowing who and what we are we live in fear of losing in all its forms. Losing what we have now or losing in the future. We ossilate between appreciationn and lack, love and fear, pure desires and base desires. We all want to recognize our own infinity but we tend to reach out externally instead of internally. We make conclusions and close down our minds with beliefs to feel safe, but it backfires. We open up to the mystery and groundlessness and come back home to bliss.

I think people think it's not practical. You have to really see that materialism doesn't work before you start on enlightenment. The whole structure of mind is designed to not want enlightenment and to want materialism. if you think you are going in the right direction you will not turn around and go the other way. This is what enlightenment asks of us.

@Andre Quinonez Be a musician! If thats what you like to do, if you would do it if there was no one alive on Earth but you, do it! If you really wanted to be an academic you would know and wouldnt be making this post. My guess is you want to be a musician but care too much what others will think of you. Just remember, what people think is just noise in their heads. It has no bearing on reality. If you do what you love and lovingly master your craft you will be an inspiration to the world. If you can, take the life purpose course. It will clear out your doubts.

Everyone is on drugs... the brain is a chemical soup

I was about to make a post about this but I ran a search first and found this post heh. Okay here goes: Ive heard form is formlessness and formlessness is form and even though I kind of got it, now I realize I really didnt. When I see something, anything, could be a sensation, perception, thought, or whatever... well its made out of nothing. Theres also nothing around it. And the thing is undefinable. You cant grab onto it or limit it. The thing is what the thing is. Any intent to grab it, limit it, or define it is itself a conceptualization, an idea, or to put it another way, another undefinable thing in and of itself. So everything ends up being infinite. Which doesnt make sense cause that implies something can be finite. But where are the boundaries? They cant be found in reality and any boundaries that you make up are more infinite phenomena being overlayed on the reality. When they say reality is infinite... I think they mean just that! If you look close you can see it... and then it seems obvious after the fact. Psychedelics help

Ayahuasca song, they call them icaros heh

@Ether Ask yourself who is this one thinking? What is it that is thinking? And then look for it. While you look for it your mind should go quiet cause more thinking aint looking for it. Ya aint gonna find anything heh, but the point is quieting the mind not finding it. Keep looking and looking and looking and then when that timer goes off you should be like "woah I was just quiet for a pretty long time".

Usually I keep to myself, minimize my time on the phone and online, keep relationships to a minimum and socializing down. Really took the lifestyle minimilism video to heart hehe Its really paid off, but this weekend after my 5 meo ceremony I decided to let it all out. If I felt the urge to do it I did it. So I told all my family and friends, had long conversations with people I hadnt talked for a while, let myself share and talk and hang out and laugh. It was really good. Sometimes letting go of the discipline for a bit to fully express your energy is necessary I feel. There will be enough time to keep practicing, meditating, reading hehe... have to find that balance

@Shroomdoctor Thanks for the support!!!

Do you have the book list? Its too good. Too good. Too good. I cant put it into words. Have you ever had a smart cool friend that gave you a good book? Well imagine having the smartest friend ever giving you 100 amazing books. Heh... thats kinda how it feels like.