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@Leo Gura Some things that I see that I aim for my life are this: Be a good communicator, and be able to express my ideas / beliefs without having anxiety and being natural. Use the things I'm learning to help people that I like, so they can find their passions too so they grow too. Impact people with the things I'm "good" at, like music, or even engineer (I'm 1.5 years from graduating). Use my true potential, that I really didn't get enough of it, and don't waste my life chasing my tail. My problems with it is basically: I'm pretty bad at communicating, so everytime it fails I feel that urge and that bitter taste of how crappy I am, that kinda desmotivates me and creates the urge that bite me in the ass. I can't keep a routine for more than 2 weeks, it starts to get annoying, I don't know why. When the spiral is down, when I'm having a hard time, I don't have anyone with a higher-consciouss to give me advices (I know I shouldn't depend on others) or say the things that need to be said, instead I get a lot of 'non-sense advices' that doesn't help at all. I think is pretty much it. I hope I didn't extend too much. Thanks.

@Leo Gura My vision about my objectives, you mean?

This week pretty much everything I do goes wrong. The most basic things seems to go wrong, and IDK what to do. I try to meditate, but I just don't feel like doing... Try to see Leo's videos but only feels more anxious and more 'attacked' or something. I don't know what to do

Well, what you can possibly do is: - Trying to master your emotions / control them. Leo has a video about it. Your emotions are created by the form you see the things. Its like Situation > A filter of interpretation > Emotion. Some people usually don't feel affected 'cause the way they see the situation is different. "Master yourself, master the enemy" Another thing you can do is: -Simply stop giving a fuck, giving two fucks, giving a damn fucking fuck about what they say to you (in a sense that it affects and triggers you emotionally, somethings is hard to admit that those people are right but sometimes they are, so be aware). Hope it helps.

@AlwaysBeNice I have a question...I get distracted while I try to meditate. How do you get 3-4 hours doing it? lol

Can give me a glimpse of results?

I was talking about 7 pillars to beeing a strategic motherfucker, Leo's video haha But its okay, I'll check that book too!

So what book is that? Would you mind telling me, please?

Hi there, here am I again. I would like to ask: how to deal with the lack of beautifulness, when you want to attract people? I mean, I'm not so beautiful and much often people tell me that, so I feel kinda bad 'cause I don't feel so good to attract someone. Even, feel lacks of subjects to talk to people so...any tips? Thanks

I am trying to do No-Fap but sometimes I just fall off track once...is it really meaningful? It throws all that I did away?

I mean, I'm 22 years old and sometimes my communication (talking) and some mindsets looks like a teenager or something like this...kinda superficial and 'kiddy'. I don't know how to describe it by now but, there's any way of 'growing faster' ? Or change this mindset by doing practical things? T h a n k s!

This a song of mine, have no lyrics...I like it instrumental c: Untitled (6) (online-audio-converter.com).mp3

Sometimes I'm all calm and stuff then something just happen and I got this angry from nowhere. (sometimes I'm acid on my answers or just yell without a possible reason). Should I do more meditation? >: I don't wanna hurt nobody lol

@Nahm What do you mean by that?

DAY #5 (12/03/2017) Woke up early, felt pretty disposed. Saw Leo's new video, made me move my ass. Took a walk by the morning, like 15-25 min. It was pretty good. Came back, took coffee, gone to church. Went to take lunch by some restaurant, came home kinda soon as I expected (12 pm I was already home). Watched a doccumentary (Abstract, by netflix)...one episode to be precise. It is really cool, I recommend if you like to see the art and creative process. Played a little ToS (Tree of Savior) a game that I'm learning. (1h) Watched some competition related to lol. Gonne to church (rehearsal), it all worked fine. Take out to lunch after church, have a good time with the guys. Yeah, it was pretty good...I'm learning to don't give a SHIT. Cyaaaaaaa

Hi, I'll try to keep this journal as much as I can (atleast a year). Feel free to scroll down, and PM me if you want...I'm open to conversation. [ be prepared to face ] ups and downs non-sense toughts rage / depression scenes some progress as musician my growth <3

DAY #4 (11/03/2017) Woke up feeling horrible, didn't feel like doing anything. Was feeling anxious, missing my ex-girlfriend. Everything was pretty much crap. Everything I did didn't seem to work. I Took some couraged and gonne to talk to her. She played the bad bitch, didn't give a FUCK about I was telling her. I apologize for some things I thought I was wrong, she accept it but with a noticeable deep 'madness' within. She called me names too, I thought she wouldn't be so mean lol Well, the point of talking to her is that I wanted to know if she still felt something for me and what I discovered is: nope! In fact, I can consider it a blessing 'cause now I can see she looks like a kid...and too mad for no reason...Idk. Not a healthy relationship to come back, I think is not worthy. I think now I can really move on and get over it. After talking to her I felt really amazing, 'cause I now can see she's not the one. Played a little with my friends and went to sleep early. And that was it!

DAY #3 (10/03/2017) Took mom and sister to work. Came back, drank my coffee, PC. Started playing, I was pretty anxious. Talked a little with a girl that I'm knowing. By the lunch time, my brother come over...his light was taken down for few hours for repair so he brought his stuff to my house and we worked in some things during the day, was pretty fun! (We played a little too, its cooler when you have someone next to you to play...don't look so far...funny). Then my sister in law come over too, we take a coffee time by evening. Late, gonne to an anniversary of my community leader, was kinda lame...idk, didn't feel comfortable there. Back, sleep.

I'm really considering that I have it. Idk. Help D:

Hello @spinderella, feel welcome! These guys around here are very supportive, so feel free to share your experiences. Let's just have a good time and grow I used to feel that way too, feeling like I'm chasing my own tail. The advice that I can give is: Create good habits ( reading / healthy eating / exercises / take a walk by morning). Don't be afraid to take baby steps. Little changes everyday can make a HUGE difference in a long therm life change. You'll probably feel more comfortable making little changes and enjoying your growth as you pass by (and even see it, as long as you do it, it feels rewarding). It is all a process, so don't get upset if you don't see a drastic change for now...keep going and it will work out. Trust me :') . Don't try to do it all at once. Work in especific areas that you think you can handle but one by one, once a time. Do changes in the areas that you think are most important in the moment for you. If you think that align your top values is what you need than you can start by there! A tip that I can give you, is that your top values (the actions you truly believe that are right) will make you feel good and your inner-self will not judge you. That uncomfortable feeling comes from your inner-self saying: "hey, I don't wanna do it, I don't believe in it!". I hope I could be clear lol. Meditation can help you A LOT (20 min / day) Meditation brings you to your center point, and can help you to clarify things on your mind (your values, what you believe in). You just have to be honest with yourself and not be so judgmental about it. It will probably bring so much emotions, thoughts, but just let it all bubble out and come to you....feel it. You'll probably feel uncomfortable at the start but you'll start to take all the deep shit out of you. (Its pretty normal to cry while meditating, it happens to me a lot). Nobody can actually know you better than yourself, so who you are and your trully self gotta be playing the same game (or you'll feel like I did, playing against myself and sabottaging). Find a friend that you can share things to, it helps a looooooooot! (It can be one of us, if you feel to). I have a friend in here, he helps me too much when I'm feeling down or even when I'm upset about something...I think that being supportive and being supported are on the same boat, and that's what happen with me in the forum. I feel that I'm helping and being helped at the same time. If you need someone to talk to, just PM and we can help each other in a good way. No seconds intentions. Well, I hope I could help you somehow! And again, be welcome!

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DAY #2 (09/03/2017) I slept too late yesterday, so today I wake up sleepy and tired. Took mom and sister to work, like usual. Got back and drank some coffee, watched some streams trying to feel better and stuff but don't seemed to work. (I like streams 'because I feel a little less lonely). By morning, I did mostly nothing (not even my habits). Feeling kinda lonely by the day. Got a episode that acessed my rage: At 2 p.m. I had an appointment, but my mom got the car and said would be back before. She took TOO long, I almost missed my appointment and it made me mad. Driving kinda mad, the traffic was crazy, a guys almost hit me, another guy just kept yelling at me for no reason (he was in a hurry). Well, everything snowballed over me and I got pissed off the whole day. Tried to meditate a little bit, it helped! But still had that burning feeling inside. Done some editting ( I work for myself by now, like a free-lancer). Got some money. By night, went to the movies with my family, ate pizza and, surprisingly slept on the movie. Got back home, and gone to bed. Bad day, tho.

DAY #1 (08/03/2017) I wake up feeling pretty fine, not too much worries. Got my mom and sister to work. Came back home, got direct to computer (Idk, somedays I just forget about taking coffee). Heard some musics that I like (William Singe cover's, that I usually like), took coffee and watched some streams for a little. After that, got the Idea of drawing a drop trying to use volume techniques (I don't even know how to draw action stick figures), and it pretty much worked. (I'll put a picture of it). Kept myself chating with some people and reading a little bit the whole day. While I was doing these things, I felt pretty comfortable but now that I'm not, I'm feeling kinda anxious and stuff. Didn't do my habits yet, but I'll meditate and try to stablish a right time for doing it. I kinda miss my ex-girlfriend yet, but not as I used to. I think my emotions are getting more stable and stuff, but still have spikes of rage / sadness. Trying to watch the way I walk and the way I talk, so I can fix this quickly and got more friends. I wanna grow faster, but I know this is a process. I hope I can do it. Now I'm going to take a shower, and go to college (I course Engineer). When I get back, I'll actualize the journal. ------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------ Back from college, feeling pretty good. We are in a project doing a 'battle robot' (like battlebots) for our class and I'm feeling pretty excited to doing it. The only matter is this: I'm doing only with one more mate 'cause the other guys seem kinda lazy and stuff...they don't seem pretty excited with the project as I do ('cause I like robotic-related things and they don't seem to like so much). We kept drawing and analyzing what we gonna do and I got happy for really doing something. Came back home, ate some junk food (my health habits are not so good). Got a message from a girl I didn't talk for a while and we kept the conversation for a good time. (I went to sleep like 3 a.m.). Feeling excited! ------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------ Picture of my drawing:

I love music!

@Christian What would be the right techniques? Or the ones that you use? O: