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I find this study hard to believe even though I don't qualify as a chemist. Modafinil has been around for more than a decade and the dopamine thing is no joke. If modafinil has such an effect how it went unnoticed?

@alankrillin Your brain type does not respond much to armodafinil. The same happens for 99.99% of mankind. It's true for psychedelics too, not just armodafinil. I dare you take LSD and come up with a way to create the second Apple. But Steve Jobs gave credit to LSD for this success. You may confidently say LSD is not capable of creating such a success but in Steve Jobs's case it WAS. So, stop thinking like if something does not benefit you much others cannot gain much from it. It's FACTUALLY wrong

My opinion may hurt you guys but you guys really cannot grow and fathom or experience Infinite Love or Eternal Life just by hearing it from Leo. Hearing it from Leo could possibly even be a step back because it creates false sense of understanding while in reality you don't

Don't take anything too extreme, everyone. I have tripped and experienced I had the power to be thinking thoughts but that does not mean Leo is wrong. Will exists but to the extent of our being. I once became conscious I was a monkey. That beloved monkey was my past live. Without a Will one cannot actualize or pursuit enlightenment or anything profound. In one trip my Will created an air conditioner and I felt cold. I believe it was not mere a visual hallucination

I'm trying to predict the level of insanity contained in Leo's next video. I think it's probably the reason why it takes too long :))) @Leo Gura I've finished what you told me I'm gonna redo the work to make it deeply implanted into my mind I've managed to scrape together a small amount of money for my family to continue to live in case you guys are concerned. Thank this forum again for emotional support

Hello guys, It just crossed my mind why we don't suggest Leo do a video on marriage. I mean some practical topics like that. Because I think how deep your awarenees or how high stage of development you are at it still should condense into something practical or human-centric so that we can see it as some sorta a point of life.

@Shroomdoctor It might be dangerous dude. I have never tripped before because it's illegal to use psychedelics in my country. However, I use a legal drug: armodafilnil. It's like a mild psychedelic according to Leo. I once took 300mg when I was in a tiny bad mood. When the drug took effect I turned into a very easy anger-triggered person. I couldn't believe it myself. So, don't do it when you're in a bad mood.

@Tony 845 I'm afraid enlightenment does not bring happiness either. Enlightenment makes you flow with life. You'd not feel depressed. You'd laugh at both good and bad things but you'd be a bit sad because you know you cannot change anything. You have no control whatsoever. The ultimate truth has no practical value whatsoever. It's just what it is

Suicidal thoughts have been with me for so long. I might have to work on them seperately

Hi everyone, I'm back from my project. I'm well paid from it. It's not a big amount of money but enough for my family and me to live more comfortably for at least 5 months. I've got myself rid of suicidal thoughts completely. Thank everyone again for having care for me. I've read all comments in goodbye actualized.org thread. I might have to put off enlightenment for a while. I'll focus on finding a life purpose first because right now everything I do is to make ends meet not because of passion. I've not found one even though I'm 25 already. Gotta do it now or I might get lost. Thank everyone again

Hi everyone I'm currently working with my superiorities on a project. They don't allow phones or internet. It has been 5 days straight and i had to beg them to spare me 2 hour. I feel like i might want to post this topic After watching Leo's latest video i see it resonating with me a lot. I did not have the courage to say it in the past but now i feel i do. I have come to the point that i am quite sure enlightenment can be negative if one is not careful. It can make you feel nothing matters and there's no reason to do anything. You can become a lazy person who uses enlightenment to escape life. And it can be very nuanced, complex and tricky that even the enlightened person does not realize he himself is doing it. For example, Osho. I am a big fan of him but i have to say his lifestyle of having anything luxurious he wants by having others pay for it is not quite right. He's not a dependent person though. If anyone watches a video when he was telling the press interviewer( when his commune was investigated) and saw how he was courageously saying he knew the police's intention was clear: "They want to destroy this commune" and a video of him saying from US prison that he would be in prison to fight for freedom of speech you could clearly see Osho was an admirable enlightened master but i still think he had some BIG shadow elements. Enlightenment is a beautiful thing in general but one has to have strong personality and solid metaphysical foundational life POV first otherwise it could easily be a negative thing. I have an enlightened friend ( very close friend) ( he might not be enlightened if you apply Leo's standard) and he can sit tight in 8 hours no problem. His eyes almost never blinked. He's emotionally grounded. Nothing can make him angry. He completely does not fucking care others opinions of him. But he has 1 problem: He does not agree to get a job. He lives dependently on dividends from the money he inherited. It's not big enough for him to live his whole life though i am sure. I asked him why he does not want to have a job or conduct business he casually repiled: "Why should i bring physical suffering for my body". I don't do business because to succeed in business you would have to be good at sales and it means trying to please people no matter how irrational they are and it means lying. I cannot lie. Whenever i want to do something i do it. Whenever i want to say sthing i say it". Since we're close friend i went further asking: "Someday you will run out of money and have to get a job. When you turn 30 who would hire you if your CV said you have never worked for any companies before, have not had any business or work experience" He said he got no idea. Leo's video hit the nail in the head saying you can reach the meditative state of awareness of the Zen master but not stages of development but I don't think Leo or anyone could imagine the extreme some people like my friend got into. May I add, my friend is not a Zen devil. He's kindhearted and polite @Leo Gura thank you for your help and support Thank everyone for having concern about me. I have decided to move on with life

@Mikael89 the more i read what you said ( in others thread also) he more i think you are a kind of lazy dependent person that lives on others money and effort. Sorry to say it but from my POV what you kept saying did not indicate any type of enlightenment but a sign of greediness and ingratitude. I posted this topic just to warn others because some might not have fathomed the danger of enlightenment plus IMMATURE. I myself have no problem with it because the environment i have grown up in does not let me. The mechanism in my mind does not want me to become a lazy person either

does armodafilnil work like LSD, dude? I was a little bit rash overdosing on armodafilnil and my kidney has been suffering for 10 days. I now still have to drink gallons of water just to offset the amount of armodafilnil which is still staying in my kidney. I am not sure when i will feel normal again

@cetus56 YOU're right. I'm gonna do that @Mikael89 so what to do? you encourage people to do nothing in life? Does that what you mean?

Thank everyone for concerning about me. I pretty much appreciate it. I will have to decide by myself in the end. It's gonna be tough I guess. In general I think most of us are controlled by our rationality without even ever knowing it. We're lucky to stumple on this actualization path where we find out we are controlled and have a chance to create a distance between "us" and our thoughts/rationality to doubt, see the limit and ABSURDITY of it before we take action on IT. Hope none of us will still be under control after we have put in a lot of effort for a long time

@Aaron p @Rilles i just meant it's easy to say such thing when you are under comfortable condition

My meditation has reached the point it's hard for me to sleep. I am thinking about using seduxen to sleep at night but afraid it can hurt the brain. I don't want my effort wasted. I havd just used armodafilnil recently and got a small increase in my brain capacity. Any advice would be appreciated

@Vladimir one drug allows peaceful death but i'm not gonna say it here

@Leo Gura Osho wanted to change the world by spreading the one World Government. He was not against the idea of setting a government. His mindset is pp live in peace with each other without money. A scientist can share his discovery without having to personally benefit from it. Osho clearly said "equal opportunities should be created for pp to be unequal". Intelligent pp do the work with their mind, not so smart pp do the labor work but have the same foods to eat, cars to drive, house to live. Nobody should be trying to dominate anybody in terms of power or finance. People who want to die are allow to die and doctors will help provide them a peaceful death. Absolute birth control is needed However I don't think such society can be built. It worked in Osho's commune quite well as I know but shortly after he got into silence mode Sheela just ruined everything. By the way I want to ask if you know whether Osho's commune still exists or not? Today's society is extremely toxic. Pp are just jealous and competing with anguish. Wealthy pp want immortality. Poor people give birth to children like rats with the selfish desire of having someone take care of themselves dooming the children to further misery Humanity could be he most benevolent but could also be the most despicable.

sure. Some do not some do. I just use it as an example

@Leo Gura but the body still feels pains. When someone has little money he worries about how to carry on. It's just natural

@Rilles The ego likes to talk shit when it's comfy

@Leo Gura is it better to use armodafilnil and not eat anything before you feel the effects kicking in? I theorize that if we eat before our body consumes it we might lose it by shitting, especially foods that can cause auto immune reaction

@ivankiss too long and lacking specific. @Leo Gura don't make it sound like you lack the maturity in what you are doing. I am sure every famous person contributes to the destruction of at least a few people's life.