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I don't remember exactly

I would tell you guys in the future, not now

I initially just intended to do this trip for fun before I put aside enlightenment to totally set my mind for financial independence. But ironically this trip spoke for itself. I'm not bragging but this final trip of mine could possibly (to some degree) be compared to Leo's ego collapse trip. I tripped on this substance for 7 times before but never expected it to be this fucking scary and so powerful that it made me create room for changes for my normal daily life Preparations and Settings: I did not eat anything for the whole day. I did the trip at night to not be disturbed at all. After taking the substance which is unique ( I had to put in real effort to persuade my uncle doctor (- not real uncle but I love him like an uncle) to provide me this substance on one condition: I would not overdose on it. Unlike other psychedelics which take at least 30 minutes to take effect this one takes less than 5 minutes to give me the trip. The amazing thing about this substance is with enough mind training you can keep your ego's self when tripping if you want and the trip's quality is not hurt. You can even choose to pause the trip at any stages of the trip. My theory is with enough training I can choose to keep the substance in my body forever. But I'm not that damn good yet. It leaked out anyway@@ First 3 hours of the trip: I became conscious of my own psyche plus shadow side plus the MIND so thoroughly to the extent I could read myself and I DID. I read myself to every minute detail. Every detail of my character was exposed. Not a single minute detail escaped the substance's power. All sexual cravings I suppressed were taken out. Had it not been for the mind training I did with this substance before I would have masturbated. Stage 2 is when a real monster comes. I willingly surrender myself psyche and and my MIND completely. I don't know where they went to. I just knew I could surrender them. The moment my MIND was taken away my body felt it, very clearly. Almost felt like I was thrown from outer space to my bed Less than a minute the MIND was taken away, I felt like I was my father!!! Not totally but my right hand felt to me exactly like his hand. I guess after the MIND was got rid of all left in me was genetics. Yet this was not the scariest part My body parts started to vibrate and talk to each other@@@!!. Some parts wanted to be dissolved into nothingness like the mind some did not. But I lost the control. My body kept shaking inside out and finally a scary silent mode occured. I got informed by some mysterious source that If I continued this way my entire body would be dissolved. Luckily my MIND was not totally killed. I finally managed to send the stop order to the whole body system. My sexual cravings have been increased too much by the trip, to the extent I quite regret taking this trip. I live in Vietnam where the cheapest price to have an intimate bodily relationship with a pretty massage girl is at least 30u for 1 hour!

sorry about that

Hi guys, I recently have had sleepiness disorder problem. Can anyone help suggest me a supplement than can help. I really don't want to try medicine. I prefer supplements

It just takes place and that's it. I got the answer for my/this curiosity from my 11th trip

hmmh. I have done my 11th trip and decided to stop temporarily.

You devil

@Identity In one of my trips I saw a glimpse of my past life in which I was a monkey. I have had more love for monkeys since then

Tell me when you succede. Surely you can stop having sex forever but it's as hard as doing heroin without addiction

@Leo Gura I think you're unquestionably right about eating could cause a bad trip. It just happened to me yesterday. It was horrible. I vomitted some food and then the trip took me to the scene I was surrounded by dogs. I am scared of dogs!!!. Dogs have been holding fear for me since when I was a child. I even wanted to die in the trip

The best writing about LSD you've ever made . Can you make a video elaborating more on "impure thoughts come from bad karma"?

If you love this planet absolute birth control is needed (Osho)

First I want to make it clear that I'm totally against the idea hanging out with a heroin/ketamine/Salvia addict. If you have a friend who is addicted to any of these three drugs I sugguest you leave the relationship immediately. Don't ever think you can love them and talk them out of their addiction. Dopamime can be increase more than 10 times when taking heroin compared to a normal nootropic that gets the person to be wakeful. Dopamine is the leading factor for all (my personal judgment) drug addictions. But it's not the most dangerous thing yet. I'll point out to you below the craziest thing about addicts The reason why I had the courage to spend a day with a heroin addict was because she was a rich kid girl and I made it clear with her I was just curious about if it's true that heroin brings users to God like Leo said. The answer is: Hell No. Content/her description: Part 1: After taking a drug she feels everything around her is a scenery taking place in a dream. Objects contract almost like they are being pressed by some force then expand to their normal states. This happens non-stop Part 2: She felt like she was not the person but a snake. She told me this present moment was the first moment she was born- and it did not feel like being born but being thrown into existence. THIS IS NOT what experience of God looks like Part 3: The craziest thing happened. She honestly told me her boyfriend was a heroin addict too and they broke up because of that. Heroin makes a man's penis shorter!!! Since we were in a quite dark place of the park she told me she had lacked sex for so long and wanted to do it with me. I said: NO. The seriousness of my face managed to turn her down this time. Right at the moment the drug's effect started to wane off her body jumped up ( she were lying down). She told me her chest felt empty and asked her to make it full. ABSURD!! I told her not to because whatever part of the body feels empty all the time excluding when a pain is experienced. But no matter how I tried to help her, it did not work. My conclusion: Not only heroin should be avoided because of its addictive effect but also it does not bring you to God @Leo Gura I really don't mean to make this thread to bash you but you in fact were wrong stating in your blog heroin could bring users to God and that's why they like it. Heroin addicts cannot sustain the feelings in their body when cravings for heroin arise. That's the real reason

@Anna1 I won't try it but believe it or not it IS possible to do heroin without addiction

Anyone who asks for why I said Leo said heroin brings people to God should visit to read Leo's blog. But like Leo said he meant something much deeper. My understanding of God's self is extremely weak and honestly I don't intend to discover more about God when I still have financial strugglings

@Vipassana How can you know I don't apply what I got from the trips into my life? Fact is I do. Don't get absorbed in the uninteresting display of words

Hi all, I have been absent from this forum for a year. My life still is a financially struggling life but I tried tripping despite that. I have done 10 trips so far. My 1st trip: My settings: I did not eat anything for a whole day before the trip. I sat silently for 30 mins and then took 5g golden teacher The trip lasted 16 hours Trip's contents: I lost my sense of physicality in the first 2 hours. Even after 2 first hours I still don't feel much in any physical ways. But I got some senses back. Next: I hallucinated a yellow strange looking bird over my head. It does not tell me any insights though. I also hallucinated no-ending moving circles of various colors. I felt a little scared after I looked at them for a while and they did not stop or disappear. I looked away. Next: Insights came to my mind: I heard a voice talking to my brain and the insights were very clear: Awareness is raw empty and thanks to this anything can exist, like the while light must exist so colorful lights can exist. God is not biased and wants to experience literally everything so everything can exist without having to succumb to logical thinking patterns. "You can be a dependend person who does not agree to have a job because you believe your parents has the responsibility to provide you whatever you need because they gave birth to you and you are the type that wants to have sex with every gorgeous woman you know. You angrily blame your parents for not making you rich enough to accomplish that." I still personally hate such a person but I honestly became conscious God does not hate him. He can create "the hateable you in my description" and give you the wealthy parents who agrees to satisfy all of your selfish desires Not only that, God can even create "the you" who was born poor but could fulfill your desires because "you" got lucky in some absurd laughable way and got the money. It got me thrown up 'cause of the next insight ( I am not bragging. It actually happened. I vomitted some foods remaining in my stomack). I was conscious that what I describe in "the you" example is just part of a bigger thing which is God can create 2 human beings that have the exact same brain order, alike to the minutest atom and 1 is as intelligent as Einstein the latter is utterly dumb and silly. 'You can have the same physical brain of a psychopath and still a good person" The final insight I got cannot be gotten at words so I cannot express it Note: all insights I got from the trip each was given to me in an infinite formless form. They only materialized into words after I required the voice in my head to elaborate on them My 2nd trip My settings: the same as my 1st trip. This trip was not much different from the 1st trip. I was given the same insights which was the most annoying part for me 7 remaining trips: Unlike 1st and 2nd trip reports, I won't tell you guys the substance I tripped on for 7 remaining trips because it's addictive to certain brain types that generate too much dopamine leading to a serious addiction and there are some quite irresonsible reckless folks in this forum. My settings changed a little bit: I did not eat anything for 2 days before the trip Insights from 7 trips: none Healing power is one of the only 2 things I got from these 7 trips. I tested it by hurting a few parts of my body then healed them. Through sheer imagination. This is how it works: I have the specific painful part imagine the normal healthy state it was in. It's my body's part that imagines, not my brain and there were Absolutely No images in my brain/mind. I repeat it in case you misunderstand and think I visualze it The second thing was when the trip was about to end I temporarily lost my memory. I had to have my brain think back to remember things. It scared me!

@cetus56 you're crazy

I have a feeling Leo will stop his teaching on the psychedelics. There are too many reckless folks, too bold to the extent I suspect they are somewhat addicted to drugs

https://www.actualized.org/forum/topic/44209-10-trip-reports/ Here is my 10 trip report

Not any member is interested in my trip report?

I have had a check-up. I just could not resist the sleep cravings. There are days I could not get off the bed to go to work. It's the only thing my healing power ( read my trip report) cannot cure, of course I'm just talking about minor non-serious injuries

@Lynnel I find it hard to believe what you say here is what you have tripped. It looks more like your subcious mind being thrown out completely to your conscious mind and it's never the case with tripping. I have tripped on golden teacher 2 times and they have been totally different from yours. Sure, trips vary for individuals but what you describe here does not look any bits like a trip

Can I take it as it's very possible that if there exists an enlightened person who is very scientifically knowledgeable like Einstein ( let's call him Einstein-Buddha) he could consciously create his own reality and leave his body for the reality he creates? I know your yes/no to this question would not mean much because enlightenment requires one's own effort but your claim is extremely big here. It makes me interested I myself once hallucinated an air-conditioner and felt very cold. But it disappeared after the trip ended. I know that means I got hold of physical manifestation but your claim is still extremely big