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  1. Another thing that many people have missed out is the fact that Sadhguru is actually the unknown son of Eckhart Tolle.
  2. Very good article. Thanks.
  3. Hi! I've noticed that when i'm in relationship i feel i get some sort of safety from the other person. Then when i want to seperate, i get thoughts like; "then there will be no one to support me if i get seriously ill", "i wont make that 'x thing' by myself". At the sametime i realize these are just fictious fears and i know that we are all going to die alone anyways. So i was wondering how many people are married or in relationships just for the safe feeling? I feel my relationships always start fantastic, then after some time it turns ugly. It starts to tear me down more than give me anything positive. The feeling of safety is the one thing that remains. When i'm single, i'm happy way more often. Could it be i'm not meant to be in relationships at this stage of my life or am i just being irresponsible mother fucker? I must not be the only one having hard time in relationships but am i the only one who feels they are better off alone?
  4. This is very true. @Shin That's why i love to do visualization meditations occasionally. Imagining a sun right above my head shining in and through my body this clear light energy filling every cell of me. You can actually feel it. It's awesome.
  5. 1. Getting almost every egoic desire i had. 2. Finding out that they didn't bring me lasting happiness. 3. Wondering how people who had serious illness or who were in wheelchair could be so much happier than i was. (I was in contact with them daily) 4. Having all my supressed shit arise and cause me fear and anxiety, soon after i started meditation. 5. Living in constant fear of having serious illness These five things all happened within two years. The best part is that i'm still learning new stuff all the time. As i broke up recently i found out shitloads of things that are wrong with me.
  6. @egoeimai Don't over think it. If you have the skill to be present when you are on good mood, you can practice to be present when you are having a bad day. There's nothing different to it. Just bring the awareness to your life through your favourite portal. For me, when i'm having slightly anxious feelings i can just choose to be present, and follow the thoughts. But when it's really bad i first focus on the rising and falling sensation of breathing around my chest and belly. Then i usually move in to feeling the vibrance in my lower body and gradually the awareness spreads everywhere. Then i just watch the thoughts and enjoy them. Sometimes i've actually got so lost in my pain i haven't had the desire to become conscious anymore, i have rather chosen to suffer in the pain. It feels so fucking good for the ego. If you meditate regularly, you should be able to ace this quite soon, if not immediately.
  7. I've been doing what Nahm described lately. I try to just be the witness of those fears and anxious thoughts rather than fuel them. I don't try to avoid them either, i literally try to enjoy them. They are part of life. It's not easy to do at first, especially if the feeling is very powerful but with practice it gets easier.
  8. Very common symptom if you are dealing with anxiety. Excercising will make the blood flow in your hands again. Go for a brisk jog or something. It will also reduce your stress levels.
  9. What do you guys think about Barry Long? I think his concept about a "Man" and a "Sexual-man" is fascinating. Basicly what he is saying is that a Man is loving his woman's body and a sexual-man is loving his sexual fantasies of women. And that his sexual fantasy is standing in between him and his woman, therefore not being able to fully give his love to the woman. For me this sounds so true, porn and sexual fantasies has fucked us up.
  10. I used to work with retarded people before and there were one case who couldn't speak or walk or basicly do anything by herself. But she always had this bright look in her eyes and she was always smiling or laughing. She certainly was way happier than i was/am. Was she enlightened, idk. But could've been. Her happiness made me happy everytime i interacted with her.
  11. Just sit on a chair. It doesn't make a difference, except for our spiritual ego. ;D
  12. Anxiety can cause shitloads of physical symptoms. It even causes me dry eyes.
  13. Yes, but ego's are driven by either fear or desire. You either act from desiring something or out of fear of something. So that's not really YOU who is making the choices.
  14. What i think @Joseph Maynor means by saying you don't have a choice, is that if you are ran by your ego, you are following collective unconscious thought patterns(fear&desire) and they are running your life instead of you. And once enlightened you are following the deep divine purpose for your human form.
  15. The stoic, good reputation man part made me laugh out loud. How do you think that serves you in any other way, than strengthened ego and even more delusional worldview?
  16. Thank you guys. Good insights, much appreciated. I've kinda grown apart from my old friends because our friendship has been so shallow and it's hard to deepen it because they don't want to discuss emotional stuff. I have lots of friends but none of them is very proper emotional friendship. So i was dependent on my partner cause she was the only one i could discuss about anything with. Now i would like to be not dependent of anyone.
  17. @Charlotte Good to hear i'm not the only one! I recently broke off from my disfunctional relationship. It's amazing how relationship with so caring and loving person as my ex is, can turn to so needy, controlling and ugly. It's like i started to feel i'm not in control of my own life anymore. Now that i'm single again, i feel it's easier to breath, like a heavy stone was lifted off my chest. This is because deep down i know this is better for us both. But on weak moments i get these fears like "i made a mistake, she was loving me so much" "i can't make it without her" etc.
  18. I've recently gotten in to a place where i get anxious but it triggers my awareness, if not instatly then little after it started. Then i can just watch myself being anxious. So i don't see anxiety as a bad thing anymore. It's my spiritual teacher who keeps reminding me to stay present. Even anxiety seems interesting when fully conscious.
  19. Hi! I'm in a relationship, but i constantly get in situations where other women want to have sex with me. It's really tempting, but i have managed to stay out of it this far. However i feel there's a very high desire to fuck them in me. If there's guys more experienced resisting that urge, do you have tips how to reduce that feeling?