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@Preetom Thank you!!

What is TSRM btw? @Preetom @FoxFoxFox

I have been reading Bagavan Sri Ramana Maharishi's Be As You Are. And I feel a bit depressed. I mean how can I stop seeking? Sri Ramana says that there is nothing to realise and I am already what I am seeking. I just need to drop the thought that I am the body. Honestly I find it hard to believe because I have not experienced it in my direct experience. I realised that I need to calm the mind and become aware of my ignorance. Meditation is what I am doing and also self-inquiry. And emotions are coming up. This week I will go to Ramakrishna Mission and ask some of my doubts. I will continue my practice and keep an open mind.

I watched Leo's How to do self-inquiry video. My question regarding that video is do I close my eyes or keep them open. If I keep them open I get distracted. When I close my eyes then it's easier. Which one do I do? Please comment and thank you!

@Pouya I find it difficult for both eyes closed and open since my mind is not calm. First I need to calm the mind.

Who can experience me? I do self-inquiry and I am just unable to find myself or locate myself or experience myself. But then I think, I am I, so why do I need to find myself? The mind says I cannot experience myself because if I could experience myself, I would have done it in my entire life. And then it says only a third person or a guru can experience me. I am confused. Please comment and thank you!

@purerogue What do you mean? The more I self-inquiry the more I realise I don't know who I am.

Ok I will. I just got confused. I thought that I was the watcher. But thoughts are just that- thoughts. I need to find the watcher.

@Leo Gura Yes I have heard from you about direct experience. But what is this direct experience? Is this some feeling or some psychedelic vision? I have recently started daily self-inquiry practice and all I understand is that all my life I have been thinking that I was some thing. But the books say that I am Nothing, the Great Void,God,Universe. What is this direct experience that you and everyone is talking about? I have started 30 minutes daily and I plan to make it 60 minutes soon. And whenever I sit to self-inquiry I struggle to stay mindful because the no-thing that I am trying to be mindful of is the no-thing that I am searching. I think it will take time.

I sat to contemplate today and I tried to become conscious of my hands and fingers. I could feel my fingers but could not detect the source of that consciousness. Then I moved my fingers but funnily I came to realise that I am not controlling my hands,figures or my thoughts. Here comes the paradox- I neither exist nor do I not exist. Nothingness Please comment and my realisation in wrong then please correct me. Thanks!

@SoonHeiGreat! Thank you! I have more to realize. Direct experience is king!

It is just a conceptual realization though, not direct experience.

Please write a book if you get enlightened with this method@mandyjw

I want to start a million dollar business. But I feel like I don't know any ideas to start with. My field of interest is life coaching and personal development. Something like a seminar business. But I don't know any ideas on how to make my brand unique. I have a small self-hosted blog but it is not doing well. I am publishing average content and although I know the marketing tactics and knowledge, I am a bit held back. I am also in college now and I am planning from now to start the business after college after 3 years. I really want to make an impact on people's lives and help them live more consciously. And in my country I think there are many opportunities in personal development but I don't know those opportunities yet. I want to think big and execute and make a mark in the world. What can I do to so that I can brainstorm really high quality ideas that will help me take the business to a million dollar or more?

@Paul92 Just live man. This too shall pass. I have been in your situation and it feels like hell. I know. So just live and don't do anything stupid. If I can live, you can too. Go to the doctor and take some medication if you don't feel right. But live. That's the greatest thing you can do. To live. Life is a gift from God. So live.

Are stage yellow people not worried about money? I mean a stage orange person is materialistic and is focused on getting rich and self-help about money, right? And stage yellow people are more like visionary and integral thinkers. What circumstances set them apart from each other? Is the stage yellow person does not focus on getting a good income then how will he survive even though Vision is one of the most important things? I am speaking from a organge-green point of view. And I really want to be yellow. I feel like I am entering yellow. I feel like the universe has my back. But am I saying this because my parents are successful? I mean I have a vision and I am also doing self-inquiry. I have been green for a long time and I think I am entering yellow. But it's all confusing. Actually today I have a seminar to attend about the law of attraction. But I think that it's not focusing on the inner issues of the psyche like trauma and shadow work. So I think it's not worth it. But I want to start a seminar business and I want to attend many seminars. I want to help people do inner work and I want to learn inner work myself and not some law of attraction money making technique. Please comment.

Can it be communicated non verbally on an emotional level? I am talking about it which Jesus,Buddha,Lao Tzu wanted to communicate. Can it be communicated without the need of perception? I know that kineseology has been used by many people to calibrate the level of consciousness but can it be used to communicate consciousness? Please comment and Thank You!

@Anton_Pierre What if someone is blind?

Hello, my name is Anirban. Age- 19 Gender- Male From-India Occupation- College student(Business degree) Relationship status- Single Hobbies- Reading, writing, singing, blogging. I used to play videogames because I wanted to avoid social interaction at school because I had social anxiety because I used to think that people don't like me. So after playing 17hours of videogames for every day for 6months I got frustrated and started to ask "Is this all there is?" And then I typed on YouTube , "how to not be a victim in life?" And Leo's video about how to not be a victim came up. I watched it and as I watched it I awoke as if I had been asleep all my life. I watch more of Leo's videos and I started doing meditation everyday. It changed my videogame habit. I started hating videogames and I got back in touch with reading books and I started reading many self-help books. I even bought 20-30 books in this period. This was my entry into stage organge of spiral dynamics. I became driven to manage my time, study despite my aversion to it, joined extracurricular activities and became more confident. I was starting to grow more my ego bigger. At this point I got bad grades despite my self-help and time management because I only half-assed the studying. So I got frustrated to the point of meditating all the time. I would stay awake at night and write in my journal why I am unable to understand math and science despite all the time I put into it. I grew neurotic. Then I started to meditate the whole day. I remember I decided to meditate for straight to hours and I set timer for every 1 hour. But it made me more anxious. I started getting lost in thoughts and deep thinking and psychosis happened. Partly because I was meditating 6 hours and also because I was too energized to sleep at night and insomnia happened. Psychosis induced by insomnia and meditation. That created terror in my chest and I was always afraid. My external appearance was normal but on the inside I was deeply scared. I was scared of the existential void, the possibility of annihilation. May ego was dissolving and I could feel the fear. I was terrified. Then I had to go to mental hospital. And there I met amazing people and I made new friends. This transition gave rise to a change in me. From orange to green in spiral dynamics. I became more emapthetic and I realized that life was more than about myself. It was about the universe. I am just a small drop in this vast ocean. This humbled me. I became interested in Spirituality and I watched tons of videos. But this time I was balanced. I know the pitfalls of meditation and neuroticism. Right now I am stable on medication. And my situation is improving. The funny thing is all the time I was obsessed,I was not really growing but now when I am not obsessed I am really growing Spiritually. I am more aware of my ego's defense mechanisms and I am happier. All this happened the day I discovered self-help and Spirituality. This was worth it. I am a changed person now. I am not perfect and I am way far from enlightenment but I am peaceful and happy and I am motivated for experiencing life. I have started a blog on personal development, I have met many spiritually highly developed people along my journey, I am reading more books from Leo's book list and I feel less resistance. I also am moving towards my life purpose. In this time I also did the life purpose course and it helped me discover my values and strengths and I have a vision too. All this was possible because people like Leo are spreading the message of personal development. Challenges I overcame: Obsessive neurotic drive to succeed Selfishness for possession of status Projection of my shadow onto others Videogame addiction Shallow understanding of the world What I am working on now: Reading more books on consciousness Focusing on results rather than obsession Being kind to others Overcoming social anxiety Accepting what I am to grow to what I can become Forgiving all the people who did me wrong Knowing what am I?(Enlightenment) Getting in tune with my intuition @Leo Gura Thank you!

Great!

Please don't listen to the girl or anyone who says you don't have confidence. You are a very positive force in this universe. Don't let anybody tell you who you are or aren't. It's your decision to decide what you want to be. @theking00 What's do you feel?

@Serotoninluv Ok but is the law of attraction useful or does it work for stage yellow persons? For whom does law of attraction work? Is it dependent on the level of consciousness of the person for law of attraction to work? Does LOA work for lower or higher consciousness persons?

Just starting to get interested in finding what I really am. And it's so mind boggling. How can I not be the body? I am asking this not to skip the self-inquiry though but to ensure that I am not going insane. How can I not be the body? If I just believe I am not the body then it's really a dumb decision. But am I really not the body? I don't want to go insane. Will self-inquiry really help me discover my true nature or will it make me believe more of what I am not? Please comment any suggestions. Thank you!

@NahmThanks! This is great. I will schedule a routine for self-inquiry. I want to verify what am I. So yes that's great!

@zeroISinfinity Great help. Thank you so much!