Name: Ermo Egberts Age: 25 Gender: Male Location: the Netherlands, Occupation: Audio visual media, ( on the moment no job ) Marital Status: In a relationship Kids: No Hobbies: self development / spirituality / traveling / meditation / yoga / nutrition / photography / listening to people
Heyya,
My life started of as a young little boy who always smiled and saw life as the usual kid. Happy, play full and passionate curious about life.
Then things changed, if i think now back to the time I realize that i never saw real love in between my parents. They got divorced when i was 12
Around 13 years old I was kinda a fatty boy, I got diabetes and learned to be hard and keep on going without showing my weakness. The years went past and I formed myself into a shy farmer boy who liked to drink enjoy but not showing my weakness.
I grow older and my study was away from my hometown where i did Audiovisual media. (camerawork) Had fun but never was really good student because my concentration was not very good. 2012, 12 of AUG. My dad was a truck driver and worked a lot for us since my parents got divorced. We were his everything and he will do everything for us to keep us happy. He's the kinda guy who never will show his emotions and will fight untill he will drop down. (dont have it from a stranger)
Because he worked so much and I grow older I realized that i wanted to move back home too help in the house with cooking, cleaning etc.
But then this date 12 Aug 7:30 in the morning he came to my door and showed for the first time his real weakness. But this time it was a weakness what every person could see. He was in pain... that morning he passed away in my arms with a hearth attack.
After this i became a robot and didn't really know what i wanted anymore. We needed to sell the house and i needed to live with my sister (she moved out when she was 16) Quick i picked myself up and started working and even created my own company (ermo egberts media)
I think because i saw how life can end so quick.
After that i gave up my company and started to travel.. I told everybody i'll be back in a half a year. but this became of travelling 4 years.. it was the time of my life
Now i'm since 1 month back home from India. Everything here is different in the Netherlands. People live more on there own, more rules, no emotions, etc.
And here the time bomb exploded... I run away all this time.
This is it. I tell all of this to you guys because of one reason: I want to play open card to everybody and specially to my family. Show my emotions when ever I feel them. And not become like my dad who didn't show is weakness.
And, I want to make the best of myself! Starting from today
I do already meditation, yoga and self-development for a bit but fall often back. This time i'll go for it! Personal challenges I've overcome:
- Shyness for everybody
- Loss weight and exercise
- Have a knowledge about good food for diabetes
- Not being scared of meeting people
- Becoming ok with girls (girlfriend)
- Learn English
- Learn a bit of German What I'm Working On Now:
- My past and my emotions
- Show real love to the people i love
- Creating a routine and follow it every morning
- Not pleasing everybody
- Saying what is on my hearth and have pure honesty
- Not falling back into a negative spiral
- Letting go
- Making the best of myself
- Overthinking / not judging
- Become really funny
Yesterday i wrote down that I would like to become a creative singing einstein clown batman.
(Sing, Photography/video, Learn every day, become funny, and strong)
Lets see where this is going to bring me!
Namaste! Leo & people