Artaemis

It can require intense levels of self honesty and transparency. Not easy to do in public (which can be a necessary component in solid formulation) if you have poor assertiveness or are oblivious to your B.S. Just my experience. Those are two areas that I struggle with. It can be difficult to assess my level of self deception. And to then deal with the emotional backlash as a result of being broken down.

I spend hours contemplating but I'm generally spontaneous and independent in my contemplation. I don't like to be ordered to contemplate certain topics unless I have permission to explore them freely, without particularly staying on topic. Its maybe the reason why I don't generally jibe with forums, they can feel restrictive. This forum being the only exception, as long as I am left to my own devices. There's a freedom in expression that is fostered in this forum that I don't see in many others which I think can tap into realizations and self exploration.

@Joseph Maynor Brilliant.

@Nahm ❤️ I love you

@SageModeAustin Mind is indeed tricky. I didn't think those answers would become distorted so quickly on the journey. Opinions have taken refuge in my head.

Mhm. I can hear answers in that space. Sometimes I have trouble translating. Or I get lost in thoughts and opinions. I'll lie to myself. I wish the 'devil' wasn't so attractive.

Honestly, when you raise your level of consciousness high enough, everything becomes interesting. Walking across the room or brushing your teeth or eating blueberries is crazy fulfilling. I'm not kidding.

I wouldn't say I'm mindful 24/7 but I'm naturally mindful. There is spontaneous absorption. Sometimes I do 'try' to be mindful for amusement. Other times I have to be more mindful because seeing is lacking.

I'm INFP 5w4 sx/sp

@Rilles Nope. I dropped all my addictions, all distractions. I craved actions conducive to my development. Eventually my level of consciousness dropped almost all the way back to baseline though. Although I still can enter that level of consciousness. There are still areas where that level of consciousness lingers almost permanently.

The first time I took weed I completely blacked out and then I had the mother of awakenings. Afterwards I implemented almost every habit effortlessly and quit junkfood for 6 months straight.

+1

@Mikael89 Thats not a better feeling thought >:c

I love you too Psyche_92 <3

This is very reassuring. I've been battling my authenticity recently. It creeps in more and more every day.

Goodbye Solace :c I love you. I will miss you. You're my favourite person on here.

@Joseph Maynor I like your honesty.

@Barry J

@Barry J By inwards I mean turn to Spirit for answers. Answers flow through. Spirit is neither or both inwards and outwards. My self preservation mechanisms I think. Sometimes the emotions that surface as a result can be overwhelming and I lose control. However I progress further on my path when I am honest usually.

@Barry J Hm. I think that's what I meant by procrastinating. I'm distracting myself from where I already am. Instead of turning 'inward'. I turn outward toward others for answers. My knowing and intuition has taken a backseat. Sometimes I think I'm too honest. I spend long hours being honest in meditation and affects the way I communicate. I'm automatically honest, open and vulnerable.

@Barry J I can't put it into words. I just sense that I'm procrastinating and I thought I might as well be honest.

@Barry J Nothing, I'm procrastinating by playing naive.

I would like to know this too. Stopping meditation would feel very unnatural and forced. Like I was trying to please some authority figure.

@SageModeAustin lol c: Acute desperation and despair and an obsession with Spirit.

Probably 10 hours. Meditating on physical pain lying down. Recently I've been meditating on pain/aversion for at least 4 hours most days, lying down. It can be dangerous. Stuff surfaces. My demons and I are now well acquainted.