Artaemis

It seems like nuanced thinking might begin to emerge at orange. There is a sharp incline. I'm not 100% sure, I don't know a lot about spiral dynamics. Here's my general brief analysis of Orange and then maybe it can help you decide. I like to analyze by visuals and feeling tones a lot: Many have eyes that are piercing, alert. Their demeanor is calculated and deliberate. They seem capable of reading motives but their judgments are usually relatively shallow still, which can surprise me. They seem very capable and sharp, and yet they can't really pin you down properly. They spend more time trying to appear correct, dominant or attractive than piercing the rest of the way through. It holds them back. They're afraid of pain I think. Green upward are much less afraid of pain. Pain tolerance is a big factor in someone's ability to come to nuanced judgments. Making blatant or dismissive judgments with a persona of dominance is a lot more comfortable than attempting intimate, honest, nuanced communication.

Thank you. I'm experiencing awakening symptoms right now, so I'm being more transparent than usual. I know I need to read more books so I can communicate about Being. Its just that a part of me doesn't care about communicating Being to others. A part of me is selfish and doesn't care. The part of me that would be happy to go off and live in a forest meditating on Being for the rest of my life leaving everyone else behind. I have enough conceptual understanding to do that. It affects the way I absorb information, especially since my memory is already pretty bad (from physical illness).

@Jack River I feel disillusioned even though I never really think or talk about Being anyway. I don't read books about it, watch videos or read much about it online. Yet I'm exhausted by my minimal craving.

I have an aversion to number 2. I feel disillusioned by talk, thought and learning anything related to Being. My cravings aren't there as much anymore. Maybe it will balance out.

This post triggered awakening symptoms to surface again. Burning, energy currents, strong intuitions, urges for transparency, rage etc. Trying to figure out why.

Oracle Cards taught me some of the appeal of both the feminine and masculine when I got really physically sick. I nurtured my heart consistently every day with communications of unconditional love and compassion from many archetypal figures until I was certain of safety (even though it was all in my head). My heart softened and opened to different ways of being and now I don't have so much resistance to wearing different perspectives.

I like the way you lay out your heart with the words that flow from your core Solace. You're authentic. Your words are a healing salve.

I think this is early stages. After a realization I had very recently what remnants of disinterest I had largely reversed. Being can completely obliterate depression.

@Joseph Maynor Hm. I did not know that about tier 1. The discomfort you feel from feedback/criticism can instill new values and realizations which would otherwise be a lot more slow in developing. And I'm interested in accelerating my integration. I joined this forum to make myself as uncomfortable as possible so I could integrate. This is hitting the core of my motives and who I am.

@Outer I apologize for lashing out. I need to learn the difference between assertiveness and aggression. I was mostly taught aggression.

@Rilles Of course not. I was trying to perfect my grammar and sentence structure. I've become rusty at writing. I'm out of practice.

@Outer Your need to correct pretty much everyone but yourself is a distraction. At least I'm trying to self correct. Even though it doesn't match up to your posting standards.

I think I need to work on my insane perfectionism. I edited my post like 20 times. must.make.insight.perfect

@Joseph Maynor My old mentor (turquoise or coral) used to really stress the importance of journalling and contemplation. Although I resisted at first, in the end I filled dozens of journals with my own personal contemplation on Spirit. Most of my writings were completely nonsense (I was 15/16 and isolated from outside sources) but it solidified my knowing. Perhaps others think their contemplations are nonsense too and feel intimidated by the process. Its the very personal insights, revelation and integration of key values as a result of the process that matters, not the level of cognitive comprehension or impressive display of intellect.

Solace ❤️ You came back *dancesaroundroom* I love almost everything you write.

Exactly what I'm experiencing. Animals playing and humans being cooperative components.

This. Thinking about this stuff feels pointless now and I feel immediately disillusioned. i'm going to go back to staring at my hands.

@Shin Maybe it means that you've aligned with forces who have you in mind (who have a wider range of perspective) and subconsciously tap into archetypal structures. Source perspective, re contextualization from enligthenment impacting the dream. I have no idea. I'm literally making stuff up. I should stop.

@Shin It means I love you <3

This forum is a synchronicity factory. This thread is a synchronicity. I have a theory that when you reach high levels of integration (like many on this forum have), with wide range of perspective, you become a primary vessel for synchronicity to take place. I know that animals and nature are the first to respond to alignment so it would make sense that individuals with similarly less narrow perspectives would also be the first to respond. I kind of know this from experience too, as I've written with many perspectives in mind. And the reaction was interesting. Especially with others who are aware. It creates a domino effect and telepathy of sorts. It also fuels synchronicity in general. I might be interpreting this wrong though. idk.

@Joseph Maynor Nice observations. There was a definite shift in his energy.

He doesn't seem overly aggressive or condescending much at all. Only to the extent in which it might keep my attention. His tonality is heavily compassionate. There is an undertone of gentleness there. Reminds me of Bashar. Endearing. He seems to have a strong turquoise element at this point. He utilizes synchronicity/meaningful coincidence, is watchful and sensitive to the system. Thats my analysis.

Its never bothered me. I admire his assertiveness. Although at times egoic. Its something I seek to embody and train in myself.

I'm 26 OP.

@Joseph Maynor Of course I'm just stating the obvious. But sometimes that can make the difference. In terms of integration.