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God/reality is absolutely terrifying guys. Its overwhelming presence crushes you (ego) to tiny motherfucking bits if you're ready. I wasn't. I could not physically die. I couldn't let go. For 5 minutes i have been suphocating and panicking. But eventually I could not let go. If you're progressing and being Aware of Awareness becomes somewhat easier... Then try this out: Feel that connection with Nothingness. Follow your heart. Literally. Feel God in you. Like a deep deep priar. Feel what you were before you were born, after you're dead and what you are now. Follow your heart. That deep intuition that you already know your true nature. I have the feeling that its our hearts that lead us to god. Our true nature. This here is extremely helpful. Very very powerful.

Good to hear my friend Being aware that you're aware while contemplating this might help.

Yeah, i tried relaxing and giving in with all my might ?. But yeah.. YOU can't do anything. Relaxing/not relaxing or whatever. My ego was pretty much not visible throughout the day. This intense moment revealed what was under the curtain. Exactly this intensity makes you identify with your ego to the max. Like i've been succesfully ignoring a big wound for 24 hours. Then someone comes along and puts his finger in it. He smiles at you and tells you that this pain is all an illusion.

I have read your other post just now. Prior to this, i've been aware of my existence all day. Aware of the existence of the mind and every other sensation that confirms our existence. Ego felt pretty much gone. Everything went by intuitively. Me not thinking about things. Things just happening. But ego was still there. It was SILENT. Weakened. But very very well hidden. Facing the real truth/ the Absolute is not something you can easily choose to be ready for. I tried this with all my might, but it was futile. I am simply not ready. Not sure how I can every be ready for it. We will see. I think that it can only be aware of itself through us. It feels as a place we all have forgotten, but still remember at the same time as he puts it so beautifully. I still have no fucking clue to be honest lol :p. Yeah, Usaine would be proud of me lol. But i don't think i'm advanced enough to not run away. I'm giving Kundalini yoga a try as you mentioned in your Insights. I kinda got the impression that my messed up bodily state didn't quite make things easier in the process of letting go.

@Leo Gura Maybe create a new subforum to filter all these kind of topics and posts? Having a moderator or two would be helpful maybe. Just to export these posts from the enlightenment subforum to a new subforum.

Preach Leo. Hope your post will be a proper bullshit filter. Certain topics from certain members really make it less and less attractive to engage in constructive interactions. Enough with that clownesque nonsense.

Well i have reached a certain point,where i have no evidence what determines the separation of the senses. So from that perspective, yeah. But you need to work your way through this exercise to realize this.

Thanks for this piece. Yes, but it's a very difficult distinction. My friend suffered from a severe psychosis twice. Thought he was Jesus, made his own religion etc. They drugged him up until he was completely numb. Now when i speak to him, he knows he was spiritually enlightened. A complete loss of ego. Synchronicities every second. However, he was also completely deluded in certain ways. He started to interpret messages that simply weren't there. I start to realize more and more that the social norm of being "mentally healthy" makes less and less sense. Once you wake up from the illusion, the whole world looks nuts. So what to do when? Very difficult to say. BUT DEFINITELY LOOK FOR HELP. http://www.jaysongaddis.com/the-shamanic-view-of-mental-illness/ http://nautil.us/issue/40/learning/a-mental-disease-by-any-other-name

Western medicine is nowhere near understanding these phenomena. I advised him to look for an authentic shaman for some proper guidance, but he laughed it off. But of course as you say, if that doesn't work, a shrink/clinical mental health care should be considered! Good luck John

All of them. They are all interconnected and reinforce each other. For example: Matt preaches to love everything that arises. But loving or love is often mistaken for an emotional state. It's about an indiscriminate (love) attitude towards everything that arises. It's an act of surrender and faith that also strongly characterizes the gut awakening where you realize you can't do anything to reach enlightenment. You are not in control. You let go of resistance. You accept/love everything that arises.

Ahahhaha snick. My man could be a cartoon figure.

A friend of mine had 2 times psychosis diagnosed in his life. What he explained to me was spiritual enlightenment. But he was also completely deluded at some points. Seeing hidden messages when there were none for example. Synchronicities every minute or 2. These people tune in to something, that i'm 100 procent convinced of. But they're not able to understand this radical change without PROPER guidance. John was completely lost, poor soul.

Exactly! You cannot do anything about it. NOTHING! YOU can never reach enlightenment. That's why you have to do everything with an intrinsic motivation. Meditate to meditate. Love to love. Let go of control to let go of control. I'm exactly at this stage now. It's really all about the awakening of the gut. The true development of your intuition. Quite a painful process though with a lot of anxiety.

Oh mate... this is the BEST thing that could happen to you. Follow this personal development path as if it's your LAST OPTION. Look back in a couple of years. Laugh. And realize how you need to experience the gutter before you can reach for the sky! Use this moment. Use your negativity and depression! It's time to do some real psychological heavy lifting. You will see that everything happens at exactly the right moment. This path will take you further than you could ever dream of. Further than your friends can imagine. Further than your past self would ever have gotten. Now.. time for action! Get obsessed with this shit. And start confronting yourself. Good luck mate.

So please remember: it's not about tolerating. And by the way: the Neti-Neti method has helped me BIG TIME with my emotions.

Your underlying intention is to "accept and observe" in order to overcome that feeling. That is the first tricky mistake. Don't try to overcome it! Your ego is a master at self sabotaging. Try to extend that painful feeling while observing. Don't want it to go away! The thing is: you have started this whole path to overcome this panic disorder. That is a huge mistake. Don't try to overcome it. Really accept it...like you're prepared to live with it and love it until your last day. Stop battling it. "Accepting and observing" is your way of trying to overcome it. Really loving/accepting it is NOT the same as tolerating or overcoming it. This shit is very nuanced man. Edit: Well it's not a huge mistake, i was a bit overreacting. But I have tried accepting my anxiety problems actively for more than a year, until i was like: FUCK THIS SHIT. I'm giving up. I won't battle it anymore. I'm sick and tired of it. That's when i REALLY started to accept it, counterintuitively. So you can try until you reach that point. Won't be a very pleasant road though. Just surrender mate. Contemplate your intentions. And just surrender the battle.

Maybe had certain insights (backed with some Neuroscience), but nah nowhere near enlightened. I think he especially uses scientific findings to find his truth. He claims he wants to find the proper balance between a materialistic point of view and non-materialistic.. but he's very materialistic.

Kundalini energy can be a great indicator for your progress. But i wouldn't focus too much on them. Just let them be in the background.

Dear vegetarians/vegans who are not attached to this title The title of this topic speaks for itself though. How did it help you? How did it affect your consciousness? Your energy/productivity and all that good shit. Can you give a before and after comparison? Oh.. and if it's possible. Can you please post your favourite vegetarian/vegan meal/smoothie/whatever? Much appreciated. I'm planning to finally make that step. All help would be welcome.

Lovely, guys! Thank you for your wonderful advice Officialy a vegetarian for a week now. Feeling a bit more lively, but could be a placebo of course. And craving for meat. Lots of cravings. Excited for the coming months @Emerald @pluto @Be Yourself @GabrielWallace @Nahm

By finding the beauty in everything you will automatically become emotionally stable my friend. By loving every form of negativity you not only become detached from clinging to good feelings, but you will start loving everything and everyone. This is the best skill to cultivate. Unconditional love. Towards yourself first. Then towards everything that arises. Even the negative feelings and experiences. Don't use an umbrella. Feel the rain and love it to death. You will see how perfect everything is. Some say this is an easy task. But to me this really was not the case. I've had some serious anxiety issues. People with anxiety problems tend to be very creative in self sabotage. So i've had to raise my awareness/consciousness in order to have a better grasp of this process. Raise your consciousness and cultivate unconditional love. Emotional stability is a byproduct of that path.

If you can teach yourself (through meditation for example) to stop being a bliss junkie, that's when the magic happens: detached and loving/appreciating everything that arises in the present moment. Love reality in its totality

I think that the MDMA effect is especially due to serotonin. This chemical connects you with the other. But i'd agree with you that there is more to it of course. Nonetheless a quite remarkable finding.

Check this out guys. A beautiful neurologic view of how the infinite is creating the illusion of duality through your hardwiring: Us versus Them. The "cuddle hormone" oxytocin shows to strengthen the Us versus Them hardwiring. This shows how (conditional) love can influence your ego for the worse.

Yeah, it seems to strengthen your deep underlying, egoic characteristics. And vice versa, when you're less bound to your artificial identity.