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I've listened to his book, narate it by him but was all rubbish. Not the book itself but the narration. Was sounding like a broken record coming out from a bathroom. Still I will buy the book as there are lots of nuggets to learn from

@Soulbass I use to feel angry (after 6 months of 40 min meditation combined with Kriya). I don't think it has to do something in particular with Kriya but more with the memories and probably humiliation felt in the past which are coming out. After a while, it passes and become calm again. I found that being aware of my anger, and take deep breaths when that is coming on helps a lot. Check this out for a better understanding

I have tried to do Kriya from J.C. Stevens but after 4 months I had to give up. I was meditating 40 min at that time, doing the Krya exercises for about 20-30 min and continue to meditate till 40 min mark. I found it more or less useless. This is because doing the Nadi Sodhana, Ujjayi Pranayama and Talaba Kriya I try to keep counting all the time, then I lose the track and feel like I do not do it correctly. Plus it is quite noisy. I found out that I am more relaxed when I just sit and focus on one point. I start to meditate for an hour now and working on the concentration practice ( 2 min at the moment) Are you finding the exercises from the other Kriya books more practical? Is the Kriya by J.C Stevens confusing just for me?

Having a look at your vision board guys, I think I use too many pictures or I want to many things? What're your opinions? Life Purpose To help people rendering my nursing and communication skills (Teach people about the higher self and higher consciousness) Zone of genius Nursing Domain of mastery Communication Ideal medium Hospital (E&A)/ videos/ public speaking Top 10 values Health Freedom Professionalism Love Spirituality Communication Personal development Open-mindedness Courage Productivity Top 5 Strengths Self-control and self-regulation Forgiveness and mercy Honesty, authenticity, and genuineness Gratitude Fairness, equity, and justice Top 5 Goals Create a passive income of 6 figure Improve communication and interactions (socialization) Travel around the world Help others Get a relationship/ date

Well got back alive after 12 hours of continuous walking. My feet ache and are full of blisters but more about the trip in a trip report section. So It's the new year. New goals and new dreams. I have to work a bit on that. So far I try to write something here every day to get used with journaling. A happy new year and all your visions to come true

After waking up and forced myself to concentrate and meditate, without any desire to do anything, I just made my bag and now I'm going to trip in a national park. It came on while I was meditating like a urge more to do this. It's 8pm here and I'm excited to see what's happening ?

Where can I find a mentor? I need one so badly to guide me. I feel like I have no sense of where I am going to or what I an supposed to do. Do i have to hire a mentor? How this mentor-student relationships works. Any site where I can find one?

@CreamCat Thanks. I have done the life purpose course already 4 months ago. I am just trapped at the moment in my actual job and I am looking forward to make a shift. Its just that period when nothing happens and all I have to do is just to wait and this is driving me crazy. I feel like the time is running so fast and I accomplished nothing. I liste to over 120 audiobooks and read about 30, but when I want to call some information from those books I find out that I cannot remember much. Start to wander if I am getting dumb or Wtf is going on. On the other hand since I start this journey, departed from my friends, moving alone, working as a lorry driver on a permanent night shift, had a huge impact in the way of communication and interaction. So now I try to break out from this vicious cercle to be able to implement a powerful morning routine and rest well overnight. Thank you @Emerald, @aurum and everyone for replying. ????

After 1 year and 3 months, it's over. It's feeling like I am loosing all. I have managed pretty well to raise my consciousness level with psychedelics when I start this journey. After I had an ego death followed by about 1 month of glimpses of aha moments I took the decision to change my life and to work towards enlightenment and improving myself. So right after this episode, I start to drop smoking, alcohol drinking, drugs and shitty friends. I have moved alone, try to adopt a minimalist lifestyle, eat a plant-based diet, clear sugar, coffee, and caffeine, meditate daily( 30-40 min), exercising at least twice a week, no fap for 4 months, cold showers daily for at least 2 minutes, yoga classes for 4 months twice a week, start two Shopify stores and now I have only one which is on pause. And now after one year of being alone, I suddenly took the decision, after a short discussion with my ex-housemates ( boy and girl- in a relationship and they keep calling me to coffee now and then- probably more to check if I am still alive), to move back again with them. I don't know where that decision came from and why I was so prone to take it then and there. Am I returning to the old habits? The meditation is shallow. The porn addiction hit back worse than before, I keep thinking to go and drink or do drugs. I don't even join the yoga group anymore (that's more yoga for show), can't find the motivation to run the weekly 10 miles, sleep over 8 hours and feel sluggish, stop journaling. So the worst aspect of isolating myself and not seeing anyone in my friends is the communication aspect. I feel trapped. Like in a prison. I do not talk at work, at home or at the shop. I always feel like I don't know what to say or what to do. Even when I am forced to talk, I cannot find the right words to communicate what I want to say. All the good habits seem to fall off and I have no will to initiate something or to move towards something. I do not have any suicidal thoughts so far but the subject keeps popping in my mind now and then. I start a reading habit but it feels like I only understand the word, not comprehend the information in the book. I am looking for that person to keep telling me when I wake up COME ON let's do this. I cannot hear it anymore Am I going crazy or this is the way it should be? Anyone feels the same?

I do not necessarily fight with the bad habits, but because all the moments I lived so far were built around smoking pot or having few drinks I find it difficult to initiate a conversation outside this frame. Imagine that guy who walk into a pub and order water when everyone is drinking (actually I did that and didn't worked very well). But peace of mind about bad habits. I dropped the cigarettes and alcohol and drugs cold turkey which bewildered me. I do not feel a very strong desire for them it's just the way I used to know to get involved with other people. I can manage to get myself up and run for the next goal pretty quickly but I loose the interest and start to dabble and search for something new. Just realised how much helpful was the negative motivation in my work by watching at my friends and colleagues and telling to myself that I do not want to be like them and I can do more than wasting my time. The problem is that when I got alone I had no target to measure up my growth. All I hope is that the decision to move back with my friends came out of intuition. Thanks a lot for your time guys ? X P. S. I know I skip lots of bits and pieces as this are my first posts. Where on the form could I post a detailed journey and eventually add events as they fold?

@SpaceCowboy What I mean is why those people jump like possessed- like in Methodist or that sort of churches where they sing and faint and then jump up and sing again. hope you get my point

@SpaceCowboy @Leo Gura Would you participate in this kind of ceremonies? Don't know but when I see this kind of images they give me a feeling of cult brainwashing. Or maybe I cannot fathom stage turquoise