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The Andy Cutler book does say the first day after chelation it's normal to feel tired/cranky/depressed lol. Makes sense coz you have freed up some of those heavy metals and stopping the round (as opposed to getting it out of your body). But if the symptoms are still strong after one day it means the dosage is too high for you and you should prob try lowering the next round. So I think I was at about the right dosage..

@Matt23 thanks for the share! Though it seems to be US address only Yes I noticed that too after 1st round, and a very noticeable “feeling unwell” or hit hard by a train the day and after I stopped the round.

Ideally, but you still can't avoid periods of being single throughout your life, or your partner getting sick, being away various things like that etc. Idk it's just not always so smooth like that and coping mechanisms are good for those times.

@Thestarguitarist14 It's a coping thing I mean you simply can't have sex on demand even if you have a bf/gf that's not how relationships work and that could turn pretty toxic and potentially abusive. But yeah overdoing it can also make you unproductive/unable to focus so balance is key like anything. There are some anti-depressants type pharmaceuticals that lower your libido but there are side effects so I wouldn't recommend that unless it's really extreme.

Very true. You can channel it to multiply your output creatively whatever outlet speaks to you.

Lol yep, just maybe less common than there are men like that and they are probably more closeted because of the amount of slut shaming out there (so you don't hear about it as much as men talking about it). I don't know what the % is compared to men but one must also wonder why 50 shades of grey got so popular...

@Yoremo Maybe this per suggestion from another member, I haven't tried myself.

Yep... Women can have the same "problem" with their guy.. it's just a relativity thing - who has the higher drive in the relationship.

Very tricky, you should talk to a distress line/family violence/social worker person to come up with an 'escape' plan whenever a similar situation arises. Like, this is supposed to be treated the same way as a domestic violence case. Generally the advice is to have a few backup places to go when the person is acting out, eg, a friend's place, other relatives, temporary shelter... You can take legal action to have a restraining/no contact order. This may also force the issue of your 'joint investment' which may have to be redistributed. I'm not sure again where you live what the laws are around this you could seek legal counsel. I know it gets 'complicated' that it's your mother... but you deserve to live in a safe space.

@Bob Seeker Acupuncture plus some herbal treatment worked for me (for endo-related problems), I would've otherwise had to get surgery.. which after some research I learned has a high chance of recurrence. Took almost a year plus ongoing maintenance though to reach a pain-free level. Stress reduction also went along with it was also an important factor..

LoL one of my therapists quoted this in his office waiting area

LoL I love this answer

@catcat69123 hmm... that I don't need to wait around for the world to be more loving or keep complaining about how unloving it can be, that I can just start being more loving so as to create more of the reality I want to see.

@Rishabh R Yeah of course! Having a sense of abundance by meeting lots of people will help with the getting too attached too quick problem too.

Gotta just let go of what other people might think, plus we don't know what they'll think. That's going to come up over and over again if you're exploring and not settling down let's say. People will always judge and gossip, and maybe shame you. Will you let it stop you pursuing what's important to you? Alternatively you could gauge if there's bit of mutual interest or not.. plus you could be doing her a favor .

LoL that's honestly a pretty good deal if you want and got the job. It's another story if you no longer want the job and can't not pay them. Are there any other educational institutions that don't charge people upfront until they found a job? I've not heard of that. And most "education" is not about training for a job (except for technical college and certain fields) it's a fancy qualification that you can do x based on the courses you took, and few even offer job networking opportunities.. yeah the system is not optimal but relative to what else is out there you got a decent deal.

@Rishabh R I'm sorry... Sounds like you're just very lonely and struggling to connect. Don't blame yourself for wanting that and pursuing that. Just practice letting go better when someone you want to connect with doesn't want the same. Before you find a full blown relationship maybe look for connection with strangers, coworkers, friends to be, family members if they're healthy. Those will help too. Much love.

@PurpleTree The truth of reality cannot hurt us, it's what we tell ourselves/against ourselves about what we are presented with (eg, the triggering behaviors of others): that we're unlovable, unworthy, unattractive, etc. Recognize that others are simply souls dressed up as egos navigating their own journey. Sometimes their journey is meant to be with you, and sometimes without you. You have a choice in the matter, you can choose to be somewhere or not be, just like others do as well. Sometimes others want to end the interaction before you do, sometimes you want to end it before they do. It's okay to feel bad about not being able to connect with another soul, but we have to learn to move on with grace as it is the highest love to give the other their agency to do so. We do not need to go through our journey by using other people's journey against us and establish who we ultimately are based on the path they take. I hope this helps with letting go of the people who are not meant to be on your path/journey at that time or anymore. Much love.

Dawww... I hear you. It's like you "logically" know the material but not feeling it in your day-to-day reality. I'm going to approach this with an assumption that you desire positive connections in relation to another (as opposed to when you are on your own). Do you find that loving people are scarce in your life and is this what you want more of but maybe don't think you can ask for? Do you think others in your life might have felt the same way? How might one increase connection when relating to the other so as to feel more seen and loved and reciprocate the same, as opposed to the other way around? Is it possible to branch out to more people/interactions/situations that I have previously shied away from? Do you feel you have something others want like the thing you might want in others? And I hear that you are doing this pretty well when you're alone.. perhaps in nature.. is it possible to see the people who 'gave you the cold shoulder' the same way as you might see a tree? or as part of the universe you have connected with? Would that affect how you feel about the situation next time?

@Ulax Thank you very much! @Glaucus You're welcome, yea for sure, anytime!

@Glaucus I've gone through this. This is a healthy phase you're going through even if it may seem the opposite to you.. to society. Your repressed emotions are finally allowed to surface and be processed. Now it may be difficult to do this completely on your own but it is still possible. I've worked through alot of it through writing and playing music, grieving, having a couple of "allies" who are on the child's side. You could look for a good therapist (may take a few tries). The form it takes will be unique to each one of us. Be gentle during this time, if you possibly can take some time off or not be externally focused all the time I would recommend that. You will come out of it eventually by siding with the inner child.. Feel free to pm me if you want some resources I have found helpful.

@Wilhelm44 Lol, I was supposed to attend his online gathering on Wednesday and missed it on my calendar, thanks for the share.

@Matt23 Yes ideally, if the tests were as accessible as in the US I would totally want to get the data and do the before and after.. but here in Canada I haven't found something so accessible. I found a naturopathic clinic that might do the test but they make you jump through a bunch of hoops like having consultations with the doc first...blah blah. I'm just a bit over seeing doctors for this right now. I've been having unexplainable symptoms and going to docs for a couple years with no answers.. The exhaustion is real! I would love to know if you find a good accessible source for testing, please share it with the Canadian folks. For now journalling and observing will do.