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It could be something more like empathy that even when you are mostly healed, you can’t help but be sensitive to what’s happening around you, since you have been there/to “hell” others may be going through the same.

Rupert Spira has one coming up in San Fran: https://rupertspira.com/event/2022-03-18-seven-day-retreat-at-mercy-center-ca-18th-to-25th-march

Hm, I know people say don't take advice from a girl but I'll say it anyway. You gotta give her almost a killer look, just long enough, don't move your head though, and then let it go see if she reciprocates something. Have fun.

I just do what speaks authentically to me. Authenticity more than anything. What do you believe in and strive for consistently in this line of work you chose? People do really respond to this when you're genuine and it'll make you feel in alignment as well, rather than trying to do something that someone else might feel in alignment with. Often the work itself is marketing, with the 'marketing' aspects fleshed out around the work and kept simplistic that enhances your work. Hope that helps.

The evolution of Leo Gura.

I get you... therapy is indeed very frustrating, I had almost lost hope too took me 6 tries to find a good one. Seems like a lot of them just don't understand deep depression - which is a healthy reaction to what's happened/happening in your life. Yeah of course not having (zero) quality connection will make you suffer and get like that. I can relate to much of what you're saying and I have come out the other side so you can too. There are many such kindred souls you seek on this forum for example. But yes society at large tends to be in the 'dark ages' still... but once you can find your own healing you'll be able to see this in a more forgiving light - like you're almost like a parent or something, a healthy parent - that's a possibilty for you. Right now just focus on you, be a little selfish if that feels good. Just do what feels good for awhile - and that could counterintuitively mean just be authentically sad if that's where you are, even if others don't get it. See this is actually an opportunity because you're one of the ones who's tired of the bullshit and want to create a different reality. This is a catalyst to you creating the kind of world you want to see. Maybe you can't accept someone's love because it feels manipulating or conditional, like they'll try to use that against you sometime down the road.. perhaps you've experienced this before..

@John Paul LoL yes true, just tiresome still, but I guess do it for love, while pushing the limits every so often. It makes total sense to me actually. It becomes this paradoxical thing, or you bask in the beauty of being and that alone is deeply fulfilling... Also yes sex with people you don't really resonate with doesn't feel right.. like some kind of robotic act.

I feel like the more "spiritual" I get the less traditionally social I am. Keyword is "traditional". I very much enjoy and seek the company of people with similar wavelength but is just so rare it's like a miracle if when I do find that. When I meet someone like this hardly any words need to be said. The rest is mostly obligation like family or certain work situations for example so I have to put on more of an act more than anything to not upset the herd.. I think my life purpose (as opposed to "sociability") is much more/have the potential to be in alignment to the degree of embodiment of where I am spiritually.

@John Paul you're welcome. Nice cookie monster.

You are not bad. Most people act out of what they consider to be good intentions. What may seem "bad" to someone may simply be what is not beneficial to their survival. Much love ??

Just FYI I don't think you can use Leo's face as profile pic per guidelines... What's not allowed: Using images of Leo or the Actualized.org logo for your profile picture. Didn't think you wanted to rack up warning points...or maybe you did? ?

Not sure about the test but, https://www.livingsupplements.com/ for DMSA sourcing.

I have 'subscribed' to what boils down to the "highest love in every situation" as the aim. It's kind of abstract at first but it becomes obvious to you after some time. Obviously, a lot of this overlaps with what you've stated already. I just don't feel like it's helpful to me to follow a strict set, as there always will be exceptions depending on the circumstance. But I suppose it can be a good place to start for some.

@Federico del pueblo Yeah I can't say for sure if chiropractor would help you coz I don't know your condition, but mine did! I had neck pain for almost a year after a rear end accident, and tried massage and stretching and stuff but none of that resolved it. I was pretty misaligned according to him. Definitely takes a bit of trust and make sure to find a reputable guy if you're trying this route. Good luck!

That's a good point! 90% feels pretty darn good already.

It's hard to say... problem is I was having some fatigue problems already before this.. I think the chelation is helping. *fingers crossed*

??? I literally sometimes wonder if it's possible to continue my life purpose in my 'next life' rofl.

Hard to know this for certain. I suspect it does only because it tends to keep things like depression at bay, which can manifest into chronic health problems if not treated. But yes it can be overdone and cause too much stress/burnout too so I guess depends on the balance and approach.

@Gabith That's awesome, good on you for having a breakthrough!! Sounds like the crisis pushed you towards more acceptance and appreciation for life in this present moment. ? ? There're alot of stuff I wish was actually taught in school...

@Shawn Philips They can be useful pointers. Words are always limiting. But the idea is that you're still not fully liberated/internally free if you're still compelled to do something like a hamster on a wheel, in contrast to engaging with life with playfulness. And that could be considered a part of healing if one may desire to be free from this compulsion. I was just trying to speculate what the teacher OP mentioned may have been referencing.

Yeah I can see both perspectives being true.. on the one hand how does one define healing? If healing is defined by past trauma and therefore when one fully awakens and integrates and worked through shadow stuff, healing is done and total. On the other hand, if healing is meant something more that includes integration/embodiment, burning of karma etc, then perhaps it is neverending though even that could technically be reached. I think when I was in the midst of it it felt like it would be never ending. But now I'm thinking it could end (and I am either done or pretty close to it personally).

https://www.youtube.com/c/UrbanFarmerCurtisStone I followed this guy pretty closely back in the days. He's in a slightly warmer part of Canada but still going and has been pretty successful.

Aren't they still under the videos?

Sexual harassment, abuse, blackmail, triangulating. Frankly, a whole host of terms that all boil down to being a butthole.