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@Matt23 I was/am currently on 50mg of DMSA and 25mg of ALA. The effect was tolerable for me but I was feeling pretty tired/brain foggy the day after stopping, not so much memory wise. Might help if you time it so that your first round ends on an off day where you don't need to do anything intense/cognitively taxing I would suggest. I think maybe I started a bit high on DMSA but so far okay.

@catcat69123 yes great point, I guess almost like taking psychedelics one can integrate the experience with a therapist to outside therapy. Glad to hear that it works for you and for sharing that. I've moved on from therapy right now as it has reached its limits of exploration (it's a good thing). I think my most recent therapist was what you would call a 'healer', and a lot of the 'being stuck spinning wheels' to find a source of unconditional love that I have not gotten as a child has been healed... then of course I got overly attached and realized this 'relationship' could not expand more it was time to go and explore on my own again. It has allowed me to be a lot more independent if that makes sense.

Yeah so true, quality relationships can be really scarce for some of us... And we have to resort to paying a large sum of money to get a little bit of it from a therapist sometimes (if they're good too..).

@Dabidoe Yeah that totally makes sense detangling yourself from statistics. I think yeah some do use the diagnosis to not try to get out of it or really examine their life and what's contributing to it still, but I guess I have empathy for that it can be really hard to get out of a rut on your own if you have little to no support and guidance... To me there's an individual component for change but also a societal/environmental component and I feel like both contribute to a chronic mental illness. Just hypothetically speaking someone in a rut and for whatever reason find themself completely isolated will find it hard to get out of it, like you say the stigma as well makes it hard for you to find and keep a job, is tied to very practical matters. So I strongly believe both individual desire for change and there being some support to go through a rough patch are essential.

ah you're bursting people's bubbles!

Theory should be developed to help you express yourself. That's my take, it should not take precedence over what you want to express (unless you are wanting to be a theory expert first and foremost of course..). And you can learn so much from other people's work, backed up by an understanding of theory/patterns. You don't need to be an expert on it to play and/or write songs. Just look at Green Day some of their songs have such a simple riff.

I get the sense there're more spiritual folks too.. here in Canada when you mention the word spirituality people think you're crazy coz they immediately think Christianity/Catholicism, so few people are exposed to spirituality the way we converse about it here.

@kray lol I started not long ago too. I am on electric though like others have said it's easier to get into mechanically, also I just love the distorted overdriven sound ?. I have a private teacher though I find that helps me not get overwhelmed/motivated and develop good techniques. Some people might do better on their own depends. Like with piano I stopped with teachers because it's now become stifling and I'm able to navigate on my own. So all in all see what helps motivate you. Great learning tool I found was Songsterr (I was so shocked when I discovered they even have JRock).

You got to find what speaks to you, I've moved on from what I thought was my "LP" after exhausting it even though others thought it was 'cool' lol, and that's aok too if that feels right to you.

It's a pretty common thread with musicians. If that's where your passion lies, even if it doesn't make money right now or only a little bit here and there, I would continue to work on it somehow, maybe with more of a clear vision of how I may turn this into my primary gig down the road, outside of your jobs and whatnot. All depends on how much you want to pursue this.. if staying with mom for longer to make this happen in the next year/two, or that's too much uncertainty and you really want to be more independent then I would move out regardless of if music is making you money. Another option is to do something that earns more money for your time for the next few years so you can then free up room/have the financial means to work on music. Hope that helps.

This work takes time, I think Leo mentioned it too in some of his videos, it could take you years to awaken fully, and then another some years to integrate that stuff into your life. And the catch is there likely won't be anyone out there to validate your growth. Accept where you are right now, there's no need to 'rush'. The confusion, overwhelm, meaninglessness is a normal part of the process. How did I deal with it? Trusting that this is part of growth. It's like metamorphosis and when a caterpillar goes through this process nothing seems to happen to the outside world, but a great struggle is happening inside. The practical stuff is still important to get a handle on, most teachers don't recommend going too fast without handling the practical side of things first. Internal growth does not necessarily make practical stuff 'easier' especially in the beginning, coz you might notice more and more how misaligned you are as you grow. They don't always have to move in synchronicity if that's what you're noticing one is lagging behind the other but more than likely you won't be able to stand not matching them up. That's why Leo stress so strongly having a life purpose/vision as well, so you don't get lost in the inner work and have this massive misalignment when you're spiritually developed but can't function in day-to-day. Much love.

Yeah it depends on how the individual sees it and those around them. I agree for some it can perpetuate this victim mentality, though I would say during an acute stage of manifestation, validation/recognition of the individual as they are and what injustice/neglect they may have gone through is an important part of moving on/forgiveness. Mental health diagnoses when used in a poor sense by professionals put people in this 'helpless patient' box and can make them feel 'lesser' like something is inherently wrong with them. More than likely they're just reacting to what happened to them and unable to get out of that cycle and internalized pattern even after getting out of the situation. Sometimes the 'professionals' can abuse their authority and continue to perpetuate in the individual that 'they are needing to be fixed' to keep them seeing the therapist, and it's hard for the person to tell sometimes. What I think the best approach is empowerment that the individual can move forward and move towards fitness like you say. Like most medical diagnoses, just telling someone what they have (the symptoms) doesn't really solve the root of the issue. Ie, the root of it may be they are still being abused one way or another, and they're not taking action to get out of it; they're not living in alignment with their truths and not moving towards alignment, etc. I personally think the root cause of all these 'mental disorders' can be traced back to a lack of unconditional love. Viewed in that sense we all deserve more unconditional love not less and whatever form that takes is unique to each of us.

Sorry for that, I think they're just trying to be attention-grabbing in this case (I hope so anyway). I don't necessarily agree with everything he says elsewhere but in this particular one I thought was well put together and I resonated with.

The Andy Cutler book does say the first day after chelation it's normal to feel tired/cranky/depressed lol. Makes sense coz you have freed up some of those heavy metals and stopping the round (as opposed to getting it out of your body). But if the symptoms are still strong after one day it means the dosage is too high for you and you should prob try lowering the next round. So I think I was at about the right dosage..

@Matt23 thanks for the share! Though it seems to be US address only Yes I noticed that too after 1st round, and a very noticeable “feeling unwell” or hit hard by a train the day and after I stopped the round.

Ideally, but you still can't avoid periods of being single throughout your life, or your partner getting sick, being away various things like that etc. Idk it's just not always so smooth like that and coping mechanisms are good for those times.

@Thestarguitarist14 It's a coping thing I mean you simply can't have sex on demand even if you have a bf/gf that's not how relationships work and that could turn pretty toxic and potentially abusive. But yeah overdoing it can also make you unproductive/unable to focus so balance is key like anything. There are some anti-depressants type pharmaceuticals that lower your libido but there are side effects so I wouldn't recommend that unless it's really extreme.

Very true. You can channel it to multiply your output creatively whatever outlet speaks to you.

Lol yep, just maybe less common than there are men like that and they are probably more closeted because of the amount of slut shaming out there (so you don't hear about it as much as men talking about it). I don't know what the % is compared to men but one must also wonder why 50 shades of grey got so popular...

@Yoremo Maybe this per suggestion from another member, I haven't tried myself.

Yep... Women can have the same "problem" with their guy.. it's just a relativity thing - who has the higher drive in the relationship.

Very tricky, you should talk to a distress line/family violence/social worker person to come up with an 'escape' plan whenever a similar situation arises. Like, this is supposed to be treated the same way as a domestic violence case. Generally the advice is to have a few backup places to go when the person is acting out, eg, a friend's place, other relatives, temporary shelter... You can take legal action to have a restraining/no contact order. This may also force the issue of your 'joint investment' which may have to be redistributed. I'm not sure again where you live what the laws are around this you could seek legal counsel. I know it gets 'complicated' that it's your mother... but you deserve to live in a safe space.

@Bob Seeker Acupuncture plus some herbal treatment worked for me (for endo-related problems), I would've otherwise had to get surgery.. which after some research I learned has a high chance of recurrence. Took almost a year plus ongoing maintenance though to reach a pain-free level. Stress reduction also went along with it was also an important factor..

LoL one of my therapists quoted this in his office waiting area