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Spacious awareness is a good starting point (like Eckhart Tolle?), there's more to this awareness (aspects and magnitude, etc), so keep digging! I've been awakening the past 3-4 years now I guess, I'm now 33.

Sounds nice, that kind of thing can be challenging without some initial capital/funding and/or partnership. Hopefully you have some connections to help you get started.

On that point and bit of a tangent since we're talking about corporate greed. Uber should really be banned/made illegal for tricking people into working less than min wage (knowingly or unknowingly). Or some kind of disclaimer stating "You may be working under the min wage after expenses". It's odd to me almost no government seems to care about this rampant phenomenon of practically free labor. And it does matter these kinds of apps are allowed to exist because it does take away potential jobs that would pay more fairly to delivery drivers. Another case of clever devils flying under the radar of law enforcement (labor laws).. though really not that clever, anyone who has done some basic taxes knows how to calculate vehicle expenses divided by mileage, plus your vehicle's worth (divided by mileage). In some cases you're actually losing money. It's just that nobody wants to give a damn to shut them down.

Almost nobody wants to really wake up, aka return to heaven and be one with their brothers, so yeah the higher you go the more likely you're really alone in this world even all the spiritual people you can't connect with. Technically I shouldn't be complaining about this situation, but if I don't then nobody will ever know about this situation.

The silver lining is that this was prob one of the best "bonding experiences" you could have for an online forum. I think I would "know" if something bad happened.. it didn't feel that way so I wasn't too alarmed overall.. but on the other hand if something bad did happen and your forum was down on top of that there're not many ways to get in touch with everyone again. So hopefully for the people (besides Leo) you like to reach out some point you've asked for a back up contact info, that would be my suggestion..

Just ending your current life/body will not automatically get you to heaven. There's more work before that if that's what you want. So basically whatever your last shroom trip was, that might be roughly where you end up in terms of your state. It's very likely you'll just come back again to another life and do it all over again from a baby.

I looked that up, I see, that was not what I was thinking of, that kind of word def trips me up at times (where it can get mixed up with conscience). Well.. to me the concept of "genetics" is made up just like how birth and death is made up. I see beings in terms of kinds of mind and stages of awake-ness mostly.. which relates to ego. You can come into this world already quite ego-less (maybe you were just hanging out as an angel or some higher spirit/angel prior to coming here for example). That's as far as I can recall in terms of my "past life", I can't prove that to anyone though. And I also don't remember more of my past lives. But you can def do a lot of spiritual work in a life time if you wanted. There's usually more than 1 factors for that. I just mean that if you're already high conscious at a young age the kind of bullshit one has to go through usually to make lots of money (as the primary goal) just won't even interest you. So I'm saying a very awake person is more likely to be not that wealthy because that's not their goal, nor can they stomach taking a lot of money from others (such as some people do with what I consider to be "essential services").

Mostly not that helpful but I had some brief periods where I almost couldn't function during my awakening journey, and it helped for those blips so I only recommend it for short term use I guess.

What kind of jobs are you thinking about that would pay well for that? I can't think of many except maybe psychologist/therapy but they're not that high conscientious to me due to how much money they charge people (so it's a catch 22). If you're really high conscientious you couldn't even be a psychologist. It's kind of bizarre where you either end up in a low wage situation or something like hundreds of dollars an hour. That doesn't make any sense really. To me it's generally tied to the ego, how much ego someone has, the more ego generally the more they only care about money/material pursuits often at the expense of everything else. The more ego is also more lack of consciousness. It's almost too predictable too like from a high view most people just seem like robots/zombies to me when they prioritize money over everything else. And I'm not talking about low/mid wage earners.. It's very hard to be honest, there's no normal life if you go hardcore on it. If you go to the deep end you're kind of at the mercy of some of the few people around you. I mean yeah there's always low wage jobs you can do just to get by but that's really not a good use of your time if you can avoid that. Determinants.. I say it's the evolution of your "soul"/mind over many lifetimes, and sometimes who you might come across on your path can play a big role if you were receptive. I don't know, I just mean Leo had a different kind of income set up than most people, he's not trading hours for a wage or working for a boss/firm, it sounds like he worked a bunch in early years along with actualized and then now actualized pretty much pays his bills on autopilot. This is very unusual not something most people even most creatives can just pull off. That's just my observation.

I don't think it's genetics.. There's just bound to be at least periods where you have almost no interest with the outside world (except the rare souls you might find). And a period of, well shit literally I cannot find anybody here that can understand me. And maybe eventually arrive at some occupation/paid work that can tie your spiritual progress together. I mean you don't know how Leo really lived his life, he prob also had periods where not much "money making work" was done if you know what I mean. I mean he already set himself up with actualized so seems like to me most of the later stuff was done after he had already gotten the financials taken care of. And all the other well known spiritual teachers getting paid with their job as spiritual teachers, are not that awake to me. Meaning again the point being if you want to go to the deep end with this it's almost impossible to make a living out of that. It's also a numbers thing, there's just not many people who are looking for that or would pay for it. The more mainstream spiritual you are the more likely you are to get paid for it. The more awake you are the more likely you're a "volunteer".

Yes, they are very "clever" in fact, hiding behind masks and being good actors that fool 99% of the population. And some will fool most judges etc. Thank you very much.

idk which area you're talking about which could very well be true.. I guess I'm referring to places where freedom of expression in other creative and non destructive ways are abundant but people still choosing criminality. When I say "criminality" I mean people who seem to enjoy the sufferings of others and getting a high out of it, with no remorse empathy whatsoever.

I understand that point. However that's still a conscious choice someone makes, esp if they're at that kind of "IQ" level. Somehow, ethics and being good just didn't matter nearly as much as gaining at the great expense of others ("criminality"). And most of these kind of criminals I was trying to refer to are not the "poor or desperate" kind.

The reality is if you want to do serious spiritual work in this day and age you either have to have landed on some wealth somehow or have some help or at least a back up like a good family. If you try to go to the deep end with absolutely nothing (no extra support) it's almost impossible, unless your country has some nice welfare system. Because fundamentally serious spiritual work will get you "out of this system/universe" altogether. And that would by definition make it harder to do basic survival (because you have a different mindset). Any remainder motivations to be here is for a different reason than most people here have.

You can be the "smartest person" and be a criminal or the smartest person and be a Saint, or somewhere else, "hyperintelligence/mind" alone will not be enough to determine things. Many criminals seem to have "hyperintelligence" that most law enforcement have a hard time cracking.

I have the same thing. What helps is reducing emotional distress, staying away from toxic people (that's usually when it gets worse for me), and finding work that suits your body. My own thoughts on the condition is that it's largely a spritual condition but not necessarily about you. My current conclusion is that it is because you are spiritually more connected and the body pains is a symptom of the spiritual pain you experience around you.

Er yeah similar kind of things, "murdery" and violent kinds of scenarios which I won't go into details. It happened more than once so it wasn't like some coincidence. Those can be kind of traumatizing too I had to process it a bunch after..

I hear you, I mean there's low/high conscious monogamy and non-monogamy so it all just depends on the people involved at the end of the day is how I see it. I mean for me a non-monogamous situation will only really start to apply/be possible if I have even 1 partner to begin with, and if somehow that relationship evolved to a point where the healthy thing to do is to be "poly". I mean if you don't even have 1 partner (who may or may not want that) then it's just arm-chair philosophy . Or you're just dating around in a non committed fashion which isn't really what I consider poly either.. I'm just saying in practice, most people are just trying to get more for themselves rather than trying to consider the situation as a whole, don't have true consent, etc, which leads to toxic scenarios. The other complication too is that it's still taboo with our society at large, and there are not much legal protection around this. So what ends up happening is most people have to hide it from most other people especially with family or work places.

Haven't met anyone I consider "green" to be truly poly.. most people still have a primary partner and then treat everyone else as secondary or "sex friend" which isn't true poly. Idk most guys who say they are "poly" are really just trying to hook up with multiple women with "no strings", that's my exp anyway. It's really quite the let down when you find out they're just using this poly thing to take advantage of people. Meanwhile you have a totally different idea of what poly means.. Because I think basically you have to all kinda like each other at the barest minimum for it to be truly "ethical", and not just faking it, which means something like every addition to the "group" needs some kind of consent I guess for it to work well.. and that my friend, is actually quite a tall order and gets too complicated real quick . And because the transcending or questioning of traditionalist thinking really only happens around or after "yellow".. "True poly" requires a lot of selflessness, and people aren't capable of that unless they're already very healed, which is rare. Almost nobody in this world enters relationships to be "selfless" as the default motivation. I mean just the fact that the majority of well known spiritual teachers have traditional monogamous relationships, how do you think the average person or someone considered less developed than them is going to do in a non-monogamous situation? But I'm speaking more from a more idealistic angle.. most relationships are not founded upon such idealism(s). So there's nothing stopping people from having all kinds of what I consider toxic poly set ups.. but I'm just 1 sample point, maybe you had better outcomes.

Doesn't really work unless just about everyone involved is extremely high conscious (like more so than even 99% of this forum, eg stage Turquoise minimum), that's my conclusion based on some actual experience. And funny enough if you reach such high level of consciousness you wouldn't wanna deal with the drama anymore anyway lol. Not just "drama", you don't really care about "traditional" relationships with most people in general.. because well.. you can't even relate with them anymore. It's all fine to experiment though..

Escitalopram gave me those nightmares. There's plenty of documentation for this for SSRI's.

You could always just try it out like you don't have to follow what the doctor's say necessarily in terms of how long you should take them.. watch how you actually respond to any medication yourself. I've never taken SSRI's for longer than a month at a time but I was mostly just using them to get over a really rough period. Don't need them anymore now since I know any "bad feelings" I get is just normal and due to my connection with spirit.

I've taken some SSRI's, it helped in some ways but I was too sensitive to them so the negative effects always caught on pretty quick.. It depends on the drug too I feel like some of them open up a portal to a demonic place in the collective mind, like I would have very horrible nightmares that are very much what you might see from a horror movie and very disturbing, and not stuff I would normally think about. Long story short, I only took them briefly when it "helped" until they didn't and caused problems. Like you say they could be similar to some psychedelics.

If you're thinking you're in the "addiction" territory then you're probably using that to cope with some unexamined pain or unmet need. Like something pretty fundamental to most beings. Do you have at least 1 friend/person you trust you can talk to in your life? If no, access to a therapist or distress line?

By the time he gets to it (if he does) you're prob not just going to be meeting 1 "Leo".