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Maybe the desire for doing this is because you feel alone in your understanding and have not fully accepted the cost of reaching where you are at.

@Batman Thanks yeah.. I've been processing it. So far in terms of embodiment not too much has changed, I had conceptually grasped being God/in oneness with everything, and experienced many times dying as the limited self prior to this. The direct realization deepens what was there, (there was some trauma too to know so directly there's no other and everything is dreamed up), and that there's not much else for me to "do" except to be in alignment with universal consciousness/love. I am much more able to be in the present and see it as perfection. There's perhaps less doubt in what "path" to take. I don't think it would be wise to share with everyone I come across but there's a way to frame/hint at this that may be more "palatable", for those who have an opening. There's a paradox of love being sharing the truths that you know with those who want it, but also "respecting" the wishes of "others" around you who want to keep the dream and not yet "wake up". Probably a similar dilemma Leo ran into with "solipsism".

Thanks @Matthew85 .

It's not a belief, I don't care about the word solipsism either . @thisintegrated this is the problem about talking about this stuff on here .

I see. Well.. I guess for me it doesn't change the love that's there, even knowing they're ultimately "part of myself", I feel like it only increases it for me. And I can appreciate any form of interaction be it in a 'relationship' or not in one. There's also a playfulness to any seeking of an interaction/experience. Everyone is perfection, but you may resonate more with some than others.

So what are you trying to "deal with" exactly? I was just referring to how I would see/deal with the "loss" of someone through whatever means this "loss" happened.

The love can still be there. Uhh it's gonna sound controversial again but you can still love someone when they're not nearby.

@Atb210201 It's all good you're learning from it.. It's all part of life. Highest love includes love for yourself too.

Maybe be more honest about what you want/how you see things earlier on in your communications? That way you can get a sense about if you're compatible/on a similar page.

Thanks @Leo Gura for being the catalyst/guide/pioneer in guiding me reaching this point.

@Michael Jackson <3<3<3 Thank you I'm glad to hear it resonated!!

3rd 3.5g Golden Teacher Mushroom "Trip" (lawl): Words cannot describe the profundity! I broke down in tears of joy, crawling on the floor, screaming This beautiful body I have created and experiencing through I created it I created Leo, Yasu, Brian, Louis, Aaron, my parents, this floor, the neighbors, this phone, everything Look at the hands, the face, the hair Holy fuck I’m just imagining it and calling it reality and "myself". My “crushes”, my “pains”, my "sexuality", my "gender" questioning, led me to this truth of who I am This grand illusion to deceive myself in order to experience and express myself This truth was inside of me all along, like the music I yearned to express Did Brian know? The mushroom lady, did she know? I am literally everyone, I cannot contain this absolutely endless stream of consciousness I am now able to perceive There is no one else but me I am all there is I had created such a convincing dream And it’s so beautiful and perfect I fooled myself I had to be fooled in order to experience through this facet of creation totally and deeply, this dream But I knew something was up, something fishy! And now I found out the fucking truth This body is not what it seems This avatar is just a lens I am expressing and seeing through I created this as part of myself expressing and knowing myself Mushrooms and Leo and Actualized.org, what the fuck that was so genius I laugh at the thought of “buying mushrooms” to return to my true nature Are you going to doubt this once this "trip" wears off? You're just going to call it a "trip" No. The dream, my life as I knew it, was the trip, it's been flipped! How the fuck was I able to access this? I feel so deeply loved to know this directly

@Razard86 I think OP just wants to connect, like face to face. It's all good.

@thisintegrated He's saying you can't always count on changing the way reality operates to the way you want it to, but that you may still be able to get what you want through another means.

@KoryKat Sends you a *virtual hug* . Side note: Kuddos for speaking up for what you want - seems like much growth happened for you since your post about "saying no". Also you could always start your Meetup group with a focus and see if anyone in your area shows up.

I'm thinking maybe it's even a very practical thing too... Like opening yourself up to legal liabilities for things you had no oversight over.

Um yeah, I do agree about the disappointment at least in not being able to advertise about local meet-up groups. Mostly I just give up on the thought and appreciate what is available. Other "spiritual communities" are equally inaccessible (in person) unless you have lots of money lol. Maybe it's easy for things to "get out of hand"? Also he stresses about going beyond Actualized.org.

Y'all should just do what Leo says. It becomes awkward when the guy is expecting the girl to make lots of "moves" (happens too often). Side note: I think many men (and women) need some kind of therapy/self-therapy to be truly great on dates. One of the main hurdles I run into is just guys who go on and on about themselves and put in little effort to connect. Dates are like their therapy sessions with hopefully a happy ending lol.

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Haha, from a high level yeah, the other stuff usually comes with being highly conscious. High consciousness = love, presence/awareness. And that is that which all the other stuff can come out of that others have mentioned.

High consciousness.