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That's a good point! 90% feels pretty darn good already.

It's hard to say... problem is I was having some fatigue problems already before this.. I think the chelation is helping. *fingers crossed*

??? I literally sometimes wonder if it's possible to continue my life purpose in my 'next life' rofl.

Hard to know this for certain. I suspect it does only because it tends to keep things like depression at bay, which can manifest into chronic health problems if not treated. But yes it can be overdone and cause too much stress/burnout too so I guess depends on the balance and approach.

@Gabith That's awesome, good on you for having a breakthrough!! Sounds like the crisis pushed you towards more acceptance and appreciation for life in this present moment. ? ? There're alot of stuff I wish was actually taught in school...

@Shawn Philips They can be useful pointers. Words are always limiting. But the idea is that you're still not fully liberated/internally free if you're still compelled to do something like a hamster on a wheel, in contrast to engaging with life with playfulness. And that could be considered a part of healing if one may desire to be free from this compulsion. I was just trying to speculate what the teacher OP mentioned may have been referencing.

Yeah I can see both perspectives being true.. on the one hand how does one define healing? If healing is defined by past trauma and therefore when one fully awakens and integrates and worked through shadow stuff, healing is done and total. On the other hand, if healing is meant something more that includes integration/embodiment, burning of karma etc, then perhaps it is neverending though even that could technically be reached. I think when I was in the midst of it it felt like it would be never ending. But now I'm thinking it could end (and I am either done or pretty close to it personally).

https://www.youtube.com/c/UrbanFarmerCurtisStone I followed this guy pretty closely back in the days. He's in a slightly warmer part of Canada but still going and has been pretty successful.

Aren't they still under the videos?

Sexual harassment, abuse, blackmail, triangulating. Frankly, a whole host of terms that all boil down to being a butthole.

@Preety_India Also forgot to say, this isn't 'passive aggressive', it is pretty darn aggressive lol. Passive-aggressive is when you turn a guy down and then afterward he just kind of 'ignores' you or is not as friendly as before for example.

Rofl yeah something positive always a bonus. I think I did but I tested negative for it early 2020, but I've never gotten that sick before with pneumonia and everything, couldn't work for like 3-4 months along with the cough and extreme fatigue, at one point I seriously thought I was gonna die coz I was having such a hard time breathing just laying in bed and can't sleep coz short of breath and barely can take care of myself. So in my mind it felt like I got another chance to live. ??

Yeah.. sorry to hear man. I genuinely wish you were in a better place in the world or something.

I think this is more like 'harrassment' more than anything.. but maybe it's more common in India I'm not sure. I've experienced that before and it has a feeling of unsafety. Unfortunately if the society at large decides not to protect women from this I don't know what you can do .

Would you consider seeing a chiropractor as well? Maybe something got misaligned and can be re-aligned. Shoulder blades easily do that, sometimes also happens when we sleep in a weird position and just never notice.

Hmm... can't say anything about the ribcage pain.. was that like a muscle thing or felt more internal? But yeah the coughing can go on a long time/turn into bronchitis.

To be fair lot of people here are here because they had/have bad upbringing and lack of social supports/relationships otherwise as a result, and are still working through this with little support they can find from this forum, plus wanting to grow etc. I don't think it's just about "finding truth" though the two aren't exclusive.

@Gabith I'm so sorry about that.. something out of your control and you were just going on with your life. It could be a good test/opportunity to contemplate and see if you can go higher than what is happening in the relative and notice how much your sense of being is still dependent on what's happening in the external world. What is in your power to do right now is to stop the division that is limiting your ability to create/vision a world you do want to be in and have the power to create. This is all affected by the way you feel and how you may act on those feelings. If we want more peacefulness and love we must also invite those into ourselves, aim to raise our consciousness so totally that no darkness can be found in our presence. This is a great growth opportunity. You can do it . Sending peace and love.

Yes similar, maybe it helped that I followed his content from the start/read lot of the books on his booklist, and have been integrating it all throughout I'd say... doing shadow work crap that was keeping me from peacefulness , went through various health problems, etc. In a pretty good place now don't think solipsism or something else can easily throw me into a deep end... but life is always testing.

There aren't alot of information to go off of.. how long have you been feeling fear/anxiety? That might give a clue.. the stuff you mentioned may be triggers to something else, hard to say. And what do you mean by can't stop thinking about suicide? For yourself or others?

@BlueOak

I don't know about protein shakes but since starting heavy metal chelation my complexion has gotten better.

The most Actualized.org question I've ever read.

Here’s a list to start off: Go for a walk, go to bed at a decent hour, eat less crap, watch the sunset, get in shape, meet a hottie.