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@ZzzleepingBear Yeah that all makes sense. It is tough when most people expect us to have 'goals' or chase after 'things' that are most likely not going to align with ours anymore or not the same way(s), or because everything is already enough/good. You're right whenever we interact with others this issue comes up. It's definitely a fairly 'lonely' place as a result.. because of either having to appease/fake something to be with someone or be yourself and risk not being accepted. Probably especially hard if you're still kinda young.

I think that's a very attainable possibility actually.. just don't be too hard on yourself for not being there yet. : )

Yes it's a hard task... I wish this was more like a "vision board" where we can throw ideas about what kind of society we want to have/live in collectively... it is challenging to not create division but if we all make an effort it's possible to get to the good stuff ;).

That's awesome! Embrace the "misfit lifestyle".

Good move .

@SamC Thank you for asking. It has been life transforming to say the least. I don't feel like I'm on a 'hamster wheel' anymore which I was for much of my life even though it diminished over time with healing work and going through the process of deconstruction. I feel like everything I've lived up to awakening was to help myself awaken, and I am so grateful that it happened relatively soon. I live in this moment and there's 'no goal' in a 'serious sense' only in the relative sense and anything I pursue is for growth, to experience/explore, and to love. Even if I allow myself to feel deep sadness about something I still feel very whole and complete in the "background" and be able to see things as "perfection". I feel free to express myself and express how I see things with people most of the time (unless it's unsafe to, some intelligence about this is still required). There's a call to continue to explore in that state of consciousness. There's this overwhelming love I want to express in various ways to the extent that "others" can/are ready to receive. Much of my motivations now lie in the desire to help others live more freely and blissfully. There're still some things to figure out like what shape that'll take on but I have lots of faith in the process. I suppose the other main challenge is just having no one to share these with, as most people I run into are far removed from this kind of pursuit/understanding. So am glad the forum exists. ?

?? Okay noted.

Does that actually make it so that you can take more? I would reduce it if it still happens with other methods.. I get pretty effective trips on half that dose. Haven't tried more yet though.

@Muhammad Jawad Sounds like you have a lot of conflicts to work through I trust that you can work through all of those paradoxes to find yourself much more in alignment with what you really desire and being in time. It also sounds like you’re going through a nihilistic phase which is totally normal in this process! It is not a straightforward endeavor and you have very few people to share it with/receive guidance from, so give yourself a bit more credit, that you haven’t ‘given up’ despite all these challenges you’re facing. Self-realization is pretty radical when it bumps against how our lives may have been before that, survival challenges, where most people are still at, and the assumptions under which our society operates. I think eventually you’ll find a balance between living with the world and the truth you want to express/live by. @acidgoofy Happy to hear it freed you up so much to explore/live! Very relatable there. The connection with God/Love I find is most challenged when “survival needs” are on the line. They’re ‘tests’. But in a way, those tests can also help awaken us more and find more ways to integrate it in our lives. @SamC That’s really awesome to hear it had helped with your anxiety so much. Sounds very life-changing/transforming overall. The “I am okay no matter what happens” brings so much freedom and our ability to love everything as they come, even when it is the most challenging at times. Really happy for you and I get the feeling things will be even more beautiful for you from here on @Seraphim That's great to hear! It sounds like you’re living the dream. Thank you everyone for your responses so far, I am really enjoying reading about them and feel happy for you all.

Yes pretty much! Stay aware by going meta whenever you can, and trust your inner guidance on specific situations. When you align with universal love and consciousness the best choices often effortlessly appear. Don't forget to include "yourself" as well as they are just as valid as the "others' ". Of course things we do have "consequences" and "results" which should be kept in mind of. ?

Self-realization does not equal what one may consider "righteous" qualities - those have been selected/constructed. You are right it most likely liberates you from conditioning around 'good or bad' because God loves all creation unconditionally. How you want to be/show up in the world is entirely up to you. Awakening does however align more with love, the oneness of everything, and this realization will affect how you see/treat "others" because of the knowing that they are "yourself", if you choose to. Start by loving all parts of yourself unconditionally first. Then try to do this on things that may have felt "uncomfortable" to love in the past. This will expand your ability to see the perfection in everything - including what may be considered the most 'egregious' actions. Your acceptance of everything is in alignment with absolute love, not what your mind has been conditioned to believe is 'right/wrong'.

I don't think being rude was ever his advice.

Well that's why you alternate between the two, I think in the initial phases of attraction it might be more effective to lean more heavily on the serious/chill side to get her attracted to you. And later on you can slowly open up the light-hearted and more emotional energy.

+1.

I think secure men likes a woman who laughs (esp at his jokes/charms). But I've definitely run into guys who don't like laughter because of insecurity or needing the girl to be "nonoffensive" or some crap like that.

Well said. It takes lots of courage and fearlessness to integrate all this into your day-to-day life, where you still have survival needs.

Well.. it can be lonely I guess and hard to relate to anyone out there. That's where integration comes in. How to embed what you gained from spirituality into the life that you still have. This is a valid path, may be difficult but more fulfilling in the long run.

Yeah... Can't really expect to change someone that's usually not the best idea.. best to lead by example or find someone you resonate more with.

4th 3.5g Golden Teacher Mushroom Trip: There’s nothing but love This overwhelming love and grief I cannot stop my tears from flowing... I cannot contain the enormous love flowing through me I have so much overwhelming love for you I have received so much love and understanding There’s nothing else but love I have been given another life This life is no more I will have to live with this body And being in this world but not of this world I have been given a task Abstract still in the form But I understood totally Everything that happened in my life Led me to this awakening To this overwhelming love My awakening is everyone’s awakening I feel the weight of this task And facing the whole world against me The first challenge is that you will deny my existence

You're okay, you're good enough. I'm sorry the world is so shit for people like yourself to find genuine people to connect with. It's really not you. Please stop gaslighting yourself. You deserve to be loved for who you are.

Sounds pretty misogynistic if you consider that "fun".

Sounds like bad karma.

I think being interested in them is more important than giving compliments, this can be eye contact, asking about some details, relating on something... etc.

Why not work on cultivating more of this in your life if that's what you truly desire? Your thinking that only escorts can be that way for you is a limitation you're putting on your mind and preventing you from doing the hard search/work of cultivating this.