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Maybe there's no such thing as out of your league except in your mind ?.

Good so far. Read and follow the Guidelines and you should be fine. ?

Hey I totally get it.. you may not believe me but I've been in that kind of state for much of my younger years. Not sure if you can relate to this but the thing I also realized is the chasing of romantic partners was at least partially due to not being attuned to/given attention growing up, basically raising myself on the emotional spiritual level. So the only solution I saw was the opposite sex and romance. I know it's really cliche but I still recommend going to therapy and see if you can get at least some of those emotional needs met there. It helped me alot in becoming a more independent person. I still struggle but it's lessened.. As well of course keep going on your spiritual journey. Practicing self love and feeling wholeness already in yourself. The goal is to become more detached to the interactions you have - which counterintuitively may attract what you're looking for. Mix up your social life, find some goals you want to work on that maybe you can work on with others around. This will improve your overall confidence and also getting some of that social needs met..

You could try the tea method/experiment with (look it up first), it hits you a lot faster but the effect might be different (ie more intense but less time).

Maybe look for other avenues of meeting new people?

Maybe try different ways of consuming it too. Like tea.

Is that for real? Way to express yourself!

That's a loving gesture! Haha better to clarify to not get a bunch of smarty-pant answers rofl.

Through the finite we know the infinite. : )

LOL. Nothing fancy I have a 2012 Dodge Caravan, very practical can haul anything (even better than a truck), I could camp in it if I wanted to. Def bought used (better value) but I can understand the hesitation. If buying from private owner, take it to a mechanic to run an inspection - as well just ask questions and suss out the ones who don't seem trust worthy. Dealerships may be more marked up in general but sometimes you can find surprisingly good quality used vehicles there.

There are lots of mystics, but I just mentioned ones who have been the most inspirational/influential to me as the topic was asking for .

If we're talking about in the relative then something like.. Lover, Misfit, Warrior.

Ahaha it's more a feeling I'm going off of and little bits of biographical info. But Michael Jackson, Hayashi Yasunori ('yasu' of Janne da Arc and Acid Black Cherry), and pianist Dmitri Levkovich. Composers like Chopin, Claude Debussy, Franz Liszt, Erik Satie to name a few.

Osho Leo Gura Matt Kahn Shunyamurti And some musicians who I consider mystics.

Yes you can practice either low or high conscious. It's just that when you exclude one possibility from the other in your life while with someone (ie, zero tolerance), it tends to become less conscious - as in because it involves more than one individuals, whenever we try to "make someone" feel and be a certain way (or expect it always for eternity) we start running into lower conscious territory. The solution is to develop to a point where we can be at peace or let go (if we can't be with them and celebrate with them), with what others we have invited into our lives chooses to do. Tall order that life constantly is challenging us with.

Yes that's the limitation/preference people usually adopt, for reasons and maybe for its 'intensity'. It's possible to develop to a point where you can have a spiritual relationship/connection without an 'actual relationship' with someone (and 'things'), or without even seeing their face/knowing them very much otherwise.

I guess one more thing.. don't try too hard to short-circuit what you genuinely want for your life right now with something that may be deemed 'higher' spiritually, as also we do not live in such a world and there will be tremendous difficulties (or not and choose a very hard mode lawl) . But yeah it's like people trying to abstain from sex when they still want it. You can if you're not sure about things just be honest with the person you're with - I am looking for a long term partner, and I want our union to make our lives better for both of us, I may be "poly curious", etc... (depending on where you are I'm just throwing an example here). Maybe you'll be surprised to find someone with a similar outlook. And the topic of children is tricky. Poly does not have legal protection (which is biased against poly people), so it can in some cases jeopardize legal rights to children. Something to think about if you care about that stuff. I highly recommend a reading of "The Complete Conversations with God" - Neale Donald Walsch. That book resonated alot with me couple years ago, I've since evolved my views a bit further, but it sounds like it may be similar to where you are at.

Because you're creating a world like that ?. (I'm half joking). People don't want to take a biological woman seriously, because that may actually change the way society operates and redistribute power. It's part of the conditioning and lack of women role models fuels this bias. Lack of allies, women are more controlled than allowed to be individual/independent thinkers. They're expected to follow a predetermined path (ie become mothers) as the only valid way to manifest. From early on by her parents (usually the mother) and family systems, who generally cannot tolerate daughters having too much autonomy. For a woman to awaken to this they have to embrace the masculine side to an extent or another, the opposite of what they're taught to survive and/or be accepted and loved, so there's alot of self-inflicted bias as well. They may have to forgo romantic relationships (or at least much of it) as a result of this and that's pretty radical for most people to want. (Don't think either Teal Swan or Marianne Williamson have long term partners currently at least not public). Having more fragile body and dealing with bodily differences in general probably doesn't help either.

Yeah that all makes sense. You're pretty aware already! I hope you can find a way to a better/more compatible situation. I know what it's like not being at my potential at most jobs. Try to think outside the box. Business loans also an option most people don't think to go down the road of just fyi ?.

That's refreshing and inspiring to hear.

There's not much use trying to plan this in your head. You might meet someone and start off monogamous, and grow into something more open, or you may not (as an example). Direct experience will give you the answers. Communicating honestly about things as you go, where you're uncertain or more certain of. Maybe even ask your partner what they might prefer/experiment with. The highest love may just be acceptance of what is in yourself and in others but it's okay if that's not where you are yet and you have a preference to pursue as that's also part of the whole.

Firstly, be more gentle on yourself.. See if you can stay as conscious as you can when you consume it. How were you feeling at the time? What does it give you? Is there something else I am potentially avoiding through this substance? I'm not perfect on this at all either fyi but I notice it's usually when I feel not at my best or at my potential, experiencing some kind of emotional pain/heartbreak, loneliness, or an excuse for avoiding more difficult work. When you're more conscious of the subtle psychological aspects that can be the door to changing the ways in which we deal with it. Also, I don't think it's bad to enjoy things in life. Ultimately it wasn't guilt or negative talk that made me reduce them, it was being hyper aware when I am doing it and shifting my focus on what I really wanted to be doing/being.

^This.

@integration journey Writing it out helps, like details of your insights. Make it into a poem while you're at it . And yeah... whatever leaves you space to contemplate/be will do.

Haha, yesss!