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@Leo Gura Would that get you (or others) in trouble by discussing it openly? Since your country has stricter control than some others.

Ask and it is given

@Someone here Your wish came true . There's lots but I'll go with this one... ?

It happens because you just want to know the whole truth and not a partial truth, and you are not satisfied until then. I would rather live the rest of my life from what is true than falsehood, even if I won't fit in or be accepted by most in society, it's still worth all that and more. Namaste.

LOL. Like I was saying classic "Tsundere" (I can't think of another word for it sorry). Go figure.

It's good that you're noticing it/have started to become aware of it. Is it a feeling of unsafety if you were to imagine yourself showing emotions to someone you thought were close to you? Can you recall at all in your early childhood at what point did you start shutting them off (in order to be accepted by a caregiver..)? This could've been very early so don't beat yourself up if you can't remember.. I wouldn't completely abandon LSD/psychedelics as an option to help you "peel away the layers", but perhaps low doses might be more suitable.. and slowly work your way in. As for therapy... you might want someone who is able to show their emotions to you openly. This can be hard to find actually. Don't settle on someone if it doesn't feel quite right. They would also have to feel very safe to be around... ultimately it's a "simulation" of the caregiver relationship where you can feel safe and heal the parts that you didn't feel safe before.

Pretty sure you can just send him a message.

Well it was nice to see all the care-i-boos gathering.

Yes perhaps, but not something to aspire to I hope .

(I wish I had more to say in the feeling loved section, and not turn this into some sort of “list of grievances”, but nevertheless this was how I experienced growing up in my family) ---- Things that made me feel loved... - Being given healthy food generally, my basic survival was taken care of - Being worried about when I got injured - Rare instances of recognition of my character that they liked, moments where I felt seen - My parents decision to move abroad because they hoped our lives would improve (this later I realized gave me the opportunity for liberation from them and the culture they had come from and to discover spirituality). ----- Things that made me feel unloved... - Most of everything felt conditional, whatever my mom did was to get emotional support, be her submissive punch bag, and to get things/attention from me, if I failed this criteria hostility ensues - Constant fighting (and temporary separations) between my parents that turn violent, made me feel like the stress, worry, and sadness it kept causing in me were invisible to them, I became more and more hopeless about living with them which only ceased few years after I moved out. - Forced to lie about how things really were in my family to others, speech suppression, pretend normal, I felt like an actor that didn’t know I was acting - Not being heard - Used everything I’ve got emotionally to "mediate" my parents relationship time after time to no avail and dismissed each time, my efforts felt wasted - No one cared about who I am, what I liked, how I wanted to live. It was never about me but always about them and their problems - No one cared about my feelings, negative feelings were met with hostility, I cried alone often in silence to avoid conflict - Being beaten as a little kid to submission a few times and I learned quickly that it was not safe to be myself or have desires that “inconvenienced” my mom - Blamed and treated like a burden whenever I got sick, especially when money is involved like dental work - Monitored and controlled with everything I do, then judged and harassed for what I do or not do in a way my mom liked me to - No privacy, my mom felt entitled to barge into my room whenever she felt like, if I tried to enforce privacy she starts a fight with me - Cannot ever please the parents, criticized and picked apart for little things that irritate mom, despite being generally loved by my teachers and always been a top student - Not allowed to have fun, like playing video games with friends (I did anyway under stress/whatever limited amounts), watch too much anime, etc. - My moments of pride were met with hostility if it felt threatening to them (like when I first built my PC, my dad threatened to break it because I played some games on it). - My dreams, goals and purpose in life did not matter - My appearance was picked apart often and needing to be fixed, this made me insecure for the longest time and depressed about dating - Yelled at and called names frequently for not agreeing to every demand from mom and this became more and more of a problem as I got older - Shamed for any sign of my sexuality starting to express, restricted in my social interactions, made me depressed about being a sexual being and suppressing myself by continuing to wear childish clothes around them - My parents ganging up on me whenever there's a conflict (like with my mom), no one sided with me, I felt that I had no allies or someone I can trust/count on - Sexual gazes from my dad which were unwelcomed but I could not get away from, this made me feel disrespected and violated (To anyone reading, I am mostly healed now and feel liberated, recounting these things still gives me a visceral feeling but I no longer identify with my past as much as I used to or let it get to me )

Ohh this is gonna get personal.

Keep digging into this intuition of yours. All of my heartbreaks helped me awaken to god. Might help you do the same one day.

Maybe they should look into why they care so much about other people's life. Are these people ready to adopt the said child? Most likely not. It's just control and attack on women's liberty.

Yes, and??

I'm with Marianne on this. Whether or not someone's pro-life is their personal choice and it should not be forced on others who aren't in agreement. People who want to have a say in someone else's life better be ready to take responsibility for that say or it's just hypocrisy and control.

@Bobby_2021 We do not currently live in "utopia" where every child is automatically taken care of despite what the state of the biological mother and father might be. Maybe if one day we collectively reached a point where we choose to take care of every potential birth/child no matter whose womb they came out of can we start to diminish the need for abortions. Just not the case right now - there's a high cost with child rearing, why should that be enforced on someone who can't/doesn't want that? Sounds like slavery to me.

Maybe you could ponder those things for yourself rather than taking someone else's word for it. Maybe that's the learning here.

See you don't even need another section just to be unserious.

Maybe you're thinking of something like a "Random" section?

Dawww... Nah, I'm really out of touch with that stuff these days (except for bit of music)... I'm so out of touch with that stuff is why I hang out here so much and have a hard time "relating" to "others"... But you guys/gals have fun.

I don't need it that's for sure...

It’s a refinement process with embodiment. Maybe some “ego backlash” mixed in there. Sometimes “love” looks very different from what one expects and might look like the “devil” by some. I guess it becomes the default when there’s “nothing else left to do”.

LOL he seems to like to color things in that light for whatever reason, I wish he dropped it, I mostly ignore this when listening to his stuff. Was mostly interested in contemplating/hearing about what mass awakening might look like.

Can help or not help depending. Helps by giving you ideas, finding out your preferences; unhelpful perhaps if one now restricts themselves to a very strict kind of sex because of what they saw and cannot enjoy themselves otherwise. Some extreme examples of this I came across before were guy preferring anime girls; guy can only get hard with anal sex, etc.

Hah. I experience that too. It's quite empowering to say the least rofl.