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LOL shit, I had a similar experience... This was one of the reasons I wanted to keep "tripping". There's a mystical union I have felt in a couple of my trips, but then I was like.. shit I can't confirm it... or maybe I can.

@Raptorsin7 Yeah okay, I know for sure I am way more intensely focused during trips coz I easily get alot of rapid insights about various things, and almost always wish the trip was longer..

@Raptorsin7 It's not during the trip but afterwards. Almost like exhaustion in my head haha. But yes I will try to be more relaxed about it, wasn't an issue until recently.

@Adodd Sounds good I will definitely try that out, and keep you posted here soon!

@Adodd Thanks for responding! That's very possible I can "forget" to drink enough water at times. Maybe it's like a mini-hangover..

@Someone here Ok here's the thing.... it might be weird but when I was in your shoes years ago, I also found vaginas to be gross to look at (at that time I had also felt embarrassed about my own). Fast forward to when I actually experienced sex and felt accepted for all of my body parts, that was when I also started to change my feelings around the vagina. And similar to what @Seed was saying, nowadays I do find the female body to be very attractive/appealing, but I'm not bisexual or want sex with women (maybe in very rare circumstances with a butch kind of girl who I had chemistry with but that hasn't happened yet).

Lmao that's a tricky one isn't it. Sounds like it. I am already feeling kinda bad for whoever the first girl you're gonna be with

It sounds bisexual leaning. But only way to really know is trying it out with both sexes and then see where you stand. Sexuality is also a spectrum. Yes to multiple. Lasting few minutes, not for the "peak" generally speaking. But one can be pretty close to the peak by just having penetrative sex. So in a sense I'm always having the "high" when having sex (with the right person who knows what they're doing) and I don't even feel like the peak is necessary as a result. ?

Sounds like you're asking about "unconditionality". It's okay to have desires to be a certain way, preferences, maybe coz you even take joy in it. Like genuinely expressing yourself to the world. But self love ideally should be unconditional. That's the most freeing, loving way to be. It's usually "other people" who want us to be a certain way "for them". That's also a preference. But it sure does not come close to unconditional love, which is also absolute love.

Depends on what you're more attuned with... Some people absolutely hate that environment like it's revolting as hell lol and that's aok if that's how things end up going for you. There're still plenty of other ways to meet women. Maybe taking a more well rounded approach would work better for you.

Um.. well.. yeah that's really hard and I can sort of relate. I think it's okay to hold onto the love you have for as long as you need to, because it means so much to you. That's just me though I can't just turn something like that off in a short time either.. It will most likely affect your dating life until someone else comes along that you feel so strongly about. That's the price of the "hopeless romantic" . Some stuff you could do to help with this: - Get to a point where you see yourself to be as whole as possible. - Be open to allowing other people to come into your life. - Talk to someone about it. Try to find closure, in time.

Is it not "fun" for you before you reach orgasm? Something's wrong there. ? I have plenty of fun even if not reaching the "orgasm" it's not what really matters for me in the end or the only thing that constitutes "good sex". Nothing wrong with bisexuality. I've met a pretty hot bisexual guy once who was also slightly more into women. He seemed to be a lot more sexual than most straight guys I knew, and know "his way around" even though he hasn't been with a woman before me surprisingly, more than most guys I've met anyway. And he was definitely more masculine than most I've met (with a touch of the feminine). Don't let that make you feel emasculated. That's all construction in your head! Actually now that I think of it... one of my favorite artists is also a bisexual man... and he's super hot. ?

It sure stays with me. Doesn't mean I have to now go and do "teaching" to prove it to somebody, that's entirely one's choice. Awakening with psychedelics is still a relatively new way of doing things, I imagine in the future we'll see more folks come out like Leo who advocate for it. Right now this is all still niche, doesn't mean it's not a valid way. Don't know about how deeply Eckhard Tolle has investigated into the nature of reality, I suspect not as deep as Leo has though based on his content.

It's not to say you can't have a breakthrough god realization type of awakening "sober", but that's probably such a minority of people doing years and years and hours and hours of meditation. Efficiency matters to some people. Nobody says you can't do it sober but it's just so much less efficient for most people.

Potentially ignorance, but also basically if they all advocated for psychedelics like Leo does they couldn't get enough "students" anymore and charging that kind of money lawl.

It's interesting to see all the answers and see where I have been and where I have not but have a similar interest in... It feels surreal to have this confirmation that you're all "me" at various stages or facets hah. Excuse the tangent... couldn't help it.

well said.

@bythos I get what you're going through. I've been where you are at where my mom was always emotionally down-trodden as well. But eventually, I realized I can't be her crutch anymore and she needs to grow up and learn to handle herself. If she can't be a mother for me at least she could be a grown-up for herself and not make me into her "mom". It was one of those tough love moments. I've had to let my mother know because I needed way more space and less interference with my life than she was giving me, as well I was really in the middle of grieving my childhood. So I did let her know about my thoughts on some things in my childhood (not everything coz she is defensive and not receptive about it). It kind of went over her head mostly, especially her contribution to things. But I think deep down she knows and has since given me lots of space. I guess just don't expect a good reaction or acknowledgment of what you went through. And you may have to deal with additional abandonment (just be prepared). Daniel Mackler talks alot about this check out his youtube channel, it might help. It's one perspective.

Haha well said Um yeah.. no need to feel guilty at all. Sounds like at least it's not causing you too many problems. Psychologists love to use the childhood thing and act like clinicians when women seek attention from males, but I think that's kind of BS, and maybe even a bit misogynistic since they're saying we shouldn't have these feelings/desires.

Oh yeah I love those guys! Check out Plini too : ) .

Stuff I've been contemplating lately. You've put things really well together and brought clarity for me. Thank you!!

There're lots you can do to prevent it as much as you can. Ask questions/communicate, don't rush into it with strangers, use protection, vaccinate against the ones there're vaccines for, do testing semi-regularly.

I'm not saying there can't be variety in "kinds of sex". It's just that outside of it there's a general disconnection and coldness, like a wall people have that affects the sex. I don't know what it is, people fear of getting hurt, getting too attached and vulnerable?

The higher you go the more alone you get. That you recognize there's less truth in being manipulative, unconcerned, "mean". It's more alone and difficult to have your heart open to others, knowing full well most of them cannot receive truth and honesty. I'm not saying there's nothing to work on, but is it really what you want to work in the opposite direction of growth.. There's something ahead that is available where you can embody both truth and love and be desired by the opposite sex. This is what you should aim for to be truly happy with yourself, not falling back to unconsciousness.

Problem is most guys want sex but treat it like a robotic thing and doesn't do anything to emotionally connect. Then sex becomes mechanical. It's like they both want this thing but fear it because of intimacy, attachment and love.