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Lol same. It was interesting too how he went into it as an existential inquiry at the time.. but in the middle of it abandoned the quest because he felt like "there was no answer to be found". When I later approached him with existential stuff he just ignores me lol. People can really change by survival needs.

@Benton Aww.. hope you're doing okay bro.

Maybe you're just picky haha.

Can relate. Maybe take some time to integrate or just some time off, do some stuff you might be still interested in besides spiritual practices. Integrate what you've gained and apply it to your baseline consciousness. Talk to someone who gets it (well like you're posting about it now). Spiritual practices can make you not be nearly as interested in "normal human activities" as you once were. Just be mindful when you feel that way, of at least the minimum you need to do to take care of your body, survival stuff etc, don't have to emotionally invest in it if it doesn't feel in alignment but just follow through like on autopilot. It can be easy to be influenced by people around you who are not like this and creating doubt in yourself. So just be mindful that's just the environment we're in. Ultimately it's best to integrate the two so they aren't "at odds" with each other, and ideally "feed" each other , but that might take some time to flesh out. That's my 2 cents for now hope that helps.

Can be tough when the boundary initially is being created. Sounds like you're in the process of becoming an individual This is a healthy thing. It's just that our society (including most families) currently discourages it and even demonize it. I guess first the recognition that you're moving towards health, healing, empowered living. Affirm this to yourself that you have chosen to say no to mediocrity, and yes to actualized living. Be your own ally first and foremost. This is about self-love and you know deep down you deserve to live the best life possible. ? In short, saying no will be an important part of living and creating the life you want. I suggest finding voices from those on the path (coaches, teachers, therapists) that affirm these things with you if you need some help to get going. There are many videos online now by various coaches/teachers that can help you with clarity and conviction. And you will be able to find a way when something is important enough to you. Best wishes.

Very cute. He sure spent a lot of time digging through his videos there .

Dafaq did I just read. I'd rather snort it at that point.

By example, demonstrating what is possible by being authentic. I don't try to push it on others (who are not very open to it), simply just live it, sometimes silence is the best teaching. Ones who are open, it's good to help in a way that's not 'suffocating' ...

Quality over quantity for me .

LOL this is prob gonna get locked too.

Authenticity is synonymous to Truth! So it's very important to me. The more I can align with Truth in both the Relative and the Absolute the more satisfaction I get. Being tired of being someone others want me to be and not how I want to be. Realizing that my voice and the way I see things matters. In fact, truth is so easily buried and twisted that it makes me want to fight for it even more, with calibration. Ultimately I think everyone is on this path, but few people have this as their priority right now. Attachments - fear of what that might do to how they're living their life, survival, being "all alone", dissolution of the ego which has many layers and runs deep.

Thank you so much!! You have very clear and precise descriptions. This confirmed many things I've reached on mushrooms for me. Especially about the Magnitude aspect lately - Mushrooms at higher dosages has been highly effective for this as well (I have yet to try 5-meo however). And I highly recommend floatation tanks for the Void dimension you speak of!! (something not usually talked about here)

rofl. See Leo's latest video, I think it relates to your questions.

Weird, well that's when I truly feel "insane".

Yes it's possible to achieve things still but without the attachment for "achieving" anything at all. So almost like you can still have some goals but you're totally not worried if they don't end up as planned. No attachment to outcome. On the other hand when this happens your "goals" will most likely be very different.. like maybe just to practically survive, embody your truths, etc. Depends where you are at. How much are you willing to surrender. To surrender might feel like a kind of "death", this might be a continual process. But on the other side is inifnite freedom and love awaiting. It's okay if you got survival struggles. Just be mindful of it and why you need to take care of that aspect of living.

My mom. She had unleashed all her anger onto me as I was growing up but twisted as "love", I think this is partly why I have so many health issues. I don't recommend being close to a narcissist. When I first tried to break the chain in my 20s, she immediately wanted to adopt another kid so she can leech off of. She is only slowly changing now after years since I stopped "feeding her", not feeding it helps I think, but it's a very slow thing and she's still very childlike and prone to it. Not counting on it I feel like it's the kind of thing that they internally has to want to change/evolve, they cannot be "forced" into it, and good therapy for it is hard to come by nor do they usually want to see a therapist. So yeah.. hard for me to see much hope in it, I can find love for her better at a distance right now, but kudos for anyone who have the patience to figure it out, as outsiders.

Lmao no pretty sure I first heard it from Leo ?. Yes it can be so pretty sometimes... Who knew colors could be so rich. And patterns. Sometimes I get these beautiful lace like patterns on my body and sheets, and purply sparkles in the air rofl.

Just have a basic webpage with your songs and other info like store/event page or something so people can find you/support you. You have no idea how many great musicians I've met don't have this and really screw themselves over.

I've been to a few psychedelic meetups in my area now and none of the people there (some with more experience) know about awakening/ego death. Most find that it helps with their mental health/personal stuff, some see spirits and believe in those. Actually when I bring up these potentials the ego backlash kicks in and most just ignore me after with a few exceptions. On the other hand, I experience alot of colors and shapes on just about every trip which I appreciate very much (it can be very pretty and magical ), but in combination with the insights.

Ah yes, haha @Leo Gura Do you have trips where a series of "insights" gets rapidly spoken out through you? Like you're "possessed"?

Congratulations. Yeah I can relate to most things said here. Take some time to integrate. It can be challenging. I've had my share of "rollercoasters" with these trips. Now outside of trips it feels like I am simply an "actor" in this dream to most folks. Things should stabilize after some time. Feel free to reach out to someone here if you need some support.

Well, God is infinite, so it can be anything, it can create separation within itself if it wants to. But ultimately all the separations it creates are contained inside of itself.

No. Only if you insist on seperating yourself because of things like fear, attachements, biases, etc (the "tricks" of the ego so to speak). Or you simply "forget" sometimes .

You're on the right track. Of course. Because your idea of how things work is likely not the way it actually is. At least create the possibility that you don't actually know anything and have been taking things on by faith, by delegating your authority to "others". Let go of the stuff you've been "taught" and find out the truth for yourself - you have all the answers within.