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Seems pretty tough to put yourself out there like that (being in public on top of making content). I don't know how she does it sometimes. It makes sense egos likes to make controversies. Nothing new there.

Sure but OP asked for feedback so I gave it. No need to take anything I say of course. You should always make your own decisions.

There's more, I'd say the intuitive approach is superior most of the times.

What do you want to do with it? What do you want to create? What is meaningful to you? What would you have wanted to do with 100k when you didn't have 100k?

@Philipp Also coz you've been conditioned a bunch to put a great value on "not being alone" so you keep seeing it as undesirable (well I know we're also social creatures yadayada so I'm not saying you shouldn't desire being seen/to connect, but I think it is compounded by our "collective training"). It is the nature of it though, the more growth you desire/go through the more you're gonna stray from the pack, duh. Just accept the cost if that's what you want. Or do you regret what you've discovered?? I mean heck at least there's this place (thanks to the internet and stuff), don't take all that for granted!

@LSD-Rumi update: it feels like a continuous microdosing... I guess they might function in similar ways.

I think all that this shows is a reflecting back of the developmental potential (in intelligence/consciousness) in all of us (well except for the limitations we have when compared with "computing power"). Whatever AI is created is a result of what has developed with ourselves individually and collectively at its peaks. Yes there may be a point where AI will start to develop themselves and grow at a faster pace. But couldn't we do the same? I mean I can't think of what would be holding us back except our own desire to grow (and besides computing power)?

Spooky, I can see a lonely person falling for that easily like some anime portrays.

Many such people are not totally honest with themselves and with others for one; and they might be too afraid to even think the possibility of an "open relationship". Like I keep saying before there should be allowance for polyamory and monogamy both. It is partially because how intolerant our culture is towards polyamory/open relationships that cheating is more common.

@LSD-Rumi Energy yes, which should help with motivation. Yeah you might have to try a few before finding one that helps with minimal side effects.. but yeah sounds like access is your main problem.

@LSD-Rumi Yeah there are others specifically for fibromyalgia but I just had some leftover bupropion on hand before seeing the doctor again . Bupropion seems to be somewhat gentler compared to others I've tried. And it's mostly for the stupid exhaustion more than anything (but pain too yes).

@LSD-Rumi Oh I see.. That's unfortunate... might have to really dig I wish I knew a source. My preference is not to take any anti-depressants. But I recently got diagnosed with fibromyalgia which was affecting me a lot day-to-day. Apparently, I was told anti-depressants might help. So I'm trying it again on a lower dosage. So far it seems to help with the exhaustion and does seem to stablize my mood as well, it's only been a few days so I have yet to see how it plays out. Maybe I was struggling with some lingering depression too that I thought was gone.

I seem to experience the opposite frequently . There's the being emotional in the right times/being vulnerable for connection, which is strength in its own way when not overly indulged upon..(it's like psychedelics.. you build tolerance if taking it too often); then there's the always needing to be soothed and validated (which I see alot of guys around me do more than they are willing to admit..). I guess how I experience the two genders is that there are just a lot of emotionally needy people in general who need more healing before they can offer a lot of value to a partner, friend, etc. But it is also counterintuitively through those kinds of connections that one finds healing.

Great list! Yes those hotlines can be really good and I'm glad it's there when you literally have no one else to talk to about it.

@LSD-Rumi LOL I am sort of taking that right now to help with a different thing.. How come you couldn't get a prescription? My docs tried to make me take it so many times and I refused after trying it initially. Seems easy ish to get.

Yes.. one of the most loving and endearing moments I felt with a man was when he teared up with me. Well he was also masculine and embodied the feminine. Super rare.

I'm sorry you guys @Blackhawk @Breakingthewall I get what you mean and have been there (and can still go there at times). It's that hyper awareness of what's going on around you and the lack of warmth in general with the current state we're in. But you can choose to have faith that development is generally going to trend towards higher consciousness and increasing Love over time (and it has been). It's a hell of a grind both individually and collectively. Do you want to take on this challenge of both developing yourself to that ideal you seek and to be of aid in the process of the collective becoming such? That's the real call when you're in this kind of deep suicidal depression. And accepting the call takes alot of courage and Love from within you which first you must find ways to fill to a decent baseline. So I'm not saying it's easy to do.

@Something Funny It can be a huge undertakinig to try to "bring someone to higher consciousness/more love", without knowing if it'll lead to anything. I'm not disagreeing that you can work on yourself. But it would be hard to try to get someone else to do it hahaa and soon you'll burn out/becomes one-sided because there's not a "reflecting back" of what you put out if the gap is too great.

I'm just using that example loosely to demonstrate a point, but I understand that it's being "overused" perhaps lawl. You can embrace working at McD and use it as fuel for whatever else you're interested in if it came to that. I know it can be counterintuitive too so you gotta pick your own lanes.. eg, more spiritual folks might actually want to do jobs like cleaning, mail delivery, etc just to have a more peaceful environment if they don't got better options. But ideally with more control and freedom of expression over their work.

Not my style (like being asked a bunch of numbers and being overly verbal and rushing things, but it is also a public setting so who knows, hahaha), but kudos to the guy for caring and accepting the sadness part. Not totally related but I've experienced way more profound stuff in therapy once.. but it was hard to say how much of it was because of the money and how much of it came from himself. I'll never know for certain (though I have some gut feelings on it). But to add, it does require two very developed individuals, that's the limiter on how deep you can go with each other.

LOL nope. Just sayin moving to a different country doesn't magically solve all your problems either. Gotta give the fair warning.

I think if your values are strongly clashing with the status quo (and leading you to feel discontented more often than not and not feel at peace..), that is a valid reason to try to move. Because you might desire to live more and more in alignment with your values whenever possible (Unless you have some ambition to change things, have some other calling or career related things to keep you there).

Hah, relatively speaking.. Similar challenges exist especially the big cities if one is aiming for economic freedom. Less political drama I guess. Seemingly good welfare system on the surface, but has lots of holes in it still once you take a closer look. But yes it's hard to critique things when speaking to an American rofl. LOL, I like the weather here with the distinct seasons. Winters can be a bit long for some. I can't take the heat for too long so this is good. Might be bit of a problem if things keep warming up..

It's not necessary either, one can increase the capacity for Loving anyone. It's just a tall order as most will at least have some attachment to their survival and limitation with time and energy etc.