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Yes the mind seems to have transformed to receive more light/divinity and changed how it's perceiving everything. Thank you very much! Glad to hear. Nice. Yes trees and wood seem to glow fairly brightly also. Though not synesthesia as is described, I can't claim to understand if there's a connection to that. This one definitely feels like it brought the Mind of God more intimately closer to my day-to-day. Things are taking on a heavenly vibe all over the place. It is more than the visual experience but are harder to describe, there's a general lightening up and perception from a higher plane even though the body is still here.

Thank you very much @acidgoofy ! ? And thanks for sharing your experience with that. I definitely didn't think that would happen on a constant basis, feels like the grace of the divine. I feel quite blessed. Ps, last night I also suddenly saw some subtle mandala patterns on my pillows that I would see (more intensely) on trips, but this doesn't seem to be constant yet.

Okay cool, I'll look into that! Thanks for the share.

Nice! Yes it was also a funny realization that the color and tone and shape of the magic mushrooms matched what is dawning in my reality now. It connected the dots. Almost like they were preparing me for this the whole time. If you had links on that I'd appreciate it! (Feel free to pm as well).

Wellll, I would say use your intelligence for that, because it may simply be unwise in some situations, though if you feel there's an opening it can be interesting to try that out and watch how things unfold (the tricky thing is to actually mean it and not come off as some "retaliatory sarcasm"). I think he might be at a point where his light is so full that he can just instantly repel/transmute darkness in his awareness, whereas most of us still get affected by it. The thing I do most often is to reflect back calm energy and convey in a way that still makes them feel seen and does not further trigger them. And he does also talk about Love that says no to things like abuse and includes yourself! So just use your best judgement at the time and I wouldn't worry too much about being "perfect" at it, consistency usually come with practice. Difficult situations in general... call on the "universe" to guide you .

His sober/baseline is in alignment with the highest love, he's your "future self" .

Invoke the light of the universe/divinity/God to resolve it for you and work through you when you don't know how to end the abuse yourself/others: to end all cycles of abuse, and to bring forth your highest qualities for the well-being of all which is you.

Wellllllll, please excuse the universe for reading too much into what you're saying and thereby showering you with responses that you did not ask for .

@Artsu Thank you! Yeah that makes sense psychiatry operates a bit differently, though still connected somewhat to counselling, counselling just seems to have more diversity, but yeah one quickly reaches a limit with that also as you know. Sounds like you're toiling between dealing with people who aren't all that safe to share with while trying to honor your truths. With people I'm not safe to share with I don't share nearly as much or use humor/lightheartedness to suggest things, that help to remain true to myself while diffusing potential conflicts. Though there may come a day where that don't matter as much anymore, as your presence alone might affect people's consciousness spontaneously. Another way is to silently declare something instead of out loud.

@Artsu Yeah you’re not alone. Lately I am seeing more goldeny bright light in everything and it’s 24/7.. like things have very noticeable increase in glow and radiance to them that wasn’t there before. Everything is taking on a “heavenly” vibe and I’m enjoying it :). About therapists, the couple I’ve talked to awhile back about some my trips were receptive about mystical experiences. It depends.

We use a chat app to share some photos and brief messages (though they have a tendency to spam), few times a week depending. Calls like 1-2 times a month. Visit about once a year depending, (we don't live in the same city so that helps). It just depends on how I feel.. if I get the sense they're getting too dependent or stalkery/controlling I will give more space in between. I do not share very much personal details that tend to become material for gossip/control/sabatoge, just the mundane stuff usually. Anger for sure I went through. It's okay that's what you're going through right now. It sounds like you need some distance to process all this. Don't try to force your feelings. I think I was angry/grieving for about 2 years before where I am now so give yourself the space to heal. And you won't be able to give them much anyway before your cup is filled. Right now just find ways to fill your cup would be my advice, find a therapist if you can afford, if not there are also people online who can validate you/help you heal - like Daniel Mackler and Matt Kahn for example.

@no_name I appreciate the concern. It depends on your current state and how toxic the situation is still, how much it's affecting your growth, etc. If you are for example feeling hurt/grieving, cannot otherwise escape abuse, and needing to be loved, mostly identified as the finite self, I generally don't recommend contact. For a period I did go extremely low contact and let them know I needed time away from them to heal as hard as that was to say at the time. My current state allows room for some difficult people to be around in the periphery and practice expanding, and I'm managing my boundaries and adjusting based on how things are. I don't see them as my "parents" to receive love from anymore, but I was given these people in my life so they're part of "training". Prior to that, I guess it came down to empathy coz I understand the bigger picture of ancestral trauma/patterning passing down.

@meta_male That's tough, I hope you can recognize yourself as your greatest ally and cheerleader, and find others who can extend that to you. Not much anymore, I used to get guilt-tripped for distancing myself a lot but I stood my ground. I think I've been giving them more than enough (that I can give and not overly sacrifice my state of consciousness). Consideration for the whole includes yourself too. There's some hope that my being in minimal contact could raise their level of consciousness over time and stop the cycle, and I can see a bit of change in the past few years. They're not as angry/sad. On my end, it pushes me to work with difficult people and practice love, boundary setting, seeing their true identity despite how they appear, and unifying my consciousness. If things get worse, I do not feel guilty to stop contact, but right now minimal contact seems to work okay.

Both my parents, maybe more so my mother. Neither has much capacity to love and is extremely deficient in that area. I cannot have a real conversation with them, it's mostly a one-sided rant whenever I "talk to them". No safety to share about myself - "good" or "bad" news either turns into conflict and blame, envy/jealousy, and or attributing any "good results" I get to their doing/"good parenting" lol. So I became very "boring" to them to cope. I've been in the "therapist role" since a young age, dealing with all sorts of temper tantrums and fights between them. I can't be happy or successful (or upset) around them coz that'll always attract some kind of conflict my way. There's no end because they cannot seem to deal with themselves... if you don't give them attention they'll find some way to get in there, if you give them the attention they'll want more and more and take everything from you and not let you have a separate individual identity, so yeah I'm still dealing with it through careful boundaries. I don't know how it's gonna be when they get older, I can't see myself living with them again any time soon. Some kind of distance is necessary for me to not get "absorbed". It's easier to love them from a distance. I think I've largely forgiven them and others, and understand that it's a symptom of lack of love they had received. But that doesn't mean I want to be enmeshed with them.. though part of that is also because we don't share a lot of similar interests/way of communicating.

Eventually you have to forgive her to truly heal.. and to unify your consciousness, I know it might sound hard right now. And preferably also recontextualize all of your relationships/views of "others" with the pursuit of Awakening. What it leads to is... can you grow to accept the fact that you dreamt all your dream figures and perceived seperation to have this current experience/dream? That their true self is with God? And therefore completely innocent. And the more you can accept it the less anything happens in the dream should affect you, because you're just watching/in a movie that you made. Don't mind me if it's flying over your head, there's another point to saying this... helps me to remember as well.

This to me sounds a bit crazy considering you're in school full time. I mean maybe okay temporarily but yeah you're doing 2 full time jobs... so of course there would be burn out.. (I'm not saying it can't be done but obviously you're experiencing difficulties). Are there options where you can work less while in school? Maybe having a roomate or some minimal living arrangement?

You're energetically sensitive and know there's greater love potential to be revealed in consciousness that would be closer to the reflection of God's Perfect Love/Oneness, it's like you remember where you come from and can't help but notice the gap in your current reality with that rememberance. That said, you do not necessarily need "others" to fully wake up to access this Perfect Love/Oneness that has always been with you/and is you.

Helps me remember we're One.

New F word is "Forgive".

Seeing through all the tricks of the Ego Mind, just when you think you're "done". There's more after God-Realization as well, if you're ready for that/choose that.

Many factors at play like with most things makes sense if genetics a factor, and survival conditions. Most people adopt their conditioning from cultures and families and do not question it or very much, or have the option/luxury to contemplate independently, or have access to new ideas, etc.

LOL. I got ducks on the brain too.

Yes, we're aspects of you/me/God. Just showing you more of "who you are" as characters. Something not so obvious is that even the people who got some awakenings are pretending to be a character most of the time here. Else there cannot really be a forum (as it is currently).

When I think Tier 2 Yellow someone like Andrew Yang comes to mind, he refrains from demonization and polarization, but he gets demonized a lot by both sides.