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You don't have to justify that right now you need more money, it doesn't even have to be your "life purpose" right now. Nothing wrong with just getting the practical side of things handled so you're not in constant anxiety about it before you pursue the more spiritual sides..

I feel like I actually get shorter trips on higher doses (4-5g), but more intense. And they end more abruptly/cleanly than if I was on lower dosages like 2-3g.

Be as honest as you can be with yourself, discover the voices that may have been suppressed. Don't let conditioning twist how you actually felt/feel. Go through the grieving process - it can be messy. Journal about it/talk to someone if that speaks to you so that the wounding can be seen in the light. Go meta on it and recognize things like, it was pain that was passed around unconsciously, that humanity has yet to grow to its "full potential". Have awakenings that transcend your life stories.

Challenges can still very much happen. Different kinds of them perhaps. How to adapt to a world that has almost no understanding of your view of reality, not even the "spiritual/eccentric ones", and how everything is constructed around that. Being torn between letting that go/getting drowned by noise if you have to be around egos and the atheistic paradigm. This is one of the main reasons I think getting survival handled is so important. Because once you get a taste of truth it's hard to be around untruth for long.. not necessarily depression just, can be very challenging and create almost a splitted self.

Even "Stage Green" can be very closed-minded so I wouldn't feel too bad... Or maybe you feel "bad" coz you feel such a gap in understanding..?

There's only the one imagining everything, including imagining "multiple Gods". Whatever you come up with ultimately is in the one. "Multiple Gods" is just yet another layer of imagining of "the other", and if you want to imagine it so, it would be so. It's yet another trick to fool yourself/God into thinking that there's more than one of you. But yes don't just take my word..

"Each of us" is just an illusion so God can know and express itself in "infinite ways", and express its love to "another", and not feel totally alone, as "nothing". At some point in its creation and knowing itself it will eat its own tail because it is trying to understand itself and that is why there's a thirst within "us" to find out about "reality", I feel that it is the same kind of intention as to why God created everything. "Eating its own tail" isn't a bad thing, it feels like a new beginning and possibilities.

What's "better" than finding out you're God creating everything and fooling yourself. It's the best joke ever.

You have to "re-wire" yourself so that you take joy and satisfaction in those things you're trying to do more of. Might have to "trick" yourself at first but the more you do it the more it sticks. Getting into the mindset that by doing so you're honoring your life. Guilt is not the best motivator. Develop a compelling vision and identify your top values, then the ability to identify and follow-through with the right actions become effortless.

LOL. Just do your thing. Length of time is of no issue (to me at least) and there's even a Clips channel. It's up to him ultimately how he wants to express things. Feedback okay but don't get controlling about it. You don't tell an artist what to paint on the canvas and this isn't all that different. Respect someone's creative autonomy is what I'm saying.

Contemplate aloneness and really being okay with aloneness. Prioritize your growth. Those two things combined should make it alot easier to say no to things against your values or wasting your time.

My take on that is to remain as conscious as you can when interacting with them and limit it to the extent that you're able to sustain such interactions. Demonstrate qualities of living the good life. Send them a generally caring vibe, but throwing timbits of breadcrumbs here and there that are not too far away from their comprehension/sense of reality. Use humour where you see fit.. and yeah if there's utterly no opening I'd just put on an act for the most part and/or state my position and move on.

Pain gets passed around unconsciously. Few good role models. Lack of truth in our environment. Not transcending the limited self. When someone does the work of healing their pain and becomes aware of its patterns, they're better able to end the cycle of passing it to others.

I don't have a lot of experience with it yet so take this with what you will. I did feel something in my head even a few days after a trip. This also coincided with me feeling the solipsistic state in "sober" state and went on for a few days. Is it all in my head? ? Who the hell knows. But the sensation was definitely not there before I ever touched 5-meo.

@Matthew85

His booklist is a good starting point and fairly broad. Depends on what you're looking for, anything more specific you are looking for?

Yes, there's more than meets the eye. The problem is there're few ways to "prove such" to others other than what you can witness for yourself (mostly referring to manifestation not even the OBE stuff that you mentioned here).. If you tell others how you manifested this and that they'll say you're deluded most likely.

@Mindful Bum There're plenty of people on this forum who offer support unconditionally when someone does share about their mental health struggles I feel (I'm not saying they should rely on this though). The thing is people need to do the work also internally or it can turn into another form of co-dependency. So there's a balance to strike there... getting help externally and doing the work to heal. We shouldn't expect one person to fill every role out there to fill. For example, we can't expect Leo to diagnose a medical condition either for each person having health issues, they should seek other resources (on top of what they gain from here). I understand totally what you mean that spirituality plays a role in mental health and overlaps with the use of psychedelics as well, but traditional therapy and other resources can deal with the bulk of it so that you're at least stable enough to function and seriously pursue spirituality. If it's something you're passionate about, why not step into that role and offer your unique perspective that integrates spirituality when you see someone sharing about it here? There are also plenty of other teachers/online resources freely accessible, besides therapy, hotlines, and such. One simply has to take some responsibility for healing and look for it. It's not wrong for someone to refer people to others who specialize in areas they're not specializing in, that's the responsible move. I'm saying this even though I have suffered depression in the past and know what it's like. I know that spirituality (a.k.a the truth) is what ultimately helped me transcend it all/set me free, but the other tools/resources have also been extremely helpful in that journey. Something to be acknowledged is that the system we have now is not optimal for mental health struggles and is awfully inaccessible to many, which is probably why you end up with a large audience with these struggles here.

What kind of problems? To a highly sensitive one any move towards light, truth, and love is helpful in their "environment", and in that sense yes. Arrogance alone is not as much of an issue as the embodiment of high consciousness in general which is something we can all work on.

@Null Simplex Thanks for sharing that, it's learning to navigate between "dream world" and "being-ness". And the being-ness marvels at all creation while in the dream... @Ezo Well said. More acceptance and embracing of how things actually are is going to be the way forward, appreciating that such illusions were possible, the layers of it, taking more and more comfort in that rather than running away from it. The initial shock and adjustment to the new reality will pass : ). Falling in love with "yourself" is not a bad way to go.

@Matthew85 I appreciate the care. It's just a much larger thing for me to be here than it might seem to you right now, . Thanks though.

@Matthew85 I get where you’re coming from. But it’s the only place that helps me be grounded in reality, and more. Everywhere else I go is much less so. The anxiety was from being out there rather than this forum. And being too much of a hermit otherwise isn’t optimal either.

LOL yes it is just like that actually, slightly more challenging than a child because a small child is less stuck in their conditioned beliefs and sense of reality but yes similar idea overall in terms of being helpful/patience.. Actually you touched another point worth mentioning, the way to reach the godhead is to return to being child-like, a state of total wonder and not knowing . Thank you I appreciate the support and you taking the time.

There is no seperation, but the self that most adopt do not perceive it as such. Words are not even necessary (as much) for connection when the true self is revealed. Yeah that's the art of "holding space" so to speak. I generally have that intention and the love is very much there. 2 things about that: 1) It's hard for most to really get what is being transmitted (including the love aspect) because of how much separation they perceive there is (and projections from their conditioning, pain and trauma for example), which easily can distort their perception of my "communication". 2) I am learning this/refining how I am communicating, and it's a process. The embodiment aspect is another process besides awakening. When I wrote the post I was feeling a lot of anxiety around being totally alone, I was feeling the presence of people and things around me as me, the lack of solidity/transparency in things, and then confusion around how to show up in the world as this finite self when people project seperation all the time. The feeling of alonenesss as "anxiety inducing" is mostly a projection from the conditioning that aloneness is undesirable... Then I sort of will'ed myself to "come back" to the contracted awareness.. thanks to some replies here.

@Judy2 It's not about intellectual understanding.. it's mostly a feeling/awareness thing. Connection happens in "both directions", the depth of it is limited by the extent of the obstruction of the ego and the clarity of the mind. To the extent that someone has cleared their illusory ego/self is to the extent I am able to connect to them, and the "deeper" you go, the fewer people exist to connect on with similar "depth and understanding" (that which can radically alter your mode of being in life). With most people, I simply mirror them so it shouldn't affect them in some negative way. And from a meta perspective I am connected to everything.. so in a sense there's nothing "to do" about that also. It's mostly surrendering to the fact that most are still asleep. Also the "point" is firstly about knowing the truth.. @StarStruck If you mean as in going back "asleep", no, and prob not possible at this point . I still want to live in truth. The challenges that come, will deal with it and find a way.