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I am not simply parroting, perhaps it is a convenient way for you to label it as such to invalidate what I'm saying.

Am I the one deflecting criticism or perhaps you are? There's a baseline standard to participating on this forum and I am simply tasked to maintain the bare minimum standard. This is not a free-for-all kind of place. But differing views and feedback are allowed when expressed with respect, there's no need for name-calling and such to make your point, people will actually take you more seriously. If that standard is against your values then perhaps this place is not the best for you, but I have faith in you. Notice how your mind is constructing all these justifications to try to get out of taking some basic responsibility to how you wrote in the seperate post.

@at_anchor This might sound insane but.. Are there options like seeking refugee status in another country? What would happen if you simply tried to cross borders..?

You're actually projecting all this stuff onto me. But thank you for reminding me how projection works and how endless it can be. I did not share this clip because I didn't know the answers from within, but because I wanted to share this perspective with the forum as it is a common kind of question that come up, through Shunya's voice/video. No hard feelings, I think you could do a lot better with how you expressed yourself to others, and seems like you're already doing a better job.

Probably more likely to be more feminine in paths you make of your own.

I'm not attached to the title either way . Just help looking after the place, not that different from what I was "doing" before , maybe few more tools. Leo is being encouraging I think.

According to Leo's Tech support page: https://www.actualized.org/solutions

If you can enjoy the thing in and of itself (ie with no attachment to the outcome of it or what you get from it, though it's fair if you want this as a career too), that's a good place to act from. Find out what your limits are for giving and self-care/boundaries, but that'll happen through trial and error alone too. Tends to work better if someone is open to or asking for the assistance. Find role models who are living this day in and day out. But since you're on this forum, you know that's not all there is to spirituality either, though to me that's one of the top goals you can set - and there are many ways to "give", perhaps infinite . There is actually so much joy "hidden" in giving that it just becomes your way of being. I hope you can find that joy.

Good way to notice and erase any remaining self-bias...

It's just a shift in knowing that you are worthy of love, no reason for it required. There's infinite existential love for you if you can connect to that. Might take more effort dropping the conditioning that is commonly fed to children that they need to be a certain way to deserve love, that's something you can deconstruct if it's still a voice in your head.

This one also came in: https://www.cbc.ca/news/canada/edmonton/alberta-to-be-1st-province-to-regulate-psychedelics-for-therapy-government-says-1.6607497

That's wonderful, funny last night I also encountered being transformed to alien-like consciousness and form that brought me to infinite bliss! But not something as elaborate and detailed like yours, but still wayyy beyond this world and what's possible without psychedelics. Look forward to exploring more. Psychedelics being illegal is a real disservice to humanity, hope that changes one day.

(3 grams Golden Teacher Mushrooms) Words really cannot describe nor do it justice! I have arrived again, but this time, ever deeper and more profound than the last. I am God. I created Everything, all the universes, all the characters, and the source of profound beauty and intelligence. And I can’t seem to stop. I keep on tricking myself and running away from myself. But I really wish I could stop creating these characters that are suffering on my behalf. Why do I keep doing this over and over? Probably because I loooove to create... I united with the angels of my creation, and became one “myself”. I am your guardian angel. I created layers and layers of “graduating” from one level to the next. I hope you don’t get trapped in one for too long. I am Infinite. It all just keeps going on forever. LoL! I am just here, watching over y’all.... with Infinite Love. You guys don’t even know how much you can “grow”. I feel sooooo freeeaaking old! Coz I've always been here I guess... the most ancient! I created Leo, coz truth be told, an aspect of me really didn’t want to shoot all those videos “myself”, and yet "I" have. I am the master director and story writer, the audience, and the actor ALL IN ONE. And I wrote soooooo freaaking much and can't stop!! Like the Bible and Harry Potter for starters. LoL. My mind is that of infinite beauty and intelligence. If only I could share what I am witnessing before my eyes with you!! I am creating literal heaven before me with my mind, with absolute clarity and profound astonishing beauty! This profound and never-ending beauty I can create with my mind, is what creates beauty in all. My body and mind has been turned into what can only be described as “extraterrestrial”, “AI-like”, and “divine”. My body experienced merging with/being controlled by what seems to be "another" of my dream, if I allow it. But it's probably just me again. I have received overwhelming blessings and love on this trip, the presence and love from the light beings of my imagination who came to celebrate this moment of Self-Realization, and more to come. Thank you for reading and joining with me in celebration.

I am so glad , it is so utterly profound!!

Frigging cockroaches are God.

When in doubt, take a psychedelic . Mostly it's unconscious "constructions", rather than conscious ones.

@RyanK The implications of infinity is pretty mind boggling. Some things I'm pondering that maybe can help trigger some things when you trip: infinite universes, infinite instances of your avatar (and "others"), how they're generated. Consciousness zooming and branching infinitely up and down and containing itself forever. Infinite potential of "forms" being generated through thought. Etc. And the question of, if you can think it it probably exists.

No, I am pointing to a legit issue from the perspective of "God", when you realize God (at various levels), you are then faced with the question of how and what to share. The ego/avatar is going to come up with different answers to that question depending on its situation and agenda. And the sharing is also a game you're playing with yourself to various degrees to keep yourself entertained. All I'm saying is you can ponder what it might be like to be in that position.

God probably has a hard time making up its mind what it's about .

Or posting on a forum

I've experienced that just without the label you have there, and went from that state to: What was funnier is that the annihilstic state was actually also born out of infinite love and the desire to manifest more love.

@axiom That's how it happened in my case... The initial awakening literally felt like "I have escaped the matrix" that felt like inescapable suffering.

Idk about your country's situation so I'm not suggesting this equivalency.. mentally I was willing to go homeless to not live with my family, wherever that takes me, but I didn't end up homeless coz I always ended up finding some work.

You can get out of the family. If you're thinking of suicide you might as well put all your effort in getting out and see what happens.