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@no_name I appreciate the concern. It depends on your current state and how toxic the situation is still, how much it's affecting your growth, etc. If you are for example feeling hurt/grieving, cannot otherwise escape abuse, and needing to be loved, mostly identified as the finite self, I generally don't recommend contact. For a period I did go extremely low contact and let them know I needed time away from them to heal as hard as that was to say at the time. My current state allows room for some difficult people to be around in the periphery and practice expanding, and I'm managing my boundaries and adjusting based on how things are. I don't see them as my "parents" to receive love from anymore, but I was given these people in my life so they're part of "training". Prior to that, I guess it came down to empathy coz I understand the bigger picture of ancestral trauma/patterning passing down.

@meta_male That's tough, I hope you can recognize yourself as your greatest ally and cheerleader, and find others who can extend that to you. Not much anymore, I used to get guilt-tripped for distancing myself a lot but I stood my ground. I think I've been giving them more than enough (that I can give and not overly sacrifice my state of consciousness). Consideration for the whole includes yourself too. There's some hope that my being in minimal contact could raise their level of consciousness over time and stop the cycle, and I can see a bit of change in the past few years. They're not as angry/sad. On my end, it pushes me to work with difficult people and practice love, boundary setting, seeing their true identity despite how they appear, and unifying my consciousness. If things get worse, I do not feel guilty to stop contact, but right now minimal contact seems to work okay.

Both my parents, maybe more so my mother. Neither has much capacity to love and is extremely deficient in that area. I cannot have a real conversation with them, it's mostly a one-sided rant whenever I "talk to them". No safety to share about myself - "good" or "bad" news either turns into conflict and blame, envy/jealousy, and or attributing any "good results" I get to their doing/"good parenting" lol. So I became very "boring" to them to cope. I've been in the "therapist role" since a young age, dealing with all sorts of temper tantrums and fights between them. I can't be happy or successful (or upset) around them coz that'll always attract some kind of conflict my way. There's no end because they cannot seem to deal with themselves... if you don't give them attention they'll find some way to get in there, if you give them the attention they'll want more and more and take everything from you and not let you have a separate individual identity, so yeah I'm still dealing with it through careful boundaries. I don't know how it's gonna be when they get older, I can't see myself living with them again any time soon. Some kind of distance is necessary for me to not get "absorbed". It's easier to love them from a distance. I think I've largely forgiven them and others, and understand that it's a symptom of lack of love they had received. But that doesn't mean I want to be enmeshed with them.. though part of that is also because we don't share a lot of similar interests/way of communicating.

Eventually you have to forgive her to truly heal.. and to unify your consciousness, I know it might sound hard right now. And preferably also recontextualize all of your relationships/views of "others" with the pursuit of Awakening. What it leads to is... can you grow to accept the fact that you dreamt all your dream figures and perceived seperation to have this current experience/dream? That their true self is with God? And therefore completely innocent. And the more you can accept it the less anything happens in the dream should affect you, because you're just watching/in a movie that you made. Don't mind me if it's flying over your head, there's another point to saying this... helps me to remember as well.

This to me sounds a bit crazy considering you're in school full time. I mean maybe okay temporarily but yeah you're doing 2 full time jobs... so of course there would be burn out.. (I'm not saying it can't be done but obviously you're experiencing difficulties). Are there options where you can work less while in school? Maybe having a roomate or some minimal living arrangement?

You're energetically sensitive and know there's greater love potential to be revealed in consciousness that would be closer to the reflection of God's Perfect Love/Oneness, it's like you remember where you come from and can't help but notice the gap in your current reality with that rememberance. That said, you do not necessarily need "others" to fully wake up to access this Perfect Love/Oneness that has always been with you/and is you.

Helps me remember we're One.

New F word is "Forgive".

Seeing through all the tricks of the Ego Mind, just when you think you're "done". There's more after God-Realization as well, if you're ready for that/choose that.

Many factors at play like with most things makes sense if genetics a factor, and survival conditions. Most people adopt their conditioning from cultures and families and do not question it or very much, or have the option/luxury to contemplate independently, or have access to new ideas, etc.

LOL. I got ducks on the brain too.

Yes, we're aspects of you/me/God. Just showing you more of "who you are" as characters. Something not so obvious is that even the people who got some awakenings are pretending to be a character most of the time here. Else there cannot really be a forum (as it is currently).

When I think Tier 2 Yellow someone like Andrew Yang comes to mind, he refrains from demonization and polarization, but he gets demonized a lot by both sides.

I haven't read the actual book but heard him speak about it. It's obviously not for everyone and probably triggering for some. It's nice that you are receptive to the message. It is a message that urge honest self-reflection.. the desire to be special and more powerful than other beings that run much of our way of life right now, a difficult task indeed. Everything will move towards what Love wants to do, and someone like Anand is one of the actors that points out more "things to be loved" so that more Love can shine through reality, though he may not be fully conscious of this fact nor come off this way. This process just takes "time" and patience. Accept the feelings you have one way or another, for the "you" that enjoys whatever "advantages" is still part of you to be loved, and only by loving yourself can you begin to love "others", and contribute to the evolution of consciousness being revealed here starting with loving yourself. Just my 2-cents .

Just do what you feel called to do.. Leo is sharing some of the possibilities. But it shouldn't be hard to fathom that if you go to the Godhead repeatedly it actually means you're looking for/open to being something else/God and exploring those aside from being the Ramu avatar/current experience, just for the sake of it. It can also reveal more about "yourself" and your growth trajectories too.

Try to send love to it.. accept it for what it is right now, make it feel seen and heard, try to understand it. It's a part of you that felt unloved.

Limits of Left Politics aka "Limits of my love". Fundamentally most "left politics" boils down to a cry for help/more love one extent or another. Whether "an ask" is considered excessive or not depends on the limit of one's love, and actual limitations of reality (distinction from perceived limitations).

Every trip is different in a sense, and has a progression to them. Much of it depends on what you're ready for/asking for "next". There's a certain amount of intentionality, and also surrendering/openness to what may come up that's not expected of. It helps me at least to know what you're aiming for like these pointers so you can mentally prepare yourself a bit when your mind does get blasted .

That's pretty much it. Just surrender to what comes up and letting the buried feelings come up and be healed in the presence of love.

Or you keep running into people like yourself .

It's not a one-size fits all with CEOs, it depends on their level of development (moral/ethical included). There are many different stages of development with business leaders and they tend to get lumped into one (ie, the hero or the villain). But you can kind of tell by the way they conduct business, how they make decisions that affect the "bottom line" vs workers/clients. Often it's hard to know the details, but chronic bad press usually contains some kernels of truth. Ideally people vote with the dollar but we also have a system where most people are poor and do not feel they can afford to vote for the most ethical and efficient one.

That's awesome , like a psychedelic.

Like a witch?