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Kind of hard to just pick "one"..

There aren't really "objects" that could really help me, there is nothing else that could help me heal besides more people waking up further. Everything else is just a distraction to me from that.

Well you always have a need to "communicate", it's why you are posting here for example. Perhaps you are looking for beings who can communicate on a similar level or to teach something if not.

Well maybe someone could stop roundaboutly attacking me by constantly demonizing "Christians", who I have zero control of.

"Karma" catches up to you eventually, you cannot completely dissociate, it could also carry into future lifetimes.

Depression + suicidal ideation are (usually) a sign you can (and probably should) awaken further.. I would not recommend taking on what mainstream tells you about depression and suicidal ideation, they don't understand it from a spiritual standpoint, all they try to tell you to do is to "DISSOCIATE IT" with drugs and whatever. It could well be something spiritual (that this world simply does not understand and does not want to understand). Even your "top gurus" do not understand it! Be careful whom you are taking advice from (especially people who are not even remotely spiritual). I can pretty confidently claim at this point that nobody (that I've come across) understands it from a spiritual perspective, because none of the spiritual teachers, therapists, "doctors" I have come across has experienced this "substantially" themselves. They all treat it as a problem, but it is not a problem actually. I STRUGGLE WITH THIS EVERY FKING DAY. Actually, the closer you are to the truth, the more you will have these feelings. Anyway if you feel like reaching out feel free, I am familiar with such topics. I am experienced with shrooms, not much else though.

Here's a couple more for you, related to condo management, you never know what's going to bite your ass until it's too late: https://www.thestar.com/news/gta/missing-fraudster-ordered-to-repay-condo-corporation-1-3-million/article_24b2dacf-7202-5ed3-8b7a-c30d3cfdca6d.html https://www.eagleaudit.ca/documents/MetroNews-Condo-Fraud-Story-September-12-2013.pdf

When you ask that question, what you really mean to ask is, what "thought systems" are closer to the truth (what I take you to mean as "worth following"), knowing that there is still a difference between your initial coming into contact with a "thought system" versus your own lived verifications of them. So really what you have to do is develop your "truth detector". Apparently this is actually extremely difficult for just about every being here (as it turns out).. and yes part of the problem is "group think" and your attraction to your peers that are "similar to you" (besides what is in your mind). And as it turns out, this problem of being "attracted to your peers" can keep you from finding truth for lifetimes after lifetimes and has kept the entire human race still asleep even after however many "gurus" and teachers have gone by.. you cannot even begin to fathom how mind trapped the entire human race is, it's a trap within a trap within a trap. I'm just a messenger.

I used to have quite some respect for Elon and felt he was highly relatable too, truly, but he's become an ego-maniac, I suspect he has unresolved healing work to do, a common problem with men, who tend to be better at "dissociating". It's possible that he is just hiding his pain with this worldly stuff. It's very possible that he struggles with loneliness due to not finding "someone like him". You know it's kind of weird, I saw him say that he would maybe like to "meet Jesus" one day (a rather uncommon thing for someone to say). It's like.. the chance of that happening is pretty low due to his current status. But you never know, LOL. You could say that a lot of his intentions behind the companies were about "saving/improving mankind", so it makes sense that he may be receptive (to Jesus).. Anyway what I am trying to say is that, Elon at the peak of his career (some years ago) was inspiring to me, I don't know what happened to him, I think there is a lack of positive influence in his circle. It's like, once you become rich, it's almost like, you get caught in that life and the people in that, and none of them are likely to be a sage/philospher or to "debate with him"... so I feel like he is cut off from that and became more and more delusional than he was previously...sadly. It's a good example of how status, money, success can corrupt you.

You will much delay your finding of God, that much for certain .

@QandC There is a sort of "human cost" to pursuing vertical ascension, in a nutshell. So if your call is to keep "ascending," then be prepared for some level of "isolation", rejection/ridicule, etc. But it will balance itself out also, you'll probably eventually find "your kind" so to speak.

Depends on how much you awaken in this lifetime, truly. You can choose to not "reincarnate" or to reincarnate for teaching/healing purposes for example.

This is extremely rudimentary even though it may seem "complex". And you can conceptually understand the words but not really "grasp it" in your being..

https://youtube.com/playlist?list=PL7mH2TvQU0Wd3hvJS2AshXWbIK3u3Miye&si=0MK0HqWztbE8J_Tv Enjoy.

There is more, but you have made up your mind already.

Most people return to being a human after their "apparent death". You do not have a choice in that if you have not awakened very much in your lifetime. Ego death means you no longer identify as "a body" or "human", but with spirit. But there's degrees of this as well and exactly "what kind" of spirit can vary greatly. You can very much be a demonic spirit or the opposite of that. Though I consider "demonic spirits" as "forms of egos".

Ok but you are saying that from your level of consciousness and so from that level you can still find people who can "satisfy you" without too much difficulty. I'm sorry but I can't unless someone is close in level of consciousness. Like I am a teacher otherwise, it's not to look down, this is just how it works as you go further into this "journey". Hope you can understand. And right now I happen to be at a place where there's nobody (I could reasonably contact) that I can really have any real meaningful relationship with (friendship or otherwise). And some of that isn't even up to me, some people literally run away from me as well due to my state (and what I end up saying to them as a result of it) lol.

Yeah in my experience it has been rare to come across people who are more mindful like that.. There really is discrimination out there and I have been going out less and less as a result of it.. But I'm saying in order to "get" or love someone who does not fit into heterosexual norms you have to be more mindful.. which requires some form of jailbreaking of your mind, there's not really a way around this.

I'm just offering mushrooms because that's what I used mainly to get to where I am. The other ones are not my forte so you'd have to find others. It's not as easy to get 5-meo here I had to order it from EU, but again, 5-meo is not my forte.

@Nemra I mean you would have to pay the cost of getting to where I am and your accommodations as part of your budget. As far as the mushrooms goes.. it's pretty low cost here and I don't mind sharing unless it starts to become large quantities somehow.. which isn't how I would do things anyway.

Ok I understand. So where I am in Canada, it is not technically legal either except for medical use but they don't really care for personal uses so I can easily get it. I don't run any "centers" and I understand that you don't really know me. I guess my offer still stands if you ever want to visit Canada, I would be happy to help you (at no cost other than your own travel cost) if you'd like to try/work with mushrooms.

Ok so you are saying you have problem with access is what I'm gathering.

I did it all solo, so I'm not experienced with group settings. That said if you can't find a suitable one it may still help to have someone who's experienced and hold space in some form.

If you are interested in mushrooms feel free to message me.. I don't charge anything if you just want some guidance, but am experienced in it.

Not your original mind, or you would be the same as me by now.