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Kind of hard to just pick "one"..

There aren't really "objects" that could really help me, there is nothing else that could help me heal besides more people waking up further. Everything else is just a distraction to me from that.

Well you always have a need to "communicate", it's why you are posting here for example. Perhaps you are looking for beings who can communicate on a similar level or to teach something if not.

Well maybe someone could stop roundaboutly attacking me by constantly demonizing "Christians", who I have zero control of.

"Karma" catches up to you eventually, you cannot completely dissociate, it could also carry into future lifetimes.

Depression + suicidal ideation are (usually) a sign you can (and probably should) awaken further.. I would not recommend taking on what mainstream tells you about depression and suicidal ideation, they don't understand it from a spiritual standpoint, all they try to tell you to do is to "DISSOCIATE IT" with drugs and whatever. It could well be something spiritual (that this world simply does not understand and does not want to understand). Even your "top gurus" do not understand it! Be careful whom you are taking advice from (especially people who are not even remotely spiritual). I can pretty confidently claim at this point that nobody (that I've come across) understands it from a spiritual perspective, because none of the spiritual teachers, therapists, "doctors" I have come across has experienced this "substantially" themselves. They all treat it as a problem, but it is not a problem actually. I STRUGGLE WITH THIS EVERY FKING DAY. Actually, the closer you are to the truth, the more you will have these feelings. Anyway if you feel like reaching out feel free, I am familiar with such topics. I am experienced with shrooms, not much else though.

Here's a couple more for you, related to condo management, you never know what's going to bite your ass until it's too late: https://www.thestar.com/news/gta/missing-fraudster-ordered-to-repay-condo-corporation-1-3-million/article_24b2dacf-7202-5ed3-8b7a-c30d3cfdca6d.html https://www.eagleaudit.ca/documents/MetroNews-Condo-Fraud-Story-September-12-2013.pdf

When you ask that question, what you really mean to ask is, what "thought systems" are closer to the truth (what I take you to mean as "worth following"), knowing that there is still a difference between your initial coming into contact with a "thought system" versus your own lived verifications of them. So really what you have to do is develop your "truth detector". Apparently this is actually extremely difficult for just about every being here (as it turns out).. and yes part of the problem is "group think" and your attraction to your peers that are "similar to you" (besides what is in your mind). And as it turns out, this problem of being "attracted to your peers" can keep you from finding truth for lifetimes after lifetimes and has kept the entire human race still asleep even after however many "gurus" and teachers have gone by.. you cannot even begin to fathom how mind trapped the entire human race is, it's a trap within a trap within a trap. I'm just a messenger.

I used to have quite some respect for Elon and felt he was highly relatable too, truly, but he's become an ego-maniac, I suspect he has unresolved healing work to do, a common problem with men, who tend to be better at "dissociating". It's possible that he is just hiding his pain with this worldly stuff. It's very possible that he struggles with loneliness due to not finding "someone like him". You know it's kind of weird, I saw him say that he would maybe like to "meet Jesus" one day (a rather uncommon thing for someone to say). It's like.. the chance of that happening is pretty low due to his current status. But you never know, LOL. You could say that a lot of his intentions behind the companies were about "saving/improving mankind", so it makes sense that he may be receptive (to Jesus).. Anyway what I am trying to say is that, Elon at the peak of his career (some years ago) was inspiring to me, I don't know what happened to him, I think there is a lack of positive influence in his circle. It's like, once you become rich, it's almost like, you get caught in that life and the people in that, and none of them are likely to be a sage/philospher or to "debate with him"... so I feel like he is cut off from that and became more and more delusional than he was previously...sadly. It's a good example of how status, money, success can corrupt you.

You will much delay your finding of God, that much for certain .

@QandC There is a sort of "human cost" to pursuing vertical ascension, in a nutshell. So if your call is to keep "ascending," then be prepared for some level of "isolation", rejection/ridicule, etc. But it will balance itself out also, you'll probably eventually find "your kind" so to speak.

Depends on how much you awaken in this lifetime, truly. You can choose to not "reincarnate" or to reincarnate for teaching/healing purposes for example.

This is extremely rudimentary even though it may seem "complex". And you can conceptually understand the words but not really "grasp it" in your being..

https://youtube.com/playlist?list=PL7mH2TvQU0Wd3hvJS2AshXWbIK3u3Miye&si=0MK0HqWztbE8J_Tv Enjoy.

There is more, but you have made up your mind already.