Kenhol

So if I'm not the body or mind but just a field of nothingness that is aware of the body and mind happening inside it, why am I not aware of other people's body and mind and thoughts and feelings like they were my own ego? This field of awareness is locked only to my ego somehow? Doesn't this field of nothingness stretch out into infinity and observe everything?

I assume you mean a vegan diet and not ketogenic diet? Confusing as you didn't tag the ratio with Carb/Protein/Fat or anything like that and you can see ratios out there where fat is the first number (F/P/C)

At least you have the habit of writing a journal That in itself is valuable

I've been alone without family or friends for many many months now, actually in smaller scales for years, and I don't even have the sligthest sense of loneliness. Most people only want to talk about gossip, their problems, status, materialism, the weather, pettiness anyway. I have a lot of better things to do. If you've spent a few hours with an ordinary person you've basically met them all, it's just the same thing over and over again in different wrapping. And they aren't even aware of it. After time spent on your job it's not much time left and you can easily get trapped by the silly games and all of a sudden you're 60 years old and all the time is wasted on monkey activities. I think loneliness exist because people let it. Just another illusion I was fortunate to grow out of. You don't need anything or anyone to be happy You probably have this flashy image in your head of how very social people got it and that they are in this consistent flow of laughter and new valuable experiences. But for every valuable hour with ordinary people, you have to waste 100 hours on all their pettiness.. Not a very effective path for happiness Ofc you probably want to have activities and interests that works best in solitude. If you have no interest in thinking, not thinking, meditation, art, ideas, knowledge and learning, contemplation which I think requires silence away from the majority of people.. +1325432 other things you can do alone.. If you find these things boring then what are you going to do with all that time alone? Then you probably should build yourself up to become more social

@Leo Gura Yeah I don't go door to door saying "Have you heard of our lord and savior Leo Gura?" It's just that sometimes here and there I get in the position where I feel an explanation would be in order, not like the "here's the ultimate truth" but something worth learning more about. I also use a lot of time researching this now in the beginning. Maybe I should just live it and let people ask questions here and there lol

Is there a way of explaining all this with ego, enlightenment, spirituality (not the typical spirit persona that's going to some heaven) in just 5-10 minutes without sounding like you're part of some nonsense religion? I came from a very atheistic, grounded, scientific point of view before I found Actualized.org and Leo's videos and other research it lead to. But I can't exist in this short period of time in eternity and not try to understand it or not search for deep truths if it can be found by humans, and all this with enlightenment and everything around it really got my attention, seems like the most "neutral" study of existence to me. But when trying to explain it in a few minutes (that's all the time most people got) I can't get to get through why this is different from religion. Although Leo has given some good lines about why this isn't made up religion in some of his videos, I think "ego", "enlightenment", "nothingness" just sounds like another idea. Especially this thing with our true nature and enlightenment, although everyone agrees that everything in our body has changed throughout our lives, it's easy to think that we are this deep memory or sum of an equation of all things that has happened. Of course you could say not to care what people think, but eventually someone will ask and for some reason I want the explanation to catch their curiosity. How would you explain all this in 5-10 minutes to someone that know very little to nothing about it? Can it even be done? Is limitations of language the problem?