Wendelin

a lot has been written here about the spiritual process and descriptions what it is and what it is not. you get soaked in for the wrong reason, you as an entity want some Kind of Liberation for yourself. either to be free from suffering or to experience something that is told to be sooo incredibly big brings blissfulness, peace and joy. In a way what you know right now seems to be not enough you don`t want to settle for it or you are just curious what that Thing is. then you learn about it intellectually and absorb an amount of descriptions & Information that is processed within your mind. You also learn that it includes you being not what you thought you are. You are creating an alternative model of how that could replace the old identity. But this is just hallucination even if you try to see everything as yourself and reflect that intellectually. You can be stuck in this state probably forever as it is very entertaining. next step is that you have an experience glimpse of that you are not what you thought you are. You find out that there is no person that could get enlightened or otherwise stay in the dark. The mind cannot grasp that and holds onto his picture and even fights against it. Or it hallucinates about being God and how good this "God mode" might feel and what it brings along for you. The mind is proven wrong again and again by experience and contemplation. A distance is establishing between you and your mind, you take it only seriously when it is inline with your experience or awareness and let it think what it wants otherwise. the Body/mind is understood as something that is like an awareness control Center and "seat or perspective of experience" but that is as "outside" or "inside" yourself as everything else that you can become Aware of. As the outer world comes closer, the inner world gets more distance and they are moving towards a merger. then there is no inside and outside, there is just "you". This seems to be the magical path as it can be somehow described also there might be a lack of logic. I understand that when I am not recognizing everything as myself from experience that I am not yet enlightened or awakened. It`s not something that can be missed. You can surely hallucinate about being enlightened but being far away from it, but you cannot be enlightened and not know it. It leaves you completely transformed whereas everything else are just some changes of identification. At the end stands your honest recognition of your true self through experience and releasing all fascinating hallucinations about it once and for all. so what or who is triggering the final Switch that cannot be reversed? What prevents us from pushing the button? Why can`t we let go what we created in an instant? It seems like we don`t want to take the toys of the Little kid that we are. OK we are spiritual, we take some toys but we hesitate to take all. Why? Probably because we are not conscious about the enormity of what we started just playing around with this enlightenment stuff? like playing with fire. It makes fun only as Long as you have the fire under Control even if it is a big fire. Letting everything burn happens either as an accident, as an act of Desperation or out of tremendous curiosity that makes you forget about all kind of consequences. That`s what we are aiming at right? as always, everything posted can just be words, even not my mother tongue, just thoughts, just concept. But questions are helpful as even experience can come out of posing it. (otherwise this talking is all nonsense and in fact it is in a way...) universal regards, Wendelin

my mind doesn`t know yet if that is stable or not but I am pretty sure. Since a few days I don`t care any longer whats Happening on the so called outside because I know that this is also me but just a mere reflection. I feel bliss and happiness no matter what appears as an experience and there is no negative emotion. enlightenment or Realisation is just one of These experiences that pass through me. I don`t care about those as well as Long as I am so blissful and excited. Forget about enlightenment ;-)

guys this Bentinho Massaro completely blew me away. It is just incredible incredible incredible. I experience blissfulness and excitement the whole time even while having the most severe Business setback that threathens all my belongings including my families house with debt Claims of 0.6 mio. Euros. Ist a culmination of a 2 years struggle and suffering. And I am just laughing inside not because I am going crazy but because I recognized me as having created that mess which is reflected to me. And it will be fun to Change it again with my consciousness directing things in the right way. Am I realized now? I hope so. I never never never want to loose that state again and I think I won`t.

@Shin that is when you become Aware of your true nature. Everything happens within Awareness. Nothing was ever experienced out of Awareness. So awareness and what appears in it is tied together. There is a painter and a painting which exactly reflects what the painter intended. So we could identify with one Little aspect of the painting (be it dark or shiny) or with the creative force behind which includes the painter, his Colors, his canvas and his intelligence = god = nothingness

you ARE the creator and you choose what is created as a consequence or reflection of your awareness and beingness. And that is what shines back to you as an illusionary "reality". Experience does not have inherited meanings, emotions etc. So you can experience your beingness the way you want it and that is what gets reflected back to you.

free will is being able to have Options to respond and chosing one of them as a consequence. do you have Options when you are not consciously chosing but compulsively or according to your "likes" and "dislikes"? are you really at the receiving end in this creation and have therefore no free will? Or are you as well the creator in fact at the giving side? Isn`t it that the receiving end version (victim side) is the Illusion and the giving side is what your truely are? (creator, god, nothingness whatever) check this out:

there is no Dogma to fill in. Wheter you see (as consciousness) one illlusionary universe or infinite illusionary universes whats the big difference? in which scheme does infinity fit better? Into infinte possibilities through which your awareness zips due to its state of awareness and the following reflections of your creative awareness or into one world that offers limited possibilities which makes you more or less a victim?

@Neo you want to live or you want to die? Does you don`t exist mean you shall sit in a cave? Let`s learn some amazing Things but put it in the right perspective. I see no contradiction at all.

http://www.bentinhomassaro.com/read/knowing-that-youre-full-of-shit-will-set-you-free "you don't know anything and you're always full of shit." thats so true

thats an interesting Video, this guy nails reality very good.

trigger is just a methaphor as Enlightenment is definitely some Kind of shift (at least from the view of the individual) which has to have a cause even if that cause is not real or absolute. Otherwise it would not make any sense to even ask all These questions as a seeker. The cause can of Course be a very simple Realisation. Maybe the simplest one that is thinkable.

@DJ I think the crucial Point is that when the stage is prepared according to what you are able to do, you shall not stay there and wait for something to happen with you. You must disappear and be the unknowing audience that does not have any expectations at all. thats probably the most difficult Thing to realize because the ego/mind may think ok i am the audience "let`s get ready to rumble". and of Course nothing happens just maybe some hallucination. Still on the stage or in the directors seat? Forget it. so probably it is the best to also Forget about enlightenment and just do the best to align oneself with existence by being less identified. the less you are identified with anything, the more Aware you are in fact. And that is probably all we can do. Being Aware, forgetting about so called Knowledge (which is based on identification and disection of Things) and not identifying. Maybe a flower will blossom, maybe not. Being more Aware, suffering less and being more joyful is worthwile even without Enlightenment.

Yes. But a blissful life without suffering makes definitely sense while we are still here. How to get there is the so called spiritual process which (if done properly) sheds wrong identifications from you. The successful conscious identification with Everything that is brings you into that state where you are able to choose your Feelings and where is no Need to suffer. I a way you are anticipating the death of the Body/mind/ego as a seperate unit by doing that. Can you as a human being exist without the support of your body? No. Without the Support of a the earth or a similar planet? No. Without the solar System? no. So why not seeing all of it as your larger Body. Can this whole stuff exist without the Support of the whole universe? no. So why not seeing the universe as your larger Body? And can the universe exist without the no-thingness that contains it? No. So why not seeing the no-thingness or all-that-is as your larger or infinite Body? So recognizing that or being Aware of that while still alive is a wonderful Thing to experience life in the deepest possible way. Why getting up, eating, shitting, working, eating sleeping, reproducing and falling dead one day? Whats the Point of it? You want to be touched or overwhelmed by life, that brings joy and bliss. So lets go there and get the most touching and overwhelming Feelings out of it.

@Soulbass Who is the You that claims to have created or not created everything? If you created everything you must be like a director who directs each particle of the cosmic Dance of life. Are you a director? Are you an actor? Is there a director and seperate things to be directed (because These things don`t know their role without director)? And as there is nothing to be directed there is also no Need for an actor. The act Plays anyway. so everything is simply an act that is being played, making you and every single experience you have also simply into an act that you are Aware of. who Acts if there is no real actor? You as your own self created illusionary Body/mind pretends to do it as the rest of the universe pretends to be the stage and everyone else pretends to be supernumerary. You as this self created unit can choose if your life acts out as a Comedy, a tragedy, a romantic movie, a Drama, a Horror movie or an enlightened movie. So choose your movie consciously and not let compulsive reactions to Things around you make you believe you are Held within a certain Kind of movie which is not of your liking... But in fact you are the consciousness part that is Aware of the movie. If your Little toe is hurting the perception of it is an act, if you have a thought or if you perceive something in the "outside world" that is also an act, there is no real difference of inside and outside (your physical boundaries). If you perceive actualized.org, that is an act too. And yes you created the act or experience of getting in touch with actualized.org. Did you create it? The consciousness that is the true essence of yourself created it through looking through the lens of Leo who by himself Acts within his limitations. So regarding you, Actualized.org is only there for you and your act. So are you also responsible for it? Yes you are, you are able to respond to it even if that takes place just in your mind. That is true for the whole universe. Yes you created it and yes you are responsible. (that is valid as Long as the "you" is not misunderstood as a seperate Entity) does that make sense?

That is also what I think. As soon as we give back our Body to the earth our consciousness will recognize what it is all about and what we could not see from the limited perspective of a humand mind. You can see everything as bullshit (like everything is just growing uncontrolled like weeds without any sense or intention) or everything as holy with a sense. There is no good Things and bad Things, even shit is meaningful (and it is indeed as a dung/fertilizer for new life) As I become more and more Aware, I am sensing that all is interconnected and that is also confirmed by enlightenment experiences, that you are in fact not your Body but everything which is just the same Thing as nothing (if you don`t narrow everything down to solid Things). so I see life simply as a reflection of the state of awareness that you have. You can strongly identify just with your Body and just look for best possible survival and reproduction of this one only. That will produce a lot of suffering along the way. On the other side of the spectrum lies identification with everything that is and considering everything you notice as yourself with the ability to consciously respond to it (responsibility). For me that is more than a concept because suffering and emotions push us to the side that simply feels better. When our happiness is no issue, then you can live fully right?

I once heard: Life is a dream but the dream is true.

@WelcometoReality I am just raising some questions that are very obvious to me. I don`t know the answers but I recognize a huge intelligence in the whole creation. of Course something is only relevant when it is in my direct experience. So all I can do in life is to enhance my perception so that I may perceive something beyond sense perception, thought and emotion. to say I don`t know is the best thing. Is there a director? I don`t think so too. But I cannot rule it out does that mean everything happens spontaneously? Is there no intelligence behind it? even Einstein said: "I, at any rate, am convinced that He does not throw dice." Definitely there is intelligence just look at something in nature or the cosmos around the earth. The planets and the sun are in a perfect geometry to enable us to life on planet earth. an Atom and molecules are also some kind of geometry. What if our life is completely based on some Kind of Geometry? I don`t know but if there is so much intelligence even within the smallest particles (that are in fact not real particles but Kind of energetic waves) there is the possibility that it is a geometric Play, within which you as a human being are able to become Aware of from a singular perspective and be overwhelmed by it. I don`t know if that is the case yet but that is one possibility. So I don`t want to narrow me down to believing that nothing makes any sense in existence. In fact there is only the alternative that everything makes the biggest possible sense. A Little bit sense and order a Little bit nonsense and chaos that makes no sense at all. I probably read more than 500 of the > 4200 Near Death experiences at http://www.nderf.org/Archives/NDERF_NDEs.html and of Course "near death" is by Definition not been dead as there is no such Things. But These experiences have very much in common with Enlightenment experiences and therefore am curious what they have in common. So they are pointing to a sense behind everything. But i am Aware that this might be just be some Kind of Illusion. Only own experience is relevant. What someone tells is just a Story even if it is something you like to believe.

@Snick Thanks snick. No I did not read that yet (have not so much time) but I will have a look.

@Leo Gura Overnight I developed the exact step by step process to becoming a sage or mystic. And here it is revealed: The 10 Steps to become a successful sage or mystic 1. Don`t shave. Be straight about it. You will never touch a razor again. 2. Let a tailor make unique clothes for you. You don`t want People to be able to buy the same brands of clothes and Dress like you. 3. As Long as your face can get recognized as Leo, just Show a blurry Picture in your Videos and maybe some light effects that symbolize a halo. (just a Suggestion) 4. Choose a new Name. It is common for mystics to add ji to a Name like Leoji but that sounds a bit like sneezing. But the second Name Gura is quite predestined. So Guraji or Gurji would be fine for the starting period. After you have some success you simply add another ji like Gurjiji. But of Course you can also choose a Name which has nothing to do with your original Name. What about Monk-jiji? 5. Delete old Videos like how to make a Girl squirt. You don`t want to be recognized for such stuff (even if it is holy shit) and conducting other earthly pleasures. A holy Person should be publicy considered as having transcended that and being able to create orgasmic Feelings in his mind without external help. (external also relates to the own Body especially hands) 6. Improve your Video cutting skills so that you can simply put a golden egg (Lingam) out of your mouth once you re-appear on Youtube with a full-grown beard. 7. categorize the questions that People might ask. There are many Topics but you can summarize and categorize them easily to about 100 Topics of life. Develop an answer to each category. For each one you should also develop a parable. That is because you don`t want to offend People by telling them the ugly truth. If a Lion tells the trouth to a monkey People will swallow it. 8. As soon as you have enough Followers you let them donate Money and build an ashram. India is a great place since there is no Religion-Monopoly there. People therefore are so confused about their existence so that you can make them believe almost anything. So there are also enough potential Followers there. And make sure that you sit in a chair or swing that is significantly higher as the People who should sit on the ground. So they have to look up. (if you want to be innovative, you can also talk out of a hole in the earth but that is just a Suggestion...) 9. Make a secret assessment Center for getting enough qualified disciples. There should be a sufficient number of them to make you credible enough. Leo and his 3 disciples would Sound a bit lousy. So between 7 and 12 is a pretty good number, if it is more it becomes difficult to handle and also sounds a bit exaggregated in comparison with fellow sages. Like Leo and his 74 disciples... But be clear about it: Once you define the number, you cannot Change that anymore. So sign confidential life-time contracts with the applicants. A descending number or big fluctuation is not good for your reputation. So even if someone is for any reason not motivated any longer, he should have the Obligation to Show up from time to time in the ashram at least. 10. Talk a bit more slowly. well, that should be it. Or did I leave out something important? what I wanted to say with this whole posting is something you probably forgot in your Video: You Need to develope sense of humour that many of the sages have in common as they know the cosmic joke of existence. universal regards, Wendelin

@Leo Gura great idea this New Vision. I like it a lot. I have a similar vision which I Found out through culpavriksha Meditation, but normally you cannot Tell anyone. They declare you Whatever ... you did it anyway :-) Its logical because nobody takes the second Best Decision for him or her consciously. This is True for your whole life. You may weigh everything or just react compulsively it does not matter. Your Reaction or decision is always the Best you are able to at each Moment even if you just say no to everything. That is so for everyone. Someone walking in your Shoes with 100% the Same "input" which includes also genetic and Pre birth Stuff would make the same decisions live the Same life and have the Same results. Because consciously or unconsciously he or she Decides What he or she thinks or feels is the Best alternative. If that is then considered Not the case that is only Seen and been aware of later. So this leads automatically into that direction of becoming a sage or Mystic as the next logical Step after KnowIng your True Natur. There is simply no worthwile alternative anymore and If you See all Options as a pyramid, on top is Not much left. You in fact have no other choice as being the highest Version of your self that is possible as a human. And you are helping others to get higher Versions of themselves automatically by just Living as an example. Universal regards Wendelin

@WelcometoReality I think you are drawing conclusions. You have found that you are infinite no-thingness which amounts to pure awareness vs a previously wrong idea and identification. And now you think that there cannot be more to it. but is there an immense intelligence behind creation (which is also consciousness) or can you deny that? How can you deny it? Why is there an empty infinite emty formless scape or no-thingness to "then" embrace all Happenings or Acts (that are there as just one big Happening) in the first place? As there is no time and space there is there not an access to everything that has ever happened and will ever happen, to every imprint into the no-thingness? These imprints are only something that comes and goes when time is there. When time is not there they simply are there, right? No time = no erasing of the imprint. infinite imprints = infinite Intelligence??? I just watched this Video for the 3rd time. Not that I don`t understand it, just the way it is presented to me touches me: universal regards, Wendelin

@Frogfucius are you really sure that everything is just bullshit? If it is all you why don`t you care for it? Suppose you have a strong bleeding wound, is that also bullshit that doesn`t Need to be fixed? Well that is in your physical boundaries, for sure will you make sure that your leg does not get rotten. Let my foot burn? No... so what about somebody else you recognize as yourself (after Realisation) although he is not within your bodily boundaries? Let him rot? Let everything rot, let everything burn? Is being or Feeling superior (as a realized being) towards unrealized People towards unconscious Acts and beliefs the truth or is it that everything no matter what it is is just as big as yourself? Sorry it is not meant personal (you are anyway me) but you can either shit on the world or bow down on the great intelligence behind it. What was created is not a simple Thing its huge and it is so intelligently put together. It is so fragile but at the same time so steady. And there is Intention behind it even if you can`t see it. You coming to this point is one big desire that goes back not only to single-celled organisms but to the creation of the whole universe. It is neither a game nor serious. Its pure joy of being. So enjoy it the way it is as you wrote! Laughing is good, but when it Comes from a Kind of above-perspective looking down on Things it could simply not be the real thing. (in my view) Just laugh at it because of your sense of humour and the joy of being. Thats a good Thing. Or did I understand you don`t caring and shittalking wrong? universal regards, Wendelin

@Prabhaker that is exactly how I would describe it :-) Great.

@WelcometoReality as Long as there are questions, you are not enlightened. That is right. So you Point at pure perceiving = knowing right? Vs "some completely clueless awareness" wondering about what the heck is going on...? And there is also not really a distance to walk as you are that. But becoming Aware of that seems to be a movement from untruth to truth. So this should be more like a switching off the wrong reality vs. the real reality. This should happen at an instant as there is no in between. @Prabhaker I agree it is not an achievement, ist your true nature and you are that already but not being able to somehow realize it yet. How to remember who you are? Something has to happen otherwise you are stuck within what you are not. You can prepare the soil, put a seed into the earth, you can water the plant, but you cannot pull the flower out of it, it has to flower itself, you have to be Patient and only focus the right condition. so my Point is not how to pull out this damn flower but how to set the right stage so that whatever wants to Show up does it when it is time. And at some Point you cannot do anymore, you go aside become silent, not doing, you are able to just be aware of the flowering process and all its sensations. so it is more like what is the last Thing you do to actively Support the process. Just right before you disappear.