Harikrishnan

Best wishes on your journey, it will be good if you start reading books on healing. here is a booklist my friend shared. has some good books by different healers https://www.issseemscience.org/bookstore.html

Are you seeing a pattern? like no matter how good i am my higher up always find a reason to be upset about my work or something along those lines.

This is not True. There are many women spiritual masters who are very well respected like Sri Anandamayi Ma, Nirmala Srivastava(sahaja yoga), amrithandamayi amma, saradha devi, mother meera etc. They where all celebrated by blue people considerd them as God send, they where hated by left and orange.

living in India what i have seen is women are really not into hardcore spirituality sitting for hours on meditation mat, doing kriya yoga etc but more into bakthi yoga devotion to God/Godesses channeling and new age stuff. I think its also cause of patriarchy and marrying them off in early 20's. We are entering into a phase of women being independent for themselves and maybe in 25-30 we could see the rise of women yoga studio and all(there are few now)

yeah it will be best if you have savings to live for next twenty years plus. it will be really hard to meditate when your electric bill is due and dont have money to buy nutrient rich foods.

https://www.skirsch.io/sibo/ Insights from Mark Pimentel on the treatment of SIBO

Have u gone low foodmap when u took ayurvedic medicine? I think you need to cut down grains, legumes,dairy,sugar.(i am currently doing it but have rice) like others above said do it for 4-8 weeks and check how it feels and slowly add one by one. see, bulking up can be done later first heal your gut.

https://www.manipalhospitals.com/delhi/specialities/gastrointestinal-science/hydrogen-breath-test/ Only place i saw something regarding sibo. I hope they can provide you test, i really feel for you man, this country's healthcare is shitty. I am facing fatigue after meal and also lot of gas and bloating.

Are u saying you have to have some martial arts skill or fighting skills so u can knock someone out if situation arises.

so from my understanding there are two kind of chicken in our market one is homegrown chicken- chickens we see gown in house holds it is beautiful to see with different colors. These chicken go all around house and properties and eat worms, small insects get good sunlight, and are happy etc There eggs shells are brown in color. these chickens meat(bones) are really strong and hard for teeth to break. due to lack of space in house these days many people are putting these chickens in chicken coop without sending them outside and fed them corn and wheat. Second kind is broiler chicken these chicken are generally used for meat and they grow very quickly like in 40 days or something cause of hormones injected antibiotics and corn fed. some vareity of these chicken(layers) are used for laying eggs also which are white(shell) in color is produced in large quantity. Large no of chicken are raised like this in small area. chickens here doesnt have much space to move around. These chickens meat and bones are soft.

Culture ingrained in them.

Lyrics are so mystical.

Imagine a personality that has every value you want. How will he behave, how does he feel. now act like him, imagine scenarios, then feel like how that personality feel. slowly incoporate that into your normal day activities. also script, write story about yourself in new set of value. also you can write a different past stories, dont just cling to one, rewrite your whole life. Be creative, this is your life, you can make it however you want.

I was reading book on adler philosophy. he says all praise are manipulation. when u praise you are making others be inferior to you. like when mother say you did a good job, is unconsciously creating a hirearchial relationship and seeing the children beneath her. To be honest i do feel good when i praise someone for a thing they did.

Budhist monk consciously leaving his body.

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Then you might like this book

Cute. Need to check sense of humor with some doctor.

It is good if you could provide meaning or what is written when its in other language.

I realize both of you are imagined by me going back n forth. someone else will come and tag my comment and say exact thing and to infinity(but thats imagined by me) There are no other minds,other than this.

I have been following actualized.org for 5 years and last 5 years have been best of my life. I took more responsibility about my relationship,spirituality,(health and finance (which i need to improve more on) but overall i am satisfied with result actualized.org have given me. Im really thankfull to leo for opening my mind to psychedelic and most of things you explained in videos i experienced. I resonate lot with your work and i can see your love for us, i dont understand when people say your work lack heart, all i can see is heart pouring out for us. I realized there is no death and i saw my mother is just my imagination(she just vanished infront of me on my lsd trip) yet my love for life has increased more, like 100x and love for others even when knowing they are imaginary. only problem i felt with your work is its actually not your but mine that i see a lot of your videos and when i experience same thing with psychedelic, what you say, i kind of feel i am seeing through your lens than mine(since you explain everything in detail) i doubt whether iam deluding myself and check wether is this a belief playing out or is actual realization happening. other thing is i idealize your work a lot, like you put a lot of content in form of yt videos, blogs,forum, life purpose. cosuming all these is important to raise my consciousness but at meantime i have to check myself not turn to a mini leo.

If its real am sorry for the loss. my prayers and love to the family. @SoonHeiRest in peace.

Yes. i feel same.

no wonder why lately there is click sound heard when u move notes on telepromter, i dont remember hearing it on your old videos.