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@Bodhitree Its a matter of times. Saints didnt have Wordly knowledge, technology, etc. @freejoy Theres a big risk going for non duality if you dont have your life situations prepared for it. Better get money, then go non dual. Im telling you from experience, I got stepped on while going non dual and being in the matrix. Not happening again. At the same time, you will always need truth for your private life. Its the balancer.

@Flowerfaeiry I have been very close to making a post like this, but its nice to see am not alone, lol. Even after enligthenment experiences, the massive knowledge I have gathered, unbelievable mental expansion, life experiences and working out actualized.org I can confirm to you I have gone through depression, though emotional problems, strong mental karmic reactions, full delusion into devilry and suicidal thoughts. Yet, am eternally grateful for everything I have gone through. You will be fine, you just have to keep going. Remember, all pain is temporary and this too shall pass. Im the living proof of a fckng rare men. Not to say weirdo, but extremely rare, because of my understanding and knowledge, my habits, ideas and lifestyle will seem nuts to an average person. This gives me freedom and power of creativity to be as I please and manipulate my reality to certain extent. Its literally like being a magician. But there is alot of which leo doesnt talk about that you wont understand if you dont do the work yourself, tap into your intuitive power to understand things and even research out of actualized.org. For example, NLP, Language, rituals, perception, controlling your mind, memory and truth, are topics that leo has barely mentioned. And the list goes on... Its inmense. Did you know the main thing you need to have alot of confidence is actually a strong ego (mental frame work)? Ofc this goes against spiritual work but you can reverse it after awakening. Leo doesnt explains how confidence works and how spirituality makes you un confident. Is veeery hard to go through the matrix while awakening and not having confidence. I went through such a hell, living in a 3rd World country. Confidence is a topic so vast. Leo needs to make a video on it. I will approve if what he says is right, lol. There are many tricks to have unbreakable confidence. What I mean is that you can play your life as you wish when you have such type of knowledge. If you simply understood how language molds your reality you will become a magician. Also, notice that even thou ignorants are in bliss, they are stuck as fck in their limitations and that is true hell, cuz they dont know other wise as well. But if you keep going and manage how to handle your life crisis of self-expansion you will be lot better in the end. Also, remember that at the end of the day, the True life winners were not the ones who won the most in here, but those who got to trascend this. By awakening you only seem to loose, but truly win. If you feel as to much, give yourself breaks. Go fck, eat and do whatever the hell, you will come back like a dog... Hehe. Truly, do that. I remember when I quitted truth for almost 2 years and got deluded by one thought. It only took one thought to transform me into a devil. The cool thing thou, is that I still have awareness, knowledge and a strong ego. Its not the best scenario but having a strong social ego with the awareness and knowledge I have is only possible with awakening first and rebuilding of ego personality. This pic is exactly how I look like in the inside (Half Devil Half Angel). You will too in the future and many of actualized.org's. The good thing is that I feel powerful, with clarity and control. The bad thing is that almost no one will get you. You will need to have that ego persona as I said to meet some needs and just get through in the matrix. Trying to be authentic in the matrix is like digging your own grave. Also, having too much perception, knowledge and intelligence will depress and annoy you when being around so much ignorance that could affect you. Even thou I have an inner hell of contradictions that consistently manifest, I can handle it with that other piece of heaven, emergency button of salvation that can be pressed whenever I truly need. I prefer my situation than being an ignorant billionaire stuck in hell. 99% of them right now cant enter heaven. They have tooo much karma and attachment. Yet my advantage is that in my half state I can do devilry (become a billionaire) then get enligthened. Proverbs 22:6 "Train up a child in the way he should go: and when he is old, he will not depart from it".

Lately, I have been doing lot of contemplation, and inside my realizations I intuited that one of the qualities of GOD is that it is a troll master. I dont mean the cosmic joke of awakening, no. I mean it just like love, one of its qualities is that it is laughing its ass off through infinity. Its a fucking joker. Any one else came to see this?

@Blackhawk No, Im not attributing any human quality and I completely get your point. You have to see it by yourself to understand it. I realized that it really doesnt make sense to explain these things. Theres no way I can explain how I came to know it rather than just knowing it. Who the heck would relate such joker nonsense to GOD? Lol. But see just as @Mason Riggle showed me alan watts explanation on it. Coincidence? No. I actually perceived GOD laughing like a maniac inside me, through me, at himself and at myself as well. The Christians were right, you can actually hear God speak to you and communicate with him directly like praying. Its just too different and mystical as how church/society teaches. I could hear God telling me to relax and trust him, that its all a game and everything will be alright. There was no voice saying it but i could hear it. I know it sounds crazy to the logical mind, thats why I said it doesnt makes sense to speak about this. That same day I had a laugh attack at my job when I realized such thing. I couldn't stop laughing at my superiors everytime I saw them talking in a serious manner and my peers being serious, lmao. My consciousness instantly shifted and love energy was flowing for a while, it was as if God entered in me, people could perceive an energy Shift in my eyes, since they were surprisingly looking at me. It was a cool mystical experience. That same day I had a storm of realizations. Some of them were that God as in the bible is quite right, meaning He truly is above and always watching you from everywhere. He is always knocking at your door, looking for you to recognize Him and ultimately worship Him in humility. Because that God is you. That even thou you realize God in someway like love, nothingness, Infinity, etc. , it doesnt mean to realize him in a totally different way IS false/wrong. GOD is to be realized in a multi-perspective way. The whole purpose of life is just to find God. You will go through many things until finally ending there. Another one that shocked me was being selfish. Not falsely selfish, but TRULY SELFISH. Being Truly selfish with yourself in a complete, earnest, integral and honest way is true goodness for all. And lastly, while people (ignorants) are laughing at Him for not proving His existence, He is laughing his ass off at them for their unexistence.

@fopylo Get financial freedom, then get enligthened. When you get the money you will also have the choice to free yourself from your cravings. You can use superficial spirituality like being present, grounding yourself in the present (principle), deep breathing, watching your thoughts, meditating and contemplating. Other than that you will waste your time and energy if your social and life situation is not supportive for awakening. Being an animal has its pros. You will be unsensitive to others energies and attacks from this concrete jungle. You have to fight in this World if you want to survive and earn a position for enligthenment. Unless you wanna be under others control. You better go directly from animal to GOD, than slowly going back and and forth, calling it "maturing your ego". Its just a waste of time.

@IAmPaulQuinn You may remember this comment in the future. Im actually like you. We just get bombarded into distracting us for and with sex. Sex is great, but is an extremely miniscule thing to be focused on. When you dont focus, think, watch or relate with anything sexual, you will see how much lower any sexual craving is. But, in the future, you might get conditioned into it again. Society, media, movies, friends, family, work, etc. Since they have been conditioned as well, thats one of their main focus. They dont know anymore and you might get lost into it even while knowing. Thats how strong social conditioning is into going directly to your unconscious mind. What I would recommend is to have sex with a couple of girls and/or scorts and take pictures or videos if they are comfty with it. When you save that data, it will be a permanent reminder as evidence that you already tried that and its not as society wants to paint it. That yes, is cool but my focus is beyond such trivial thing. That way you will not feel guilty when others try to convince you into it and having a gf, proving yourself onto others as how many girls you get, etc. You can remind it to yourself and be mentally at peace and even if others pressure you without no more choice, you can show them proof to shut up and you keep going with your thing.

Sadhguru explained something that happened to me in my first enligthenment experiences. When the third eye opens, meaning your energy is on that level of perception, you loose Interest in almost everything. He says that you "may" loose interest. That one should have sweet emotions to counter balance the aloofness. This affected many or my relationships and plans, job, motivation, etc. I practically just wanted to meditate all day and go within. So, even when I was meditating, I did have sweet emotions. My inner ambience was relaxed and sweet. What does sadhguru means here and how to create such emotions? How to be distant and involved at the same time?

@ShugendoRa I've been scammed by awakened beings. Imagine what a tarot girl would do.

@EnlightenmentBlog Completely agree with you. I wanted to learn how to play Chess just for developing strategic thinking, but actually is just for the game itself. Just like gamers who suck at life but ace their games. Being strategic with people and situations is a whole nother Lvl cuz it requires courage, managing emotions, real time, etc. Chess doesnt threatens your survival unless it pays your bills.

An example of deep questioning

@WhatAWondefulWorld If the path of investigating doesnt work, change. Surrender all search, movement, thought, resistance, everything. If you have the innocence to trust and go through that hell of resistance, you will taste Heaven (Truth) , as it is the only thing that will remain.

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@BlackMaze Leo got it right in there. You need two things. Mindset change and the vehicle. If you get into Investing without the right mindset, you will get nowhere. And if you got the mindset without the correct vehicle, your done. Start easy on yourself and commit to making the change, which requires the death of your old you into the great you. Some books that will change your life are Your Wish is Your Command on youtube, The Science of Success (Wallace), Think and Grow Rich and The Millionaire Mindset. To be a good Trader you need alot of good inner game (psychology trainning). Play into constantly absorbing the info of those books and learn trading aswell. Start easy and grow up your momentum eventually. After you start getting money from trading, then you can start inventing games or any business as you will be more motivated and have money to invest in it.

Sounds good and it may work. In fact it may become a trend. Im seeing many spiritual gurus and communities building stuff like this. Excluded societies in nature. Many believe a big chaos is to come and is better to be prepared. I think bentinho is into something like this as well.

@nistake Too much spirituality can fck your life situation if you are not going fully into it. I really dont recommend spirituality as a main focus to anyone who is not financially free. You will waste alot of time. On the other hand, if you want to improve your confidence, you have to be ignorant. It does not mean being fully ignorant, it means you need ego. You need an ego who is sufficiently obscured. An ego with a pride of its own and self deceived into its own ideas/beliefs. Everytime you do hardcore spiritual work, the light of consciousness crumbles your ego structure. To do spiritual work you need doubt and questioning, which means bringing light into the ego, causing it to die and weaken your personality. So, this means, if you want a strong personality-ego, stop doing spirituality for a year or at least reduce it significatively from your main focus. Cuz when you are into spirituality, you will be carrying doubts and a weak personality, unless you go fully in and get enligthened. But if not, stop watching your ego so much. Only do spiritual healing and questioning of specific areas, the negative ones through contemplation alone. So, how to build a strong-healthy ego? Attach your consciousness by repeating good habits, including some neutral or even bad ones, by not observing yourself. If you can get a job alone and be social every single day, you will get good feedback, social skills and programming of a new personality in months. You wont have to do anything, it will be automatic. But as I said, you will have to sacrifice some of your spiritual habits to become functional in the Matrix as your ego wants. Watch confident people on music videos or associate yourself with them until your consciousness gets identified with watching them unconsciously. Confident is an unconscious thing, it means you already assume you already know. It has no doubts. You have to add assumptions into your awareness to form an armor. Thats why you need to be somewhat dumb. The good news is that those who have never experienced truth and are very confident, are lost and in danger. But those who know truth, can obscure their consciousness into a strong ego and still be aware on some level. You are not fully lost, and yet got the confidence to manipulate the social. Overall, another thing to have a powerful ego is to know your purpose and have a vision. That alone from the inside, even if you have nothing externally, can make you unshakable by the outside. Thats your Drive. Ego is nothing but a driver of survival.

@GreenLight Im almost the same as you, just that im now about to graduate from college. It took more time aswell, but i kinda regret and not regret enligthenment aswell. Fckng dilemma. I want to blame truth for somewhat damaging my future but at the same time it is the medicine to my present moment problems. I might go insane with this until I get some financial freedom. I see so many ignorant and confident guys with almost their whole life figured out, just that they dont have any idea of their inner problems solution (truth). On the other hand I got that solution but no control of my external life. The only thing you and I did wrong on that spiritual journey was not coming out of it fully enligthened. And for me to accept that it was just my preparation for when the real moment of enligthenment comes... Makes me go even more insane or not even knowing how to feel about it. We dont have anything left than to accept this extremely painful crude and harsh reality truth of no fundamental mundane progress by now... Even If I went into full enligthenment at this moment, it wont be sustainable. Its too much energy, time and resources into something of no use in survival. Which I have small control of at this moment. Not even my family is ready for such happening. If it did not happen at an early age like some gurus (21 or 22), fuck it. At least I tried my best... I thought I would be in nirvana by 22. But im not giving up, I will be back after I get my financial freedom. Anyways, being an enligthened prisoner in the physical is just as incomplete. I would say college is not that crucial. Forget about spirituality as a main focus by now. Only do superficial spirituality to strike some balance, but get your ego consciousness back to ground yourself in the matrix and into pragmatism. Get a regular job, invest, grow your capital, keep Investing, then build a traditional business or buy real estate. Then do as you wish and be happy. Ofcourse, this will require your psychological trainning of the subconcious and death of the old personality habits and high focus for it to become real.

@Joshua Pryor Osho book will teach you real meditation. Osho - Meditation, the first and last freedom.

@Peter Miklis Leo is one of the most immature spiritual leaders. His work seems to be helpful on the surface but eventually it will get people more lost and tricked. Forget about all the beautiful realizations, insights, etc. If the source you get the truth from is not awake, you are simply shooting yourself in the foot. Why? When the source is unawake, even if he make good points, he is prone to make guiding mistakes that will backfire any progress do. He doesnt have the total divine vision to do such work yet. Its coming from his mind, Its only partial. Contemplate this. You are asking how to live an awaken life from an unawake person. How much can you trust someone afraid of embodying what he teaches? His ego is getting bigger and bigger each day, which means he is asleep as fuck. And it doesnt even matter how much 5 meo he does. He is trapped in his own net. I am not hating on leo, but on his immaturity. He may have good intentions on helping out, but truth leadership doesnt work like that. And everyone here need to be ware of this, specially newbies. Truth is not for smart or intellectual people. It is for courageous ones. It is a matter of courage vs fear. Leo doesnt have the courage yet. Life will eventually teach him to get some.

Help get this right. Leo keeps saying that infinite love is the deepest awakening, yet I have talked to various realized beings saying that it is very deep but not the deepest. That the ultimate deepest is simply nothingness and love is its first manifestation. Does leo keep saying it is the deepest just because it has been his deepest experience or what?

@blackchair You are not the only one bro. Im about to drop it all too. So much crap for nothing. Im even getting a lil suicidal, craving for source.

@Bodhitree Might work, will check it.

Which good ashram's would you guys recommend for a possible alternative in the future?

I actually thought Julian was heading towards the absolute. He says that only because he has a big veil of maya. The moment he tastes true light, he will see how drunk and foolish were his ideas.

@Nemo28 I went through this. Be careful. Be ware of all the spiritual advice you take before trying to apply it instantly into your life situation. Every inner move changes everything else. Be strategic of when you want to practice effortlesness. Not much when you have duties or time pressure. It will gradually grow if you practice it, but if you have an ego it will still not work to apply that truth in the dream. To be effortless is a high luxury. Thus, you must not have ego for it to be automatic and permanent. Its difficult to explain, you have to see it for yourself. I got into many troubles following that too when I was new into spirituality. Take time to relax, and organize your life through right contemplation for when and how to integrate spirituality into your present life situations. And yes, witnessing changes everything. It even changes your aura, body language, vibration, and perception in the eyes of others. Practice witnessing when you are by yourself mostly, not socializing. At least initially, when you are trying to get the pull off your old tendencies. After momentum, you can do it anywhere, since it will be more relaxed and natural. People wont understand whats going on with you. People, including my mom, have thought I had mental problems by my drastic behaviour changes, but i knew I was alright lol. The fact that you can control your complete inner world/experience is terrifying to others in ignorance.