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@Wendelin Yeah I would trust more in your higher self and direct experience for answers. Before my awakening experience I was asking a lot of the same questions that you're asking and I realized that I was just running around in circles trying to find answers. As my awareness keeps getting higher and higher I'm realizing that my higher self already knows the answers to my questions, most likely we already know everything but we just have to relearn it/remember. Your best bet is to just sit back and enjoy the show haha don't try to overthink this stuff, when you are ready the answers will be revealed to you

@Martin123 Agreed its more of a perspective change rather than something to be worked towards, seems like Eckhart Tolle just completely surrendered to himself in order to realize his true nature whether it was intentional or not. I find that reading books on non duality and enlightenment have helped me more than the actual enlightenment work itself

This path is mainly for people who want to master themselves and get the most out of life, which is something I've been committing myself to. I don't think hes saying that you have to go out and start teaching this stuff to other people but rather lead through example and make your own personal impact of the world through your work. This is more stuff to add onto what you are already doing, which is why most people probably won't want to commit themselves to this because it requires a lot of discipline and hard work

@Frogfucius The point of seeing through the ego is not to dismiss it as an illusion but to find a deeper meaning to life. If you want to see the world burn and do whatever you want that's find but chances are you are still gonna suffer

@WelcometoRealityHaha yeah I've been alone for most of my life and existence never really made sense to me anyway. I've lost my will to keep living many times but there was always something pushing me to keep going. Once I had my ego death it made me realize that there was something greater going on so I've decided to dedicate my life to this path since there's nothing really in the material world that interests me

@WelcometoRealitySorry I should have said confused haha, the pieces are slowly coming back together for me though. Sometimes I get caught up trying to logically think about it and make it more complicated than it is

@Lynnel This took me a while to understand as well. Basically you are in an empty space of nothingness and everything in front of you is created by you. When I had my void experience I realized that everything I see are just colors and shapes that form into objects which made me realize that it was impossible to know anything, we can only know things conceptually. This is going to take a lot of work to realize but start questioning everything that you know to be true. Overtime you'll realize that you don't know anything for certain and enter into a state of confusion, which hopefully your true self will start to reveal answers for you

@Wendelin I'm stuck at this part too as well haha. From what I understand though the true self slowly reveals itself to you overtime when you are in a state of not knowing and fills in the gaps. This is why its important to drop concepts and beliefs because if you are always searching for it can never be found, it can only be realized. Sounds like you have the framework down though

1.) 2.) I don’t want to be afraid of this life anymore I don’t want to be suffocated by the weight Who was this person I was pretending to be? Silent compassion broke these chains of misery Scared to death of being vulnerable So I need everything I could to put the walls up I locked myself and held myself in a cell of shame, screaming for a change Pull the thorns from your heart I tried so hard to run away from the truth I hated myself so I abused my soul, my heart, my body for the sexuality that I didn’t choose Devastated by shame, I was so entrenched in pain I found that hell is the absence of loving self I’ve been looking for a pearl, this whole time it’s been right in my chest I went diving to the depths of hell once, but I only found death “He said to me, don’t be afraid of your end. Be bold, be authentic, be brave enough to love again” And he said, “Pull the thorns from your heart, to wander in the fields of flowers” 3.) So this song had a big impact on me before I had my awakening experience and I connected to it on a very deep level although at first I didn't know the real meaning behind it. After my awakening experience I just happened to hear this song and the lyrics really hit me hard. I broke down harder than I ever had before. During my night of the dark soul experiences I would listen to this song for inspiration to keep going

@Whatev3r @WelcometoReality Yeah I thought I knew everything after my first awakening experience and looking back on it I was completely clueless on all of it haha. As Jed McKenna says "Further"

@Whatev3r Yeah so the ego can never understand its true nature and its designed to reject things that are uncomfortable and threaten it. This is pretty normal and it'll pass after a while. Just keep doing what you are doing, you are on the right path

@Martin123 Yeah I had this realization a few months ago, I was struggling to understand it myself even though I knew it logically as well too. There was a moment where I threw my book to the ground and time felt like it slowed down as I watched it fall and make a thud. Then it hit me that the only thing that is happening is our surroundings are changing in a cause and effect manner. Life is just flowing, once you tap into that life just becomes a dream

@Azrael Awesome man! I didn't get the awesome divine experience that you had but I ended up with the same conclusion, don't take life seriously and go with whatever happens. Once you see the emptiness of life there's literally nothing to be afraid of, and that in itself is beautiful beyond words

@Joshaps Yes what you had was an awakening experience, the simple realization that truth only exists in direct experience. Enjoy the journey, its gonna be a long and bumpy road

@Leo Gura Thanks Leo! Can't thank you enough for helping me find this path @WelcometoReality Awesome I'll check it out! I love Mooji!

Hello everyone! I've been on the spiritual path for nearly 2 years now and after a rough start I've achieved significant progress over the last few months. My awakening experience happened in July and its forever changed my life, since then I've watched my ego like a hawk. Every single movement, thought, feeling, belief, etc was carefully observed and dis-identified with until there was nothing left. During this time I had many dark night of the soul experiences but loved every minute of it Having been severely depressed and suicidal before I stumbled upon this path I feel has given me the intense desire to keep pushing along to find Truth no matter what cost it takes. Well I've finally made that breakthrough, I decided to seriously sit down and meditate for the first time along my journey and made the decision to not get up until I found my True Self. I used the Neti Neti method and after about an hour the space between my eyes began to vibrate very rapidly and I just felt everything disappear. For the first time in my life I finally felt free from the illusion, it was like I was back at home. There's still further to go on this path but liberation awaits! I had no one to tell in real life but I just wanted to share this accomplishment with someone

@Bob84Good point, I do go sit down in random places and just observe the magic of the universe that's going on around me when I'm feeling down. My biggest problem is I'm trying to find a direction to where I want my life to go, I know I have no control over it but I lack motivation. I'm hoping I get some inspiration from Leo's course and from the books I'm reading though

It wasn't easy to get to this level but I enjoyed the process, it gave me something interesting to look forward too haha! I'm kind of a little sad now though cause the ego doesn't put me on my guard as much as it used to though. Now I have to find something else to keep my occupied during the day

@Bob84 Yeah I agree, fight was a bad word to use. I merely just observe it then as soon as something triggers it I find out the cause and change my attitude towards it. At this point I feel like I'm completely detached from the world, I finally understand what meaningless actually is on a deep level

@Bob84 Yeah I'm well aware of what the ego is doing, the fight is still far from over but this was a big victory for me

@Ramu Yeah I had a similar experience, I ate the cookie right before I went to work and I noticed that I couldn't function properly so they went me to the emergency room. While I was sitting there waiting for the nurse it looked like the room was covered by a blanket that I could pull it off and nothing was behind it. The nurse who eventually came in looked like she was in a costume that I could unzip and no one would be in there as well. I tried to explain that to the nurse and she looked at me like I was crazy haha, I knew deep down she wouldn't but I wanted to have some fun

@Ramu I actually had 2 awakening experiences on marijuana, neither one was intentional haha I just happened to eat a cookie that had thc in it without knowing. If I didn't know about self inquiry I probably would have lost my mind during the experiences

@Dodoster Its hard to explain thats why it has to be directly experienced, I should have phrased it a little better. What is happening to you is real but who you think you are in that body isn't.

@Ramu Yes so basically from what I understand everything you see is just colors and shapes that form into objects that are in front of you, the part that took me a while to understand was that I had no body haha that freaked me out a little bit

@Dodoster Nothing is bad about identifying with your human system as long as you are aware that this is just a game, you just have to see through your own bullshit that you've convinced yourself that any of this is really happening