Hi my name is Tal, 23 from Israel.
first of all, Thanks for your time!
The story is that i have a girlfriend for like 4 years, since october 2012, shes younger than me, 20 years old. the topic is about our relationship. I must admit, it wasnt really healthy from the beggining.
I have to say, what i tell you guys here is 100% serious even though it's ugly/bitchy to say.
My ONLY desire at the beggining was only kisses,huging,touching and at the future-sex, you know what i mean, a girl for these things.
I knew she wanted me so i actually used it. we kept on meeting kissing, touching and more, by the time i have realized it was comfort for me to stay with her because it was so easy to get and because she lives 2 buildings by me so i stayed with her but the main reason is that i was a soldier in the IDF (so everytime i came home i had it easily...)
BUT, by the time i fell in love, she was the only one, i have sacrified many things in my life just to be with her-friends,leisure things i liked to do and more.
but our relationship wasnt really healthy, as i said.. her mother always looked after us, never let us stay together at night (she used to come at 3am and wake me up and tell me to go home), I have never slept with her because of that reason, plus my house is tiny- i sleep with my lil bro at the same room, so it's kind of hard to do things together, we always used to have sex in my car, and other places we used to rent for few hours just to have sex.
We had great time, i have to say, we had our wonderful times,ofcourse.
but lately i thought about breaking up with her, there are some reason.
1. i met a wonderful woman at the place i work, real grown up woman(unlike my gf), her thinking is real great like i do, she isnt rich and not demanding much, shes realistic,wanting her only proofs me that im won't stay forever with my gf.
my current gf is real demanding, it became real annoynig,her parents always tought her to have the best and demand the best... Shes from the moroccan community, their thinking in Israel is that everyones' self-developing should be real fast in life, she even demands wedding in the next 2 year ( AND IM TOTALLY NOT IN IT ), I KNOW for SURE i will never marry her..(so why do i stay with her huh...?)
2.I have never experienced real relationship with other woman.
3. I have never felt free, i always think of how to make her happy and not myself
4. Im tired of her behavior, sick of it.
5. as i said before, i will say ugly/bitchy things - my gf is kind of FAT, and i never touched a thin woman like the woman i met from my work.
6.I always feel under her radar - feel like i have to be with her for like 100% of the time and it makes me feel real bad, no time for myself.
7.these years are the most beautiful years in my life and i feel like spending them on one person.
I want to break up with her but, here are the things that makes me not break up with her.
1.Breaking up with her will be the hardest thing i'll ever do, THE HARDEST.
we were like the only thing for each other for the past 4 years, breaking up with her is like starting a new life.
2. I live with my lil bro in the same room, i cant invite any woman to my house and have privacy with her, and renting an apartment isnt an option right now because of my economic status.
3. i want to travel outside my country for few months ..
4. im tired of having gf, i wanna have some party life, wanna know that feeling, to meet a woman for a day, have a warm situation with her and say goodbye some hours after.
so, guys, hope u won't think i have an ugly character, just saying true feeling and facts.
do you suggest me watching a Leo's video? anything that can help?
Thanks for your time!
Tal,
