Ajax

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  1. You have what you put there. Why do you have difficulty putting this woman in your life?
  2. Fascinating and amusing design, isn’t it? The thing is… The game is rigged. What you’re looking at are the reactions of losing at this game. It is important to go exterior and see all parts of the playing field.
  3. Ah, "real man" is an oxymoron! lol However, a person has the liberty of assuming a viewpoint of what he considers a real man to be, then decide to play that role.
  4. Wow! Thank you so much for sharing. I often have trouble understanding emotions and the way you explained yourself is very nice. I really appreciate you giving me a piece of your mind! lol I hope it gets easier for you and I really admire your strength and emotional vulnerability. We need more people in the world like you! LOVE
  5. That is marvelous. Yes, this makes a lot of sense. Thank you so much for sharing with me. Funny thing is that one Idea can have thousands of meanings! You explained yourself masterfully! These are the kind of ideas that I enjoy and relish! LOVE
  6. @r0ckyreed Thank you for sharing your story. I hope you figure it out soon. What is your vision, goals and purpose in life? List me some of your mental blocks that are inhibiting you. I know you can do well and prosper and Kudos for going to the gym. Building them muscles and looking sexy for the ladies. LOVE IT!
  7. Love is something you create by putting it in/on everything you see and do. It is a creation. When you stop putting it out, it loses its power. Like water, it flows. You can't love yourself without loving everything around you. Only self love is a limitation because you are only putting it on yourself, how long can you actively put love on yourself and operate in the environment you are moving your body through?
  8. Stability and Certainty. Love and Admiration. This comes from knowing who you are and what you want to do. Stick with what you know is True despite all the insanities that are going on in the world. Be willing to experience anything. Be willing to have anything happen to you. Every piece of information from Manosphere to Woke to Politics to all forms of Media are lies that will wreak havoc in your life. And it will influence your loved ones and it will cause them to act in insane ways and even do hurtful and destructive things. This is when you will need Love and Admiration the most. You must be certain and Trust yourself. It will test your love to the very limit. Be willing to be abandoned. Be willing to be cheated on. Be willing to lose everything you hold dear and consider valuable. But don’t stop loving and admiring for nothing! There are very large forces at play here that I will not go into. But trust your inner guidance, because it is coming, and it will be worse than you can imagine. It is not my place to speak about it. I doubt I will say this again. So don’t mind this statement. Disregard it. Just rely on your direct experience. Love unconditionally despite every conceivable thing that tries to tell you otherwise.
  9. An assumption is when you believe something is true without asking or questioning. More times than not, it feels like the entire universe is trying to beat you and tear you down. Just about anything good you a person tries to do is met with resistance. It takes a certain tough as fuck mentality to be able to survive in a word mean to destroy you. Nature doesn't have much sympathy for complaining or blaming or whining or justification. I did not have an easy life, the only thing that go me through is my mentality. I understand communication is important, and I am willing to talk about anything. However, my mind and everything it goes through, rejects self-pity and excuses and blaming and justification. I for one believe that having the right mentality is the most important thing to surviving as a man, and so It is important for men to help each other have the right mentality first. It might be very painful as support groups might be important, however mindset, attitude and actions are what will get your through your troubles. Ideas solve problems. Education may help you have good ideas. But good ideas are not necessarily built on education. Education can build on the idea and make it happen, but it is the creation of ideas that make solutions. I do love talking to you. I do care about what you have to say. However, if some things that you say sound like bullshit to me, sometimes I can't hold my mouth and I have to say something. You are a brilliant man and have great things to say. I hope you have a great day! LOVE
  10. LOL I deserve that one... What can I say?... Genetics! (been waiting for weeks to use that trendy word, perfect timing!)
  11. Hmm… a very bold topic. I generally don’t discuss sex much… I don’t have thoughts on it. I have to make them up on the spot as I haven’t really pondered the subject in any depth. However, communication is important, and one must be willing to experience anything, so I will jump out of my comfort zone and hope others can do so in a conscious and civil way as well. When I was heavily involved in all kinds of martial arts, I would Fap constantly, I would estimate to be 6 to 12 times a day, sometime more. It was a compulsive need to help regulate my urges and aggression. It did not affect my performance in any way… Perhaps it could have been a barrier to attaining “awakenings” I don’t know… I pursued enlightenment aggressively, and perhaps if I was involved in NoFap, I would have made some spiritual gains. But what is done is done. Lol no sense in dwelling in the past. I never even really explored the subject of NoFap. It was just another subject that I was aware of but didn’t know anything about. I think I watched some videos on it back in 2016 to have some comprehension of what it was. But I didn’t care to practice it or even give it any serious thought. However, in 2017 I have had less focus in Martial Arts and material pursuits and focused much more intensely on spirituality. Accordingly, I have had several so-called “awakenings” and it was these mind-shifts that have eliminated the compulsions to Fap. Now, I am aware that this topic is related to body health (energy, testosterone, mental clarity) however, it was the spiritual practices, not the practice of NoFap that has given me the benefits. At the same time, I have noticed no real benefits to NoFap. However, I am no longer addicted to the need to Fap. Actually, I have been to several female teachers, who taught me to transform my sexual urges into spiritual practices (Tantric and the like). With this knowledge, I am able to redirect such urges into the things that I am doing. Working, exercising, playing and the like. Perhaps, this idea would be beneficial to women, I don't know... just sharing my experiences.... The only thing I can say on female sexuality. Therefore, sexual depravity or satisfaction, is really not a thing for me anymore. I don’t even think of sex very much. When I am not helping friends and family members, I live as a hermit. When alone, I don’t really practice Fap. Perhaps on the rare occasion, if I am feeling extremely overwhelmed or have a stressful deadline, I do revert to my old ways, but otherwise such a condition does not exist for me. I really prefer to practice sex rather than fapping and that is only when I have found a real, intense and passionate connection with someone. Take this as you will, that is my story. Is is possible to get some tongue slips without having to be rude. Or does one have to be rude to get the tongue slips… asking for a friend! lol... I am getting the hell outta here before I get in trouble!
  12. Why, YES!! Thank You. And a beautiful mirror it is. It sparkle it shines and is full of glimmering magic!. Wow, what an amazing mirror. I love how it continues to infinity. I love the beautiful prisms of lights. I like all the details and contours. I love the silence of it all. The beautiful and majestic capturing of light. The smudges. Wow. What an amazing mirror! Do you have more mirrors to share with me! I want more and more! Yes, I love it so much. Thank you so much for sharing. I want more. Give me more more more more more more more more more more! This is exciting! I am what you see. And it is Magnificent! Breathtaking. What a view! What a masterpiece! TRUELY SOMETHING FUNNY! TRULY I SAW. THANK YOU! LOVE IT! WHAT GREATNESS!
  13. OH WOW! YES!!. You too! 0 for you as well!
  14. 10. I would rate you 10. I would rate@Princess Arabia 10. Ten is perfection. Anything that isn't perfect isn't you. Lol. Sounds strange, but this I know to be true in my heart!
  15. I guess I could be called an external introvert. So, I don't really have the same experience of internal thoughts. Rather, they are more like something outside of location and time. So, I have difficulty conceptualizing internal... however, I do believe I understood what you said. However, I am interested in what you are saying about the mind pattern. Is this a self-repeating stream of thoughts? Or is it like a stream of consciousness? Or is it very linear and logical like a person would hear in a classroom or lecture of some sort. Or is it conclusions made from previous memories/experiences? Is it conscious conclusions. Or does it happen quite automatically? Sorry for all the questions. I could literally come up with hundreds of of questions about mind patterns. I guess what I really want to know is ... What it is it like to have a mind-shift for you? Walk me through the process. Thank you for being so open and communicative! It is so wonderful to have insightful and self-aware people to talk to!
  16. Oh shit! You must have traveled and took a glimpse of my past. LMAO!. I had this neighbor who was royally pissing me off! So,I trained my husky to howl at sirens at night and on command... I had the sounds of ambient wolves howling, so I can sleep through it... but my neighbors on the other hand... lol I was such a dick! Lol I agree with you. As a teenager, a side hustle that I had was to tame and train cats. I also worked at an animal shelter to tame and rehabilitate traumatized animals. lol I am just being silly. I see things so holistically that it is very difficult to have conversations or interact with people, unless I take a controversial stance. Or in other words, troll people just to have something to talk about. I do that when I feel bored/lonely. lol
  17. Hmm, I do have trouble coming up with ideas in the relative sense. I like how funny everything is. I dislike how lonely it gets. I am so blessed to know some amazing people! This forum is so amazing and beautiful! It is a place where you can be understood even minutely and it makes so much difference!
  18. HAHAHA. Show me a deranged 24/7 weed abuser! I never saw one before! I want to see one! I want to know one! Let's be one with the deranged 24/7 weed abuser! Yes! YES! YES!
  19. Hmm, how about this... I like dogs very much. They are how reality should be. I dislike cats! They are, in reality, the cause of all pain and suffering! LOL
  20. Hmm, I don't know about that... I have 2 exes named Rose that would definitely disagree with that statement!
  21. bwhahhahah.. Oh man that is funny! hahaha. The definition of assumption is "something that you accept as true without question or proof" so hehe 1. I am not accepting anything I am asking. As in wanting to know! haha.. oh man. 2. In the definition, it says without question... I am literally asking a question BWAHAHAH... oh ha-ha. 3. Who is bring this up? Who is writing it? Whose viewpoint is it! and you are saying it is not about you? really man? really? First what is a man's space? Only man's space I know of is his own little room or corner of a room where he has a tv and the shit he loves around him, his "man cave" where he can take a break from the world and entertain himself. It doesn't matter, nobody cares. You can't make people care; nobody cares. They got their own problems to deal with, they will politely listen out of kindness and compassion, but they don't give a fuck. They care about your survival as a civilized human. But they don't Fnking care about your problems. What kind of idiot man want to sit there and listed to everything you are going through, that is being rude and inconveniencing another person with your problems. And they don't know everything about you, how you think, how you view the worlds, your strengths and weaknesses. Any solution can only come from your mind and your mind alone. It sounds like you just want to bitch and have someone to listen to your bitching... that's all that is what it seems like! HAHAHAHA, nobody owes you anything! Haha. You are lucky to have someone who gives enough shits to actually listen to your problems. HAHAH do you want male symps? Some one to hug you and hold you and tell you, it's ok... hahaha. Oh, man what is this world coming to... Lord have mercy... haha Lol OK, Elon Musk... lol If everyone knows that then WHY are you not doing it? lol? Why are you making excuses? Genius is making something out of nothing. If you know that then you would make something out of nothing, you will solve problems on your own. If you knew that! lol but obviously you don't... WOW brilliant statement, Elon Musk. LMAO!! OMG. Your success is proportional to your own ability to solve your own problems. Obvious or not, if you don't get it... you certainly are a genius! LOLLOL
  22. Sorry for the confusion. I hope to clear it up a bit. I am view this from many, many different perspectives and it is challenging to cover them all. Thank you very much for the feedback, I find it very useful, I have great difficulty explaining all this shit and I do constancy think about whether I am making sense or not. Before the beginning, God (who can only Cause things to happen) made the decision to be creator of effects. First, Let’s forget the mirror thing. I shouldn’t have put that there… Probably also what threw you off. I am talking about Cause and Effect. Imagine only being Cause. Cause is knowing everything and doing everything. It is having every possible viewpoint all at one. So, it can’t feel happy or sad or any emotions. It knows all possible emotions, all possible causes, all possible experiences, all possible expressions all now it is thought. So, it doesn’t exist (this is getting complicated again so I will slide off of it.) Imagine putting a random meaningless image in your mind. Then stop putting it there. You see the moment you stop creating the image, it ceases to be there. It didn’t even have an effect on you, it was just an image in your mind… it didn’t give your any feeling or anything really (unless you include whatever you decided to make you feel) Truth has no continuation. So, for a “Cause” to even have an effect… It must create that effect first. So, you can say in terms of absolute…. There is a “Cause” and a decision to create an Effect. This isn’t the exact definitions but a working one is to say God is simply the decision to create an effect in order to have a Game. By implication, an effect is something that you don’t know about the thing happening in front of you and you get emotional responses or ideas as a result. To simplify. You Could say God decided to play a game called…. I don’t know. Another way you could say is the decision to be limited and therefore be able to enjoy things happening to me(effects). That is what a person is. A viewpoint, that is a result of the DECISION. You are God, but scaled down by limitation to the point that you don’t know almost anything at all. The more you Know, the less you are the effect of what you don’t know. Various things to unpack here. Have you noticed that most facts are not completely known? They are just the best possible answer we have and an answer good enough to have satisfaction with the answer. It is what you call relative truth. It is acceptable because it satisfies enough mystery to be considered acceptable. If you did know completely, it would not have any effect on you (as absolute). Now, lets look at what autho-rity means… (Author of right). That means you assign the idea/consideration that someone is right for what they say. You decide that is fact, opinion, idea, consideration is right or wrong. From the perspective of Absolute THAT is HOW you create an effect, to have something happen to me you have to decide that something bad can happen if I don’t hold on to that fact. So that way you assign the meaning of good or bad by what you decide to be a fact. When you accept a fact, you accept the fate of the fact. Its meanings and its conclusions. Now this can be a good thing or bad thing however, If it is good, it will allow you to “scale”(imaging a sliding scale of how much you know vs not know) closer to knowing about god. A bad fact will not and it will cause you to look for more facts. The more a Fact, contains “I don’t know”, the more it can cause an unwanted effect over your life because you are not in control of that fact, you are in a condition of not being in control of that face, you are in the condition of being controlled by that fact. Another way of saying this is: Those who think life is not fair, does not understand enough of it’s rules. That is because the rules don’t know are in your conscious awareness, which causes life to really take you over and overwhelm you. Facts and date tell you what you should know, and how you should think, they tell you the rules and how to do things. Do you notice the pattern, they are all tell you… making you effect. The absolute DECISION is to be CREATION of Effects. Not Be total effect. Therefore, they are not in alignment with the absolute Decision. In fact, your identity is shaped, and molded by the facts that you are exposed to. Because of facts. There is a certain way to behave, a certain way to talk, a certain way to do things, a certain contractual agreement with society, certain economic facts, starting with the idea and use of money. All based of some previous facts that are not conscientiously in your design. This is not to say Facts are evil or bad… but there is a scale… like your old sign in quote…”There are levels to this shit!” Your position on the scale reveals your condition and the way it is potentially causing negative effects on your life in some facet in life or the other. They help you measure to see if you are directing your thoughts and activities toward the absolute decision which is being the creator of effects, in order to enjoy the effects. God-awareness- “creating facts and new ideas about facts in ways that magically benefit your life” Powerful- “knows the most important facts and uses them to control and make life happen for them” Improver ( you could say actualizer if you so choose)- They are the people who try to direct facts and use their life to get better. However, there is so many facts and so they have limited improvement because of their love of facts and a lower level of being able to make life go right because they are struggling to handle all of the facts. They love to learn and be educated. The mediocre- They simply ignore the facts; they just go with what they think is right. What society tells them, or what their religion tells them. Or what their political beliefs tell them. The weak- are afraid of the facts, they are in constant fear and any fact that they view adds to their fear. Whatever they learn, they find a way to see it as a danger and a reason to be cautious. The clueless- Well, now you have people who are almost constantly controlled by the facts. They have more animal and wilder and unpredictable and strange, violent minds. They have lost all control of themselves. They don’t know how to behave. They behave strangely, they behave badly. In every fact there is some poison that you don't know about that can cause damage in your life unless you have sufficient consciousness... even so, as a human you are vulnerable to the poisonous facts that other people ingest and therefore, you can be an unwilling effect of those lower consciousness people. Actually, I only touched on a few of over 50 points on the issue, so I had to leave out a whole lot... lol Did it make sense? I would love to know. I'ts kind of hard to measure these things from my viewpoint lol. LOVE
  23. Problem is, we train human parrots. They just repeat what they hear from an authority or popular/common agreement or opinion. They train kids to sit down, shut up and listen. When these kids go out into the world the look for someone to tell them to sit down, shut up and listen(SSL). When they have learned something they they think is of value (usually from an authority) they will practice (SSL) on other people and it goes viral. They only way they can communicate is with(SSL) mentality. That is why it is so important to speak your truth and speak your mind. People haven't learned to think for themselves. If you try to get them to think for themselves, they start getting confused because you are doing something that is totally alien to their way of thinking and the resort to (SSL) way of communicating. I know it is annoying as hell and frustrating, but unfortunately that is the condition of the world. It is as if they don't know what intellectual honesty is and how to do it.
  24. Fkn Amazing! Thanks for sharing! Amazing what people can do!