Oh my God, finally someone with the same problem as mine! I mean this sounds bad for being happy because of someone else's problem, NO that's not what I meant, but it feels good not to feel like the only one in here.
And also a disclaimer, English isn't my native language as well.
I have the same problem here about training and eating very well and I must say I got some very nice results but still on the skinny side. And we live now in world that adores huge butts and curves and where curvier women are celebrated as ,,the real women should look like this,, and bull sh*it. And also I had a problem with THINKING that no boy will find me attracting just the way I look. So I decided to make a shift in my mind just to see if it would do something, you know like LET'S TEST THIS MAN. Like it won't harm me. So I started telling myself ALL the opposites than I used to before.
So there were no ,, im too skinny,, but ,, I am extra fit,, and no ,, boys dont like small bums,, but ,, boys find me attractive'' and so on and so on as Leo said you have to repeat it many times to sink in subconscious mind. And you have to feel good while saying it, because it won't work in other way. Just feel into that sentence ,, boys adore my body,,... it feels great right? I mean it's bad if you are valuing yourself of please dudes, but if you are like me, then you'll find out at the end of the day that you don't f. actually need their approval.
So, I dont know when, but I SERIOUSLY started attracting guys who appreciated my abbs and my size and it was AMAZING! But... then I realized I only needed to be accepted by myself not somebody else< because I was still unhappy of being skinny. So I worked on that too and more of people came in my life saying I look like a tiny model ( I am 163 and 45 kg but I am healthy I swear) and stuff but I wanted to upgrade because I really wanted few extra kg because if I am developing myself '' the head and soul '' , why not achieving some body goals you know what I mean, why stoping there?
So that is my QUESTION I gues.. I don't know how to unblock that stuff in my head that is keeping me in this stage no matter what I do because I know it's only in my mind... any help? :)))))))
