Adam M

Overall disappointing trip as it was nowhere near as strong as my previous mushroom trips. My friend ordered 45g of Hollandia Truffles from the netherlands from [link removed] Woke up early morning feeling positive vibes...meditated and set an intention then went to my other friend's house to do the trip... Overall the environment and the circumstances were perfect and I was getting ready to get blasted into another realm like I did with my previous 3g dried mushroom trip. I wasn't sure what to expect in terms of how strong the truffles would be...some trip reports say 10g was really intense and others say that 10g wasn't enough... I know that the threshold is about 5g so I decided to see how 5g felt and then take more after if it wasn't enough. I ate 5.25g on an empty stomach with my friend who purchased them and my other friend was our sober trip sitter...danced to some happy music and then sat down in a chair and meditated until they came on. Didn't really start to feel anything until about 35 minutes and it was only a very slight body load along with feelings of happiness and excessive smiling... I could tell that I was on shrooms but it definitely wasn't as strong as I would have liked it to be so I decided to take 2 more grams... I waited another 20 minutes and when nothing happened I took 3 more grams...ate a raspberry...and went for a short walk outside Again...I felt a little bit shroomy but it was not enough for me...I was craving more. Finally, me an my friend who was having a similar experience as me decided to finish with an additional 12.5g. While I was meditating waiting for the 12.5g to come on the body load came back that was beginning to wear off and I had very very slight visual distortions with closed eyes....and that's about it. I took a ginger pill because I thought that it would aid the digestion or something...honestly I was just desperate for a stronger trip. An hour later I was pretty tired and sober and disappointed because we took 22.5g each and didn't feel as fked up as we usually do on dried shrooms. The truffles were packaged in an airtight bag and we ate them within 2 weeks of recieving them... I am thinking that my body built up a resistance to the truffles because I was taking them too slowly...I should have just started with 15g straight (but in hindsight the website claims that these are the STRONGEST truffles so I didn't know what to expect). Any thoughts? Does anyone have any guesses why my trip was such a flop even though I took 22.5g of this shit Thanks!

imagine your brain as a filter through which pure consciousness is filtered through psychedelics prevent the filter from working properly...therefore allowing you to tap into things that you are not normally able to experience the experiences on psychedelics are no more real than the experiences of everyday life just my 2 cents

Hello! I have been meditating almost every day for about a year now but I sometimes miss days and it makes me feel guilty and sad. Recently I didn't meditate for 4 days in a row and I felt super bad...I just keep distracting myself. Any tips on how to make a successful habit? Specifically a meditation habit?

Just bought ASUS Zenbook 8th gen from best buy the other day. No touchscreen. Super fast, great specs only $1000. Im typing this on it right now...would highly recommend

I wouldn't take a break from meditating You can do a different technique that is new and exciting for you You can decrease or time or split your 30 minutes into 2x15 minute sits You can understand that your resistance to meditation is precisely what is making you grow. When you are lifting a heavy weight, if it is not laborious for you then you need to either do more reps or more weight otherwise you are not going to grow. Keep meditating...does the ENTIRE meditation feel laborious? There are certainly periods of calmness and tranquility during your meditations. Keep it up! DON'T QUIT instead try to change it up

@Source_Mystic thanks a ton friend Your words are a great help!

@Max_V I love hiphop especially slim shady swearing and killing and all...it is so motivating to see his level of mastery when it comes to rapping on a beat

You're gonna kill yourself. Hypothermia is a real thing. Wim Hoff uses breathing techniques to maintain his inner body temp. Start with small steps. First do ice cold showers/baths. I am no expert about wim Hoff method but you should research this more before you do anything too extreme

@Danielle i think you're right. I have been extrinsically motivated to meditate. Would reading books about the benefits of meditation help or would that be a distraction as well?

Apples and almond butter <3

How do you measure progress in meditation? That's like trying to measure the weather with a ruler.

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Looks very interesting...

Just did my first self inquiry for 30 minutes I'll keep this brief. Background: I've practiced vipassana for 1 year daily for 1-2 hours and have been on 2 retreats. I've done shrooms alone twice. Start: I believe that I'm the body...this troubles me immensely because many people that I respect say that I am not the body...If I am not the body, then what the fuck could I be? - noticing that I can't be a sensation because they are impermanent - noticing that the body constantly changes - noticing that I'm not the thoughts - it seems like I am the one having the thoughts - noticing that the one having the thoughts can't be located in my field - noticing that the one that is noticing cannot be noticed - monkey mind focuses all of the attention on the inquiry - weird body sensations such as tingling and shivers when I question whether or not I am the body - lots of time spent trying to "disprove" why I can't be the body...but after I seem to have concluded that I CANNOT be the body I still identify with the body (lol) - frustration - very slight headache - excitement/fear - "who is the one perceiving?" - YOURE A COMPLETE IDIOT FOR BELIEVING THAT YOU'RE THE BODY THE BODY ISNT THERE WHEN YOU ARE IN DEEP SLEEP BUT YOU DONT STOP EXISTING (etc.) - coming back to the present moment over and over again with a deep breath Overall a pleasantly challenging experience, I would recommend it after 1 hour after mindfulness with labelling (vipassana in my case) What do you think? If you're a newbie like me, how did your inquiry go? Edit: I forgot a good one - What is constant? If everything changes then how can I exist as an experience? If I'm not an experience then WHAT THE FUCK .... - I try not to do philosophy, I try to always look for the answer in the present moment - "nothing is hidden"

@Nahm Hey, my last inquiry was hard...there were many distracting thoughts and I was only able to focus for maybe 10-15 minutes... During that time I discovered that my present identification is that I am the body and the thoughts and that reality is outside of me...It is interesting to see that there is still identification with the body and the mind even though I have undermined that possibility many times in a Neti-Neti style of inquiry. Even though I have no proof that suggests my identification to be correct, I still believe it like a SUCKER! Lol. Going to continue practicing! thank you for me helping me!

@Ether wow I wanna hear it...get on that!!!

@Ether I'm a big Kendrick fan... "Levitate levitate levitate levitate" Untitled 07 has reference to "being vs doing" He says stuff like "drugs/sex/money/church won't get you high like this (meditation/being) Love Kendrick..conscious rap is no different from poetry

True! I'm going to inquire again and see how it goes...thanks!

Hey guys, I've only done self inquiry for 5 days and I just have a quick question about some of the symptoms I'm getting during my sits... My sits are VERY intense and I experience lots of body sensations that I can't control...I just would like to know if Self-inquiry is usually this violent... I experience: - full body spasms towards the end (like a mini seizure) - cross-eyes/ blurry vision when I'm trying to focus - heightened heart rate and heavy breathing - strong chills in all parts of my body - clammy hands and sweating - hyper focus, sometimes it seems as though the inquiry is doing itself...questions just spew out and my body gets extremely rigid and defensive - seems like a fight or flight response... I just assume that I'm doing a good job because it seems like I am having a physical reaction to my ruthless questioning... I can literally feel my sense of "I" getting very defensive and trying to distract the inquiry with body sensations. Again, I know that I'm still a n00b but I'm just getting excited because my sits are very intense... Hopefully this motivates people to start doing self inquiry and also, are these symptoms normal? Thanks :):):)

@ArasH This is just an educated guess based on what I saw in an interview. I think that he had an enlightenment experience but it was not a permanent enlightenment. This experience motivated him to dive head first into spirituality.

@Power If you get lost in thoughts you are not "wasting time.". You can't really help it...don't beat yourself up over something you can't control. If you are lost in thoughts for 5 minutes...notice it, let it go including your frustration and judgements, and go back to the breath . Yesterday I was meditating for 1 hour and I must have spent 30 minutes lost in thoughts....sometimes I sit down to meditate and I fall asleep! But I don't judge, I just notice and go back to the breath.

@sweater you'll feel good for 15 minutes then you'll feel "permafried", tired, pleasure seeking, and stupid for the next day...I used to smoke everyday....that's the way the cookie crumbles

@Power you will get better with practice. The more you practice the more you will understand. All I can say to guide you is this: Come back to the present. If you are worried/confused/anxious about your meditation, then you are lost in thoughts. There are no problems in the present moment. Keep practicing!

@Joel3102 Yes! I was completely beside myself with some of the insights in this book... Towards the beginning, he relates mystical experiences with reduced brain activity. Kastrup explains that the brain filters and localizes your perceptions and that when the filter is not working properly (ex. during suffocation), there is a higher chance of non-local/mystical experiences This idea interested me so much and it has changed my entire paradigm about the role the brain plays in our consciousness'. I'm definitely planning on reading "more than allegory"