Hugo Oliveira

When you do self-inquiry you can recognize the witnessing awareness. Them you focus on it (or just be it) during a meditation session. What is the difference between this simple recognition and the so-called "AHA MOMENT" when people break free from ego identification? This practice leads you to a gradual awareness of yourself as awareness or there is some flip point in this process? Thank you!

You'll find it in Kriya Yoga Exposed

If you are reading the books Leo suggested in his video, you can search for Santata Gamana books in Amazon. He has a simpler approach and is also a Leo's recommendation. And this channel has videos about KYSR book: https://www.youtube.com/user/ManojTheYogi

I really appreciate all these high-quality answers. I think that what you guys said is being perceived in my experience. My conception of surrendering was generating hard internal struggles. Thank you also for the resources, I will check it carefully. Please, everyone feel free to keep discussing it.

I'm curious about how do you relate to "surrendering" as a spiritual posture. Can you really let go? (desires, plans, expectations, fears...) Is this a decision that can be made? Why you don't let go? If you have done it, how is your progress happening? How to let go? Something made you understand and embody it in an easier way? Thank you!

When your desire for life and your passions are fucking intense, them, neurosis, anxiety, doubt, and guilt seems to be part of it. Enlightenment is the only way out? Can a person grow emotionally and have peace while facing uncertainty and avoid frustration? Is it possible to be emotionally above human emptiness and neediness? If so, what would be the solution? Good mindsets? Hight vibration? Personality change? Thank you!

Many authors that I see in the industry are telling just "push yourself!" "go out!", "stop excuses!" "fix your inner game!". But is it a good way? I can approach, I can have sex. Not veeeery easily, but I think I can. I did it! But didn't see the growth. Today I see my thoughts and energy being spent with all this PUA idea. And I can do all the game. But when TRUE internal change will happen in this context? I can't see it. I'm asking myself if the PUA is making me better with woman as its purposes. Because I feel the opposite. I feel trapped in this hunting energy. I feel my awareness narrowing. Maybe my focus should be more on other self-development areas at this moment.

Perfectly! Thanks for your sincere and coherent points! I'm seeing some movements in which the guys simply abstain from chasing woman and focus on "conquering the world", sometimes under the delusional idea that when they get one million dollars, women will be attracted to them and things will be solved this way. I don't agree with that mindset. I do think you have to talk to people and connect, sometimes randomly, also develop the ability to do it better. Along you porsuit other things in life. But the "chasing" behavior is really what was fucking the whole thing for me.

I think that I feel pretty much a similar situation. I'm doing meditation and yoga for some time and I had already this experience of non-judmental almost pure observation of experience. The point is that I couldn't apply true surrendering in my life yet, I feel myself a bit fucked up so I feel very attached to self-improvement and my self agenda in a very neurotic way. Today I realized how much both paths are conflicting and limiting my progress. Because the gain of consciousness may be showing to myself how pointless are the ego's desperate actions to get fulfillment.

What I would like to discuss here is the possibility of the existence of a subtle social game based on selfish interests. By "interests" I don't mean the obvious, for example, political alliances in the pursuit of power. But I'm wondering about the bases of most basic human connections. What are the factors that allow true friendship or companionship to happen? How much is it common for people to "select" other people to connect with based on their prejudice or occult interests. Again, I'm trying to look more into subtle aspects here not just the obvious kinds prejudice we are used to talk about. It would be good to have some books or references about it too. Thank you!

Would love to hear some trip report based on this manual!

Have you listened about SINCLAIR method?

I know that this is probably an exhausted conversation, but how do you guys deal with your desires/self genda? Is your life conducted by them? Are you trying to abdicate? Are you establishing a balance between desires and surrender? Are you overcoming your desires progressively? Thanks for your attention!

Thank you guys for all the answers. @hamedsf Could you explain your position better?

Sorry for this up. UP!

I know I'm being a bit egoistic for put this topic on top again. Would really like to know your thoughts about it. Now I'll be very egoistic and tag @Leo Gura. Hope it doesn't border you too much. Thanks a lot.

Some years ago I had a really bad psychedelic experience. It was full of paranoid confusion while I felt all the doors of my unconscious opened. Sometimes I feel like some bad thing from the experience had penetrated me. Since then I've been struggling with hard emotional and psychological pain and a strong feeling of misunderstanding reality. After it, I felt in many other experiences with psychedelics an intense magnetic force pulling me into a terrible state of mind with looks to have the power to destroy my sanity and my life. Now I wonder if the only way to get there and heal this trauma is via shamanism. Or should I run away from it and make my path using different and safer spiritual practices. This doubt is consuming myself for some time. Please, let me know your thoughts. Thank you.

Thank you for all advice. My worry is the possible necessity to "go there" to fix the trauma. And the only way I know for fast deep consciousness exploring is via psychedelics. Once it can make me bad I feel really divided. Totally agreed with you all about the necessity of building a foundation. Very grateful.

@ajasatya Could you be more specific about this recognition of the illusory nature of your self-image? Would it be like "perceive myself as consciousness"? Or "Realize the true nature of being"?

Yes, for sure. There were many videos talking about meditation as well, I think he stopped the work with PUA to dedicate himself more into spirituality.

Looks he delete his channel on Youtube. Really good content. Many stuff connecting sexuality + spirituality. Does anyone who download his videos could help?

Just finished a training about tantric therapy and would like to share some thoughts with you. I got into it intending to observe the results over my sexuality, energy, psychology, and spirituality. It took 4 weekends and I practiced active vibrational meditation and learned about the massage. The point is that even after finishing, I still skeptical about the real benefits of the method. In Yoni Massage for women, we use a vibrator and they have really powerful orgasms. People get in touch with emotional content and there is a possible trauma release. Non-ordinary states of consciousness sometimes are experienced as well. For men, similar stuff happened in lower intensity. For myself, I could see nothing more than someone playing with my penis while I listened to evocative music and I had normal orgasms. Why am I skeptical? Well, all the other students seemed not to have any skepticism at all. They were all very involved and even passionate about the idea of learning the message and get the capacity of provoking orgasms in their patients. The teachers talked a lot about how much money we can make with it. occasionally, terms like "oceanic experience", "superconsciousness" are mentioned. But I'm not sure if someone was capable of experiencing these states truly. Well, my doubt now is if I should persist in receive this massage from a more experienced therapist and try to get some result or just throw all this stuff away. Does anyone have any near experiences? Thank you for reading!

Hey everybody, I was in doubt about which forum or topic choose to post this question and now I think this is the best one. After few and short but intense experiences of "perceiving reality without a veil", "perceiving myself as consciousness", "no mind experiences", I sometimes wonder if this experiences affected my acceptation of ordinary life. Sometimes I feel that enlightenment were extremely necessary, otherwise, nothing will make sense. Everything is conceived based on conditioning so I can't see the truth anywhere. I'ts possible making me lost interest in almost everything. Did someone pass for something similar? Any advice to deal with it? thank you

Hello everyone! I know this is a very vast subjet that includes a lot of experiences and concepts. So I intend to be very specific about what exactly I want to relate. After the amazing diving LSD proportionates, about 10 hours after the high state, I saw the line that separates the egoic common experience than the "enlightened" experience. At this moment I wasn't feeling the "efects" of the substance anymore. But suddenly the peace was gone! OHH NO! I concentrate for a while and like a clap, AHA! Here I am again. The sensation is perfectly like the spiritual masters discribes. I felt myself as an intense presence, a presence who observes everything. While this presence can perceives itself, everything becomes clear. There is no doubt, no alienation. But I losed it again! And find again, losed again and find again. This "enlightened" state, in the moment, doen't looks bizare, it looks the most commom thing in the world, but at the same time, makes a total difference in the way you realize life. I'd like to know if someone lived something next to it and if used some tool to keep in the presence. I'm curious becouse this "hide and seek" happened twice. And in the moment looks very, very easy to get there! Thank you