Hugo Oliveira

From "Realms of the Human Unconscious" - Stanislav Grof I'm sorry for the image quality. I hope it is possible to read.

First, don't get trapped in the SD model as if your life needs to fit accordingly to its narrative. Ask yourself what is your true relationship with morals. Are you just judging yourself for being a "bad person" or do you notice other negative symptoms/consequences in your life that come from a lack of integrity/ethics? (write that) Question yourself deeply about the real reasons you have to change. it can not be just about a different bright color in spiral dynamics. (write that too) Identify what you want for yourself and the world by breaking these patterns. Which new patterns do you want to develop and why? Then, consciously, step by step, make the transition. Notice what you'll get, what you'll lose, and what you'll sacrifice. The most important point here is to work with great clarity or intuition to know your reasons and how and why you are changing.

I mean, Hojo's comment

Sounds very accurate AIUSHAUIHS

Fasting is powerful! But how can you guys go for a week? On my second day, I don't feel hungry anymore. But I have zero energy, can't do anything, can't sleep, time doesn't pass. Is it supposed to be that bad? @Princess Arabia @shubhamsharma @Spiritual Warfare @ICURBlessings

Take care with drugs that can turn you off giving the illusion of sleep. Real sleep requires full cycles with different stages. Clonazepam helped me for a while but it is very easy to get addicted. Now I'm using Valeriana. Sometimes tea made from bay leaves and chamomile. You may be skeptical but tapping (EFT) was helpful on some occasions.

It is natural and OK. Just remember to be wise and strategic as much as possible. Be careful about the content you are consuming. Pick up videos and porn can fuck your sense of reality and brainwash you into just wanting sex. People underestimate how some content can be toxic. Balance is key.

Hey, I'm a SOMA Breath facilitator. Feel free to ask questions. You can search for SOMA Breath, Rebirthing, Xamanic Breathing, and Holotropic Breathwork. Each method has its own goals and protocols.

Keep looking into it. I can relate. If I'm not wrong Ruppert Spira says that it is a "stage" and eventually you recognize that experience and "experiencer" are just one. I'm not sure what is required for that. Maybe a higher awareness. Here is a report from an experience that I had: I was having some unpleasant feelings of disconnection and loneliness, so I decided to sit down and become totally aware of the feelings, allowing them to be and letting go of suppressions and aversions. The "problem" was that those feelings were not so clear and constant and I was having a lot of random thoughts that distracted me from that original focus. Because of that, I decided to simply be aware of whatever I was having in my experience. Whatever feelings and thoughts. Them, gradually, I felt so grounded in my own presence, in my own awareness that everything became observed. Simply observed without the need or the "notion" of a separate observer. From this point, I had the discernment of being experiencing myself as my own experience and my experience as myself. So simply! In all my previous meditations doing self-inquiry, I had this idea of forcing awareness "backward" into its source. But now I had the experience of witnessing everything as awareness itself. It was shocking at the moment but then, peacefully, I came back to my "normal" state."

It seems like a very limited way of thinking. As someone who worked closely with chemical and biological defense teams in the Army, I can tell you that society, the military, and international agreements have good reasons to deny this kind of idea. On the other hand, there are stories of accidental massive psychedelic contamination in past societies. And I'm curious about the impact that such an event could bring.

I'm not sure about abandonment but I have the intuition about some traumatic energy involved in this process. Thanks for bringing that up.

Thank you. I think this mindset is what is putting my life in motion after a long time of depression. I want a better lifestyle and a business that is not so draining. The point is that sometimes this longing makes me feel in a hamster wheel without getting significantly anywhere. This is what is scaring me now.

Thank you. It makes sense. But in the back of my mind sometimes it feels as if I don't know what I really want. Or even as if I am deluding myself into wanting something that I don't really want.

I think all these things could be good! Thank you.

I really want to change my life's circumstances. Most of us here know how much effort and energy it demands. When I hear spiritual teachings like "nothing can make you happy" or "everything you got will make you miserable", or "just detach from the outcomes", it destroys my motivation and almost makes me suicidal. I know that there is some truth in these teachings, I know that mundane satisfaction is suspicious. But I'm struggling so much with the idea of accepting everything and living a "spiritual life". It is like both spiritual and material satisfaction feels out of reach for me right now. Plus, I have a lot of bills.