Amit

So I used this AI website to interpret my dream and here is what it said .. This dream seems to be reflecting feelings of fear and vulnerability. The strange place filled with water and dark rooms may symbolize unfamiliar or mysterious aspects of your subconscious mind. The large floating tortoises could represent a sense of slow-moving power or potential danger. The presence of Rajarshi, who is teaching you about the specific process for tortoise birth, suggests a wise or authoritative figure guiding you through this unsettling experience. The idea that tortoises can turn into monster tortoises, like ghosts, if not properly born may symbolize a fear of transformation or becoming something uncontrollable. It could also represent the fear of being devoured or consumed by a force beyond your control. The big tortoise chasing you and your subsequent terror could indicate feeling pursued or overwhelmed by something in your waking life. However, Rajarshi's intervention and control over the tortoise implies that there is a solution or guidance available to overcome these fears. The crabs representing tortoise kids attempting to intimidate you may suggest that there are other obstacles or challenges along your path. Your ability to kill them could symbolize your strength and capability to overcome these challenges. The room where normal healthy tortoises are being taught at birth represents a safe and nurturing environment where you are being taught the necessary tools or mantras to stay connected to your soul and prevent negative transformations. The mention of a similar process for rabbits and the sudden image of an evil bunny rabbit may indicate that these fears or challenges are not limited to one specific aspect of your life but may extend to others as well. Overall, this dream suggests a need to address and confront your fears, seek guidance or support from wise figures, and learn methods that can help you stay connected to your true self and maintain control over various challenges in your life.

When you know exact questions you are asking after journaling for a sufficiently period of time. This is the first step towards discovering true self. Because it’s not just your talent, nor it is your passions but something far more deeper. These questions has to be answered in an important way and then new questions would be found and answered and this must keep repeating and this if noted down, and done in a conscious way could lead to ultimate self discovery. It’s good to read about the questions others are asking but until only you can not see your questions, it takes a lot of time before we know who we uniquely are.

@Sucuk Ekmek Bharatiya is the term that is already used

This is a misleading news.. India has always been Bharat, in constitution it starts with “India that is Bharat” Historically India has been used in English and Bharat in the country region… Indians are Bhartiyas, that’s how we already identify with. India comes from the Indus River, while Bharat was the lands name given in Vishnu purana the first time, Bharat is the correct word because if you Indus River flows through mostly Pakistan and it’s now a different country.

Islam is logical? forget of the content, just tell me who wrote Quran, was it Muhammad or Allah? if Muhammad did then why it is called words of allah? Was Muhammad himself was Allah? what is the logic behind that, enlighten me ..

Is that how you feel about me, or is this a question for me? If this is question than my answer would be a NO.. I visit this forum not often and when I see something that I have been through, I say few words that might help if person somehow absorbs them. If someone wants an advice, sure I can say that. Is this triggering you because you associate it with something negative? maybe something you don't like to hear. In my experience, a push like this can be a difference between bickering around and getting into action. No, I am not trying to be anything. I am just being myself, expressing myself authentically. Please stop comparing me with Leo Gura, no one took me as seriously as him, simply because he has become like an authority. My words will be heard only if you are very sincere.

You don’t need to hang on to everything Leo says, instead see for yourself. If you are obsessed with PMO then you need to check it for yourself if this brings a good change. nothing in life can be taught to you by gurus, grow up.

You need to figure it out yourself, stop believing and following what makes you feel better, switch off his channel for some time and start asking these questions to yourself.

@KatiesKarma If one is a bot or a human, you can’t know that on an online forum like this. though since most of the people have programmed themselves with Leo’s content, they might seem like bots, and this is the case with any such group. Freedom is always going to be rare given that humans always fall in love with their chains, and sometimes they call it chains of God.

It has been a lot of time now, since I have discontinued from this forum. Leo's teaching has influenced me a lot in every phase of my life since I have started following him first time around 2015. After more than a year just watching his different videos which had the knowledge and deep understanding of about almost everything.. I have started being a part of this forum. Whenever I had time, I used to very curiously read the new posts in almost all sections of the forum and read the answers Leo gives or any other person. Being an introvert initially, I was not good at expressing myself and it was more about following the content and listening to different voices. At one point of time, it felt like I was following him too much that I was saying the same words that Leo says in his videos.. And It was just too much so gradually I found other great masters to listen to, and that also gave me a new perspective of Leo's work, Now I could see deeper layer of his work. I started writing my journal of this forum and made a lot of posts there, I was trying to express intense emotions I felt while on meditations. One day I found a person who felt like my own part in a feminine body and It has never been boring with her since then. After she came to my life, everything has been completely transformed.. Who I was then and who I am now is complete different, She has grown me not just spiritually but also helped me push through scores of barriers in my emotional and material growth. I really thought this forum to be not useful for me anymore, so I discontinues. I also had to learn through experience about my orange and green phase of spiral dynamics. At that time I strongly associated myself with orange values and since most people on this forum seems like green stage, got into conflicts with me just for the ideology and ego. I also had a lot of ego. I had a little spur of enlightenment before her, but now I constantly live in an enlightened flow experience. I constantly get out of these experiences, yet again find it soon, It's like i know that place of nothingness, where I can rest in calm of solitude, or sometimes even remain alert in the crowded noises. Everything feels so new and a lucid sense of experience starts to touch you, where you feel completely accomplished, and there is complete bliss. But even after seated in such an experience, My mind still returns to its castle and still sometimes can demand like a child, my mind certainly has not been a very disciplined one. Sooner or later it starts to feel pain for desiring one thing or another, things that it has experienced and which were more addictive to any drugs. When you are experiencing bliss at all times, when you pursue a new pleasure, it also mixes in this bliss, making this intensely more pleasing and addictive. that's why it become harder and harder for an enlightened person to push their boundaries. Everything starts giving a new experience, body has a different kind of energy and mind has already found its most natural state of bliss.

@Enlightement This is good not sad, People have encroached the river land, they put all their wastewater into this. Actually they made a sewage out of a river that used to be worshipped. Nature has it's own ways to punish.

I had few awakening experiences where I saw the illusory self getting completely destroyed. Now when I speak it is kind of a channelling from universe, there is no identity behind it. It changed my life completely, the people that needs to be confronted and I kept my modesty with them previously, after this experience I became courageous enough to tell the truth. I was working with this company and I regretted every day I worked for them, I was putting my soul into the work but since there was no resonance in how they see world purely from selfish and greedy perspective, they forced us to work for them more hours than was agreed, and was never appreciative, even weekends were working for us. I did it from a point of view of being the creator, I was their main developer and team lead, but when I was completely burned out and sick and he still wanted me to work, I called it quit after some time. This company even withheld my salary to punish me. I really don’t have time for law suits, and I really don’t want to give in to it too much, so I moved on. But I posted it on LinkedIn, because I wanted to atleast make people aware about such things. https://www.linkedin.com/posts/amit-kumar-aa743455_culture-startup-activity-7082262430457737218-1QxL Now I wonder, if it was my awakening and being able to see through people so deeply that caused it. Otherwise all my junior employees who were complaining too at that time, still seems to be okay with that job. I know they don’t see what I can see, But This seems to me an effect of awakening and seeing bad things clearly, and not getting influenced by people. doesn’t it makes life more difficult from a survival perspective. please offer your perspectives on dangers on awakening.

The only option seems to me is moving on, moving on to a more lonely sort of life. I think I might die but I still trust myself better. People are not trustworthy, everyone does for their own self interest, no one cares for others. All relationships are just illusions ultimately, It’s a hindrance to what one can become. only ego can be hurt, and let it die, I really don’t care, I beg for death. The emotions have been so overwhelming and mind is completely broken, the rubber has hit the road, and it has been destructive to what I thought reality was, It’s more painful than I could ever imagine and that’s why it hurts so much.

I feel no inspiration to get out of my bed, I feel it’s hard for me to trust people. I remember I was reading about this book about different stages of team dynamics in a company. Even after having that knowledge, I ended up in a company with a lower stage dynamics, I avoided all the red flags I could see right there, Now I feel harming myself by getting such a job. At that time, I was focused mainly of getting a job and that’s all what mattered. Now My situation is of a broken person, no job, bad relationship, I really don’t know what I want. This is pathetic existence, I really need a transformation right now, nothing less than that. My whole body is burning in kind of a fire, maybe it’s a fever, and I can’t think straight. I don’t trust myself anymore, I have been hurt very deeply. I still don’t want to believe what has happened with me.

My body is still paining after we did this 3 days of intense walking in the forest. Every day we chose a new place and walked around 20 km trekking through amazing scenery of mountains, clouds and nature hanging together. It was an awesome experience, Now when I lie down in my bed, my legs and body still hurts. Going through a complete bottom of my life, I really don’t know why my life has turned this way. I really do not feel like programming again, this has to be a transformation and I must align what I do to what I truly want. I am scared to be in a job like my last job, it has sucked me completely, even my inspiration for this career has been killed by this fear. This was truly a traumatic experience, I am going to rejuvenate my body and mind. Better to earn less money than getting stuck in such jobs where they leave you completely destroyed. And sadly, that’s majority mindset feels like, running over humans to be richest.

As someone who is cheating, you tend to be more egoic, more playing a victim, because you feel that sense of hurting others, and you have this fear that same can be done to you by others. A life of misery. when you start living in truth, you don’t have to anymore pretend, you walk with your heart, you know you are a wonderful person and you are loved. You choose to live as a higher self.

Cheating is very bad in relationships, be it any kind of cheating. When you are already in a committed relationship, without confirming with the other person, when you choose to find someone on side and that’s how you can ruin trust. You will always have this insecurity of abandonment, because that’s what you are doing to other person, betraying the trust. Instead of clearly communicating with your partner, you choose to hide it, and this creates a cycle of pain and suffering, both for you and for the other persons you are dating. Trust is the foundation of a relationship, and it is a factor of truthfulness and honesty, as soon you start lying and hiding, relationship is already destroyed. The only thing that can rebuild it is honesty and truthfulness, not giving into the fears of abandonment by loved one, courage is what it takes.

I have again feeling like crap, because I expected something. She came like a wind and moved away, I really am losing control of even myself, feeling literally helpless, no one to say anything about. have I trapped myself into it? yes I did, when it was a clear NO, I always saw a YES. She always knew this won’t work out. We both lied to each other, but I didn’t lie about anything big, but she did. She is a good player when it comes to men. why do I still involved with her? she taught me love literally, I have promised myself to do anything to make this woman happy, so I am worried about her a lot of times and that makes me agitated. If she treats me like a real man or even soulmate leave alone “divine masculine “, she will atleast not block me. At least we will be talking. Now it seems like she is done with me, thus this chapter shall be closed.

We were going down through lush green trail of mountains to a village in the valley, travelling around 5 kms, we took few break and just kept moving. There was absolutely no one and so we were doubting if we might have entered in a prohibited area. It was a forest, something was pulling us on that trail. We decided we will walk till 5 pm and then return back. In the end we saw a human and we asked him. He was a teacher in the only school of this village. He said since it’s a preserved forest area, roads can’t be built here and it makes it hard for villagers to get education. He told us about how far this trail goes, some history of it. And then he left, we finally reach village right in the valley, first before the entrance there was an ancient Devi temple, we took the blessings. Then we went through streets of this village, there we saw Mahadev temple at a juncture and then stayed on the other end of village for 15 minutes just sitting, enjoying the scenery of the valley. Slowly it started raining when we started returning back, we were looking for a cover, after walking some distance, we saw few children, and on seeing us they started making fun of us laughing at us in local language. When we stopped for a cover from rain, in the porch of a house, they came to us and started insisting for money. These cute sounding kids were tempting so I asked why they want it for, and they said they wanted to eat namkeen. They took us to an only shop in this remote and inaccessible village, where a very old dadiji were living and had a range of different sort of chips and namkeen, nothing else. We bought for kids and then we bought few for us and started returning. There was a dog from village who was accompanying us since we have entered in the village and it was still with us. We needed to climb back to the top from this valley, to get our bikes back to our hotel room. Climbing on a steep slope was a bit harder then coming down but the whole way was so pretty and quiet, the weather was also serene and great scenes. We didn’t feel it was longer because of all this, then we drove down our bikes from the top of guru shikhar to mount Abu, 15 kms of total way. It was raining the whole way and it was really fun ride through natural beauty and lakes the whole way.

There is so much to go... this is not the work of a life time unless you were on this path for many births.. I have seen few things that can't be justified by reason, Attaining shiva is almost impossible, even Sadhguru is not there yet.. I will suggest you choose some other deity, who is attainable relatively quickly.. Shiva is going to destroy you completely.. be careful

More I focus on my petty problems, more these problems will grow. Instead I will focus on something greater than my petty ego, something that is truly valuable. Now I am going to walk my own path, the path I always wanted to walk to, but I never understood why it was so important to begin with. I made wrong choices, went against what has been said by experts, but it was necessary. If I followed what is said by an expert, I will never know the why, the pain and suffering. I will depend on the experts, Now I see everything very clearly, why it was said.

@Enlightement Jai Mahakaal, Om Kalikaya Namah.. HAR HAR MAHADEV <3 Brother, I am really happy that you are discovering my culture, I love it too. sadly, In my country the neuroticism of following west in every way has misdirected people away from it. But right now, People are returning to it, what might look like superstition to a logical eye, contains a lot of deep wisdom. Shiva family is love, Shiva used to be worshipped as a lord of animals in a different tradition, Shiva has so many forms and countless manifestations, shiva is absolute consciousness... Om Namah Shivaya ¡™•§̐¡

Meanwhile I added a girl who looked interested to distract myself from this pain as her needs are important mine are too I got her call again She kinda sounded confused She wanted me to install an app to continue conversation with her and I was fine, It's okay we consider each other just friends now, don't we she said yes, she told me that this guy loved her truly And If I was like him she would never leave me and I agreed but since I didn't want to hide from her I asked her will it matter if I talk to someone else and she said no.. she doesn't care I said Okay and I told her about the girl I added And she reacted to it really badly she blocked me even on the new app Now I felt like chasing her again My inner child even though is healed but still runs on the same pattern But I truly want this intimacy that I had with her I might never find it it doesn't matter if she was narcissist it she had so many fears and avoiding inner work All what matters is the knowing that I still keep loving her But now it doesn't matter If I get to talk to her It's more of an astral communication between two hearts which are so apart and so close She closed herself from me, not knowing that she can't close herself from me, and neither I can do it. I will love her till eternity <3

@Enlightement thanks divine brother, Om Namah Shivaya