Amit

So after a year, I am going to start journaling. It's too much to just keep absorbing and not try to contemplate it and fit into the proper perspective. Writing it helps to contemplate in today's distractive times. After getting over the gross addictions, I was trying to put myself into focusing sober, also not taking needs such as love and respect into account, but I never expected this will take so much time. I alwys kept my expectations high and short term, it has harmed me in ways but benefitted me in some ways. Dealing with this assignment made my life grow in a way, so having something in hand makes me run for the personal development and spirituality. There is not a definite way to deal with things, you have to find your balance. There is no point trying to perfect it, better to take a call and experience it, focus , go deeper and see if there's water in the well. There will always going to be the water or oil or something valuable, but if you want to be a smartass, search for places where there are trees, if you looking for water. If you just looking for anything, it's better to keep digging and digging at one place. Worst is to dig without not giving a thought to decision process, this will work only if you are lucky, and you don't want to place your bets on luck if you want to have the most rich well. Once you decided a place, remember you don't want to change it, so decide wisely, have tools and techniques of master diggers. Hard work it will take, keep digging, having faith on your decision will be most helpful when you're at work.

It's natural to feel that way. after you get to know someone, naturally you're curious to know more and more about her, until you are not very aware that it's just your thoughts and you can let it go. that's why it's important to have healthy deeper connections, so you can go back whenever you like. I like to have very few close and deep connections over a lot of them. but it can be different for different people.

@Kalki Avatar I'm what you've started to search for.

@Leo Gura I didn't get it the first time, but then I said WTF.... Nice one!!!

Leo gets caught masturbating to this post.. ?

that's blue thinking

Completely agree, lots of red-blue in disguise finding authority in green as it's the new trend, without even realizing that it's still red-blue. We can always identify by behaviors of people. Even on this group, I have observed lots of beige and purple stage behaviors tolerated in the name of green. It's time that we start following yellow and reject green. Green is toxic for society.

@remember good to know about your views, you are truly a creative and openminded person. nothing bad about commenting and being a part of mass dynamic, that's the way to change, but it better be happening through discussion and agreeing not being hostile toward others, the system however corrupt it might be still is for that end goal of having prosperous humanity.

@remember wow, now you've got the superpower to detect emotions by reading a text and now anyone can easily fool you over internet. Watch your own aggression, it might be that. I care for people, so just was asking them gently to not make it the game for ego, you were playing. Any supremacy, which doesn't invove everyone else is bad, whether it's liberal supremacy over traditional values or whatever. We need to include everyone into the community. Police has tough task to do, so I applaud their overall work for maintaining law and order, though I strongly support the need to reforms in policing values, even consciousness work for policeman. But I strongly reject the violence happening in the name of #blacklivesmatter.

@remember not me, seems like you're annoyed in here... also don't quote me just read the next comment. also, that sentence is my huge contribution, but you will realize only after you die.

Yeah dm, I can be of help, if you pay me well

Stop commenting, discussion is already saturated, no point repeating the same thing again and again

Purple stage discussion

protestors are dumbass, being on this website, for god's sake don't identify with them, you can do better

@docs20 that's a different context, it might have some usefulness to align oneself, but it's not infinity.

mistaking symbol for the infinity.... Very funny

So I had so many gross addictions, which I one by one demolished. But still I have one of the constantly checking social media for likes, comment, even this forum. Sometimes it seems to me because it's ok as I don't have someone to be intimate with and these are biological urges. But I see people like leo who seem to be very content all the time. I also think that it may be a structural issue, I, in vain, try to be available to anybody who needs my help, but it's more like I am fulfilling my own need to engage and socialize with people. But when socializing, it never turns up very fruitful, leaving me empty and cravings after some time. Any ideas to deal with it.?

@Elton thanks!! ?

@Etherial Cat This seems like a good concept, but not entirely true. woman of my dreams, no way, first of all, I don't have such a dream, second You don't know the frustration of hundreds of rejection. when you're an Indian man not from a rich family, the only option left for you is to marry a disrespectful girl. the world is not UK!

As you all might have known, I have been acting like a know it all guy on this forum for some time. Offended many people in here, just to satisfy my need to feel superior, But for few days I have been chatting with this girl and being more conscious than my previous experiences with girls, I was hoping to nail it this time and win a healthy relationship. Things just started and All my dysfunctions returned as they were, doing yoga made me more aware but the neurosis was still there and I didn't see it because I was not in a relationship. she was very helpful, yet I was able to talk negatively to her, and I found my wounded ego hiding in the cover of my consciousness understanding. My brain replayed my childhood once again and showed me where the wound has been made by wounded people. I don't want to reveal the details of all those people, but it was kind of an awakening. I have been aware of the events but only now I can relate my unquenching thirst of love and my harsh treatment of my sensitivities at a very early age. I could see the root cause of my neediness, I want to say special thanks to Leo's material, without which I don't know If I could ever know it. I will love any advice and suggestion to recover my original self and release the repressed trauma completely. I will also try to find something good to treat it on my own.

@Loving Radiance Good channel, I knew about it already. The only problem is videos are too long for one go.

Logic won't help you get it, things have to be experienced, focus on that.

You are confusing pointer for the object. Metaphors needed when normal symbols fail to explain. Words are subjective.

1> Give a thought about who needs this stuff. better to not go for a larger audience in the starting. and share it with them. 2> keep working on yourself. Having width is important but depth is what you wanna advertise and go for, to taste success

@Preety_India my bad, I liked the argument, couldn't have agreed more, so decided to go for some meta-criticism, lol.