I had the most bizarre experience couple days ago and what made it even weirder, was that I was watching the full moon through the clouds. The night was absolutely gorgeous and I was standing on my porch. I had my dog out with me and I realized I just cannot be alone and always need someone there with me to lean on as a crutch. Even my dog makes me feel safe. I could feel in my body that somehow, Xavier (my dog) was holding me back from being fully vulnerable in the black night. So Inside Xavier went. Shortly there after, my heart started beating faster, my legs became weak, and I became more hot. This part is hard to explain but.. All of a sudden, it felt like a camera zoomed out from my body and into the sky, through the atmosphere, past the planets, and into the galaxy into the dark abyss. Then it felt like I had the while view from there. In a split second, it felt like I was up in space, looking down at myself. The camera/view panned all the way back down to where I was. In that moment of time. Zooming back down past the planets, through the atmosphere and down onto me. Where I was. Standing there in that split second. Holding onto that railing, holding myself from falling backwards (even tho I wasn't but my body felt like it was). In that split second, I felt completely alone and isolated. I felt like I was literally the only soul left on the whole world. The only soul left on the planet earth. Going past the other planets, I felt not a single soul. Going into space, I felt not a single soul. It felt as if the whole galaxy was wiped clean and I was the only survivor and that terrified the shit out of me. In that moment, I realized how afraid I was to sit alone with myself. After breathing and coaching myself words like "you're okay.. You're safe.." etc, I became okay. The isolated feeling slowly started to fade and I started to look around and trully see how many people I was close to. I changed my perception and started to see how many people there are in the world And no matter where I am, I will always run into someone. Then That also made me realize how I trully don't trust anyone and dont ask anyone for help. After a few minutes of repeating those phrases, I started believing them. That I trully was safe. And then I started feeling empowered. Like I was on top of the world. It was so bizarre and I never want to forget that feeling. I really don't know if I can call it astral projection because I didnt see my body as if I was someone else standing next to me. I just mainly felt things.
