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I've already swatted and killed 5 but for every one I kill a new one comes back! 😠

Thank God! Don't take it personally. I have murdered their little friends and left the corpses sticking to the ceiling. That'll show them.

This happened over a year ago where I encountered this man. I was in a low place mentally at the time. Confused and somewhat lost. I met this man at a business expo. He seemed really interested in me as a young entrepreneur and he told me he thinks I'm going to be a millionaire. He basically posed himself as a potential investor. We exchanged contact info and that's that. About 6 months later I need investment and I'm still kind of lost, sexually confused, not very grounded. I call this man and he invites me to his house where he gives a presentation to some of his students who are all younger than me but I'm there too. I meet this man at the train station and he drives a brand new Tesla. We get talking and not long in he asks if my parents are divorced. I had no problems talking about this but I took a mental note that this was slightly inappropriate of him to ask just 10 minutes after meeting. I said I'm not really in touch with my dad, to which he responds that family is the most important thing but he can also see in my eyes that not talking to my dad is the right decision. Teenagers walk past us and he clearly stares after a boy, and then after a girl. This was strange he would do this when I can obviously see him. We collect the 4 guys who were 18-ish and go to his home. On the way he really praises me to the young guys, but the things he says about me are slightly exgeguratted and therefor not entirely truthful which also made me uncomfortable. Note: Had I had lower self esteem and less awareness I would have gladly taken this praise I think. We go to his house and he gives a presentation about how to be happy. He literally named the program after himself "the [his name] happiness program". It was quite boring, like he sucked all the energy out of the room with his high energy presentation. I noticed that when we arrived none of the students wanted coffee, but during the break they all wanted coffee. I noticed an underlying anger that he must have worked hard on to hide, but it came out very subtly whenever I challenged him with questions. The most inappropriate part of the presentation came near the end where he talked about some story from when he was a teenager and his step-dad covered for him by not telling his mom that he got drunk at night. Now I got straight up pedo vibes from this guy because he was just weaving in all sorts of strange stories about older men keeping secrets and things along those lines. Mind you I'm in my 30s and this dude is creeping me out. He has children and a wife, who all seemed very normal and quite happy, the perfect family. He made me meet his teenage daughter but it felt like he did this in a way of bartering, almost as to say "hang out with me and you get a piece of that too". Eventually he drops us all of at the train station. One of the guy asks his friend for a cigarette even though he quit months ago. I believe they had an honost physiological stress response to this narcissist but weren't consciously aware of it. They all talk about him and praise him constantly. When I say something about him they take a long pause before they respond, probably because his influence is still over them so strongly even though he was physically not there. I thought about this a lot because it was such a consufing experience. On the outset he may seem like a very friendly and energetic man who just wants to help young people to succeed, but energetically this is the biggest narcissist I've ever encountered. I think one of the biggest characteristics is he sets the frame and gives you almost no options. It feels like he does not respect another's autonomy. This is very important. Normal people respect another's autonomy, while these real narcissist see you as an extension of themselves or an object to be manipulated. For example: I called him on the phone and I hear someone in the background leave the room and saying "bye". Then he goes "you hear that? I just finished a meeting with a student". Yes I heard that myself, and you are now trying to influence my mind and thoughts by giving this direction. Idk how to explain this otherwise but it's significant, even though it doesn't sound like much. If you wonder how this ended: I stopped responding to his texts, which is my right and any normal person would respect this. Of course not this guy. He kept sending one about once a month until I told him very firmly to stop bothering me. And that's that. The narcissist is harmless in the sense that they just want to impose their ego upon as many people as they wish, also called narcissistic supply. When that supply ends they will try to find someone else. I believe this is the main reason this guy is wealthy, is so he can bother many people who then have no choice because money is power. But the narcissist is very harmful if you accept them as a leader. You will resign your autonomy to this person. An important way to judge the leader is to see how people around them are. Are they the best version of themselves or are they small? This is #1 tell. Later I thought about why this man targeted me. He must have thought I was gay because I wore a pink tshirt at the expo, and I showed some insecurity perhaps. Little did he know I was actually consciously going through this confusing period, and I noticed every little thing he did.

I'm quite upset. My dad was in the hospital and rehabilitation for 6 weeks. Every day I called, went over (it's quite far from my home) and took care of him. He was on the floor for 4 days with no food or water and we thought he was going to die. Miraculously he survived. Now he's back home, and I just found out he's drinking again! Even though he ended up blacking out and in the hospital after drinking too much alcohol. When I told him in a very friendly way this probably isn't the best way to rehabilitate (he's still weak) he kinda shrugged it off. He was eating his dinner which was appearantly way more important than my feelings or concern for him. I thought a second chance of life would make him realize not to drink anymore. The bottle is more important than the people who care about him. When I got upset that he could hear in my tone of voice he just put the phone down and stopped responding to just eat his meal. It's like this alcohol is his baby and is more important to him than his actual family, who were there for him when he was at the hospital and we thought he was going to die. 😡😡😡 I am most upset at how he just shrugs this of as if I'm crazy and shouldn't worry so much, completely disregarding me and my feelings. Me who was there at the hospital just WEEKS AGO. And yes this has more meaning because of course as a child I received this ongoing emotional abandonment constantly. But I thought being on the floor with no food or water for 4 days and then at the IC would make someone reconsider. But we are in the exact same position now as before the hospital. Am I missing something here? Should I see the alcohol as his only effective medicine for some incredible emotional trauma that I can't see? How can you treat alcohol like it's your most precious thing in the world and choose it over people who care about you? I was now calling him every day to see if he was doing well but when he mistreats me like this and completely disregards my caring for him I just don't want to call anymore. I REALLY don't like the person he is on alcohol. How can you do this to people? It's also like I feel 'tricked', like I approach him as if he's my dad who I care about but then I find out he's been drinking and it's like I got tricked by some evil person pretending to be my dad. This just brings back bad childhood memories. This is why I had let go of the emotional attachment, but then he got into the hospital and again it's like he tricked me into having empathy for him or seeing him as my dad. But it's a one way street of empathy it seems, at least when he's on alcohol. Disgusting. Everyone always describes him as this sweet man but when he's on alcohol he's like this monster to me, simply because of the emotional abandonment. I would argue there's even a sadistic component to his alcoholic persona where he takes pleasure in my emotional torture as a result of my empathy. But I am the only person who really knows this. But because of recently he needed so much help from us, I thought he'd changed. Foolish of me to even think that 😔

What I'm getting at is quite simple, but nobody has answered this yet. Let's say I give yoga classes to middle aged housewives and I fuck them all after class. Is this bad? If not, let's say we organize a fun evening or multiple nights where we do ecstatic dancing or similar activities. Let's say this builds up and I create a core group who are really into my spiritual charisma who I also have sex with. Is this bad? Next step we start living together in a sort of commune. Ok so where is the line? This boils down to: "the line is up to the leader's discretion", meaning I am not going to get any real answer to this. @An young being I agree

Yes I agree that would be bad. My post assumes this is not the case. Why do these have to be mutually exclusive? As if we're going to be 'perfect' at this. No, people have desires let's not kid ourselves.

It goes down once a day at exactly the same time, that's all I've noticed.

I was gonna say to make babies but that doesn't apply to lesbians. Probably still for some survival reason though.

If I was constantly lying to people I would never start this thread. I am literally the opposite, like overthinking if I'm doing evil.

Exactly as the title says. Some examples might include: You aren't that into her but you want sex so you sleep with her (this one happens the most often to me) You manipulate her into sex through one or multiple lies You manipulate her into sex without lies There's a power imbalance Ok and where is the line? Is sleeping around almost always evil? Girls get more attached after sex you know this, while we just want lay.

Very interesting video. Main takeaway for me is that by being too attached to an outcome (idea) you lose power in the moment, but real power is always in the moment. When you already want to be at your destination (attached to outcome), it takes away from the quality of your step at this moment.

This is being sold as a modafinil alternative. It's not medication and is not FDA/EU approved but you can legally purchase it from online nootropic stores as a supplement. I bought this because I was unable to find any moda sources online and wanted to try a cheaper alternative that I could get within a few days. I've taken it a total of 3 times in different amounts and under different circumstances: 1st time: later in the day on a full stomach; 40mg 2nd time: first thing in the morning, working from home; 60mg 3rd time: first thing in the morning on short sleep; 120mg Short review: it kinda sucks dude. It always felt like I was "on something" as opposed to real moda which is very subtle. It killed the heart connection for me, just for that reason I wouldn't recommend it. It does help motivate me to do tasks on my laptop but to me this type of productivity isn't productive at all because the creativity is missing. Social fluidity: fantastic, similar to cocaine or whatever but without the feeling good, just empty small talk that's very fluent. No point in this. Pros: Really wakes you up, felt overslept on short sleep Shorter effect than moda; no difficulties falling asleep at night Good for dumb tasks I guess Cons: Killed my heart connection; intuition, empathy, just for that reason I won't take it again Social fluidity but it's empty Killed creativity Feels like I'm "on something" Ego boost 1/10 wouldn't recommend unless maybe you just got out of a coma and you don't wanna be drowsy.

NLP is extremely effective and something to be studied. I came across it in April of last year where I took a 3-day intensive program and it changed my life. I came in there thinking I was somehow outcast and weird, not a 'normal' person. I got over this and literally had a love relationship on day 3 with a girl from there, although we broke up soon after. But from just 3 days I got over my limiting belief of not being normal or social.

But then how do you explain that a long deep stare can be experienced as uncomfortable, even if the starer does it from a kind and loving place? I don't think you can fully read people through eye contact, although I've definitely had very uncomfortable eye contact.

Leo has done hundreds of approaches.

I bet that giant ass distracted you from truth.

He's investing it all in doge.

Common interests or through work.

@Growly well good to hear that armodafinil is working for you. I ended up taking 200mg of fladrafinil today on short sleep and it feels great. Quite smooth though, much less potent than modafinil which is also why I have no difficulties sleeping on the stuff.

Finally someone brave enough to say it

Day 58: I think I've gained some insight into why I was feeling shitty last week, let's dive right in: Pussy corrupts: Just had this insight; pussy corrupts! As I was looking at some deer inside a tiny reservation near my home, I realized; they're playing a simple game. Their game is to have babies and eat grass. That's it. One male deer impregnates all 20 females inside the reservation, then they just hang out in a group until they're grown up. This made me realize; we're doing the exact same thing. We are nothing but animals in a giant zoo called Society. Instagram models, fast cars, high-status brands, it's all just chasing pussy, it's all survival-based nonsense. I had a date last weekend and this week I felt shitty. But why? It's because my internal focus shifted from higher ideals to mostly hustle. Why hustle? To get more pussy. Guys will dedicate their entire lives to 'hustle' (making money for the sake of making money) in order to take an extra vacation or buy a nicer car. Why? To get pussy. All this is motivated on some level to get pussy, directly or indirectly. That includes starting an impressive company or starting a family. Starting a family is equally 'Survival Matrix', no better or worse than chasing pussy. But that's not all. We had this date and it was fine, we had sex and we had a connection. At the very end of the date she said "I enjoyed this but next time I'd like to go for dinner". So I thought "girls like to enjoy getting ready and going on dates like that" so now I'm thinking "I need to hustle harder so I can take her out on a date". Before you know it, I'm hustling just for the sake of money, putting my higher ideals off into the future. And THAT'S how pussy corrupts. I also don't really like this kind of manipulative behavior that happens when a female finds out I'm not just good looking but also have a heart and soul, so she pushes me into the provider frame, which ultimately becomes manipulative because all of a sudden there's like stakes and strings attached. Why would you decide already that I take you out to eat next time? Now I'm not taking her out at all for this bullshit lol. But really the truth is I just don't want a serious relationship and she already caught feelings after sex so I have to cut this off. So that sums up the problem with pussy and money. Also if you 'hustle' it implies you work hard on something you're not passionate about so you can relax cause you got a tiny bit more money than the next guy. It doesn't get more Matrix than that. Artful money making: But there is good news! There has to be a way to make money in the short term that is aligned with my higher goals. Hell, I'm going to spend the next 30 years of my life working so might as well work on something worthwhile from now on. My goal now is to grow myself as an influencer and help others while I travel the world and do stand-up. It all ties in together, so my Instagram with have my comedy on it as well as more 'actualization' content (whatever the word is). These are currently my 5-year goals: (confusing I know but Green on the August goals = done, red = not done yet ... on anything other than August goals the colors don't mean anything) My natural inclination is to put this off into the future. I thought I should build another dropshipping store first for the money, then teach others how to do the same on my YT, and begin coaching from there. That's not a bad thought, but why not start with the coaching business today? What if my financial problems are also solved by doing my higher purpose business? What if I could get 2 high-ticket coaching clients this month? Coaching: Now, be extremely careful making assumptions. When I think of starting coaching today, I immediately make assumptions like I'm not good enough to coach people yet I don't have anything valuable to offer because I'm broke Making money with my passion just takes longer than quick hustle I must be conscious of the fact that these are assumptions and not truth. But when you trust an assumption to be true, then it becomes truth. I speak the word into existence, so to speak. So I took this coaching seminar on Saturday, I will now continue to work out my coaching offer and see how I can help others. Balance: I must be careful not to judge too harshly, since my date last weekend did give me some insights into my financial situation. I can become too dreamy and unrealistic in life, so being with this girl who was almost a pessimist was nice. Another upside of hustle is I now refuse to borrow money from my dad because I'd rather hustle than go through the embarrassment of that ordeal again. To be clear he's broke too, but it just toxifies the relationship for no good reason.

I'm listening to this audiobook for the second time in two months. Highly recommended for those who want exceptional success. He talks about how lessons from the streets apply to him in business and the lessons he's learned. I believe this to be a pretty healthy stage Orange book. Enjoy

Great point, you wouldn't see a thread here called "Ariana Grande is a Fraud" or something like that.

That's weird because Fladrafinil is metabolized in the liver into modafinil, which is then responsible for its wakefulness-promoting effects. And 150mg is more than I ever tried. Did you do on empty stomach? But when I have choice moda and armoda definitely better option.