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Challenging Shit: Feeling a bit exhausted. Finally did a proper 5x5 workday yesterday, which was satisfying but also not really. This is probably all the old frequency just saying hi. Made a blanket sale on Etsy yesterday, that was pretty cool. Emailed more retreats yesterday, this time in Madeira, for volunteering my tech skills in exchange for a stay. Did 25 Whatsapp messages yesterday. This could be quite scalable. If you make a bot that scrapes Google Maps, then verifies the Whatsapp accounts, then builds the websites and send the messages in bulk then you're golden. I'm doing super challenging shit, no fucking shit it's challenging. Not only am I starting my business, I am also doing it with no money and no income. That absurd. But not only that, no, I am also traveling. Not only that, but I am traveling and staying at hostels so I have no stability. No fucking shit it's challenging - I have to balance finding my next place to stay, finding customers, building systems, managing my routine while dodging these unexpected situations. Then I have to manage my own mindset, regulate my sleep in an unpredictable envoirment. God, it's a miracle I haven't gone insane yet. I mean, I have to keep an abundant mindset while not being able to pay for a workspace where I can sit quietly, not being able to do my laundry, the list goes on and on. The main challenge is noise, but if I have more income I would stay at private rooms, so really the main challenge is income. Either way, I wanted this. When I was in my comfort zone I barely made any real moves. I chose to live with my fantasies about business instead of doing business. I would have never done this Whatsapp outreach back home - too scary and not aligned with my fantasies. Now I'm doing real shit. Let's look into Madeira again. Is it possible to live there at the same cost as here? Roughly €20 per night with similar grocery expenses. If so, then I can stay there until the Ram Das retreat. Of course I prefer a place to stay for free in exchange for volunteering work. Cheapest private I could find on Booking.com = €28 per night, with others at €30 and €35. Hostels: €26 on Airbnb or €12 per night for a tent lol But really, this is just filler. I wanted to go to South East Asia, not Europe. It costs €519 to get to Bangkok: That layover it too tight. But you get my point. Once in Bangkok I'll have a much cheaper time. You can get a freakin studio for €11 per night! So I just need to get to Bangkok, then I'm in a much better spot cuz it's 3 to 4 times cheaper.

What do you mean by this? I though ladyboy was just the word they used in Thailand for this 'third gender'.

But that also look like a dude to me. I am hoping for chicks at the level of this video:

Is Da Nang any better?

Lol 😂

Dunno if this has been shared here before but this whole documentary is a fantastic piece of money psychology. This is just a clip:

@Fountainbleu I definitely will! After the misery of last week some very interesting things came on my path that I will be posting about. My safety was stagnation, now is time for growth. And to grow, I have to let go of control sometimes. Let go of what's familiar to make room for progress. Currently on a bus from Porto to Lisbon 🚌🇧🇫

Technically, doesn't everyone hallucinate people? Do I remember correctly that earlier you were skeptical of Indian gurus doing magical, impossible things? Why this distinction?

Carving and pottery You might think of these videos as pure hobby but she gets millions of views, and more sales than she can fulfill I bet.

I have the same thing, although there was a time where I would just hug every girl I met as a greeting, works quite well. But I think it's also cultural. In South American culture people are much more physical than in Europe.

I feel you man, I feel the same right now. Stress, and it's pouring rain. Lots of uncertainty in these kinds of situations. Gotta tap from within and start living in the desired reality right now

Pretty close to how Leo sees it? This is of course a mock interview and meant to be funny.

Digital Nomad: I've made my first important step on the journey and have started living as a digital nomad this year. So far it's been more challenging that I had anticipated. My theory was that I could just live anywhere I want, not realizing that travel comes with all sorts of additional problems and distractions from my work. Like it rains here every day, even though I came here for better weather, but they don't have central heating. I got really sick with the flu. Am slowly starting to hate this place. All my mental strength and optimism was appearantly just grounded in the stability of my living situation. Without it, I'm a different person, not for the better. I almost miss the stability of my old life, but there's no turning back. It's annoying because in the Netherlands I was so comfortable that I didn't feel motivated enough to try harder in my business. Now I am super annoyed, perhaps I will try harder but is that worth it? In Porto now, really sick of this place already, will travel to Bangkok and Bali soon.

Just found this type of breathing, it's been helpful. It's basically long breaths and then half the time and again half of that. I feel the effects much quicker and stronger than when I do Wim Hof, but should probably try a longer session.

It's just entertainment videos, nothing more. Was mass entertainment more intelligent when you were growing up?

I don't see the problem, it's not like you need to live this other person's life. Socialization is just about vibes. Then when finished you can go do something alone again.

I don't find this extraordinary. This is just very basic self help talk, Tony Robbins etc. And that's of course where gemini got its training data.

Because your ideas didn't align with the economic reality. Then again I've seen a youtuber sell €10k in cookies and travel the world that way, so who knows.

Is your insight original? How would you know? Isn't original just a distinction your mind makes? If we just assume that reality consists of distinctions, how could one thing be more original than another? What if every possible thought, action or outcome has already been done millions of times? This universe could have existed millions of times before the version we are in now.

Awesome @Lyubov, I am doing the same and currently in Portugal and Bangkok in a few weeks. My plan is to stay there for at least two months and see how I like it. I plan to have a base in SEA somewhere, probably Bali. Met guys here who have been traveling as digital nomad for 4+ years. So cool.

But Leo, isn't one of those big death bed regrets not taking enough chances in life? So in that sense isn't the extreme extrovert doing a better job?

Yes, down dogma, up dogma.

What if you accidentally cut someone off in traffic? What about all the 'harm' that comes from being underslepped for example? Like being rude etc.

My experience of me is central in my head, behind the eyes. When I experience an itch in my foot, I clearly notice a signal from a distant place (foot). The I noticing the itch is behind the eyes as usual. I've never experienced my life from any other area of the body. I don't experience life from the knees, I experience it from behind the eyes. This is where the "I" lives. However, when I close my eyes or get lost in thought, the "I" sort of... disappears? Or is no longer centralized? This is rather mysterious. And how is it possible I can get lost in thought while driving a car or doing other complex tasks with my eyes open? It just doesn't make sense.

Why would you have to probe whether or not it's a good hobby here? If you enjoy it then go for it.