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Yesterday I got so high, then there were these creatures. These things are tiny and they make jokes. Everything they say is a funny joke, and is somehow linked to all of reality. So basically my entire existence is one of their jokes. These creatures are super familiar, and I remember them from early childhood. They speak in a nonsensical language, mostly in jokes. They know 2 emotions: sadness and love. Both are extremely pure versions of the emotion, nothing like normal adult sadness or love. They're very pure creatures. It's hard to explain, but whenever something sad happens, they immediately follow it up with one of their ultra funny jokes and then my state is completely reset because their jokes are so funny, it removes all negativity. They're extremely childish but when you see them you can't help but get sucked in. They're in a constant vortex of emotions. Every time it seems that the sadness takes over, they get themselves out of it. They're so childish and innocent. I had fun with these things, but it's also like they wanted to show me the light. That there's more I haven't seen. That I've only seen the surface and there's so much more there.

I used shrooms once in my adult life and had a beautiful trip. There are certain additions I am ready to kick right now. What's the best way you guys have found to set intentions like this before a shroom trip? I've also noticed MDMA works very well to kick these addictions, but I still fall back sometimes. I'd much prefer MDMA over shrooms (fear of bad trip) but I know shrooms can be more profound and perhaps help me better transitioning more into Green.

Hello lovely actualized members, Recently I've fallen on some hard times; financial stress and unemployment. I've dealt with it before and it's going okay. After a short few weeks of alcohol and cocaine abuse I had 3 experiences on MDMA that clarified some youth traumas, that was very helpful and I've given it a place now. Then yesterday some things become very clear to me: what I'm supposed to do with my life and how I should do it. It was an amazing experience. From then on I've become very emotional. Like I cry when I think about certain things or see a child in public. I can hold it back in public but this is a completely new experience for me. It's not sadness, it's just feeling very emotional and wanting to cry. I realize I have been emotionally unavailable for the last 12 years, maybe more.. (I'm 30 now). So even though I am taking action and loving life now, I don't know what this means. Am I now emotionally unstable? Thanks in advance for your answers.

Oh thanks dude I really appreciate that answer I also just realized I'll impress my acting class being able to cry on demand now

I've had a few of these random epiphanies, yesterday was one. But when this overwhelming feeling of light comes, I quickly shut it down and it never lasts longer than 1 or 2 seconds. Any advice?

This lady Tulsi Gabbard will win 2020. She's very presidential and very sexy, none of which I can say about Bernie.

I'm looking for advice on nootropics and supplements for my dad. Nobody actually knows what my dad has. First they diagnosed him with Parkinsons (without the tremors), then with Alzheimers, then again with Parkinsons and now they say it's not that either. He's extremely slow and stiff to move, incontinent, poor mouth muscle control and drooling, choking on food etc. He can have a slow reaction time to questions, or none at all and can seem distant from the world, although I would disagree that he is (just socially awkward which he's always been). These symptoms came about very gradually. My best guess is it's a result of years of heavy alcohol consumption, paint fumes (back before that shit was regulated there was some bad stuff in paint), perhaps trauma in combination with a quirky personality he's always had. I'm considering neurofeedback and will probably get him started on that once I have the money. I myself take armodafinil and a stack of other nootropics including L-theanine, NALT, NAC, spirulina among others. I'm just not sure if those would also be right for his situation. I wonder if anyone has knowledge of this topic or experience.

Hmm, never really had this problem though I think armodafinil gives me headache sometimes. It's 200mg L-theanine

Here's my current stack: Morning: Armodafinil (1/4 pill) L-theanine Ginkgo biloba Omega 3 fish oil N-A-C Afternoon: Armodafinil (1/4 pill) (only when I need extra performance) Coffee (only when I need extra performance) NALT L-theanine (second one on an empty stomach for focus) Evening: N-A-C Melatonine 5-HTP L-Tryptofaan (comes in a single tablet, good for sleep) I like this stack so far, looking to expand with Alpha-gpc and lions mane soon.

Eyooo, same here brother. Interesting encounters start happening when you raise your awareness.

Oh absolutely (minus the hygiene). Sorry for my ignorance on the topic, I think maybe he's only been diagnosed with Parkinsons, not Alzheimer's. Thanks for your help guys, I'll look into this further.

This makes no rational sense at all but emotionally I feel this way.

Earlier this week I had, what they call a paradigm shift. I would describe it as "I've finally opened my heart", though my old self would describe it as "having more faith and less overthinking". I've experienced deep feelings of love I haven't felt since I was 8 years old, that I forgot were even possible. I never knew that this was what I was missing in my life, but it's true. All of my adult live I've been a pure rational thinker. Now although my heart has always been in the right place, the pure rational thinking has always been very limiting. Not allowing myself to "flow in streams of abundance" (I know that sounds weird), I shot myself in the foot and denied myself those things I desired. Ironically, when you desire something and stress about it, like money, you create a very negative paradigm. A sort of "me vs. the world" where the world is the enemy. You have NO IDEA what complete abundance looks like and you'll never accomplish it from this paradigm. NEVER! The main difference is that previously my happiness depended on the correct thoughts aligning in my head. So if there was a prospect of happy things happening, like getting paid or going on vacation, I would be happy. If not-so-nice things were about to happen, I would be sad. Now however, happiness is not dependent on thought aligning properly, but more like it resurfaces throughout the day. And it's a deeper happiness than before too. I was going to give yesterday a rating from 1 to 10, like I often rate my days. But I realized it doesn't compare. It's like this would be a totally different scale. Also I don't need a scale lol. Never in a million years did I realize that this was a needed step in my personal development and I thank Leo for it. At the same time I realize it could be a state rather than a stage, like Leo talked about in his Ego Backlash video. But it's all good. That's kind of my new attitude towards the world "it's all good, it's all one, it is what it is and it's beautiful". Also I finally understand sayings like "Love is all", never quite got that one

@Leo Guraare you sure this is only transitioning into Green? I feel like having a good meditation session, but all the time ? it's like I've been playing a video game I hate and now load the game up years later and am enjoying it like a little kid (or enlightened master) would enjoy it. Social anxiety seems gone, and when it surfaces I enjoy it, love it (weird right). Self compassion is strong with this one. If this is basic stage Green then you undersold it Leo ? I don't feel any of the typical stage Green dogma I was so afraid of before. My understanding of different viewpoints has actually greatly increased.

Years of personal development and 20min daily meditation helped me with many things. Over the past 2 months however I increased my meditation to 1 hour per day (30 min morning and evening), nootropics, cleaner diet and I'm on day 11 of my current nofap streak. I'm also going through a bit of a rough patch atm since I went full time with my business and experience lots of money and personal issues. Becoming aware and growingly frustrated of the way my brain works was a stepping stone also.

Ofcourse it's not the end of the internet. The internet is the way the world communicates and businesses is done, and it's only increasing with poorer regions in the world getting access and the internet of things becoming a reality. Strange how no one here replies sceptically but just assumes we're going back to the 80s if this law gets passed. Seriously? ? It's a bad law though, that's for sure,and it has to be stopped.

What if you're a great visionary with a purpose to help millions of people through business and art, but continue to fail at implementing things and even building something up to provide just basic income?

Are you at the start of an online business? I own a Shopify e-learning platform that I'm still at the very start with. Though we've already had some customers, I'm now working hard to implement systems to bring customers in. I would love to connect with a few other online entrepreneurs. Maybe we can discuss the struggles we face with marketing, productivity, scaling, big picture thinking and help each other out. Perhaps we can meet on Skype once a week but also open a chat group in WhatsApp or Telegram or something. I'm thinking 3 or 4 people max to keep it simple? I'm in the Netherlands, which is 6 hours ahead of EST time.

LOL it sure doesn't, only cuddly ones like bunnies, dogs and horses. Probably some projection rather than real affection? Just like people feel good about themselves when they give to charity, and that's the reason they give. Spwawns the question whether or not true selflessness exists... But I think it's good for me to open up to caring for animals and being more in touch with my emotions as I transition into Green.

To help raise millions of people's consciousness by starting businesses that bring to market things like nootropics, neurofeedback amongst other things. To inspire people through my charisma, comedy and vision. I wanna have a comedy TV show or online show. I wanna become a known personality. The comedy thing and strong charisma has been in me since childhood. The business thing came later but I get so damn passionate about the idea of helping many people and I love big vision so much. What I keep failing at is implementing and practical short-term thinking. My finances, basic marketing etc. I also keep having ethical issues with marketing and stuff. Currently I own a personal development type business that's not doing so well cause I can't seem to stick to one formula. I used to freelance and don't mind doing that as well but even there I've never developed a system or funnel because I always thought much bigger success was right around the corner.

I think I do though. Maybe my brain is not made for this planet or something? I do have Aspereger's syndrome.

How come every time someone posts about productivity there will be a response saying life is just a dream and why run so hard in the rat race But when it's climate change, now it actually matters and it's not just a dream anymore?

This has got to be the most useless, unproductive bridge-stage in the entire spiral. Why can't green people have a spiritual gathering or event without being all weird, and weirding all the normal people out? I mean I've been to some decent things like yoga with normal people but more often than not there's too much weirdness for comfort! And the hypocrisy with most green people is staggering! My housemate always turns the heat low because of the environment so I'm freezing, then he flies to Peru for some spiritual journey? The carbon footprint of a return airplane ticket has got to be hundreds of times higher than our annual heating bill. Speaking of hypocrisy; why are green people always complaining about the world being messed up, but then the orange ones have got to fix it with actual businesses and economical impact? Is stage green really just an annoying highschool cheerleader, while orange is the football team? Green people are dogmatic, impulsive and ignorant. At least orange has a working structure. In a way I'm excited about transitioning into green, I just can't stand the people. Convince me otherwise.

Like this morning, I completely let go of all attachment and I feel overwhelmed with an emotion of sadness that's turning into a euphoric feeling of bliss. But before it comes up, I ruin it by saying either "oh cool, something is happening" or "omg scary", and then it's gone. This always happens. Wish I could have the bliss. ??

I know Leo talked about this earlier but couldn't find any books about it. Art vs marketing is something many artistic entrepreneurs struggle with. Also ethical business and stuff. Anyone?